{"id":2080,"date":"2009-09-09T16:53:34","date_gmt":"2009-09-09T20:53:34","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/?p=2080"},"modified":"2026-03-07T19:06:59","modified_gmt":"2026-03-08T00:06:59","slug":"forgive-me-my-love","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/?p=2080","title":{"rendered":"Forgive Me My Love (by JoanS)"},"content":{"rendered":"

Summary: \u00a0<\/span>A girl tries to rekindle her romance with Joe<\/p>\n

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Forgive Me My Love<\/strong><\/p>\n

Sarah<\/em><\/p>\n

Sarah stood in front of the house in which she\u2019d grown up and thought about how strange how just looking at a house can bring back so many memories. Wonderful memories and bittersweet ones all at the same time \u2026 all mixed up together. She gave a sad smile as she remembered all the happy times she\u2019d had with her parents and brothers in those years when she\u2019d been a small girl and how she\u2019d missed both Tom and Albert when they moved away. Still, that\u2019s what she got for being the youngest … the much longed-for and treasured girl after two sons.<\/p>\n

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As she opened the gate and walked up the small path that led to the front door she wondered for a moment if that was why she and Joe had always got on so well? He too was the youngest in his family \u2026 and the apple of his father\u2019s eye. She remembered how they had played together as children at school and later had formed a deeper attachment to each other as young adults. She couldn\u2019t really understand it in one way, for she\u2019d never been a real beauty and Joe was known to have an eye for such things … but they were comfortable in each other\u2019s company and suited each other well. Friendship had grown to admiration and then to a deeper first love that had blossomed as time went on.<\/p>\n

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Sarah hesitated as she got to the front door and reached out to touch the swing on the porch, setting it rocking back and forth slowly. It creaked slightly on its chain and she frowned, realising that without anyone to oil it now, it must have gone rusty. It didn\u2019t take long for a house to fall into disrepair and she thought about how much work she\u2019d have to do to get it habitable again now that she was back. She sat down on the swing and allowed her mind to drift back to that last evening that she and Joe had had together before she\u2019d left on the stage. Both of them had been so sad to think about how long it might be before they\u2019d see each other again, but since her parents had now both gone there was no way that she felt strong enough to stay here by herself and had made the decision to go to Cincinnati and stay with her brother Tom while she worked out what to do.<\/p>\n

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Joe had spoken of marriage that night as the ideal solution. He\u2019d said that if they married then she could come and live on The Ponderosa and they\u2019d be happy, but she hadn\u2019t been sure. She knew that she loved him \u2026 oh God how she loved him! \u2026 but they were both so young and she\u2019d needed time to think. She could tell by the look in his eyes that he had been upset about her decision \u2026 even angry \u2026 and she wondered how he\u2019d react now that she was back again.<\/p>\n

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\u201cDear Joe,\u201d she whispered softly. \u201cI hope you forgive me for going. I had to my darling \u2026 I needed time to sort things out.\u201d\u00a0 She hoped with all her heart that they would be able to pick up the threads of their lives again where they\u2019d left off and her heart raced as she thought about the kisses that she remembered so well. Her skin tingled as she closed her eyes and thought back to the feel of his hand on her cheek, his beautiful green eyes gazing into hers and his soft breath on her neck as he bent his head to kiss her there with soft fluttery kisses. \u201cOh my darling,\u201d she breathed softly. \u201cOh Joe. I\u2019ve come back to you my love. I hope you can forgive me for leaving you before.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Adam put the last of the sacks in the back of the buckboards and grinned at Joe. \u201cWell what do you say to a cold beer before we go home?\u201d he said.<\/p>\n

