{"id":38834,"date":"2022-03-01T14:05:13","date_gmt":"2022-03-01T19:05:13","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/?p=38834"},"modified":"2026-03-11T15:34:51","modified_gmt":"2026-03-11T19:34:51","slug":"ponderosa-schoolmarm-cartwright-gals-a-romancing-the-ponderosa-spinoff-book-1-by-millieshepherd","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/?p=38834","title":{"rendered":"Ponderosa Schoolmarm &#8211; Cartwright Gals: A Romancing the Ponderosa Spinoff Book 1 (by millieshepherd)"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Summary: Madeline Cartwright, Ben&#8217;s oldest stepdaughter, is Virginia City&#8217;s new schoolteacher. She has a school program planned but doesn&#8217;t have anyone to build the stage she needs, that is until Kevin Butler steps in. Kevin and Madeline are very close to being enemies, so the sparks are bound to fly!<\/p>\n<p>Rating: T<\/p>\n<p>Word Count: 20,397<!--more-->Note: The Cartwright Gals trilogy is a spinoff series for Romancing the Ponderosa and it focuses on Ben&#8217;s three adult stepdaughters. It should be read in chronological order, starting with &#8220;Mrs. Little Joe&#8221;.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Romancing the Ponderosa series:<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/?p=38722\">Mrs. Little Joe (Book 1)<\/a><br \/>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/?p=38817\">The Redhead (Book 2)<\/a><br \/>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/?p=38825\">Leo (Book 3)<\/a><br \/>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/?p=38829\">Rose, My Love (Book 4)<\/a><\/p>\n<p><strong>Cartwright Gals Trilogy:<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/?p=38834\">A Romancing the Ponderosa &#8211; Spinoff Book 1<\/a><br \/>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/?p=38838\">Captive Heart &#8211; Spinoff Book 2<\/a><br \/>\nRyan &amp; Juliet &#8211; Spinoff Book 3<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>Ponderosa Schoolmarm<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Chapter 1<br \/>\n(<em>Madeline<\/em>)<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cClass you are dismissed!\u201d The room fills with the sound of books snapping shut and children\u2019s laughter. As I scan the swell of kids in the room, trying to decide which one to pick, I spot a sandy brown haired boy and call out, \u201cOakley, will you please clean the blackboard today?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes, Miss Cartwright.\u201d He answers, looking up from his books which he\u2019s stacking neatly, tying a piece of twine around them. He walks over to the blackboard, grabs the eraser and begins the daily chore of wiping it clean. I always try to choose a different student each day so that the chore isn\u2019t punishment; the corner\u2019s reserved for that. Sitting down behind my sturdy desk, I watch as the rest of my pupils filter out the door calling goodbyes to one another. Within seconds the only people in the room are Oakley and I.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMiss Cartwright?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes, Oakley?\u201d Glancing up from the paper I am grading, I look at the seven year old boy who\u2019s the spitting image of his father, Kevin Butler. Well, minus his kind, sparkling green eyes which I\u2019m guessing he inherited from his late mother. The poor child\u2019s been motherless ever since she died five years ago giving birth to another baby, who sadly also passed away. I didn\u2019t feel comfortable asking Mr. Butler how he lost his wife so I asked Pa instead and that\u2019s what he told me.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWho\u2019s going to build the stage for our school program?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOh, I was going to ask one of my brothers or Candy. Why?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWell, my Pa\u2019s real good at buildin\u2019 things with wood, I thought maybe he could do it for ya.\u201d He looks over his shoulder at me with a smile. \u201cHe built that desk you\u2019re sittin\u2019 at.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cHe did?\u201d I run my hand over the smooth surface of the desk. I didn\u2019t know Mr. Butler was a carpenter, too, let alone that good of one! This desk must have taken hours to make with all of its intricate details and the way it\u2019s completely smooth all over so there\u2019s not even the slightest chance of getting a splinter.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIt\u2019s pretty ain\u2019t it?\u201d He comes over and rests his elbow on my desk, plopping his chin into his hand. The smile he gives me is the exact replica of the smile I looked up at while dancing with his father three and a half months ago during the party my Pa threw. Grinning back at the sweet little boy in front of me, I reach out and wipe the chalk dust off his nose.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIt\u2019s pretty isn\u2019t it.\u201d I correct. \u201cOakley, you know your Pa and I aren\u2019t exactly friends so I\u2019m not sure if he\u2019d want to build it for me.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI know.\u201d He sighs. \u201cBut it\u2019s not for you, Miss Cartwright, it\u2019s for the whole school. Anyways if my Pa were to build it, it would last for years and years and years.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cSo you\u2019re saying that if one of my brothers or Candy were to build it, it would fall apart the first year?