{"id":366,"date":"2007-04-10T16:41:10","date_gmt":"2007-04-10T20:41:10","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/?p=366"},"modified":"2026-07-22T13:27:04","modified_gmt":"2026-07-22T17:27:04","slug":"which-world-survives","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/?p=366","title":{"rendered":"Which World Survives? (by Donna)"},"content":{"rendered":"

Which World Survives?\u00a0<\/strong><\/span> Joe’s life as he knows it has changed ~ and when he finds himself living in the world he knows along with the life of his past, which wins?<\/p>\n

Rated K+ \u00a0(19,725 words)<\/p>\n

Suitable for more mature children, 9 years and older, with minor action violence without serious injury. May contain mild coarse language.<\/p>\n

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Which World Survives<\/strong><\/p>\n

Chapter 1<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

The sun rose slowly over the distant mountains. Shades of pink adorned the sky as light started to come upon the mountainous landscape.<\/p>\n

The young man rolled over as he sensed the new day beginning. Sighing deeply, he started to think about the day ahead of him. A hand found its way into his wavy brown hair, pushing it away from his face. His eyes opened as he felt soft lips touch his own.<\/p>\n

\u201cGood morning, my husband,\u201d said the dark haired beauty staring down at him. He looked up and smiled. \u201cGood morning to you, my beautiful squaw,\u201d he replied, taking her into his arms as they started to welcome the new day together.<\/p>\n

A small cry interrupted the beginning of their passion, and he lifted his head and looked over at the small bundle next to them. \u201cI think someone\u2019s hungry,\u201d he chuckled, picking up his daughter and placing her into his wife\u2019s awaiting arms.<\/p>\n

Joe Cartwright smiled, content with his life and all that came with it.<\/p>\n

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Just how Joe became a member of this Indian tribe escaped his thoughts. He knew that he was different, a white man in a red man\u2019s world. But though he didn\u2019t question and just accepted it, how he arrived there was still a mystery to him.<\/em><\/p>\n

In his dreams, he remembered growing up in a big wooden house with a white haired man, who he thought must have been his father. There were two others in these dreams \u2013 a big, burly man, with intense blue eyes that let you look deep into his soul. The other was tall in stature, dark haired, and with a warm smile. Joe knew they meant something to him \u2013 but just what, he couldn\u2019t say. All Joe knew for sure was there was a day long ago when he woke up in a teepee with every inch of his body in pain, and saw a beautiful woman applying a sweet smelling salve onto his wounds, her long black hair surrounding her face, and illuminated by the fire burning next to her.<\/em><\/p>\n

In perfect English, she told him, \u201cDo not move. You have many broken bones, and the medicine man has put them back in place so you can heal properly. Do not fear, for we shall take care of you.\u201d And true to her word, Lomasi and the other members of the Kuyuidika Tribe* nursed Joe back to health.<\/em><\/p>\n

Joe felt nothing but appreciation to these people who took care of him, despite the fact that he was not one of them. As he regained his strength, he shed the clothes and ways of his past and began to help the other men of the tribe with the work on the reservation. He soon found himself being called \u201cNawat,\u201d by the braves, and when he questioned them why, he was told with hilarity it meant left-handed.<\/em><\/p>\n

So in time Nawat found himself falling in love with Lomasi, the daughter of Chief Qualetaga. Her presence in his life was something that he felt he could never live without again. As he told her father, she \u201ccompleted\u201d him. In an elaborate ceremony, the High Priest of the tribe married the couple under a full moon that summer. As they were pronounced husband and wife, Chief Qualetaga proclaimed to the rest of the tribe that \u201cNawat\u201d was now one of<\/em> his sons. This act touched Joe deeply, and proved to him that he was truly accepted as a member of the Kuyuidika Tribe.<\/em><\/p>\n

Nine months later found a nervous Joe pacing outside the teepee he shared with Lomasi, awaiting the birth of their first child. He was relieved when he heard tiny cries emanating from inside. The smiling midwife emerged, handing him a squealing bundle. Joe looked down to see the face of his newborn daughter, with dark curly hair and piercing<\/em>\u00a0emerald eyes. He and Lomasi named her Tehyn, \u201cprecious child.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

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With their daughter now fed, Joe and Lomasi left the privacy of their teepee to join the rest of the tribe. The men gathered around the fire as the women worked together to prepare breakfast.<\/p>\n

Chief Qualetaga left his teepee and joined the braves by the fire. \u201cWe have much trouble ahead,\u201d Qualetaga told them. \u201cWhite men take our brothers\u2019 land to the south. We are next in their path of destruction. We must get ready to fight our white enemy.\u201d All of the braves nodded their heads in earnest agreement.<\/p>\n

Joe walked back with Qualetaga to his teepee. With a nod of his head, the Chief invited Joe inside. Both sat down to discuss the matters at hand.<\/p>\n

\u201cDo we know just who these men are, Father?\u201d Joe asked. Qualetaga looked at his adopted son with loving eyes as he answered. \u201cNawat, they are men of the white man\u2019s government. They ask no questions, they just destroy. Good braves have been killed, their women raped and murdered. All in the name of destroying the Kuyuidika from inhabiting the land.\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe shook his head incredulously. Even with his new life, Joe\u2019s old ways sometimes surfaced. \u201cFather, perhaps we, or maybe I, can talk to these men. Being a white man in body, perhaps they would listen to me. I could convince them that we bring no harm to them, and that we would move from this land peacefully if lives could be spared.\u201d<\/p>\n

Qualetaga looked at Joe with pride as he replied. \u201cNawat, you speak with logic and compassion for all. But you must remember that despite your heritage, you have now adopted the ways of the Paiute. You will never be forgiven for abandoning your birthright as a white man. In fact, many would wish to see you die for what they see as your treachery.\u201d There was sadness in Joe\u2019s eyes as he realized the truth in Qualetaga\u2019s words. \u201cThen we prepare for battle, Father,\u201d Joe said as he stood to leave the teepee.<\/p>\n

However, despite his strong words, deep down Joe wished that he and his tribe could be spared from the oncoming skirmish as days went by quickly and preparations were made. The women looked about anxiously as they watched their children play, seeking any unusual movements. The braves took watch around the reservation, listening for sounds of the approaching troops.<\/p>\n

Sleep was a precious commodity among the adults of the tribe, as all worked together to keep each other safe. Joe, Lomasi and Tehyn were in their teepee one evening when Joe stood up abruptly. \u201cNawat, what is wrong?\u201d cried Lomasi, not used to her husband\u2019s sudden movement.<\/p>\n

\u201cLomasi, where are the items that were with me when I was found so long ago?\u201d Joe asked. Lomasi nodded her head and went to a woven basket in their home. Lifting the lid, she dug deeply inside it until she pulled out two items: a green jacket and a gun belt that held a pearl handled gun.<\/p>\n

\u201cAre these the items you seek, Nawat? What use could you have for them?\u201d Lomasi asked her husband. Joe took the gun belt and revolver from his wife\u2019s hands. Removing the gun from the holster, Joe felt its heaviness in his hand. He twirled it, and then instinctively opened the barrel to see how many bullets were left inside. Lomasi watched in silence as her husband seemed to go through a ritual that was somehow comforting to him, yet strangely upsetting to her.<\/p>\n

\u201cI will use this to protect us, Lomasi,\u201d Joe said as he placed the gun back into its holder. Lomasi shook her head in disagreement. \u201cWhite men use guns, Nawat, we use other things.\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe answered her calmly. \u201cMy beloved, do not forget from where I came. I know how to use a gun. Bows and arrows will not protect us from the bullets of the enemy. I do not want to lose my family, and will do anything to protect us from harm.\u201d<\/p>\n

Lomasi knew when her husband could not be swayed and remained silent as Joe once again removed the gun from its holster and headed outside.<\/p>\n

It was a cloudy day when the raid finally came. The braves knew that the intruders were not far, and had embedded themselves along the crags of the mountains above their reservation, the women and children hidden in the many caves that existed in the mountains.<\/p>\n

The sound of hoof beats echoed in the canyon, getting louder with every clap. The Indians looked around to see just where the enemy would enter their camp. However, it was what they didn\u2019t expect that destroyed them.<\/p>\n

With a mighty boom, the mountains around them shook and rattled. Chunks of rock began to descend from the high peaks above the braves poised for battle. One by one, the rocks hit the defenders, sending them spiraling downward to the earth below. Joe watched in horror as his friends sailed past, screaming in fear. Shaking himself from the shock, Joe began to run down the mountain to avoid certain death.<\/p>\n

As he reached the ground, he saw many of his comrades dead on the ground, their faces frozen in fear. Joe realized the troops must\u2019ve known the tribe would use the mountain as their main line of defense, and so it would be the best way to destroy them as well. Setting off explosives at the top of the mountain, sending down pieces of rock at a remarkable rate of speed meant certain death for most.<\/p>\n

Joe ran through the labyrinth of dead bodies and headed towards the cave that housed his family. He heard the troops begin to infiltrate the reservation, and smelled the acrid smoke as fires were set to their homes. Joe finally found where he had left his family hours before. The opening was covered with debris, and he immediately began to move every rock that was between him and what mattered to him the most.<\/p>\n

He was finally able to open a crevice that led into the cave. \u201cLomasi! Lomasi!\u201d he yelled into the opening, as he heard the sounds of a child crying. \u201cNawat, I hear you!\u201d Lomasi cried as she grabbed her husband\u2019s hand lying outstretched into the cave.<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019ll get you out \u2013 hang on!\u201d Joe shouted, as he started to move more rocks from the opening. The sound of the oncoming troops became louder as he painstakingly moved stones both big and small. Lomasi realized that if Joe continued, all three of them would be killed, so, she held back her tears as she came to an agonizing decision.<\/p>\n

\u201cHusband, stop \u2013 stop what you are doing! I hear the enemy approaching; we will all be killed if you stay any longer. You have made the opening big enough \u2026..Here!\u201d Joe watched in horror as he saw Lomasi push out a bundle containing Tehyn. \u201cGo, Nawat, go before we all die. Please save our daughter, for me, please save her.\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe picked up the infant and stuck his head close to the opening. \u201cLomasi, I can\u2019t leave you \u2013 I love you so much\u2026\u201d he choked back sobs as he spoke. Lomasi felt the same pain and looking up into her husband\u2019s eyes she saw more love than most women would ever experience in a lifetime.<\/p>\n

\u201cNawat, I will always love you and will always be with you in your heart. Please, for the sake of our daughter, run. Run away from this horror and take Tehyn where she can live in peace.\u201d<\/p>\n

She extended her hand through the opening and touched Joe\u2019s tear-streaked face. \u201cAlways remember that I love you, Nawat. When you see the red sun in the morning and the silver moon in the evening, remember that I am there with you. You are never alone.\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe kissed her hand, tears streaming down his mud-caked face. He told her, \u201cYou are the bravest woman I have ever met. I have never loved anyone as I have loved you, and never will, my darling. You will be with me always, here in my heart. And you have my promise that our daughter will never forget you.\u201d<\/p>\n

With hoof beats rapidly approaching, Joe kissed his wife\u2019s hand one last time, tearing himself away from his beloved before he picked up their precious bundle and ran for the thick woods in the distance.<\/p>\n

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Joe had no idea just how far he ran before he started to slow down. Night had fallen in the forest, quiet except for the coos and gurgles from the bundle strapped to his heaving chest. Joe knew that it was close to Tehyn\u2019s feeding time, but the pressing problem now was what she was going to eat.<\/p>\n

Taking a quick look around him, Joe knew that he had to find a source of food for his daughter. In the distance, he saw a flickering light, as if from a fire. Quietly, Joe set off to see what it was. As he got closer, he saw a group of cowboys asleep by the glowing flame and tiptoed around the myriad of empty whiskey bottles strewn around the campsite as he foraged for food.<\/p>\n

Away from the flames, he saw a small herd of cows penned in by a rope fence. Joe sneaked into the group, hoping to find some milk for his hungry daughter. Having taken one of the empty bottles from the campsite and washed it out in the creek below them, he put an udder into the bottle and started to pull in hopes of finding success. Joe\u2019s eyes widened as he saw and heard the white gold begin to fill the bottle. Minutes later, he sat in the darkness with glistening eyes, feeding Tehyn until she had her fill. As she slept contentedly in her father\u2019s arms, Joe found his eyes closing and falling into a deep sleep began to dream.<\/p>\n

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The stagecoach was returning to Virginia City and Joe contentedly leaned back, satisfied at the new Army contracts he had just negotiated. He looked forward to going home to the Ponderosa and sharing his successes with his family. Closing his eyes, he thought he could already smell Hop Sing\u2019s roast pork in the late winter air.<\/em><\/p>\n

The way station in Grangerville was bustling with activity when the stagecoach pulled in for the night. A shrill voice started to call Joe\u2019s name before he even took a step out of the dusty coach.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u201cJoe Cartwright! Is there a Joe Cartwright here?\u201d a thin nosed woman shouted.<\/em>
\n Joe went up to the woman and replied, \u201cI am Joe Cartwright \u2013 Is there a problem M\u2019am?\u201d Handing him an envelope, she replied, \u201cDon\u2019t know about that, son \u2013 but this was left here for you this afternoon.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

\u201cThanks,\u201d Joe said as he took the yellow telegraph envelope and went into the office. He sat by the gaslight as he opened the telegram and began to read:<\/em><\/p>\n