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Joe shook his head. \u201cNo thanks Adam,\u201d he said listlessly as he pushed the sacks into position. \u201cYou go ahead though. I can wait.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Adam gave his brother a frustrated look. \u201cJoe come on,\u201d he said. \u201cIt\u2019s not like you to knock back a drink. You can\u2019t go on like this forever you know.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Joe shrugged. \u201cI just don\u2019t feel like a beer,\u201d he said. \u201cAin\u2019t no law against that, is there?\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u201cNo .. but it\u2019s not just the beer,\u201d replied Adam. \u201cYou\u2019ve been burying yourself in your work these past few weeks and that\u2019s not like you.\u201d\u00a0 He gave his brother a cheeky grin, but received nothing in return. \u201cCome on,\u201d he urged. Touching Joe on the arm. \u201cCome and have a beer.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Joe shook off his brother\u2019s hand on his sleeve impatiently. \u201cI said no,\u201d he replied shortly.<\/p>\n

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Adam sighed. \u201cAlright,\u201d he said. \u201cHave it your way then. \u201cBut I\u2019m going to have one. If you change your mind, then come and join me.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Joe nodded and sat down on the edge of the buckboard as he watched his brother cross the street. He knew that he was being difficult to live with at the moment \u2026. they all told him that he was \u2026 but he just couldn\u2019t seem to help it. He didn\u2019t feel like doing anything since Sarah had gone and \u2026 he stopped his thoughts from going in that direction, for it hurt too much to even think about it. She had gone and that was all there was to it. He knew that he had to pick his life up and start again, but he was finding it just so hard.<\/p>\n

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Everywhere he went he saw her face and heard her voice. Life was just so empty without her and he couldn\u2019t seem to shake himself out of this lethargy and start living again. He sighed as he got up and ambled down the street, knowing exactly where his feet would be taking him without thinking about it. He\u2019d been drawn back to her house so many times before \u2026 it seemed to help him to connect with her memory just by looking at it.<\/p>\n

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As he walked, he felt the burning rage inside him that was always there just below the surface threatening to boil over. It was something that he couldn\u2019t seem to control. It was so unfair! Why did she have leave? He couldn\u2019t see the sense in it at all. She should have stayed and loved him instead of traipsing off to live with her brother, for if she had then by now they would have been married and everything would have been fine. Instead, she\u2019d made the choice to go. His heart hardened against her, even as he longed for her and he hung his head and clenched his fists as he thought about his lost love that now would be no more.<\/p>\n

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He stopped on the sidewalk and leant against a pole as he gazed at the small white house across the street. The swing on the front porch was swinging slightly in the breeze and he stared at it as he remembered the good times they\u2019d had sitting there and the kisses they\u2019d shared. His eyes narrowed. \u201cShe didn\u2019t really mean it,\u201d he muttered to himself. \u201cShe didn\u2019t really mean it when she said she loved me. If she had, then she wouldn\u2019t have gone away.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Sarah<\/em><\/p>\n

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Sarah looked around the room in dismay. So much to do! The dust seemed to be an inch thick on the covered furniture and the curtains needed a good dusting as well. She fingered them gingerly. The floor was \u2026. Her heart beat faster as she looked out of the window and saw a lone figure leaning against a post on the other side of the street staring at the house. Joe! \u201cMy darling,\u201d she murmured. \u201cOh Joe!\u201d\u00a0 She ran to the front door and opened it. As she emerged from the house she felt a slight breeze rock the porch swing slowly and it began to creak again. She stood in silence, drinking in the very look of him \u2026 his slim hips, his muscular shoulders, his hat tipped back on his head to reveal those gorgeous curls that she loved so well. \u201cJoe,\u201d she breathed and held up her hand to wave in greeting.<\/p>\n

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Joe didn\u2019t respond but simply stared at the swing, his eyes lost in thought and his lips narrow. She knew that look well. He wasn\u2019t happy and she knew immediately that he was probably thinking about her and how she had left him. Sarah\u2019s heart lurched. \u201cJoe!\u201d she called. \u201cJoe!\u201d\u00a0 She began to run down the path and opened the gate just as his brother Adam come up beside Joe and said something to him. Sarah saw Joe nod and \u2026 with a last sorrowful glance in her direction \u2026 follow his brother down the street. \u201cJoe!\u2019 she called after him, but he didn\u2019t acknowledge that he\u2019d even heard her.<\/p>\n