\u201d I tease, a smile on my lips, right brow raised a little.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOh, no, ma\u2019am!\u201d He exclaims, shaking his head. \u201cI didn\u2019t mean that at all.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI know, Oakley, I was just playing around with you.\u201d I laugh as his shoulders relax and his worried expression is replaced by a grin. We both glance at the schoolhouse door as a wagon pulls up outside. \u201cSounds like your Pa\u2019s here to get you.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">He runs back over to the blackboard and quickly scrubs off the two arithmetic problems he left when he walked over to talk to me. Putting the eraser away, he dusts his hands on his pants before grabbing his tied books and lunch pail off his desk near the front of the room. Tucking his books under his left arm, he throws his other hand up in a wave. \u201cSee ya tomorrow, Miss Cartwright!\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cGoodbye, Oakley.\u201d I call back as he runs towards the door. When he hears me, he glances over his shoulder with a smile and doesn\u2019t see his father step through the door as he crashes right into him. His books and lunch pail take flight as his backside hits the wooden floor. I cover my mouth with my hand to try and hide my grin as Oakley looks up with a stupied look.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cHiya, Pa!\u201d He laughs, his shock short lived.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAnd hello to you, too, Oak.\u201d Mr. Butler laughs, pulling him to his\u00a0 feet and dusting off the back of his pants. Oakley quickly gathers his scattered things. \u201cOakley, go on out to the wagon, will you? I\u2019ll be out in a second, I wanted to talk to Miss Cartwright for a moment.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cSure thing, Pa.\u201d He zips out the door.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMiss Cartwright?\u201d Mr. Butler begins, taking his black cowboy hat off. The way he bends the brim back and forth in his hands makes it look like he\u2019s nervous or something.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes, Mr. Butler?\u201d I ask, my voice polite.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWell, uh, I\u2019m going out to the Ponderosa to look at some horses your Pa\u2019s wanting to sell, so I was wondering if I could take you home since I was going that way already.\u201d I toss the idea around in my head a moment, trying to decide. Kevin Butler and I aren\u2019t exactly enemies but we\u2019ve rubbed each other the wrong way since the very beginning. Well, not exactly the very beginning because it wasn\u2019t until after we argued at that party that we began to dislike one another. That argument was just the first of the many we\u2019ve had in the short amount of time we\u2019ve known each other. But despite the mutual dislike between us, we try to be civil, polite, and as friendly as possible to each other.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMr. Butler, it\u2019s very kind of you to offer to take me home, thank you.\u201d I respond, my mind made up. \u201cI have a few things to gather up, so if you\u2019ll give me a moment, I\u2019ll be ready in a second.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOf course, I\u2019ll be in the wagon.\u201d Slapping his hat back on, he slips out the door. I quickly put all my papers in a stack and shove them into my black bag that Adam gifted me the day before my first day of school. He said that every teacher needed something to safely transport her papers safely back and forth. Standing up, I look around the room, making sure it\u2019s all clean and tidy before I walk out the door. Shutting it behind me, I pull the key out of the pocket of my light brown skirt. As I turn the key in the lock, I hear the wagon seat creak behind me. Glancing over my shoulder, I see Mr. Butler climbing down from where he was sitting on the bench. Walking over to my blue roan horse, Trixie, he grabs her reins from off the hitching post and ties them to the back of the wagon.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Still watching him, I step up to the side of the wagon and climb onto the seat. Just as I sit down, I feel my skirt tug and hear a loud rip. My shoulders fall and a small huff escapes my lips as I reach down to tug my skirt free. Peering down at it, I see a four inch tear straight up the side. Looks like my sewing box will be coming out tonight if I want to wear this skirt again tomorrow like I plan to.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Mr. Butler clambers up onto the other side of the wagon seat and it tilts to the left under his weight. I have to quickly grab the handle beside me to keep from sliding sideways into him. He glances over at me briefly before turning to Oakley behind us in the bed of the wagon. \u201cAll ready back there, little man?\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes, sir.\u201d He chirps back. Even though the father and son duo look the same, their temperaments are nearly opposite. While Mr. Butler is hot tempered and almost nasty at times, Oakley is sweat tempered and so kind I don\u2019t think he\u2019d hurt a fly. I\u2019m sure Mr. Butler is a kind man once you get to know him but I have a feeling Oakley inherited his gentle spirit from his mother.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cGuess what, Pa?\u201d Oakley breaks the silence after we\u2019ve ridden about eight or nine minutes into our ride to the Ponderosa.