TO: Joseph Cartwright \u2013 Ponderosa Ranch, Nevada Territory\/via Grangerville<\/em><\/p>\n

FROM: Roy Coffee, Virginia City<\/em><\/p>\n

JOE:<\/em><\/p>\n

SORRY TO SEND YOU THIS NEWS. BEN, HOSS AND ADAM WERE KILLED TODAY BY JOHN FRANCIS AND HIS SONS IN A SHOOTOUT.<\/em><\/p>\n

THE POSSE HAS CAUGHT ALL INVOLVED AND ARE AWAITING THE ARRIVAL OF THE CIRCUIT JUDGE.<\/em><\/p>\n

PLEASE MAKE YOUR WAY BACK ASAP.<\/em><\/p>\n

AGAIN SORRY TO TELL YOU THIS NEWS<\/em>
\n ROY<\/em><\/p>\n

Joe\u2019s eyes filled with tears \u2013 how could this tragedy happen? How could all his family be felled in a shootout? After all, his two brothers were amongst the fastest draws in the territory! Unable to gather all his thoughts coherently, the only thing on Joe\u2019s mind was the desire to get home \u2013 quickly.<\/em><\/p>\n

At 23, Joe had experienced more heartbreak than most his age. At age 5, he lost his mother Marie, the first woman he adored, in a tragic horse riding accident. His father and brothers helped him to deal with his grief and continue to live despite his loss.<\/em><\/p>\n

More recently, Joe had finally come to terms with the death of his true love, Laura White. Laura had arrived at the Ponderosa for a visit with her father. She and Joe had been childhood friends, with the usual boy\/girl crush at that age. But Laura had realized that she truly loved Joe, and as Joe spent time with her during the visit, he realized his feelings for her in return.<\/em><\/p>\n

The couple decided to marry, with Joe renovating a beautiful little cottage for them to live in. Sadly, their union was not meant to be. Unbeknownst to Laura and Joe, she had been stricken with a terminal illness and was nearing the end of her life. Both fathers told their children the devastating news, and Laura took herself to the cottage so that she could see it for the first and last time. Joe found her there, where she finally succumbed to her illness while in Joe\u2019s loving arms.<\/em><\/p>\n

The youngest Cartwright was a shadow of his outgoing, fun-loving self after this tragedy. Again, it took the love and support of his father and brothers to bring him though what was a trying time in his young life.<\/em><\/p>\n

Wanting to return home as soon as he could, Joe was able to secure a horse to continue his travels, forgoing the stagecoach for the rest of the way. Riding as fast as the wind, Joe wound his way through familiar terrain on his way back to the Ponderosa \u2013 or what was left of it.<\/em><\/p>\n

He blinked back tears as he couldn\u2019t help thinking of his life now without his family. He felt empty at the thought of continuing without them, when all of a sudden, without warning, the chestnut Joe had been riding stumbled in a hole on its path. The horse lurched forward, sending its rider over the cliff beyond. The last thing Joe remembered was spiraling downward, the wind pushing his hair away from his face, finally hitting the ground with an ugly thud.<\/em><\/p>\n

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\nIt was the sound of Tehyn\u2019s cries that woke Joe from his slumber. The dream immediately forgotten, his eyes opened quickly, scouting the land around him for the enemy. Satisfied that all was well Joe took the milk he had procured the night before and began to feed his hungry child once more.<\/p>\n

Joe\u2019s mind was filled with many thoughts. As he sat alone in the woods, he began to focus on all he had lost when he left Lomasi in her sealed tomb. He looked up at the sky above him, remembering his wife\u2019s last words. \u201cHow am I going to live without you?\u201d he asked himself. \u201cWhere will we go? Where can we be safe?\u201d His watery eyes looked down at his daughter, her stomach now satisfied. As she looked back at him with adoring eyes, Joe didn\u2019t know why, but something instinctively told him the direction he needed to travel.<\/p>\n

Day followed day as Joe traveled swiftly, avoiding anything that would impede his goal, and as he got unknowingly closer, he found his sleep restless, with thoughts of his life as a white man rising higher to the surface. His dreams of the three men came often and without warning, and Joe would wake in a cold sweat, clutching Tehyn and rocking her back and forth and finding comfort as she continued to sleep peacefully in his arms.<\/p>\n

On the fifth day Joe reached his destination, intuitively knowing he was where he should be. He stood on a cliff, taking in the beauty of Lake Tahoe before him. Joe held Tehyn tight and told her, \u201cThis is where we will find peace, my precious child. We will be happy here.\u201d As he started to yawn, Joe succumbed to the days of endless travel and worry and he fell asleep under a shady pine tree.<\/p>\n

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Chapter 2<\/strong><\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cLast one home buys the first round at the Silver Dollar!\u201d shouted Hoss, as he started Chubb into a fast gallop.<\/p>\n

\u201cDon\u2019t even try it, brother ~ Sport will beat your nag without breaking a sweat!\u201d replied Adam, as he encouraged his horse to follow suit.<\/p>\n

Both men encouraged their horses to go faster, laughing as they rode past the many landmarks of the Ponderosa at breakneck speed.<\/p>\n

Hoss was a length ahead when he came to an abrupt stop. He raised his hand in silence to his brother, who came up alongside him.<\/p>\n

\u201cWhat is it?\u201d Adam asked quietly.<\/p>\n

\u201cOver there, under the tree \u2013 look, it\u2019s an injun!\u201d Hoss replied.<\/p>\n

Adam looked over to see a slight figure, dressed in deerskin, sleeping upright against the trunk of the big pine. Long, curly hair obstructed the face of the stranger as the two brothers slowly made their way over.<\/p>\n

As they got close, Hoss was the first to make the obvious observation.
\n\u201cAdam, this injun ain\u2019t a real injun \u2013 he\u2019s a white man!\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe heard the whispers and woke up. He remained in the same position so as not to alert the men that surrounded him. He opened his eyes slightly and peeked down at Tehyn, who was still asleep in his arms, bundled in blankets and not immediately visible to the strangers.<\/p>\n

\u201cDo we wake him, Adam? Should we get him off our land?\u201d Hoss asked his older brother quietly.<\/p>\n

Adam pondered the question before he answered. \u201cI don\u2019t know Hoss. From the looks of it, seems this Indian is alone. Maybe we should give him the opportunity to rest while he can.\u201d<\/p>\n

Adam again looked down at the still figure. From the corner of his eye, he noticed something move in the crossed arms and he knelt next to the sleeping man and went to move the blanket when he heard the click of a gun.<\/p>\n

A deep, monotone voice said, \u201cStep away from me or you won\u2019t see the sun set.\u201d<\/p>\n

Both Hoss and Adam were stunned by the perfect English spoken by the stranger. They stepped back in trepidation, not knowing what would happen next.<\/p>\n

The man rose slowly, holding the bundle in his right arm and the cocked gun in his left. He shook his head, sending his hair back and revealing his tanned countenance.<\/p>\n

Hoss and Adam\u2019s faces expressed shock as they looked at the man before them. Adam turned to Hoss, mouthing the words, \u201cOh my God, it\u2019s Joe!\u201d<\/p>\n

Hoss\u2019 blue eyes moistened at the sight of his baby brother. Unable to contain his relief, he stepped towards Joe, stretching out his hand. \u201cLittle brother, I can\u2019t tell you how happy I am to see you\u2026..where the heck have you been all this time?\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe looked at the big man before him. Glimmers of recognition started to enter his mind, but Joe refused to accept them. Shaking his head, Joe told Hoss, \u201cYou are mistaken. I am Nawat, a brave of the Kuyuidika Tribe. I know not of this Joe you speak of.\u201d<\/p>\n

Looking into his brother\u2019s eyes, Adam sensed the strain in Joe\u2019s face as well as his voice. Not wanting to upset him or cause him to flee, he took a different tact in addressing his brother.<\/p>\n

\u201cNawat, I am sorry if my brother here mistook you for another. We do not come to harm you, but want to help you. You look like you have come far and are weary. Come with us to our home, so that you can rest before you travel once more.\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe took in Adam\u2019s words and slowly let his gun fall to his side. Before he could think, he heard himself reply, \u201cI thank you for your hospitality. I will stay at your home until we are ready to travel once more.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWe?\u201d asked a puzzled Hoss. \u201cI don\u2019t see anyone else around here. You sure you ain\u2019t alone?\u201d<\/p>\n

The brothers\u2019 faces froze again as Joe pushed back the blanket from Tehyn\u2019s face, revealing her existence to her unknowing uncles. Speaking softly, Joe told them, \u201cThis is my daughter.\u201d<\/p>\n

Adam found his words caught in his throat. \u201cY-Y-Your daughter you say?\u201d he asked Joe, swallowing hard.<\/p>\n

\u201cYes, this is my daughter Tehyn. She was born to my wife Lomasi on fourth moon of this year.\u201d Joe put the blanket back on his child. \u201cShe is now without her mother, and I need to feed her properly so she does not starve.\u201d<\/p>\n

Hoss looked tenderly at the sight of his brother and child. \u201cJoe, no, sorry, I mean, Nawat~ we have plenty of food back on the Ponderosa. Your little one there will get her fill, I promise ya.\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe found his eyes wincing at the sound of that word \u2013 Ponderosa. He put his gun back in its holster and grabbed the side of his throbbing head. \u201cWhat\u2019s wrong \u2013 are you OK?\u201d asked Hoss, as Joe began to stagger slightly.<\/p>\n

\u201cTired, hungry, that\u2019s all \u2013 we go back now to your house now, OK?\u201d Joe asked, as he held Tehyn tight in his arms. \u201cSure Lit \u2013 Nawat, I mean,\u201d smiled Hoss, as he led Joe to Chubb.<\/p>\n

Hoss watched Joe swing mount onto the big horse with only one arm. His grin widening, Hoss whispering to Adam \u201cLittle brother is home,\u201d as he joined Joe and they started the ride back to the Ponderosa.<\/p>\n

Adam decided to ride ahead in order to prepare his father and Hop Sing for the arrival of Joe. Running into the house, he threw his gun belt and hat on the credenza as he looked for Ben in the Great Room.<\/p>\n

\u201cAdam! What in blazes are you so excited about? For a moment there, you came in here sounding like\u2026\u201d Ben\u2019s voice trailed off, his eyes filling with old memories as he looked into the blazing fire.<\/p>\n

\u201cPa, sit down. You are not going to believe what I am about to tell you,\u201d Adam said, leading his father to the large wing backed chair near the hearth. \u201cWhat could you tell me that would be so unbelievable son?\u201d Ben laughed as he sat down. In a soft, low tone, Adam looked at his father as he told him, \u201cPa, Joe\u2019s alive. And he is here on the Ponderosa.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ben looked at his son incredulously. \u201cAdam! How could you say something like that! You know that your brother\u2026\u201d Adam cut Ben off, interjecting, \u201cPa, I just saw Joe. I just spoke to Joe. He\u2019s not dead Pa. He is as alive as you or I.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ben\u2019s eyes began to fill with tears of happiness. He broke down sobbing at the prospect of his youngest son coming home to him after all this time. Adam put his arms around his father, weeping as well. The sounds of the two men brought Hop Sing into the Great Room. \u201cWhat is wrong? Hop Sing make dinner and hear the two of you yell and cry! Where is Mistah Hoss? Dinner is soon!\u201d<\/p>\n

Ben looked up, wiping the tears from his face. \u201cPut an extra setting at the table tonight, Hop Sing. Little Joe is coming home.\u201d Hop Sing\u2019s eyes opened wide. \u201cMistah Ben, you drink from brandy bottle too much? Little Joe is in heaven, not here.\u201d<\/p>\n

Adam shook his head as he told Hop Sing, \u201cIt\u2019s no mistake. We found him up by the lake. A little thinner, hair a bit longer, but still our Little Joe!\u201d Hop Sing\u2019s face lit up, smiling from ear to ear. \u201cWell what you know? Little Joe alive! Must make special supper for numbah three son.\u201d<\/p>\n

With a jump in the air for joy, Hop Sing ran back to the kitchen, continuing his preparations.<\/p>\n

Adam turned to his father, his face more serious than before. \u201cPa, before Joe gets here, there are a few things you need to know.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI heard you son \u2013 a little thinner, hair a bit wilder, but that\u2019s fine with me. As long as he\u2019s back\u2026\u201d Ben looked up at Adam\u2019s face once more. \u201cSon, what is it?\u201d<\/p>\n

Adam sighed as he began. \u201cPa, he doesn\u2019t realize who he is. It looks like he was taken in by a Paiute tribe, and he has totally assimilated to that way of life, in, umm, every way possible.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ben looked up curiously. \u201cWhat exactly do you mean, Adam?\u201d<\/p>\n

Adam cleared his throat as he told his father, \u201cPa, he\u2019s married to a squaw. And he has a daughter.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ben leaned back in his chair, closing his eyes for a minute to absorb the news. Taking a deep breath, he looked back at his oldest son. \u201cThe most important thing is that Joseph is alive, Adam. We\u2019ll take the rest as it comes,\u201d he added, momentarily taken back to the day he first heard the traumatic news of his youngest son\u2019s probable death.<\/p>\n

