Summary:\u00a0 Joe realizes he has to grow up.<\/p>\n
Rating:\u00a0 G\u00a0 (1,250 words)<\/p>\n
The Making of a Man<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Normally, sinking down into a hot tub after a hard days work is something I look forward to. I let the hot, soapy water wash over my body, relaxing me, and carrying away all the aches and strains of the long hours in the saddle. But not today\u2026<\/p>\n Today, the water doesn\u2019t work its customary magic. The calm and tranquillity I long for just isn\u2019t there. The depression that has been dogging me all day refuses to fade away and, with a sigh, I hurry through my bath and step out of the tub. Reaching for a towel I rub vigorously at my wet hair and as I do so I catch a glimpse of my foggy reflection in the steamed up mirror that hangs on the wall.<\/p>\n My reflection, the same face that has looked back at me for years, but today I pause, reach out and rub the mirror clear with the towel and study myself for a moment. Little Joe Cartwright, Little Joe, the youngest of the three Cartwright brothers. The baby of the family, the kid… It\u2019s what I\u2019ve been hearing all my life. That\u2019s how my family have always seen me. But now that\u2019s about to change.<\/p>\n Last night my eldest brother, solid dependable Adam, calmly announced that he was leaving. He wants to see the world, he said, while he\u2019s still relatively young. He doesn\u2019t want to grow old never having experienced other cultures, other countries. I guess I\u2019ve known for a while that Adam\u2019s been unsettled, not happy on the ranch, but it came as a shock all the same.<\/p>\n I don\u2019t know if I looked as stunned as I felt when he told us, I know it took a while before the news sank in. Hoss seemed happy enough, and gave Adam his blessing, and wished him well. Made me wonder if maybe they\u2019d talked it over before Adam said anything. My father, well, he shook Adam\u2019s hand and said that he\u2019d miss him, and that he understood why he wanted to go. Pa\u2019s voice was real quiet though and, when Adam turned away to speak to Hoss, he looked so sad.<\/p>\n Didn\u2019t sleep last night, thinking things over. Came to the conclusion that though I\u2019m going to miss my brother, and I really don\u2019t want him to go, it would be selfish to try and get him to stay. He has his heart set on this. It\u2019s going to be hardest on Pa. Adam\u2019s always been his right hand man, helping him run the ranch. Almost as long as I can remember Adam has helped with the books, helped make all the decisions. Now he won\u2019t be there.<\/p>\n And that\u2019s what I\u2019ve been fretting about all day. It\u2019s not just Adam leaving that\u2019s going to be different around here. I\u2019m going to have to be different. Pa\u2019s going to need someone he can turn to, someone that can help him with the things that Adam used to do, and that someone is going to be me. I know Hoss is older, and I guess it should fall to him, but Hoss isn\u2019t good with books and figures, doesn\u2019t like dealing with bankers and lawyers. He\u2019s happiest out on the range, or working with the animals, and that\u2019s what he\u2019s best at. No, it will be down to me to me to help Pa with the business side of things. Question is, can I do it?<\/p>\n With a shrug, I finish towelling my hair dry and start to get dressed. The time for worrying about all that is later. Right now I need to make the most of these last days with my eldest brother. Store up some good memories for the time he\u2019s gone. A flicker of pain clenches my gut at the thought. I just can\u2019t imagine the Ponderosa without Adam. I\u2019m sure gonna miss him.<\/p>\n Twelve Months Later<\/p>\n The hotel bed looks comfortable and I yawn wearily as I sit down on counterpane and bend to pull off my boots. Tomorrow night I\u2019ll be home, I\u2019m looking forward to that, and to seeing Pa\u2019s face when I show him the contract I negotiated in San Francisco. As I stand up, pull off my shirt and turn down the covers I find myself reflecting on life at the Ponderosa since Adam left.<\/p>\n Hard though it is to believe, a whole year has passed and things on the ranch have changed. Nowadays I see a new respect in the men I work with. A new respect from my father and from Hoss. No more the kid brother, always goofing around and having to be supervised, but a man to be trusted, a responsible man.<\/p>\n It was hard at first, there\u2019s no denying. We all missed Adam sorely, most especially Pa. For a long while he hardly smiled and often seemed lost in thought and far away. Only time he seemed happy was when a letter came, and he knew that Adam was still alive and well.<\/p>\n The hardest thing for Hoss and I, as well as missing Adam, was taking over his workload and dividing it between us. At least Hoss already had the respect of the men. They all liked him and were prepared to work hard for him. First time I showed up as boss man there were more than a few remarks from the older hands about a \u2018boy doing a man\u2019s job\u2019. For a while I thought I might have to prove myself like Adam did one time, and take them all on until they acknowledged me as \u2018bull of the woods\u2019. Didn\u2019t come to that, thankfully, once they saw I was working just as hard as they were, that I pulled my weight and more, their attitude changed.<\/p>\n And boy, was it hard work. Not just the physical stuff, I was used to that, but also the brain work. I\u2019d seen Adam and Pa poring over the books all my life but I\u2019d never had to worry about them myself until Adam wasn\u2019t there any more.<\/p>\n Thought I\u2019d never get the hang of all those figures, but I did, and as for negotiating contracts and dealing with businessmen, well I found I actually enjoyed that. Had a bit of a talent for it, truth be told. Bet Adam would have been surprised to see how I took to that side of the business, and the good deals I\u2019ve struck. I know Pa was a little amazed, and a lot proud, he told me so.<\/p>\n So, when I look in a mirror now I still see the same reflection, but I see a new maturity too. I\u2019ve changed. I\u2019ve grown-up and I kinda like the new me. Kinda like being thought of as mature and responsible, instead of just the hot-headed kid brother.<\/p>\n Sometimes I think about what would happen if Adam came home. If he wanted to take back his place as Pa\u2019s right-hand man. Be the boss again. Would I go back to being that irresponsible kid he thought I was? To be honest, though I\u2019d welcome my brother home with open arms, I don\u2019t want to give up what I\u2019ve gained this past year. No, I\u2019ve changed for good and if Adam does return, he\u2019ll have to accept that and take his place as just one of the Cartwright bosses. One of the Cartwright men.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Kathleen Pitts, February 2005.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Summary:\u00a0 Joe realizes he has to grow up.<\/p>\n Rating:\u00a0 G\u00a0 (1,250 words)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":51,"featured_media":12958,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"template-full-width-post.php","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_members_access_role":[],"_members_access_error":""},"categories":[23],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-29106","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-drama","wpcat-23-id"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/05\/Adam-and-Joe-Desert-Justice-2.bmp","jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/29106","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/51"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=29106"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/29106\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/12958"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=29106"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=29106"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=29106"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}