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMiss Cartwright told us today that at the end of the school year we\u2019re going to have a school program. It\u2019s goin\u2019 to be like one of those fancy plays you can go watch in the big cities. All of us are goin\u2019 to have words we have to remember so we can say them in front of everyone!\u201d I can\u2019t help but smile at the excitement in his voice. When I told the class my plans this morning, the whole room erupted into one big cheer. A loud one at that!<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThat sounds very exciting.\u201d He glances over at me with a smile nearly as big as my own. \u201cI\u2019m sure it\u2019ll be a whopping success!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cBut we\u2019ve got a bit of a problem, Pa.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAnd what can that be?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWe need a stage built an\u2019 we ain\u2019t got anyone to build it.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019m going to ask one of my brothers or Candy to build it for me.\u201d I quickly say before Oakley gets a chance to ask his father to do it for me.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOh, well, Miss Cartwright, if none of them can do it for you, I\u2019d gladly step in and do it for you.\u201d He nods. \u201cI enjoy working with wood, and if I don\u2019t say so myself, I\u2019m pretty good at it, too.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIf my desk in the schoolhouse is any indicator of your skill, you\u2019re a very fine carpenter. But I\u2019m sure one of my brothers will be able to build it for me.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAlright, but my offer still stands.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019ll remember, Mr. Butler\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOh, and thank you, I\u2019m glad you like your desk.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou\u2019re welcome, it\u2019s the best desk I\u2019ve had in the seven years I\u2019ve taught school.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Chapter 2<br \/>\n(<em>Kevin<\/em>)<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMr. Cartwright, these broodmares are just what I need to grow my ranch.\u201d I glance over the chestnut\u2019s neck that I\u2019m stroking to look at the older man who\u2019s almost like a father to me. He stands casually leaning against the fence, watching me inspect his mares. \u201cYour stock\u2019s always the best for miles around and I\u2019ve never seen better mares than these. In fact, they\u2019re better than the ones I already have.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWell, thank you, Kevin.\u201d He smiles. \u201cYou know the boys and I put a lot of hard work and pride into our stock. Both horses and cattle. But those horses you have, they\u2019re something, too, especially that white stallion of yours.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYeah, Prince is something to behold.\u201d Giving the mare a final pat, I duck back under the fence. On the other side now, I stand beside Mr. Cartwright, propping my elbows on the top rail. \u201cI think I\u2019ll take the chestnut, the buckskin, and the bay.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI had a feeling those would be the ones you\u2019d want.\u201d He slaps me on the back with a grin. \u201cLet\u2019s go into the house and figure out the price. I\u2019m sure my wife will have something for you to drink. If we do all our business out here and I don\u2019t invite you into the house, Rose\u2019ll skin me alive!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cSomething to drink would be nice, my throat is quite dry. Oakley\u2019s already in the house, I\u2019ll have to go in to round him up anyways.\u201d We turn towards the house just as Adam rides into the yard. Waving, he jumps down. I wave back, calling, \u201cHello, Adam.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cKevin, Pa.\u201d He nods. \u201cKevin, I figure you\u2019re here to buy some broodmares. Let me guess, you\u2019re buying that chestnut, buckskin, and the bay.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYep, how\u2019d you know?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThey\u2019re the best of the bunch and you only buy the best mares to breed that stallion of yours with.\u201d He laughs as we walk together towards the front door.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cHow\u2019re those grandsons of mine?\u201d Ben asks, throwing his arm around Adam&#8217;s shoulders.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cGrowing like weeds!\u201d Adam shakes his head in amazement. \u201cIt\u2019s like every time I blink, they\u2019ve gotten bigger.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cHow old are they now?\u201d I ask. I can\u2019t remember when his twins were born but I know it wasn\u2019t that long ago.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThree and a half months.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI can remember when Oakley was that age.\u201d I laugh, shaking my head as we step through the door. \u201cNow the little man\u2019s seven.