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Ben Cartwright was a happy man. All of the dreams he had so long ago had come to fruition. His life as a rancher of the biggest spread in the Nevada Territory was challenging, but fulfilling, not only for himself, but for the three most important things in his life \u2013 his sons.<\/em><\/p>\n

All three of his \u2018boys\u2019 were now grown men with various responsibilities about the ranch. On this day, he awaited the arrival of his youngest, Joseph. He was scheduled to be on the afternoon stage after securing their biggest horse contract with the Army to date. Ben was beyond pleased with his son\u2019s success.<\/em><\/p>\n

As he waited at the stagecoach depot, the door opened at the telegraph office across the street. A sandy-haired teen ran across the street, his eyes fixed on Ben.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u201cMr. Cartwright! There is a telegraph coming in on the wire for you right now \u2013 I think you better come into the office!\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Ben looked at the boy, his brown eyes clouding with concern. \u201cA wire for me?\u201d he asked again. The boy nodded his head in earnest. Sensing the urgency in the boy\u2019s actions, Ben began to head to the office. When he got there, he saw his old friend, Rafe Newcombe, leaning across the telegraph equipment, deciphering the tics and tacs of the machine. When the sounds finally ceased, he looked down at his pad, his eyes glancing at the words one last time to ensure their accuracy. Putting the pencil down, he turned to look at Ben.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u201cBen, I don\u2019t know how to say this but\u2026\u201d Rafe began.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u201cJust tell me, Rafe, Don\u2019t beat around the bush!\u201d Ben snapped, his emotions beginning to get the best of him.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u201cIt\u2019s about Joe, Ben. Here, better read it for yourself,\u201d Rafe said, delicately handing the yellow paper to his old friend.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ben began to read the contents of the telegram.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u201c……Sorry to bring bad news regarding your son, Joseph Cartwright\u2026\u201d<\/em>
\n \u201c\u2026..decided to leave the coach and head for home on horseback\u2026..\u201d<\/em>
\n \u201c\u2026.horse fell, broke its neck, throwing the rider into the gorge\u2026\u201d<\/em>
\n \u201c\u2026.must have landed in the river, as no body has yet been recovered\u2026\u201d<\/em>
\n \u201c\u2026.still searching\u2026will be starting from Mile Bend in the morning, but feared dead.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Those were the only words that stuck in Ben\u2019s mind as he read the message. \u201cfeared dead!\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

The next few months were pure heartache for Ben, Adam and Hoss. They met up with the search party at Mile Bend and stayed with them until the sheriff called an end to his investigation, having found no trace of Joe.<\/em><\/p>\n

The Cartwrights continued their hunt for their lost son and brother. Day and night found Hoss, Adam and Ben scouring the banks of the river, looking for any clue that may lead them to Joe. Having come up empty for weeks, the family eventually had no choice but to abandon their search as well and start the long, mournful trip back to the Ponderosa.<\/em><\/p>\n

Life back at the ranch was far from normal upon their return. Each of them mourned silently in their own way for Joe, each keeping their feelings bottled up inside as to not cause further anguish for each other. This led to a quiet, morose atmosphere that did more harm than good.<\/em><\/p>\n

It took their usually quiet, unassuming family member to help them overcome their grief. Hop Sing. Although he too was mourning the loss of the child he considered his own, he knew that his family could not continue on this quiet path of destruction.<\/em><\/p>\n

As he placed the dinner dishes on the table one evening, he looked around at the maudlin, pale faces surrounding him. He slammed a dish full of chicken on the table, sending its contents flying. Three faces looked up at him incredulously.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u201cHop Sing knows that you are sad \u2013 I am sad too! But Little Joe would not want all of you to be like this! Don\u2019t father and brothers know that you are making him sad watching you like this from heaven? Make Little Joe happy and start living again \u2013 remember that his memory lives through all of you!\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Hop Sing\u2019s outburst caught the Cartwrights by surprise. Clearing his throat, Adam was the first to speak.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u201cYou are right, Hop Sing. Joe wouldn\u2019t want us to wallow in grief. Joe\u2019s legacy will still live through us if we let it \u2013 and I don\u2019t know about the two of you, but I think it\u2019s only right that it does.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Ben and Hoss, their moist eyes looking at Adam, nodded in agreement.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u201cIt\u2019s the way your brother would\u2019ve wanted it, for us to continue to fufill the legacy of the Ponderosa.\u201d Hoss then added his sentiments as well. \u201cShortshanks will always be in our hearts, his being there will make us stronger.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Hop Sing smiled and looked upward, thinking to himself, \u201cThank you Little Joe, for helping me help our family.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

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Ben anxiously paced the floor of the Great Room, listening for the sound of an approaching horse. It seemed like an eternity since Adam told him of his youngest son\u2019s imminent return.<\/p>\n

His heart skipped a beat as he heard the sound he had been waiting for. Rushing to the front door, Ben swung it open as if it was the weight of a feather. He ran to the edge of the porch and saw Chubb enter the yard carrying two men. When Chubb finally stopped, the smaller man hopped off his back effortlessly and stood in the yard, facing Ben. Their eyes locked as Joe saw the man that had inhabited his dreams standing before him.<\/p>\n

Ben walked towards his Joe. He felt his eyes welling with tears as he finally stood next to the son he thought he had lost so long ago. Clearing his throat, he extended his hand. \u201cI am Ben Cartwright. Welcome to the Ponderosa.\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe could not take his eyes off of the white haired gentleman standing before him. Flashes of memories from long ago came into his mind \u2013 as if it were a slideshow. A small curly haired child sitting on a man\u2019s knee; a young teen, being talked to by a concerned adult; a young man, being consoled by a compassionate elder ~ Joe did not know what to make of all that was playing out in his mind. He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to will the images from his head. Ben looked on in concern, seeing that his son was fighting something – but what he could not imagine.<\/p>\n

Taking a deep breath, Joe opened his eyes and extended his hand to Ben. Joe found difficulty in uttering the next few words. \u201cI am Nawat of the Paiutes. Thank you, Mr. Cartwright, for your generosity.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ben smiled at his son. \u201cWhy don\u2019t you come inside? You can wash up, have something to eat, and take what I think would be a much needed rest. From where have you come?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWe have come from the land of the Paiute. The white army attacked our reservation without cause, destroying all that we had. I had to leave my wife behind to save our daughter, to keep her safe.\u201d Joe then leaned towards Ben, showing him his tiny granddaughter for the first time. Ben\u2019s eyes glistened as he looked at the tiny infant before him.<\/p>\n

\u201cS-She\u2019s beautiful.\u201d Ben said, trying to control his emotions. Joe found himself falling prey to his feelings as well. His eyes filled as he watched Ben look adoringly at his daughter. Again, memories of the past filled Joe\u2019s mind. Why does all this seem so familiar? He thought to himself. Why was I drawn here?<\/p>\n

As he looked at Ben, Adam and Hoss, he found himself feeling safe and secure amongst these men. But why? His head started to throb again as he tried to rationalize his feelings.<\/p>\n

Hoss noticed Joe starting to rub his temple again, as he had when they first met. \u201cNawat, are you sure you\u2019re ok there, my friend? Is your head givin\u2019 you some trouble?\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe looked up at Hoss, his eyes squinting from the pain. He handed Tehyn to Ben as he said, \u201cI -I don\u2019t know why, but I feel that I have known all of you b-before\u2026.\u201d and then dropped to the ground in a dead faint.<\/p>\n

Adam and Hoss rushed to his side, picking up their brother as they had done so many times before. Ben told them, \u201cBoys, bring Joseph to his room and I\u2019ll send for Doc Martin.\u201d He then looked down at the cooing infant in his arms. \u201cDon\u2019t worry about your father, little one. Both of you are safe here. This is your home.\u201d<\/p>\n

When Paul Martin arrived, he was shocked to hear that his patient was none other than Joe Cartwright.<\/p>\n

Ben told him, \u201cPaul, I don\u2019t know if he\u2019s getting his memory back, but it seemed as if he did recognize us in some way.\u201d Doc replied, \u201cBen, the mind is a strange thing. We don\u2019t know much about how it works, but let me take a look at my oldest patient and see what\u2019s going on.\u201d<\/p>\n

As Paul ascended the stairs, Ben began to follow him. Paul turned and stopped. \u201cBen, I think it\u2019s best that you wait down here. Remember, you aren\u2019t Joe\u2019s father right now. You are but a helpful white man.\u201d Ben realized the truth in Paul\u2019s words and with nary a word came back down to join his other sons.<\/p>\n

As Paul approached the room, he thought about just how many times he had entered it. Shaking his head, he realized that this visit would probably be the most difficult he had ever made.<\/p>\n

He opened the door to find Joe stirring in the big featherbed. Paul stood above him, waiting for him to fully regain consciousness. Joe\u2019s hazel eyes opened slightly, and blinked as he tried to focus on the man standing above him. He sat up abruptly as he did not recognize the stranger.<\/p>\n

\u201cWhoa there!\u201d said Paul, patting Joe on his bare shoulder. \u201cI\u2019m not here to hurt you son, just to help you. I\u2019m Doc Martin \u2013 Ben called me to take a look at you.\u201d Joe looked cautiously at the gray haired man before him. His head still pounded as he looked about the room, his head still bringing him many unwanted images.<\/p>\n

\u201cCan I give you a quick check-up son? You\u2019ve been out there for a while; just want to make sure you\u2019re in good shape.\u201d Paul looked at Joe and awaited his answer. Saying not a word, Joe nodded to the doctor and let him begin his exam.<\/p>\n

Downstairs, father and brothers awaited news from Paul. Adam took a gun belt from the table and handed it to Ben. \u201cPa, it\u2019s Joe\u2019s that he took with him the day he left on the trip. He must wonder where he got it from \u2013 and I wonder if he still knew how to use it?\u201d<\/p>\n

Ben pulled the gun from its holster and opened up the chamber. \u201cI\u2019d say your brother still knows how to use it \u2013 this chamber is as clean as a whistle and there are only two bullets left.\u201d All eyes then looked to the stairs as they heard Paul make his way down. He motioned for all to sit as he stood in front of the hearth to tell the family his diagnosis.<\/p>\n

\u201cWell, Ben, Joe is in relatively good shape for someone whose been scrambling around these past few days. He\u2019s a bit dehydrated and undernourished; nothing that Hop Sing\u2019s cooking won\u2019t cure.\u201d Ben looked at Paul, his eyes darkening. \u201cWhat about his mind, Paul \u2013 what are we dealing with here \u2013 is it amnesia?\u201d he asked curtly.<\/p>\n

Paul looked at Ben wistfully. \u201cI\u2019m not sure if it is amnesia, Ben. From what I can tell, he took quite a blow to his head, probably when he was thrown from that horse and landed wherever he did. He had a noticeable wound on his head, and I saw the stitches when I just examined him. He also has quite a few more stitches in places that I haven\u2019t tended to over the years. I must say that whoever doctored him in that tribe did a good job putting him back together.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBut the memory Paul \u2013 what about that? It seems that he recollects some things \u2013 I can tell by the looks he has given us. How can we get him to remember who he is, and who we are? It is so frustrating\u2026\u201d Ben found himself being interrupted by Paul.<\/p>\n

\u201cIt\u2019s frustrating for you perhaps Ben, but I think it is more frustrating for Joe. He told me that he has dreamt of all of you since he woke up on the Reservation long ago. He knows that you were a part of his life, but how he doesn\u2019t know. When he tries to think about putting the pieces together, that\u2019s when the pain in his head begins. Ben, I think you need to give him space \u2013 not let him think too hard about the past for the moment. Something is blocking that final piece of the puzzle from being put in place \u2013 but what, I don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n

Adam looked to Paul and asked, \u201cSo what you are telling us then Paul is that at some point, that final piece will click \u2013 and Joe will remember everything?\u201d<\/p>\n

Paul replied, \u201cThat is what I am hoping for, Adam. What will unlock those memories is anybody\u2019s guess right now. But I think that being back in his home, among the people that he loved, is the best way for that door to be opened.\u201d<\/p>\n

After Doc Martin left the ranch, Ben headed upstairs to see if Joe was resting. He knocked on the door, getting no response in return. Opening the door slightly, he was shocked to see the bed empty. His eyes darted frantically about the room, fearing that his son had left him once again.<\/p>\n

His worry was alleviated when he looked towards the window. Below the fluttering curtain, a still body was curled up, fast asleep. A warm smile crept onto Ben\u2019s face as he gazed upon his son. Pulling a quilt off the bed, Ben wrapped it around Joe before he began to leave the room. In the doorway, his other two sons looked on in silence. Turning to them Ben said, \u201cGuess he\u2019s used to sleeping on the ground these days.\u201d<\/p>\n

Hoss chuckled and replied, \u201cNever thought Joe would turn down a big feather bed \u2013 guess we\u2019ll have to reacquaint him to some of the finer things in life.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Shortly before dawn the next day, Joe bounded down the stairs. Feeling quite refreshed, he instinctively took himself to the kitchen, where he found Hop Sing tending to Tehyn.<\/p>\n

Joe looked at Hop Sing and said,\u201d Good Morning, sir. Let me thank you for taking care of my daughter last night. I wish to pose you no further bother, I will continue now.\u201d Hop Sing put Tehyn\u2019s bottle down and put her into her father\u2019s awaiting arms.<\/p>\n