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Joe<\/em><\/p>\n

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Adam glanced at his younger brother, sitting in silence beside him on the buckboard. It was so unlike Joe to be so quiet, but it was typical of how he\u2019d been acting these past few weeks. \u201cSo,\u201d he said, trying to sound jovial. \u201cYou looking forward to the dance tomorrow night?\u201d<\/p>\n

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Joe shrugged listlessly and picked with his finger at the wooden seat. \u201cI guess,\u201d he replied.<\/p>\n

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Adam tried again. \u201cDid Hoss tell you that he finally summoned up the courage to ask Bessie Sue?\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u201cThat means that you and I will have to ride in \u2026 I suppose he\u2019ll be wanting the buggy.\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u201cI guess.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Adam shot his brother another look. \u201cShould be a good night,\u201d he tried again.<\/p>\n

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\u201cI suppose so,\u201d sighed Joe. \u201cTo tell you the truth though, I don\u2019t know that I\u2019ll go.\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u201cIt\u2019ll do you good to get out socially,\u201d advised Adam.<\/p>\n

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Joe shook his head. \u201cI just don\u2019t feel like it,\u201d he said listlessly.<\/p>\n

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\u201cJoe you\u2019ve got to stop this,\u201d said Adam. \u201cSarah \u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u201cDon\u2019t talk about her!\u2019 interrupted his brother. \u201cI don\u2019t want to talk about it!\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u201cAlright,\u201d said Adam. \u201cBut you should forgive her for going you know. It might be good for you to get out more and meeting people.\u201d He smiled at his younger brother. \u201cNever thought I\u2019d be saying that to you.\u201d There was no response from Joe so Adam patted him on the shoulder. \u201cJust say you\u2019ll think about coming,\u201d he said. \u201cNo pressure.\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u201cOK,\u201d said Joe. \u201cI\u2019ll think about it.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Sarah took one of her dresses out of the cupboard and held it up in front of her, swaying slightly from side to side as she smiled at her reflection in the mirror. \u201cI\u2019ll show you Joe Cartwright,\u201d she whispered, simpering at her reflection. \u201cI\u2019ll be so beautiful at that dance that you won\u2019t be able to ignore me \u2026. No matter how upset you are with me.\u201d\u00a0 She patted her hair. \u201cI think I\u2019ll do it up in ringlets,\u201d she murmured. \u201cJoe loves it so like that.\u201d<\/p>\n

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She put the dress down on the bed and began to fiddle with her hair, wondering if she had made the right decision about not going out to The Ponderosa to see Joe. Perhaps it would have been to see him without a crowd of people around them as there would be at the dance, but after yesterday when he had seemed to ignore her, she just wasn\u2019t quite sure how he would react when she confronted him. There was a certain degree of safety in seeing him at the dance, as he couldn\u2019t possibly cause a scene there.<\/p>\n

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It was obvious to her after yesterday that Joe was still upset. He hadn\u2019t wanted her to go in the first place and hadn\u2019t even seen her off that morning when she\u2019d left on the stage. If only he would give her the chance now to explain \u2026 to tell him how she\u2019d felt and why she\u2019d had to go the way she had. She\u2019d missed him so much and now that she was back, she ached for his touch. \u201cOh my darling Joe,\u201d she said, putting her hand on her reflection in the mirror. \u201cPlease give me the chance to explain. Please let it be how it was before.\u201d\u00a0 She squared her shoulders in a determined fashion and smiled again as she continued to do her hair.<\/p>\n

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\u201cTake a look at Hoss,\u201d said Adam, sidling up to Joe as he stood against the wall watching the dancing and grinning at him. \u201cHe seems to be getting on well with Bessie Sue, don\u2019t you think?\u201d<\/p>\n

