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Disclaimer:<\/strong> WHN \u201cShe walks in Beauty\u201d\u00a0\u00a0(Forgive the poor style and grammar).<\/span><\/p>\n December 22, 1863, today.<\/span><\/b><\/p>\n Adam and I have the great responsibility to find the perfect tree for Christmas, kind of\u00a0\u00a0special mission since our young brother is at home with a broken arm.<\/span><\/p>\n I prefer avoid the subject of a Joe in a bad mood.<\/span><\/p>\n Looking at my brother Adam in this special day\u00a0\u00a0brings to my memory an event,\u00a0\u00a0when I thought that our relationship was broken forever.<\/span><\/p>\n Four month ago, August 1863:<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n I felt like a wagon with\u00a0a broken wheel.<\/b><\/span><\/i><\/p>\n Yeah, I know what you are thinking \u201cfunny way to describe a feeling\u201d, but I\u2019m not like my big brother. Yep, this brother, the handsome one, the smart one, the educated one\u00a0\u00a0who knows about poetry, and literature, and who speaks so well. This brother who has kissed my Lady.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n The brilliant Adam Cartwright has broken everything, my heart, my hope\u2026 me. I almost killed him, yeah, me, Hoss the gentle giant, as people like to describe me. I\u2019m not gentle, I am a man, a strong one, and sometimes I feel like a volcano under control.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n Now I am there, alone, trying to find again the peace. My eyes looking at the beautiful and peaceful Lake. The little waves, dancing with the wind, are so joyful, and shine like tiny little stars.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n I can hear the birds, singing, maybe building their nest for their future family.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n I will never have a family of my own, because of you Adam\u2026.Adam I hate you with all my heart\u2026.Adam I have hated you with all my heart, I\u2026I wanted to kill you,\u00a0\u00a0my brother, my best friend.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n I am so sorry, so sorry.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n -\u201cHoss\u2026\u2026.\u201d<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n -\u201chow dare you to come here ?\u201d<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n -\u201cI\u2026..I\u2026.I am so sorry. Please, just listen to me. No\u2026please\u2026just listen. I was wrong. I have been awkward, I made the bad choice . I spoke to her, and I should have talk to you first . You\u2019re a man, not a boy, and sometimes I forgot it. Sometimes I feel like you are still the baby I had to protect from the bad. I am just a stupid guy. Who\u00a0\u00a0am I to tell you that a woman isn\u2019t good for you ?\u00a0\u00a0I am unable to keep a woman, unable to make the good choice for myself. I acted like a selfish guy.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n Hoss you\u2019re more than my brother, you know that.\u00a0\u00a0You are my best friend. I feel like a wagon with a broken wheel since our fight. I\u2026..\u201d<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n -\u201cYou WHAT ?\u201d<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n -\u201c excuse me ?\u201d<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n I burst out laughing, and seeing the stupid expression on my brother\u2019s face I laughed again and again, my ribs ached, and the tears on my face weren\u2019t tears of sorrow, or maybe a bit. And Adam\u2019s face was worth the journey.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n And we laughed together during a few minutes yet ;\u00a0\u00a0then we have\u00a0\u00a0talked, and we are stayed quiet,\u00a0\u00a0him and I,\u00a0\u00a0till the sunset gives to the lake the color of fire.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n Today, December.<\/span><\/b><\/p>\n I was looking at you, holding the axe for the tree you thought the best one for our home. Our home\u2026our family\u2026my brother. In this special day,\u00a0\u00a0I know deeply Adam, that I forgive you with all my heart. I love you Adam. We are a family, the four wheels of a special wagon: unbreakable.<\/span><\/p>\n