\u201cThis precious one is no bother at all. Hop Sing love to take care of her for you. You need to take care of yourself and get better. Please let Hop Sing help.\u201d Joe found the oriental man\u2019s words comforting \u2013 again his mind tried to process just why this man seemed to have a special affinity for him, as well as a child he had never known.<\/p>\n

His head starting to hurt once more, and Joe put the thoughts out of his mind as he nodded. \u201cThank you, Hop Sing. Words do not adequately show my appreciation.\u201d Joe then took Tehyn and her bottle to the Great Room, where he sat by the fire and continued her feeding.<\/p>\n

The rest of the family started their morning in disjointed fashion, each coming down at various times, until finally, all were seated at the dining room table. Joe had once again given Tehyn to Hop Sing, who insisted on handling an impending diaper change, and he sat quietly, feeling nervous yet comfortable at the same time.<\/p>\n

Ben looked up at his sons \u2013 all of his sons, sitting together at their family table once more. He looked at Joe as he began to speak. Using Joe\u2019s Indian name did not get any easier. \u201cNawat, I hope that you had a good night\u2019s rest last night. Are you feeling better?\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe looked to Ben and with a small smile on his face, told him, \u201cYes, I rested well. I feel much better than I have in days.\u201d Ben smiled back, happy that his son was starting to feel a bit more at ease.<\/p>\n

Joe looked up at his family. All of their eyes looked at him with anticipation, hoping they\u2019d hear the words from him that they wanted to hear ~ who they were, and more important, who he was. Joe sensed the feelings that were at the table, and started to feel guilty that he could not provide them with the person they had obviously lost when he left them long ago.<\/p>\n

The tension in the room was broken when Hop Sing entered once again, carrying a stack of pancakes. Ben, Adam and Hoss eagerly went to take their portions, with Joe watching intently. Hop Sing looked at the youngest Cartwright and as he shook his head said, \u201cAlways the last one. Everyone get the food before you, Little Joe. Get in there and get your share!\u201d<\/p>\n

Without missing a beat, Joe looked up at Hop Sing and muttered something back to him in Mandarin, Hop Sing\u2019s native tongue. Forks dropped to the table as everyone looked at Joe incredulously. \u201cI \u2013 I don\u2019t know where that came from. I don\u2019t know\u2026.\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe got up from the table abruptly and rushed out the door. \u201cJoe \u2013 I mean – Nawat!\u201d Ben yelled after him, throwing his hands up in exasperation. Hoss looked at Ben as he took the napkin off of his lap and stood up.<\/p>\n

\u201cPa, I think it\u2019s time that me and Shortshanks had a talk. Maybe not brother to brother yet, but I think he needs to open up to someone ~ and that someone\u2019s gonna be me.\u201d Ben and Adam both nodded in agreement. Heading to the credenza, Hoss picked up his big ten gallon hat and placed it on his head. \u201cSee ya later!\u201d he shouted as the front door slammed behind him.<\/p>\n

Standing on the front porch, Hoss thought about where his brother would instinctively go when he was upset. He headed to the barn and saddled Chubb, knowing that if history truly repeated itself, that there was only one place where Joe would be found.<\/p>\n

The wind was blowing hard on the hills above Lake Tahoe. Joe was out of breath as he found himself overlooking the beautiful countryside once more. Wiping the tears from his face, he looked down to find himself standing in front of a grave. Before he could give it a further look, he felt a kind hand on his shoulder. The voice, strong yet tender, began to speak.<\/p>\n

\u201cListen here, Nawat, let\u2019s sit down here and talk a while. I think there are some things you need to talk about \u2013 to get off your chest. I am a good listener, if you want to let it out.\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe looked at Hoss and found himself easily drawn towards the kind hearted stranger and he sat down and started to tell him his story.<\/p>\n

\u201cI was badly hurt, how I do not know. I woke up in an Indian village, that of the Kuyuidika tribe. Their medicine man and a woman were with me, all the time. I could not move, my head felt heavy and hurt constantly. It took months for me to recuperate from all of the injuries I had sustained. What I do know is that I was a cowboy, and that somehow you and the other two gentlemen, even Hop Sing, fit into my life. It is how that I do not know. I see images, images that I do not understand. Pictures of all of you constantly enter my mind. I struggle to think, think hard just what it all means ~ and my head starts to hurt as I try. Now I speak another man\u2019s language without thinking ~ it worries me not to be able to make sense of it all ~ I don\u2019t it understand myself!\u201d Frustrated, Joe punched his fist into the dirt.<\/p>\n

He continued his story. \u201cThe woman who cared for me all those months, Lomasi, became my wife. I loved her with all my heart and soul. She was my partner, my love, and my life. The people of the Kuyuidika tribe treated me as one of their own; in fact the Chief of their tribe considered me a son.\u201d He laughed. \u201cCan you believe that? Taking in a white man as his son?\u201d Joe\u2019s voice started to crack. \u201cHe loved me as much as he loved his real children. I could never repay him for his kindness.\u201d<\/p>\n

Hoss interjected, \u201cWhere are they now? Why didn\u2019t they come with ya?\u201d Joe looked at the ground as he continued.<\/p>\n

\u201cThe Army attacked our reservation, without warning, without reason. We knew that they were approaching and tried to protect our people as best we could. But the Army was one step ahead of us. They knew we\u2019d use the mountain as a defense, so they blasted the top, loosening rocks which fell on many of our warriors. My wife and child, along with the other women and children of our tribe, were hidden in caves within the mountain. Debris covered the openings. I tried to unearth my beloved but failed. All I could do was make a small opening where Lomasi was able to hand me Tehyn and begged me to leave. I wanted to stay and pull every rock from that pile, but the Army soldiers were approaching fast. For Lomasi, and for Tehyn, I had no choice but to run.\u201d Tears fell from his face as he finished.<\/p>\n

Hoss found himself putting an arm around his distraught brother, then another, until he embraced him in a hug. Joe did not shy away, instead burying his head into the big man\u2019s chest, sobbing uncontrollably as he mourned his wife and all he had lost.<\/p>\n

Holding his brother as he had many times before, Hoss felt the pain that emanated from his brother. How could one man withstand all that Joe had endured, Hoss thought \u2013 and how could he and his family help him finally heal?<\/p>\n

The words came to Hoss as he whispered, \u201cListen now. Don\u2019t you keep frettin\u2019 about what you know and what you don\u2019t know. The most important thing now is that you are home with us \u2013 we are your family and will be your family whether you ever come to remember the past \u2013 it doesn\u2019t matter. All that matters is that you are back, and you are well. Let the rest come in its own time. Don\u2019t keep the memories back \u2013 let them happen and maybe something will click that\u2019ll bring it all back to you.\u201d<\/p>\n

Finally able to compose himself, Joe stood and wiped the last tears from his face. He looked down at Hoss and smiled. \u201cThank you\u2026brother,\u201d he said quietly. Hoss looked up and gave Joe a big smile. \u201cAlways your brother, Nawat\u201d he replied.<\/p>\n

Hoss could tell that Joe\u2019s mind was still working. Pacing back and forth, Joe looked like a caged panther, waiting for his chance to escape. \u201cWhat you thinkin\u2019 about there? You look more wound up than a kid\u2019s spinnin\u2019 top!\u201d asked Hoss, putting his hat back on his head.<\/p>\n

With a pained expression on his face, Joe told Hoss, \u201cI need to find my wife, Hoss. I need to go back to what\u2019s left of my reservation and see what has happened. For better or worse, I need to know.\u201d Joe continued, \u201cNow that Tehyn is safe, I can go.\u201d<\/p>\n

Hoss nodded his head. \u201cThink that\u2019s a good idea, but you ain\u2019t gonna go alone, I\u2019ll tell ya that right now.\u201d Joe\u2019s eyes stared at Hoss in disbelief. \u201cWhy would you come with me \u2013 it\u2019s my problem,\u201d he said quietly.<\/p>\n

Hoss\u2019 eyes glistened as he gave Joe his reply. \u201cIt\u2019s like I just done finished tellin\u2019 ya \u2013 whether you know it yet or not, I am always your brother. And your problem is my problem \u2013 in fact, I can tell you its Pa and Adam\u2019s too \u2013 so let\u2019s get back to the house and start mappin\u2019 out a plan.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Chapter 3<\/strong><\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cWhaddya mean the boy\u2019s alive? I saw him go off that cliff myself, damn it! Saved me the trouble of shooting him! There is no way in hell that he could\u2019ve lived!\u201d The slender, white-haired man pounded his hand on the table to emphasize his disbelief.<\/p>\n

His young friend shrugged his shoulders. \u201cMr. White, I am telling you \u2013 the word around Virginia City is that Joe Cartwright has returned to the Ponderosa \u2013 you can believe it or not.\u201d<\/p>\n

Deep down, Matthew White always held a great deal of resentment towards his old friend, Ben Cartwright. Both were successful at sea, but Ben decided to end his seafaring days to start anew in the fledgling Nevada Territory. White was happy to see his competition go, thinking that no man could ever make such a tremendous transition in his life successful. But he soon found out that he was wrong in his assumption, as Ben made his life out west more than profitable. He owned a ranch, and better yet, had three loyal sons who put their sweat and blood into the land that the Cartwrights called home.<\/p>\n

White had modest success at sea, becoming a Captain of his own vessel. He married and had a daughter, Laura. His life was a good one, but in his mind, not as good as the one Ben Cartwright had. Matthew had kept up his relationship with Ben, not out of \u2018friendship\u2019, but out of the spirit of competition that always consumed him.<\/p>\n

Twelve years earlier, Ben had come to visit the Whites at Matthew\u2019s invitation. Ben brought along his youngest son who was the same age as Laura, and the two children had a marvelous time together; in fact, the adults saw that the two had developed a little \u2018crush\u2019 on each other. Matthew\u2019s wife even commented to Ben at one point, \u201cWouldn\u2019t that be something if the two of them wound up together someday?\u201d All Matthew could do was look at the younger Cartwright with disdain, as he saw a loving look in his daughter\u2019s eyes that he had never seen before and wouldn\u2019t see again for another twelve years.<\/p>\n

In the years that passed, Matthew started to lose the things that mattered to him most. His wife succumbed to a battle with tuberculosis, and his daughter had been diagnosed with a life ending illness as well. He didn\u2019t tell his daughter the extent of her illness, preferring that she live her life unaware that she wouldn\u2019t see her next birthday. White decided to take a leave from his profession, hoping to rekindle a relationship with his daughter. Before her illness, Laura had been shipped away to school and really never had the chance to know her father, as he was away at sea more than he was on land.<\/p>\n

Matthew\u2019s dream of closeness with his daughter was shattered when all Laura wanted was to visit the place he never wanted to see \u2013 the Ponderosa. All of the hatred and resentment that Matthew had towards Ben bubbled up inside of him once more as his own flesh and blood spoke endlessly about the Cartwrights and in particular, the youngest son, Joseph. He found himself agreeing to the visit, not so much for his daughter\u2019s benefit but for himself so that he could see what his long time rival had accomplished.<\/p>\n

Laura was ecstatic as she arrived at the Ponderosa. Her eyes scanned the Great Room, looking for her old friend. Matthew shook Ben\u2019s calloused hand, and forced a smile on his face and contempt in his heart. All sat down as Ben poured a brandy for his old friend.<\/p>\n

When Joe bounded down the stairs, Laura\u2019s face lit up in a way that Matthew had never seen before, and he found himself resenting the young man immediately. Joe politely welcomed her to the ranch, but informed her that a prior commitment prohibited him from joining their welcome. Laura was visibly disappointed, but her father was inwardly pleased at this turn of events. Perhaps this would show his daughter that her long time crush was not the prince of her dreams.<\/p>\n

All of his hopes were dashed in the subsequent days. The two young adults spent more and more time together, much to Matthew\u2019s disapproval. He couldn\u2019t help but voice his displeasure more than once to Ben, but never told him of Laura\u2019s terminal illness. When Joe and Laura didn\u2019t come home after an afternoon carriage ride, Matthew finally snapped. Ben tried to allay his fears, attesting to his son\u2019s responsible nature. Matthew heard none of it \u2013 all he knew was that his daughter was with another man, a man that she loved more than him \u2013 and he hated him all the more for it.<\/p>\n

When the couple returned in the morning, Matthew bolted out of the front door and flattened the young man with one punch. Ben was angered by his behavior, but out of respect for his old friend, said nothing more. However, for the rest of the visit, Joe and Matthew exchanged nothing but angry looks at each other. Both Ben and Matthew were surprised when the couple told them of their desire to marry – – soon. Matthew then told Ben about his daughter\u2019s illness, and in turn, the couple was told, much to their shock and disbelief. Laura, unable to accept her fate, left the ranch house one evening and took herself to the cottage that Joe had lovingly restored for them. Joe found her there, where they spent her last moments on Earth together, with Laura dying in her fianc\u00e9e\u2019s arms.<\/p>\n

This turn of events enraged Matthew, as he resented the fact that Joe was the last to see his daughter alive. He abruptly left town with Laura\u2019s body, with nary a goodbye to the man who was almost his son in law. Ben sensed the anger that Matthew harbored for his son, and was in a sense relieved when he left for home.<\/p>\n

Over the years, Matthew had never got over what the Cartwrights had, and what he felt they had done to him. He vowed to himself that they would pay for taking his daughter\u2019s love from him, and for having the life that he always wanted. One day, he thought to himself, one day, Ben Cartwright will feel the sadness and emptiness I have felt, and I will watch and laugh as his world crumbles to the ground\u2026\u2026.<\/p>\n