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Joe nodded. \u201cYeah,\u201d he said looking at his brother and his date sitting by the front porch eating their supper. \u201cHe\u2019s doing fine.\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u201cHow about you?\u201d asked Adam. \u201cYou having a better time than you thought?\u201d<\/p>\n

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Joe shrugged. \u201cIt\u2019s OK,\u201d he admitted.<\/p>\n

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Joe shrugged again. \u201cI\u2019m just sitting this one out,\u201d he said. Always a popular choice for the ladies, he\u2019d found that he had been in great demand, as for once he didn\u2019t have an official date for the dance. He\u2019d had so many hints from many mothers who\u2019d dragged their daughters up to the handsome Cartwright and begun conversations with him, that he\u2019d felt obliged to keep asking the daughters to dance. He hadn\u2019t sat down once and this was the first time that he\u2019d been able to actually stand back and observe the dancing.\u00a0 \u201cI don\u2019t really feel like dancing much,\u201d he added. \u201cBut I don\u2019t seem to be able to avoid it.\u201d He gave Adam a plaintive look. \u201cCover for me, will you Adam? Here comes Mrs Barnett with her daughter Millie and I couldn\u2019t stand having to dance with her!\u201d\u00a0 He disappeared into the crowd and Adam was left to face the determined woman and her young daughter with a false smile.<\/p>\n

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\u201cWell good evening Mrs Barnett,\u201d he said politely. \u201cMillie \u2026 my you\u2019re looking lovely this evening.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Mrs Barnett scanned the crowd. \u201cI thought I saw your brother Joseph talking to you a moment ago,\u201d she said. \u201cWhere has he gone?\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u201cHe just had to step outside for a while,\u201d said Adam, smiling at the woman. \u201cMillie, would you care to dance?\u201d<\/p>\n

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Mrs Barnett practically pushed her daughter into his arms. \u201cI\u2019m sure Millie would,\u201d she said, thinking that one eligible Cartwright was just as good as another. \u201cNow you two have a lovely time.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Adam kept his smile plastered on his face as he led the girl onto the dance floor, thinking how much his younger brother owed him right about now.<\/p>\n

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Joe made it as far as the front porch and breathed a sigh of relief as he stood staring out into the dark street beyond. He had never felt like this before at a dance, but it was true that his heart just wasn\u2019t in it. If only Sarah \u2026. He pushed the thought aside again. \u201cAdam\u2019s right,\u201d he said softly to no one in particular. \u201cI\u2019ve got to forget about you Sarah.\u201d He turned away and went into the dance again.<\/p>\n

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Sarah had spent the entire dance waiting for Joe to notice her. She had never really enjoyed these functions as she was a naturally shy person, but since going out with Joe had learnt that she could have fun at them. He was that sort of person \u2026 always on the lookout for a good time and dragging everyone along with him. As she\u2019d entered the room, her heart had nearly stopped at the sight of him \u2026. his gorgeous slim body as he danced with Amanda Patterson on the dance floor. She\u2019d forgotten just how handsome he was and now \u2026 dressed in his best blue suit with his curly hair all slicked down \u2026. he looked as gorgeous as she\u2019d ever remembered.<\/p>\n

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A sharp stab of jealousy went through her at the sight of him dancing with someone else and she\u2019d edged her way towards him. As soon as the music had finished, she started to make her approach wondering just how he would react to her being there, but before she could even get to him he was back on the dance floor again with Amelia Soames.<\/p>\n

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That seemed to be the pattern throughout the whole night so far. He was certainly popular, but then she\u2019d already known that. Many times she had sensed the jealous eyes of the other girls on her when she\u2019d been with Joe, wondering no doubt why he had chosen to escort her and not themselves. She figured that since she hadn\u2019t been around they would make a beeline for him \u2026 and it seemed that she was right. He didn\u2019t sit down for one single dance and it was as much as she could do to get near him at all. Let alone make sure that he saw her.<\/p>\n