Matthew White, now a bitter and deeply disturbed man, roused himself from his memories, and looked back at the young man standing before him. \u201cGet back into Virginia City and find out for sure if the kid is still alive. If he is, he won\u2019t be for long.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Ben was relieved when he saw Hoss and Joe ride into the yard, and as one of the ranch hands took Chubb to the barn, the two men walked towards their father.<\/p>\n

\u201cPa, Nawat here needs our help, and I told him we\u2019d give it to him,\u201d Hoss told Ben in an authoritative tone. Ben couldn\u2019t help but notice his younger son looked relieved as Hoss spoke ~ the same way he used to when his older brother would talk them out of trouble many times in the past.<\/p>\n

\u201cOf course Hoss. Whatever you need Nawat, is at your disposal here,\u201d Ben answered. Joe looked at Ben with warm eyes and said, \u201cI need your help to find my tribe, Mr. Cartwright.\u201d Joe looked over at Hoss for strength as he continued, \u201cI cannot do it alone.\u201d<\/p>\n

Without missing a beat, Ben smiled as he replied, \u201cWhen do you want to leave?\u201d<\/p>\n

The next morning, the four Cartwrights made ready for their journey. Joe spent his last moments with Tehyn, feeding her and speaking to her softly in front of the fireplace. Ben watched as his son stroked his daughter\u2019s face, speaking to her in a language that he could not understand. He saw Joe\u2019s eyes glisten with tears as he kissed Tehyn once more before handing her to Hop Sing.<\/p>\n

Ben couldn\u2019t help but notice Joe\u2019s demeanor change abruptly. His son stood up, his eyes dark with anger. \u201cLet\u2019s ride,\u201d he said in a low, unemotional voice. Ben nodded as the two of them headed out into the yard, ready to mount their horses. Joe led the way as the family set out, not knowing what they would find.<\/p>\n

The Cartwrights found themselves heading into territory that they had never traversed before. Traveling at a quick pace, they stopped occasionally during the day to water their horses, and then would set up camp at night. Ben, Adam and Hoss felt a certain distance from Joe. Although he was cordial with all of them, he seemed to be in a world of his own thoughts. They would find him the first awake in the morning, standing on a crest watching the sun rise before them, and then see him watch the sun set with an intensity that escaped their comprehension.<\/p>\n

But the three of them knew not to ask any questions. Whether he was Joe or Nawat, it didn\u2019t matter \u2013 the man before them was as emotional and trigger- tempered as he had been before the accident, and questions would only lead to trouble between them. Trouble that none of them wanted or needed.<\/p>\n

It was on the fourth day that they came upon the deserted reservation. Joe\u2019s eyes widened as he took in the mass devastation before him. The bodies of his friends and enemies were strewn about the ground, looking as if a child had suddenly dropped his toys and ran away. Hopping off his horse, he started to run towards the caverns that had housed the women and children. Ben and his sons followed.<\/p>\n

As they rounded the bend, they saw Joe on a hill of rubble, frantically grabbing rocks and hurling them to the ground. All three of them joined Joe in his quest to find life amidst the ruins. It seemed like an eternity before they were able to bore a hole into the cave. Joe stuck his head in and yelled the name of his wife over and over again. Ben, Hoss and Adam looked on, not knowing what they should do next.<\/p>\n

Taking his head out of the hole, Joe looked up at his family. \u201cThere is no one left in this cave,\u201d he said as he wiped the dust away from his eyes. He continued, \u201cThey must\u2019ve been taken away from here.\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe stood and ran over to an adjacent cave. \u201cThis is where the children stayed. I need to see if they took them as well.\u201d Again, Joe knelt down and began pulling rock after rock from the endless pile before him. His hands, now raw and cut, worked endlessly to secure another hole in a cave. The three Cartwrights took their cue from Joe\u2019s lead and joined him, working together, side by side. They were once again successful in making a hole into the tomb sealed before them, and Joe stuck his head in, but this time let out a blood curdling yell at what he saw.<\/p>\n

\u201cNawat \u2013 what is it!\u201d Ben cried, kneeling down next to his son. Joe removed himself from the hole, and put his head into his bloodied hands. Ben looked in and was taken aback as well. The tiny bodies of the tribe\u2019s children were lying prone in the cave, asphyxiated once their tomb had been sealed by the enemy. Ben took his head out and looked over at Hoss and Adam, telling them in a whisper, \u201cThe army murdered the children. They freed the women but left the children to die.\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe\u2019s insides were churning at what he had just viewed. He hated the white man for the pain they had inflicted upon the innocent of his tribe. His anger rose to the surface as he stood up and looked at his other family, the family he had yet to remember. \u201cThey must pay,\u201d he said quietly, the anger coming through in his words. Ben looked at his son, knowing the emotions that filled his thoughts. He grabbed Joe\u2019s shoulder as he began to speak.<\/p>\n

\u201cI know what has been perpetrated here is murder, Nawat, plain and simple. But you know just as well as I that we must stay within the boundaries of the law.\u201d Saying nothing in response, Joe shook his head despairingly, heading to the sea of bodies that lay in front of them. He looked down at each brave with sadness, reminiscing to himself of the times they had shared together. He finally came across the body of the Chief, his adoptive father, Qualetaga. His family watched in silence as he knelt above the lifeless form and bowed his head in reverence.<\/p>\n

\u201cFather, I am sorry, so sorry that I have failed you, and our tribe.\u201d Joe wept, the warm tears trickling down his face onto the fallen warrior beneath him. \u201cI will avenge what has happened here. As God as my witness, I will make those responsible pay for this.\u201d<\/p>\n

Knowing that there were three sets of eyes watching him, he composed himself quickly and headed back to where the men were standing. Ben patted Joe on his shoulder and told him, \u201cSon, I know you are hurting more than I could ever imagine. That man there has been a father to you, and you remember him more than you do me. But please let us help you; let us help you do what you need to, to avenge what has happened here. But as I said, we can only do it within the boundaries of the law.\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe looked up at Ben\u2019s chocolate eyes that were filled with nothing but love and sincerity. \u201cMr. Cartwright, I accept your offer to help. But what I cannot accept outright is the fact that my revenge will be within the law. That I can\u2019t promise right now.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ben understood that his son would be raw with emotion, and decided that pressing the issue at that moment would do nothing but push him away \u2013 perhaps forever. Ben did not take his eyes off of his son as he nodded in agreement.<\/p>\n

\u201cNawat, I understand your feeling that way and I will abide by your wishes. So what is your next move?\u201d A small smile crept upon Joe\u2019s face, pleased that his family would not abandon him. Hoss\u2019 voice interrupted his thoughts. \u201cNawat, I see a few set of tracks here \u2013 I think this is the direction they\u2019re headed.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThen what are we waiting for?\u201d Joe said, as he swing mounted onto his horse and followed his brother into the brush.<\/p>\n

The Cartwrights rode slowly as Hoss examined every inch of land, looking for the clues that would keep them hot on the train of the Army soldiers. They finally arrived at an encampment that contained their enemy \u2013 the US Army.<\/p>\n

The Cartwrights hid themselves around a bend from the camp, settling in for the night. They were about to figure out just what their next move would be when Adam turned to his brother.<\/p>\n

\u201cNawat, I know that you are proud of what you have become in these last months. But I think, for your own safety, that you should remove the clothes of your people when we enter the camp. I have some clothes for you in my saddlebag, if you are so inclined.\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe thought over Adam\u2019s words. \u201cI think that despite my feelings, it would make more sense to wear the uniform of the white man,\u201d Joe replied, as Adam handed him a pair of pants, shirt and boots. Moments later, he came back into the camp dressed as the Joseph Cartwright of old. He found himself strangely comfortable in his new outfit and took his gun belt and instinctively put it on, slung low as he had always worn it in the past.<\/p>\n

Adam rummaged around his saddlebag once more and handed Joe a crumpled piece of green corduroy. Joe unfolded it and saw that it was a green jacket ~ exactly the same as the one Lomasi had saved after he came to the reservation.<\/p>\n

Joe\u2019s head began to throb for the first time in weeks, as fresh memories of his life entered his head, one after the other.<\/p>\n

He saw himself in his green jacket aboard a chestnut horse, riding fast, an anguished look on his face. He felt the horse pull up suddenly; felt himself flying, heading down into the ravine below, his body floating, spinning, the wind pushing his hair away from his face as he headed towards the ground at incredulous speed\u2026\u2026.<\/p>\n

As he clutched his forehead, his brothers saw the look of pain on his face and rushed to his side just in time to catch him as he passed out. Gently, they placed Joe onto a blanket and put his head on his bedroll, as Ben put a cold compress on his head.<\/p>\n

\u201cPa, is he gonna be OK?\u201d Hoss asked.<\/p>\n

Ben looked at his sons. \u201cBoys, I think that Joe is closer to recapturing his past than all of us think, including himself.\u201d he said, removing the cloth from Joe\u2019s head. \u201cI think seeing his old jacket stirred up some memories that he hadn\u2019t expected.\u201d<\/p>\n

Chapter 4<\/strong><\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

The next morning, Ben woke early. He turned to where Joe had been and found his bedroll empty. Ben panicked as he thought that Joe\u2019s impulsiveness had gotten the best of him once more. But as he scanned the camp, he saw the slight silhouette of his son against the rising sun. Ben sighed in relief as he walked towards him.<\/p>\n

\u201cMorning \u2013 are you feeling better today, Nawat?\u201d Ben asked, as he patted Joe on his back. Joe turned to him, his face solemn. \u201cThank you, I do feel better today,\u201d he replied.<\/p>\n

\u201cAnything I can do to help you, Nawat? Anything?\u201d Ben asked, sensing the anguish his son was enduring once more. Shaking his head, Joe said quietly, \u201cI will be fine, sir. I appreciate your concern.\u201d<\/p>\n

After breakfast, the men quickly went over their plan.<\/p>\n

Ben and Adam walked into the Army camp, as the soldiers looked on. The lookout came towards them. \u201cCan I help you, gentlemen?\u201d he asked. Ben, in his most commanding voice, replied, \u201cI am Ben Cartwright. I was hoping to speak with your Commander.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYou are looking to speak with me then,\u201d a voice called from behind Ben. Ben turned and saw a tall, lean gentleman walk towards him. \u201cHow can I help you, Mr. Cartwright?\u201d<\/p>\n

In the meantime, Joe and Hoss had quietly made their way to a small shack on the edge of the Army encampment. As Joe looked into the window, he saw five Indian squaws sitting on the floor, their faces shrouded in terror as they watched one of their kind in the arms of an Army soldier, trying desperately to avoid his advances. The soldier leaned back and slapped the sobbing woman as he started to kiss her hungrily.<\/p>\n

Joe looked at Hoss, his eyes burning with fury. \u201cWe have to stop this now!\u201d he hissed in a low whisper. Hoss nodded and replied, \u201cWhenever you\u2019re ready, little brother.\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe nodded and proceeded to kick down the flimsy door, standing face to face with the soldier. Without a word, Joe kicked the feet from under the man, sending him to the floor. Hoss grabbed the stricken squaw and led her out of harm\u2019s way. The soldier got up, pulling out a knife. With the stealth ness of a big cat, Joe dodged the point of the weapon time after time, frustrating the soldier. Finally, he landed a left hook onto the soldier\u2019s jaw, stunning him momentarily. Joe picked up the knife and flipped it to his brother, then proceeded to hit the soldier with punch after punch until he was unconscious on the dirt floor. He wiped his forehead as he turned to face the squaws.<\/p>\n

Disoriented, Lomasi and the other squaws had not realized that their protector was Joe. She looked up at the cowboy before her and her eyes widened as she saw Joe\u2019s face clearly for the first time. Before she had a chance to stand, Joe was by her side, untying her hands and kissing her gently. Tears streamed down both of their faces as he whispered, \u201cI love you.\u201d<\/p>\n

Hoss looked over at his brother as he untied the rest of the squaws. Not wanting to interrupt their reunion, he started to lead the women out of the shack. \u201cA \u2013 hem, Joseph, I mean, Nawat, I\u2019m gonna get these gals to a safe place. I suggest that you and your wife come along soon.\u201d<\/p>\n

With a big smile, Joe looked up at Hoss and replied, \u201cI\u2019ll be right there big brother \u2013 just give me a minute.\u201d Hoss smiled as he left, sensing that Joe\u2019s memory close to breaking through.<\/p>\n

Lomasi could not contain herself as she asked Joe question after question. \u201cNawat, where is our Tehyn? Is she safe? Well?\u201d Before she could ask anything else, Joe put his finger to her lips, replying softly, \u201cTehyn is fine, Lomasi. She is back at the Ponderosa with Hop Sing, who is taking care of her as if she were his own. The way he took care of me after my mama died.\u201d<\/p>\n

Lomasi looked at her husband incredulously. \u201cWhat did you just say, husband?\u201d she asked, wondering if Nawat was beginning to remember his past. In his mind, Joe repeated the last few sentences he had spoken ~ and realized that all the pieces of the jumbled puzzle in his mind were starting to fall into place.<\/p>\n

The pain in his head that always accompanied his memories started once again, but before it could get worse, a deep, unemotional voice came out of the shadows.<\/p>\n

\u201cWell, Mr. Cartwright, what do we have here? Have you forgotten my daughter so easily and taken up with another? I think we need to talk young man.\u201d Before Joe could turn to face his foe, the now totally insane Matthew White hit him over the head with his gun, sending Joe to the ground into a black abyss.<\/p>\n

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Ben and Adam confronted the Major about his tactics in raiding the Paiute reservation.<\/p>\n

\u201cHow can you justify the slaughter of innocent children?\u201d Adam shouted at the impassive man before him.<\/p>\n

\u201cIt\u2019s all in the name of war, young man,\u201d the Major responded bluntly. \u201cI really don\u2019t see why this is any of your concern.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ben\u2019s face angered at the Major\u2019s lack of compassion. \u201cDo you realize that you murdered those children? And what have your men done with the women, I can only imagine. We\u2019re going to head back to Virginia City and file a complaint ~ what you have done will not go unpunished.\u201d<\/p>\n

The Major sneered at Ben. \u201cI don\u2019t think you\u2019ll be making it back to Virginia City, Mr. Cartwright,\u201d he hissed and went to draw his gun.<\/p>\n

A click from behind froze the arrogant leader. \u201cI\u2019d suggest that you toss that gun, slow and easy, if you still want to breathe.\u201d Hoss put his gun into the uniformed back of the Major. The man laughed as he threw down his weapon. \u201cAnd just what do you think that will achieve? You may have my gun but do you expect that you and your sons can overwhelm an entire platoon?\u201d<\/p>\n

Hoss walked towards his father. \u201cPa, lemme tell you somethin\u2019 that perhaps the Major isn\u2019t aware of. Joe and I found the squaws and rounded up the men involved in the raid \u2013 they are all tied up and ain\u2019t goin\u2019 nowhere. I caught up with the rest of the soldiers \u2013 talked to a young Lieutenant called Walker. He told me it seems they wanted none of the killin\u2019 and torturin\u2019 that\u2019s been goin\u2019 on, but they felt that they had to obey this fool in uniform as he threatened to shoot them for disobeying orders if they didn\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ben was pleased and relieved to hear the news. Slapping Hoss on the back, he told him, \u201cHoss, it looks like things here are under control, thanks to you and Joseph. By the way, where is your brother?\u201d<\/p>\n

Hoss scratched his head and said, \u201cLast I saw him, he was in the cabin with his wife. Wanted to give them some time to themselves, but I did tell him to hurry it up.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ben and Adam chuckled as Adam replied, \u201cWell, I think we\u2019d best break up that reunion and start our trip home.\u201d<\/p>\n

Hoss led his father and brother to the small shack that he and Joe had discovered. Ben swung open the door, expecting to find his son and his wife ~ instead he saw the young squaw hog tied on the floor with a gag in her mouth. She looked up at Ben in fear, not knowing who he was or what he was going to do to her.<\/p>\n

Gently, Ben knelt down beside her and took the gag from her mouth. As Adam and Hoss entered, they took in the sight before them and went to help untie Lomasi as well. She looked to the three men, still slightly fearful, until Ben took her hand and spoke.<\/p>\n

\u201cI am Ben Cartwright. My sons and I will not hurt you.\u201d Lomasi looked at Hoss, remembering him being with Joe during the raid on the shack earlier. As she looked back at Ben and Adam, a knowing look crossed her face. She realized that Ben\u2019s countenance was the one in her husband\u2019s dreams. \u201cYou are Nawat\u2019s father and brothers,\u201d she began. \u2018While he was badly injured, he cried out for \u2018Pa\u2019, \u2018A-dam\u2019, and \u2018H-Hoss\u2019. He would mumble about how he couldn\u2019t live without all of you. He thought that his entire family was dead.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhy? What would make him think that?\u201d Adam asked incredulously. Lomasi answered, \u201cThe yellow paper that we found in his jacket. My father said it told of a great tragedy that had befallen Nawat\u2019s family. That his father and brothers were killed in a shootout.\u201d All three men\u2019s eyes widened in horror at the thought of Joe receiving such a message \u2013 what went through his mind, none of them could imagine.<\/p>\n

Ben looked to Lomasi as he said, \u201cSo in his mind, he thought that the life he once had was gone? So he stayed with your tribe to start a new one?\u201d Lomasi nodded. \u201cAfter he awoke from his accident, he never mentioned any of you by name again. I do not think he remembered any of it then \u2013 he had pushed it out of his mind. But, he would tell me from time to time of his dreams of a white haired man and two other men \u2013 but that was all he could remember. The memories of your life together escaped him.\u201d<\/p>\n

Hoss pushed back his hat in disbelief, as Adam and Ben glanced at each other. \u201cWho on Earth would want to see Joe suffer like that? I just don\u2019t understand why\u2026\u201d Hoss stopped speaking as Lomasi stood, gently rubbing her wrists. She told them, \u201cThe man you seek was in this room a short time ago. He hit Nawat over the head after accusing him of forgetting his daughter. He told me he\u2019d followed you all from the Ponderosa and then he tied me up and dragged Nawat away.\u201d Her face was one of concern as she thought about what fate could befall her husband next.<\/p>\n

Ben adjusted his gun belt, his face darkening with worry. \u201cWhoever this person is has a grudge \u2013 a big grudge. We must find Joseph before it\u2019s too late.\u201d Adam and Hoss nodded in agreement. Ben continued. \u201cWe can leave Lieutenant Walker in charge until we return, and then we\u2019ll all head back to Virginia City together.\u201d Turning to Lomasi, he added, \u201cI think it best if you remain here. I don\u2019t know what we\u2019re walking into, but I\u2019m afraid things might get too dangerous. We will bring Joseph back to you.\u201d<\/p>\n

Sadly, Lomasi shook her head, replying, \u201cI will stay.\u201d<\/p>\n

The Cartwrights started off on their quest to find their lost son and sibling. Hoss picked up the trail from the cabin as they headed into an area of mountains. They found themselves steering their mounts up the craggy ledge before them, and the wind blew fiercely and the temperature dipped as they made their ascent.<\/p>\n

White had brought Joe up to a cave he had discovered earlier and by the time he awoke, Joe found himself tied with leather straps to nails hammered into the rock wall behind him. His pain in his head was intense as he roused himself back to full consciousness, his teeth chattering as White had removed his jacket and shirt to intensify his suffering.<\/p>\n

\u201cWell, well, glad you are able to rejoin us,\u201d White growled, his eyes crazed as those of a mad man. \u201cIt\u2019s been a long time, Joseph.\u201d Joe\u2019s thoughts scrambled quickly as he tried to remember just who this man was.<\/p>\n

White continued with his insane rambling. \u201cLooks like you survived the little \u2018accident\u2019 I planned out for you\u2026..you Cartwrights always seem to have nine lives, always come out smelling like a rose\u2026but not this time, cowboy. You\u2019re going to die, and your Pa is going to know just how it feels to lose a child\u2026the way I lost my Laura\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

At that moment, the last puzzle piece clicked into place.<\/em>\u00a0Joe recognized Captain Matthew White standing before him. He remembered his brief time with Laura, and how she died in his arms. He remembered the sadness and anger he felt as he was never given a chance to say goodbye\u2026..<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019m not going down without a fight you bastard.\u201d Joe hissed, as the memories of the telegram and his accident came flooding back as he spoke. \u201cYou sent that telegram telling me my family was destroyed, didn\u2019t you? You were responsible for my accident at the bluff, and thought it was a sure way to kill me. Well, you failed. And you\u2019re gonna fail again if I can help it.\u201d<\/p>\n

White was briefly taken aback by the boy\u2019s bravado, but recovered quickly. He chuckled as he replied, \u201cTough talk from a man who is at a distinct disadvantage at the moment\u2026\u201d and without a moment\u2019s hesitation, took a bucket that stood beside him and threw its contents atop Joe.<\/p>\n

Joe\u2019s body shivered uncontrollably as the icy water permeated every part of his body. He was unable to control his anger as he yelled through chattering teeth, \u201cIs that all you got, Mr. man- who- knows it all? A man who kept his daughter at arms length for years, and when he decided it was time to get close, found she had no use for him? Kept her illness a secret from her? And never gave her the love that she deserved?\u201d<\/p>\n

White\u2019s body shook with anger. \u201cI always loved my daughter!\u201d he yelled at the top of his lungs. \u201cBut she always loved you more\u2026.Joe Cartwright this, Joe Cartwright that \u2013 it repulsed me! You and your father, always getting things you didn\u2019t deserve\u2026..your father leaves the seafaring life and becomes a successful rancher\u2026.and you, you little whelp, you get my daughter\u2019s undying love\u2026..it wasn\u2019t fair!\u201d And with those last words, White pulled out a gun, ready to put an end to Joe\u2019s misery as he put the barrel up to his cold, shaking form.<\/p>\n

\u201cWhat do you have to say now, Joe Cartwright?\u201d White shouted as he held onto the gun. Joe looked up slowly, with a smirk on his face and told him, \u201cGo ahead Captain White \u2013 you kill me with that gun, and guess what? I\u2019ll be with Laura, and you won\u2019t be. You\u2019ll still be alone and miserable \u2013 and you deserve it!\u201d<\/p>\n

White became enraged at the truth in Joe\u2019s words. He threw down the gun and grabbed Joe by his long curly hair. \u201cMaybe a long, drawn out death is what you deserve \u2013 a bullet is too good for you.\u201d White took Joe\u2019s head and slammed it on the rock wall behind him, sending him into unconsciousness once more. Blood dripped from Joe\u2019s head as White untied his captive and dragged him out of the cave into the dark, cold, snowy night.<\/p>\n

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As the snow fell, Ben, Adam and Hoss encountered difficulty in reaching the higher terrain on the mountain. By morning, they finally made some headway. \u201cLast night\u2019s snow got rid of any tracks, Pa.\u201d Hoss told Ben. \u201cBut, there really was only one way they could\u2019ve traveled, so we are bound to find somethin\u2019 soon.\u201d<\/p>\n

They continued onward until they saw a horse tethered next to a cave. Dismounting silently, each knew instinctively what they needed to do. The wind continued to swirl about them as they made their way towards its opening.<\/p>\n

Guns drawn, each looked at the other and quietly counted to three. The cave was empty! Picking up Joe\u2019s shirt and jacket, Adam growled, \u201cDamn, we missed them!\u201d as he kicked the ground beneath him in anger.<\/p>\n

Ben\u2019s eyes darted around, looking for any clues. His stomach turned as he saw something that he hoped didn\u2019t belong to his son \u2013 blood on the back wall on the cave. He cursed to himself as he saw the nails and leather bindings left behind.<\/p>\n

\u201cThey couldn\u2019t have gotten far in this weather, Pa.\u201d Hoss said as he looked out and Adam added, \u201cHoss is right, Pa. They have to be close by.\u201d Both sons looked over to their father, who hadn\u2019t heard a word each had said. Instead, they saw Ben crouched close to the ground, his hand touching the floor where Joe\u2019s smeared blood left a deep red stain. His sons looked at each other, knowing the thoughts that currently inhabited their father\u2019s mind.<\/p>\n

\u201cPa! Did you hear me? We gotta get goin\u2019 NOW!\u201d Hoss snapped, waking Ben from his reverie. \u201cY-Yes, son, let\u2019s go.\u201d replied Ben as he stood up and walked back towards them. Hoss put his strong arm around his father. \u201cShortshanks is gonna be alright Pa, don\u2019t you worry. He\u2019s been through worse. We\u2019re gonna find him real soon now.\u201d<\/p>\n

The family continued their trek up the mountain. The ledges became smaller as they approached the summit, and the wind blew fiercely and the snow came down rapidly. The men held onto each other for support as they finally reached their destination. Wiping their faces of ice and snow, they saw a man seated before them, caked in winter\u2019s fury. \u201cGood to see you Ben\u201d, Matthew White said calmly as he stood up and approached his enemy.<\/p>\n

Ben was shocked. Matthew White! It had been Matthew who had orchestrated this entire trap. Ben\u2019s face darkened with fury as he shouted, \u201cWhite, what you have done with my son? Where is he?\u201d<\/p>\n

White put his hand to his mouth and paused. \u201cWell, Ben it seems your son has run into a little accident up here. Was scrambling away from me and seems to have banged his head real good.\u201d White took a step to one side, unveiling Joe lying face down in the snow. Hoss and Adam ran towards him, while White was still engrossed in taunting his long time friend.<\/p>\n

\u201cHow does it feel to lose a child, Ben? You\u2019ll know soon. Stubborn boy couldn\u2019t leave my Laura alone. He had to keep company with her, even though I disapproved. He took her from me, Ben. You Cartwrights were always taking things from me. You had the success at sea that I always wanted, and your son had the unconditional love from my daughter that I could never have. I thought that by killing him, you could experience the loss of something so valuable to you \u2013 just as I lost years ago. Its payback time, Ben, payback! That\u2019s what this is all about.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ben could not believe White\u2019s words. As he listened, he watched Adam and Hoss shed their coats and wrap them around their brother in a vain attempt to get him warm. His mind reeled with anger as he took in the sight before him.<\/p>\n

\u201cYou\u2019re insane Matthew!\u201d Ben cried, trying to keep the man\u2019s attention diverted from his sons. \u201cYou concocted this scheme to exact revenge on me and my family? You won\u2019t win, Matthew. As God as my witness, you will not win.\u201d<\/p>\n