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No one spoke to her, but then she hadn\u2019t expected them to. She\u2019d never been the confident type at these functions, preferring Joe to take the initiative in conversations. She\u2019d nodded a couple of times to others, but not actually spoken to anyone \u2026. all her mind focussed on Joe and how he might react to her when they did finally talk.<\/p>\n

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It wasn\u2019t until about halfway through the evening that she saw her chance to speak to him. For some reason she noticed that he ducked away suddenly while speaking to his brother Adam and headed for the door. Quickly, she stood up and followed him, her heart fluttering wildly now that the moment had approached.<\/p>\n

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He heart went out to him as she saw him leaning on a post on the porch outside. He looked so sad and she ached to be able to make him smile again. He had such a beautiful smile. She took a step forward on the porch and opened her mouth to speak, but at that moment she heard Joe speak softly. \u201cAdam\u2019s right, I\u2019ve got to forget about you Sarah.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Sarah stepped back into the shadows, her hand on her chest and her eyes swimming with tears as she watched him walk back into the room. \u201cOh Joe!\u201d she murmured softly. \u201cOh my darling Joe \u2026 how could you say that? How could you think that you need to forget about me? I know I hurt you my love \u2026 but please \u2026 please don\u2019t forget about me!\u201d\u00a0 With a strangled cry, she ran down the stairs and up the street.<\/p>\n

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Joe turned to see his father standing behind him. \u201cHi Pa,\u201d he said and then turned to lean on the fence again and watch the horses in the corral. \u201cAdam\u2019s doing well with that chestnut.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Ben looked over to where his eldest son was putting the horse through his paces. \u201cYes he is,\u201d he said. He leant on the corral fence next to Joe and put his hand on top of that of his son\u2019s. \u201cHow are you doing?\u201d he asked.<\/p>\n

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\u201cOK,\u201d said Joe, not taking his eyes off his brother and the horse.<\/p>\n

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Joe shrugged. \u201cWell \u2026\u201d he said, \u201csorta.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Ben smiled. \u201cI know what it\u2019s like to lose someone you love son,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n

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Joe nodded. \u201cI know you do,\u201d he acknowledged. There was silence for a few minutes. \u201cI just feel empty inside,\u201d he said quietly.<\/p>\n

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\u201cI know that I shouldn\u2019t \u2026\u201d continued Joe. \u201cBut I also feel angry with Sarah for going away. That doesn\u2019t make sense I suppose, does it?\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u201cI think it does,\u201d said Ben. \u201cWhen this sort of thing happens we\u2019re not always rational Joe. I remember being very angry when your mother died.\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u201cYou did?\u201d said Joe.<\/p>\n

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\u201cYes I did and I didn\u2019t even why at the time. Sarah going away made you feel lost without her and that has made you angry.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Joe nodded. \u201cI do feel lost,\u201d he admitted. \u201cI just \u2026 I just wish that I\u2019d swallowed my pride and said goodbye to her when she left. I was so angry with her.\u201d\u00a0 He shook his head. \u201cI still am.\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u201cYou have to let it go son,\u201d said Ben. \u201cYour anger and your hurt is eating you up and it\u2019s not helping anyone. Let it go.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Joe nodded and smiled at his father. \u201cI\u2019m trying Pa,\u201d he said. \u201cI\u2019m really trying.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Sarah felt that there was no help for it \u2026. She had to know one way or the other if Joe was willing to have her back again. Judging by his reaction \u2026 or rather lack of it \u2026 outside her house that day and also at the dance, she really doubted it. He hadn\u2019t seemed the least bit pleased to see her \u2026 but she had to hope that once they talked, he\u2019d see it differently. She had to try and make him understand how she had felt about him \u2026. how she still felt about him.<\/p>\n

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As she sat on the front porch swing she made up her mind that she would need to do it today \u2026 she couldn\u2019t wait any longer. It was now or never, for she had to know how he truly felt about her. If Joe \u2026. Sarah gave a start as she recognised a familiar figure in a green corduroy jacket pass on the other side of the street, walking slowly with his head bent and his hands in his pockets. \u201cJoe!\u201d she breathed, wondering what on earth he would be doing in town once again. Her heart leapt as she considered if he\u2019d finally come to talk to her about how things stood between them.<\/p>\n

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Slowly she got up from the swing and walked down the short path, following him to the outskirts of town. Poor love!\u00a0 Her heart went out to him as she observed his hunched shoulders and his whole demeanour. He looked so sad. She hurried to catch up with him, practically running in her haste to overcome him and confront him.<\/p>\n

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Suddenly she stopped as she realised that Joe was walking across the meadow at the end of the street towards the small stream that flowed there. It was a spot where they\u2019d spent many a happy afternoon and she\u2019d always seen it as their special place. Darling Joe \u2026. he hadn\u2019t forgotten. Perhaps he was going there in the hopes of seeing her?<\/p>\n

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Sarah\u2019s heart lifted as she followed him across the meadow and walked up behind him. \u201cJoe?\u201d she said softly. Joe said nothing, but merely stared out across the water. Sarah sat down next to him and he gave a sigh. \u201cI\u2019m sorry Sarah,\u201d he said softly, still staring straight ahead. \u201cI should have come and seen you off that day, but I just couldn\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u201cIt\u2019s alright Joe,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n

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Joe put his head down on his knees and closed his eyes. \u201cI wish I\u2019d had the chance to say goodbye,\u201d he murmured. \u201cWhy did you ever have to get on that stagecoach?\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u201cIt doesn\u2019t matter now my darling,\u201d said Sarah. \u201cI\u2019ve come back and it doesn\u2019t matter any more.\u201d\u00a0 She reached out and stroked him on the cheek and he lifted his head, cocking it to one side as if considering something. She brushed his cheek again and he smiled. \u201cI love you Joe,\u201d Sarah said.<\/p>\n

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Joe sighed and stood up. He looked across the stream for a few minutes and then walked a few steps away and stood looking at a small stone on the ground. \u201cI love you Sarah,\u201d he murmured softly.<\/p>\n

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Sarah stood up and walked over to stand beside him. \u201cDarling Joe,\u201d she said, touching his arm. \u201cPlease forgive me my darling.\u201d\u00a0 Joe said nothing. \u201cJoe?\u201d she tried again. \u201cPlease say that you forgive me for going.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Joe hung his head. \u201cGoodbye my love,\u201d he said softly and walked away.<\/p>\n

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Sarah stared grief-stricken after him. \u201cJoe!\u201d she called desperately. \u201cJoe! Come back!\u00a0 I love you Joe! Don\u2019t leave me like this!\u201d<\/p>\n

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Joe continued to walk away and didn\u2019t turn around.\u00a0 Sarah began to sob and fell to her knees in the long grass. \u201cJoe!\u201d she cried, holding her arms out to him. \u201cDon\u2019t leave me my darling!\u00a0 I\u2019ve come back Joe \u2026 I love you!\u201d\u00a0 She watched as her love continued to walk away, her tears almost blinding her as she fell on the stone at her feet.\u00a0 She looked down and gasped as she looked at the stone and read the words that were etched into it:<\/p>\n

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Sarah Allinson<\/strong>
\n1837 \u2013 1858<\/p>\n

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Suddenly the memories came back with a rush. The sudden lurching of the stagecoach as it rounded the bend. The sickening thud as they hit the edge of the road and began to hurtle down \u2026. down \u2026 ever down \u2026.\u00a0 Sarah bent her head and wept, while across the other side of the meadow a young man in a green corduroy jacket walked slowly away.<\/p>\n

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