As he thought of what White had done, Ben could not contain his anger any longer. With a running start, he threw himself onto White, blow after blow connecting as the two men fought in the wind driven snow. Both men battled until they reached a ledge of the summit, when White broke hold of Ben\u2019s grip.<\/p>\n

With his insanity now clear for all to see, he gave a wicked smile, and with a mad chuckle shouted over. \u201cI am going to join my Laura now, Ben. I will leave you to mourn the loss of your beloved son.\u201d In one movement, White turned and jumped off the ledge, his descent unable to be seen in the heavy snow, but the sound of his scream clearly heard until it faded away, far below. Shaking his head in disbelief, Ben turned quickly and ran to his sons who were still frantically trying to help their little brother.<\/p>\n

\u201cPa! Are you OK?\u201d asked Adam as he looked upon his father\u2019s bloodied face. \u201cFine, fine.\u201d Ben said dismissively as he knelt down at Joe\u2019s lifeless form. He brushed the ice and snow from Joe\u2019s face, and saw the bluish tinge that was on his lips. Looking up into the gray sky, he silently whispered, \u201cMarie, help him!\u201d<\/p>\n

Regaining his composure, Ben turned his attention back to Joe. \u201cLet\u2019s get him out of here.\u201d he said quietly. The two men knew by instinct what needed to be done. Hoss scooped Joe up like a fragile piece of china into his big arms, while Adam took his coat and adjusted it around Joe\u2019s small frame. Together, the family slowly descended the mountain, keeping the youngest Cartwright as safe and warm as they could.<\/p>\n

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Chapter 5<\/strong><\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

They were all bewildered when they smelled burning wood as they approached the vicinity of the cave where they first found Joe\u2019s clothing. Feeling cold and covered in snow, as they entered to their surprise they saw Lomasi standing before them. \u201cI couldn\u2019t wait any longer and I thought you may need my help once Nawat, I mean Joseph, was found. Lieutenant Walker gave me supplies to bring to you.\u201d<\/p>\n

Hoss ran towards Lomasi and the crackling fire that spat out welcomed warmth next to her. He placed Joe down softly on the surrounding blankets, stepping back as Lomasi leaned into Joe, his body shivering with cold as she quickly pulled dry blankets on top of him.<\/p>\n

Turning to Hoss she said, \u201cThere are some more blankets in the corner. Make yourselves warm or you too may succumb to the cold.\u201d All three men looked at each other incredulously for a moment then followed the orders of the woman before them.<\/p>\n

Hours later Lomasi had succeeded in bringing up Joe\u2019s body temperature ever so slowly, but all were concerned that he had not yet regained consciousness.<\/p>\n

Ben lifted his son\u2019s head and carefully probed around the back, finding a section of hair matted together. He pulled his fingers away to look at them. \u201cBlood,\u201d Ben said to no one in particular. \u201cHe must\u2019ve taken a heavy blow for such a deep gash.\u201d<\/p>\n

Adam and Hoss sensed their father\u2019s concern \u2013 what would another injury to his head do to Joe\u2019s returning memory?<\/p>\n

\u201cWe have to get him down from here and to a doctor \u2013 soon!\u201d said Hoss, his face etched with worry. \u201cHe can\u2019t stay up here like this!\u201d<\/p>\n

Lomasi looked up at the men surrounding her. \u201cIt is too soon for Nawat to be moved,\u201d she said quietly. \u201cHe is still very weak; taking him out in this weather would kill him. His body cannot take any more abuse.\u201d Adam nodded. \u201cLomasi is right. Joe can\u2019t be moved in this condition \u2013 he\u2019s been out in the elements too long as it is.\u201d<\/p>\n

Lomasi looked at Adam and smiled fondly, the first smile any of the Cartwrights had seen on the young woman\u2019s face. \u201cAdam, would you please help me to give Nawat some broth? He needs to get some nourishment.\u201d Adam knelt beside her and held his brother up as Lomasi gently and repeatedly poured the warming liquid down his throat, making sure he did not choke.<\/p>\n

Two days passed before the storm finally started to subside. During that time, it seemed to Ben that Lomasi never left Joe\u2019s side. Her ways were decisively different from theirs, and the Cartwrights watched helplessly as Lomasi continued to put herbal packs on Joe\u2019s head to bring down his fever. But it was to no avail as Joe still had not awoken and his fever continued to climb.<\/p>\n

At dinner, Lomasi broke the strained silence amongst them. \u201cThe spirits will help him once again,\u201d she said. Turning to her, Hoss\u2019 frustration came to the fore. \u201cSpirits? I don\u2019t believe that spirits are gonna help my brother, he still needs a doctor, and soon. Pa, how long are you gonna let her do these things to Joe? We have to get him back to civilization right quick!\u201d<\/p>\n

Ben\u2019s brown eyes blazed at his middle son. \u201cHoss! Everyone has their own ways of tending to the sick. In Lomasi world she and her people saved your brother\u2019s life once, and she has every right to her beliefs.\u201d Hoss\u2019 face reddened as he turned to Lomasi once more. \u201cI\u2019m so sorry, so sorry, it\u2019s just that seein\u2019 Joe lyin\u2019 there helpless like that, and I can\u2019t help him none\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

With kind eyes, Lomasi looked at the big, gentle man before her. \u201cHoss, I understand. Now that the weather has improved and Nawat is a little stronger, perhaps we can try to get him down from here and seek medical help.\u201d<\/p>\n

The next morning, Ben, Adam and Hoss packed their remaining supplies on their horses and the mule Lomasi had brought from the Army camp for the arduous ride down the mountain. They descended slowly and deliberately down the snow packed trail, with Hoss holding an unconscious Joe in front of him, wrapped from head to toe in blankets. It seemed like an eternity before they eventually arrived back at the Army camp they had left days ago.<\/p>\n

What was only a matter of minutes seemed like an eternity as Joe was brought into a warm tent and met by an Army Doctor who had just arrived at the post. The minutes continued to tick off as wife, father and brothers anxiously awaited some news of the injured Joe.<\/p>\n

When the doctor came out of the tent, the family rushed forward. Hoss, unable to contain himself was the first to speak. \u201cWhat\u2019s the diagnosis Doc? Is my little brother going to wake up and be okay?\u201d<\/p>\n

With a concerned countenance, the doctor began to speak. \u201cI think your brother has sustained quite a few blows to the head in a relatively short time, which has caused this prolonged unconsciousness. Will he wake up? I don\u2019t know the answer to that right now. Other than that, his pulse is regular and his vital signs are fine \u2013 whatever you folks did up there to treat him worked well.\u201d<\/p>\n

Hoss turned to Lomasi and gave her his best gap-toothed grin, sending her a message that words could not express. With furrowed eyebrows, Adam turned to the doctor. \u201cWhen can we start for home? It sounds to me as if we could start off tomorrow if Joe is stable.\u201d<\/p>\n

Nodding, the Doctor replied, albeit a little cautiously. \u201cYes, you could start for home tomorrow \u2013 but slowly, I can\u2019t emphasize that enough. Any more jolting of his head could send him deeper into unconsciousness and compromise his ability to wake up.\u201d<\/p>\n

In his heart, Adam knew that his brother would want to go home. But would he still be his brother when he awoke? With a sigh, Adam turned towards his family and Lomasi, the decision made. \u201cThen we set off for the Ponderosa tomorrow!\u201d<\/p>\n

The sun was barely over the horizon when Lomasi and the Cartwrights started for home. Lomasi was in the back of the wagon, delicately holding her husband\u2019s head to avoid injury. Hoss directed the wagon, veering from the many obstacles in the road adeptly while Ben and Adam followed behind on horseback.<\/p>\n

It was a slow ride back to the Ponderosa and it was nightfall before the family decided to stop for the night. Joe hadn\u2019t stirred during the entire trip, which worried everyone. Lomasi did not share her feelings of despair with Joe\u2019s family \u2013 instead, she went to a remote part of the camp to be alone.<\/p>\n

\u201cWhat\u2019s wrong with her?\u201d Hoss asked impatiently. \u201cDoes she think she\u2019s the only one who is upset around here?\u201d Ben turned to his middle son. \u201cNo Hoss, I don\u2019t think she believes that. But what I do think is that in her mind she sees herself alone, without her husband, and with a group of men who want to take her husband, as she knows him, away from her! And that cannot be a good feeling.\u201d<\/p>\n

Adam nodded in agreement. \u201cThink about it Hoss. How would you feel if you were outnumbered by a group of, let\u2019s call it what it is, strangers? How do you think you\u2019d act?\u201d<\/p>\n

Hoss\u2019 face started to redden as he gave thought to what he\u2019d been told. Embarrassed, he turned to his father and said, \u201cWell, I don\u2019t like her feeling that way. I am gonna have a talk with her right here and now.\u201d<\/p>\n

Grabbing Hoss\u2019 arm, Ben said, \u201cThat isn\u2019t a good idea right now Hoss. Let her be alone with her thoughts. She has a lot on her mind, as do we. Let\u2019s not interfere.\u201d Hoss shook his head disparagingly and went to lie next to Joe.<\/p>\n

As he settled into his bedroll, he whispered, \u201cDon\u2019t you worry none Shortshanks ~ I\u2019ll talk to that little lady of yours ~ you just work on opening those big ol\u2019 green eyes for all of us real soon, you hear?\u201d<\/p>\n

The new day came early. Up before dawn, Lomasi started breakfast then tended to Joe\u2019s needs and prepared him for the upcoming journey as Adam, Ben and Hoss awoke to the smell of bacon and coffee. Looking for Lomasi, Ben turned to find her curled next to her husband, stroking his face and speaking to him tenderly in a language that none of the Cartwrights understood. Walking to where she lay, Ben could only muster up two words.<\/p>\n

\u201cThank you\u201d he said softly, as Lomasi looked up at him.<\/p>\n

\u201cYou are quite welcome, Mr. Cartwright.\u201d she replied as she stood up to join him. Putting out his hand, Lomasi took it gingerly and arose, Joe\u2019s father and wife walking together to the camp fire, and joining Adam and Hoss as they began to eat.<\/p>\n

The family rode the remaining stretch of the trip home in relative silence. Everyone was lost in their own thoughts, wishing, hoping, that Joe would come back to them. Hoss and Adam longed to have their excitable, devil may care little brother back with them, while Ben wished to see his youngest son return to the life he loved \u2013 breaking-in horses, tending to the needs of the Ponderosa. Meanwhile, Lomasi prayed for the return of her beloved Nawat, the white man who entered her life so unexpectedly but made her so very happy.<\/p>\n

Hours later, the family arrived at the Ponderosa. Hearing hoof beats entering the yard, Hop Sing ran out the front door to greet the family he had missed so much. Hoss pulled on the reins softly, stopping the wagon. Tying their mounts, Ben and Adam ran towards the back of the wagon to unload Joe. Lomasi put Joe\u2019s head delicately in Ben\u2019s hands and he and Adam slowly made their way to the house. Once inside, both looked at each other as neither knew exactly where they should go next.<\/p>\n

Hesitating slightly, Ben told Adam, \u201cLet\u2019s put Joe in the guest room down here. It\u2019s only right that he be with his wife.\u201d Adam\u2019s face darkened as he heard his father\u2019s words. \u201cBut Pa, what if he wakes up and doesn\u2019t remember her?\u201d he asked a little tetchily. \u201cAfter all, he\u2019s our broth\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

Lomasi entered the room as Adam spoke. The expression on her face dropped as she realized the conversation taking place before her. Immediately realizing his mistake, Adam said, \u201cLomasi, I am so sorry. I was wrong, I\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cIt is fine Adam, I understand your concerns,\u201d Lomasi said quietly. \u201cBut he is my husband and for now he should stay with me.\u201d Feeling a little guilty, Adam and Ben brought Joe into the guest room.<\/p>\n

\u201cI will take care of Nawat from here.\u201d Lomasi said deliberately as she closed the door in front of them. Adam looked at Ben and Hoss incredulously. Ben shook his head and said, \u201cWe deserved that boys. As hard as is it, we have to understand that Lomasi has an interest in Joe\u2019s well being \u2013 even more than ours perhaps. We need to show her a little more understanding than we have, despite what we think are our best intentions.\u201d<\/p>\n

As the brothers contemplated Bens\u2019 words, Hop Sing padded into the Great Room, carrying Tehyn. \u201cI give her to Mrs. Little Joe now,\u201d he said proudly. Ben stood and walked over to Hop Sing. \u201cIt\u2019s okay Hop Sing, I\u2019ll take her to her mother,\u201d Ben said. Hop Sing dutifully placed the child in Ben\u2019s arms and headed back to the kitchen. His brown eyes misting, Ben looked at his granddaughter wistfully as he walked to the guest room door.<\/p>\n

Knocking softly, Ben heard Lomasi say quietly, \u201cCome in\u201d. Ben opened the door to find her sitting at Joe\u2019s bedside. Turning her head to see who had entered, Ben noticed tear streaked cheeks as she looked up at him. Her eyes brightened as she recognized the bundle safely nestled in Ben\u2019s strong arms.<\/p>\n

Rising, Lomasi quickly headed to Ben\u2019s side. Ben\u2019s baritone voice cracked as he whispered, \u201cHere is your daughter,\u201d and then placed Tehyn into Lomasi\u2019s outstretched hands.<\/p>\n

As he turned to leave the room, Lomasi spoke. \u201cMr. Cartwright, please stay here with me. I do not want to be alone.\u201d Ben gently put his arm around Lomasi and said, \u201cYou are not alone, Lomasi. Despite our differences, our different worlds, we are your family, and we care for you.\u201d Together they sat by Joe\u2019s bedside where both anxiously watched and waited for their loved one to return to them.<\/p>\n

The days went by with no change. Lomasi began to assimilate into the Cartwright family, all past discord behind them, and while the men took care of the ranch, Lomasi tended to Joe and Tehyn with Hop Sing\u2019s help. After dinner, Lomasi took care of Tehyn while Ben, Hoss and Adam each took turns at Joe\u2019s bedside, moving and massaging his limbs per Doc Martin\u2019s instructions to keep them from wasting away during his coma like state.<\/p>\n

Two weeks had passed when Ben was again sat at Joe\u2019s bedside. Falling into his late evening routine, he opened a book and began to read to his son.<\/p>\n

\u201cLet\u2019s see where we left off, Joseph. Oh yes, here we are ~ Chapter Ten. Sir Lancelot rode off\u2026\u201d
\nAll seemed to be normal until Ben saw a movement out of the corner of his eye. Shocked, he dropped the book to the floor and ran out into the Great Room. \u201cHe\u2019s moving, Joe\u2019s moving!\u201d Ben exclaimed. \u201cAdam, go get Doc Martin, quick!\u201d<\/p>\n

The family crowded around Joe\u2019s bedside as his head continued to move from side to side. A low moan began to emulate from his throat as his eyes fluttered open slowly and deliberately. Blinking furiously, Joe tried to focus his eyes. Looking up, he turned to the person on his left and softly said, \u201cPa?\u201d<\/p>\n

Ben bent down and with a thick voice replied, \u201cI am here son. We\u2019re all here.\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe continued to scan the room, looking for more familiar faces. Turning back to Ben, he coughed and pointed towards his throat. Hop Sing quickly poured a glass of water and helped Joe take a few sips. Looking up knowingly at his old oriental friend, he nodded his head in thanks.<\/p>\n

With tears flowing unashamedly, Hoss grabbed his brother\u2019s arm and said, \u201cShortshanks, you done gave us some scare. How are you feelin?\u201d<\/p>\n

Joe looked at his brother and replied, \u201cI am okay I guess. A bit tired, a bit of a headache, but I think I\u2019m fine.\u201d Joe again scanned the room and settled his eyes on Lomasi, her tear streaked face looking at him intently. Her heart sank as she realized that there was no hint of recognition at all in her husband\u2019s eyes.<\/p>\n

Realizing what was happening, Ben went over to Lomasi. Bringing her towards Joe\u2019s bedside, Ben began, \u201cJoseph, I don\u2019t know if you remember\u2026.\u201d
\nBut Lomasi quickly interrupted. \u201cI am the daughter of an old friend of your father, we met long ago. I doubt you\u2019d remember who I am.\u201d His eyes closing, Joe softly mumbled, \u201cYou\u2019re right m\u2019am. I don\u2019t right remember. In fact, I really don\u2019t remember much right now\u2026.\u201d And with those words, Joe once again fell fast asleep.<\/p>\n

The family left the room quietly and settled back into the Great Room. Lomasi could see the looks of concern on the family\u2019s faces and with a heavy sigh, she started to explain herself.<\/p>\n

\u201cNawat has come back, but not to me. He has returned to you, Ben, and his brothers. The man who lies in that bed is not my husband. He is Joseph Cartwright, your son. It is not fair of me to expect him to remember any more than he has. He is alive again and for that I am happy.\u201d<\/p>\n

Hoss walked over to Lomasi, and then knelt beside her. Taking her hand, he asked her, \u201cWhat are you saying then Lomasi? Are you and Tehyn gonna leave the Ponderosa?\u201d Lomasi sadly nodded. \u201cYes Hoss that is my intention. Nawat is no more, so there is no life for me here \u2013 not the life that I expected with my husband. The same way you had trouble adapting to my ways, now I am alone I am unable to adapt to your ways of life. And that\u2019s alright; we come from different worlds \u2013 worlds that under normal circumstances would never have met.\u201d<\/p>\n

The front door flew open as Adam and Doc Martin rushed in. As he regained his breath, Adam said, \u201cIs he awake? Is Joe OK?\u201d Ben smiled and nodded as he rose to escort the doctor into the guest room. Adam turned to Hoss and Lomasi and tried to read their faces. Looking at the two of them intensely, he asked, \u201cWhat\u2019s wrong you two? You don\u2019t look as happy as I would\u2019ve expected you to be. Is there something wrong with Joe?\u201d<\/p>\n

Hoss looked at Lomasi and answered his older brother. \u201cJoe\u2019s gonna be fine Adam, but there is a problem. Lomasi here wants to leave the Ponderosa with Tehyn because Joe didn\u2019t recognize her.\u201d Continuing in an upbeat tone, Hoss added, \u201cI think he will remember eventually, don\u2019t you?\u201d<\/p>\n

Pouring a brandy, Adam shook his head slowly. \u201cI\u2019m not a doctor Hoss, so I really can\u2019t answer that question. Let\u2019s see what Doc Martin has to say before anyone makes any decisions.\u201d<\/p>\n

Eventually, the guest room door opened, with Ben and Doc Martin coming to sit in the Great Room. Pouring a brandy for him and his guest, Ben asked, \u201cWhat do you think Paul? Is Joseph going to be all right?\u201d<\/p>\n

Accepting the brandy, Paul smiled. \u201cYes, that son of yours has beaten the odds again Ben. Don\u2019t know how he keeps doing it; I thought he used up those nine lives of his long ago.\u201d<\/p>\n

Adam turned to ask the doctor a question. \u201cDoc, how is his memory? How much does he remember? Will he remember more than he does now?\u201d<\/p>\n

Impatient that Adam hadn\u2019t asked what he wanted answered, Hoss interrupted with what he thought was the most important question. \u201cBottom line Doc \u2013 will Joe remember Lomasi and Tehyn?\u201d<\/p>\n

Doc Martin\u2019s face turned serious as he looked to Lomasi. He replied, \u201cAt this point, I don\u2019t believe that he will. When I asked him what his last memories were, he said that he remembered fighting with Captain White in a cave. Before that, he remembered coming home on the stage. He has no recollection at all of his life in between.\u201d<\/p>\n

Hoss looked up at Lomasi, who looked back at him with sad eyes. \u201cI will leave to go back to my people in the north who survived the Army attack,\u201d she said. \u201cIt is the Spirits who have decided that things have turned out this way and I must accept Nawat\u2019s choice. He is now Joseph.\u201d She walked over to Ben and asked, \u201cBen, do you have another room for me to sleep in tonight? I cannot stay in Nawa – – Joseph\u2019s room any longer.\u201d<\/p>\n

Taking her delicate hands in his, Ben asked her, \u201cAre you sure this is what you want Lomasi? You know that you and Tehyn are a part of our family. This house is your house.\u201d Lomasi nodded sadly.<\/p>\n

\u201cThank you Ben. I know that we are a part of your family, but you know as well as I that it has been hard on all of us. Without my husband, I must to go back to my people.\u201d With that, she took Tehyn from her cradle by the crackling fire and followed Ben upstairs.<\/p>\n

When Ben returned, he found his two sons sitting by the fire, deep in thought.<\/p>\n

\u201cA penny for them boys,\u201d Ben said as he sat beside them.<\/p>\n

Pulling his shirtwaist out of his pants as he sat, Adam began. \u201cPa, I am relieved and happy that Joe is okay, and that he has come back to us in every way \u2013 yet, I think I speak for both Hoss and I that we feel guilty \u2013 very guilty in fact, about feeling this way. I can\u2019t imagine Lomasi and Tehyn leaving the Ponderosa, but I completely understand why Lomasi feels it is necessary. Do we just let her go Pa?\u201d<\/p>\n

Hoss\u2019 face reddened as he listened to his brother. As much as he agreed with every word, his heart told him that he needed to try and do something more. He rose abruptly, mumbling a quick \u201cNite\u201d to both Ben and Adam as he took the stairs two at a time. Scratching his head, Adam inquired, \u201cWhat do you think that\u2019s about?\u201d as Ben just looked up the stairs and shook his head.<\/p>\n

Upstairs, Hoss knocked gingerly on Lomasi\u2019s door. \u201cCome in\u201d she said, and was surprised to see Hoss\u2019 massive presence walk inside. \u201cDo you have a minute, Lomasi?\u201d Hoss asked bashfully. Lomasi nodded in agreement as Hoss took residence in an old desk chair.<\/p>\n

As Hoss began to speak, he found the words difficult to say as he wanted. Slightly stuttering, he began, \u201cL-Lomasi, I realize things have happened very quickly, but are you doing the right thing? We can all see how much you love my little brother. Surely you could stay around for a while, get to know him. Maybe he would fall in love with you again!\u201d<\/p>\n

Lomasi put her hand against the door, trying to keep herself upright as the words Hoss had just spoken reverberated in her mind. Taking a deep sigh, Lomasi turned to Hoss and with tear filled eyes answered him.<\/p>\n

\u201cHoss, your words come as a quite a surprise to me. But you must know it could never be. We are of different cultures, different peoples. While he forgot his white man\u2019s world, we could be as one, but now\u2026.it can never be. As far as I am concerned, my husband is dead. I now mourn the loss of my beloved, the only man I have ever loved. He was my protector, my partner, my lover, the father of my child. Please say you can understand why I do this?\u201d<\/p>\n

As she spoke, Hoss\u2019 understood her feelings perfectly and nodded sadly then as he got up to leave, he took Lomasi into his arms. Tears fell from his face as he told her, \u201cI do understand Lomasi. But please promise me that you won\u2019t forget us, or let Tehyn forget her Pa.\u201d Lomasi looked up into Hoss\u2019 face and smiled.<\/p>\n

\u201cTehyn will know of her father and his bravery, and how he loved and protected us from all harm. I promise you Hoss, the memory of Nawat will never be forgotten \u2013 not by Tehyn, or by me.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Chapter 6 – Conclusion<\/strong><\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

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The sun rose above the rim of Lake Tahoe. Hop Sing quietly helped Lomasi prepare for her imminent departure later that morning. As she fed Tehyn by the fire, she felt a hand on her shoulder. Turning, she looked up to see a slightly frail but much improved Joe looking down at her. Smiling, he said,\u201cQuite an adorable little girl you have there. Can I hold her?\u201d Nodding, Lomasi handed Tehyn to Joe. She had to hide her tears as she heard Joe talking to the little bundle in his arms.<\/p>\n

\u201cHow are you doing today, precious child? You are quite beautiful, do you know that?\u201d<\/p>\n

Ben and Adam had started to descend the stairs but stopped abruptly when they saw the sight of Joe, Lomasi and Tehyn together. For a brief moment, both thought that perhaps Joe had regained his memories of his Indian life.<\/p>\n

Joe turned and looked up at the stairs. \u201cMornin Pa, Adam \u2013 did you see this little stunner? Her pa is going to have to beat them off with a stick when she gets older, that\u2019s for sure!\u201d he laughed as he went to give the child back to Lomasi, whose misery was clearly evident on her face. Seeing Lomasi\u2019s expression Joe grew serious. \u201cI\u2019m sorry m\u2019am, was it something I said?\u201d he asked.Lomasi shook her head.<\/p>\n

\u201cNo.\u201d She quietly told him, \u201cI lost my husband recently that is all.\u201d<\/p>\n

Taking the young woman into his arms, Joe said softly, \u201cI am sorry m\u2019am.\u201d Even though her husband\u2019s arms were around her once more, Lomasi realized that there was no love in their embrace. Separating from Joe, she turned to Ben and said, \u201cI am ready to go now.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ben helped Lomasi into the wagon, and after saying his private goodbyes to his granddaughter, placed Tehyn into Lomasi\u2019s arms. Lomasi leaned next to Ben\u2019s ear and said, \u201cThank you\u2026father. For everything.\u201d She kissed him on the cheek and squeezing her hand, Ben replied, \u201cNo, thank you Lomasi. For taking care of my son and making him happy. Know you are loved here and can return whenever you like.\u201d<\/p>\n

Adam looked at his father who gave a short nod and with a snap of the reins, led the horses out of the yard. As they disappeared around the edge of the barn, Ben turned to face his two sons, noticing Joe\u2019s face turn wistful as the wagon drove out of sight. \u201cAnything wrong Joseph?\u201d Ben asked.<\/p>\n

Joe replied softly, \u201cNo, Pa. Just wondering if Lomasi and her daughter will be okay. Must be hard to be without someone you love as much as she loved her husband.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ben and Hoss briefly glanced at each other, and nodding their heads in agreement to Joe\u2019s words, silently led their youngest son and brother back into the house and into their world once more.<\/p>\n

The End<\/p>\n

N.B. *Kuyuidika\u2026A tribe of the Paiutes, located near the site of Wadsworth on Truckee River.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Which World Survives?\u00a0 Joe’s life as he knows it has changed ~ and when he finds himself living in the world he knows along with the life of his past, which wins? \u00a0 \u00a0<\/p>\n

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