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Oakley\u2019s head pops up from the other side of the sofa, a grin spreading across his face when he sees me. He hops off the sofa and runs over to me, wrapping his arms around my waist in a hug. I ruffle his hair before he lets go. Glancing to the left, Miss Cartwright catches my eye. She\u2019s sitting at the dining room table, nose buried in her school papers but she looks up, sees Adam and her smile is nearly as big as the one still plastered to Oakley\u2019s face. Standing up, she walks over to the bunch of us men making our way to Mr. Cartwright\u2019s desk in the corner.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAdam, I didn\u2019t think you\u2019d be here today.\u201d Her smile is still bright on her face.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI had a few things I needed to talk to Pa about.\u201d He smiles back, wrapping his arm around her shoulders in a hug.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWell, once you\u2019re finished, I have something I wanted to ask you.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAlright, I\u2019ll stick around.\u201d He tosses her a wink and she turns to go back to her papers.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Sitting down in the chair in front of Mr. Cartwright\u2019s desk, I hear her say something to someone else. I look over my shoulder and see the now familiar figure of Mrs. Cartwright coming our way with a tray. Adam props himself on the edge of the desk just as she circles around behind me to lay her tray down on Mr. Cartwright\u2019s right side. They share a smile as she turns to me, \u201cKevin, would you like a cup of coffee?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes, ma\u2019am. That would be nice.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAdam how about you?\u201d She glances up at him.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019ll gladly take one, Ma.\u201d She hands me a delicate looking china cup and then pours Adam a cup. Oakley goes back up to the sofa, apparently finding our adult business boring. He plops back down again, picking up the book he was reading.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Our business is completed in less than fifteen minutes and standing up, I shake both Mr. Cartwright and Adam\u2019s hand. We walk back across the room towards the door but all of us turn to look when we hear someone skipping down the stairs. It\u2019s Mr. Cartwright\u2019s middle daughter, the auburn haired one who Candy\u2019s been sparking. She smiles at all of us as she makes her way over to the table, sitting down across from the oldest Miss Cartwright. After seeing who it is, Adam turns to walk out the door but stops suddenly, turning back. \u201cHey, Madeline, what was it you wanted to ask me?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOh, I\u2019m planning a school program and I need a small stage for it.\u201d She turns sideways in her chair to look at him. \u201cI was wondering if you could build it for me.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhen do you need it?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWell, I plan on having the program for the end of the school term but I wanted the stage to be a permanent structure in the schoolyard. I figured it would be a good addition and it could be used for more than just school things as well.\u201d She explains, as Adam steps up to the table to talk to her better. \u201cSince the winter months are coming up, I thought it would be a good idea to go ahead and get it built before the first solid hard freeze. Plus if we were to wait until spring, there might not be enough time to get it built since we would have to wait on the ground to thaw, which might take quite a bit of time.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThat sounds like a good idea but unfortunately I\u2019m going to be too busy to do it for you.\u201d He sighs. \u201cI have that timber contract that\u2019s got to be finished by the end of November. Maybe Joe or Hoss can do it.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cJoe, Hannah, and Lilia Marie are going to San Francisco at the end of the week.\u201d Mr. Cartwright says. \u201cThey\u2019re going to be there for a little over two weeks doing some business for me in preparation for next year\u2019s cattle drive.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOh, I forgot about their trip.\u201d Miss Cartwright sighs, plopping her cheek into her hand. \u201cIs Hoss doing anything?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cHoss came by earlier when I was the only one home.\u201d Her mother chimes in. \u201cLeo and the little ones have some sort of stomach sickness and he said he\u2019s up to his ears in work trying to keep up with his chores and Leo\u2019s. I was going to send Jewels out there to give him a hand but he doesn\u2019t want anyone around just in case it\u2019s catching.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWell, I guess that leaves Candy.\u201d She looks up at her sister across the table. \u201cBrie?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cCandy\u2019s going to start rounding up strays on Monday and he won\u2019t be back for a while.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMiss Cartwright, I could build the stage for you.\u201d I offer, speaking up.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThat\u2019s very kind of you, Mr. Butler, but I\u2019m sure you\u2019re very busy with your ranch.\u201d Her words are said kindly, but we both know the real reason why she doesn\u2019t want to accept my offer and it doesn\u2019t have anything to do with my ranch. The two of us don\u2019t exactly get along, we\u2019re like oil and water together. We both have hot tempers and even though she has better control of her\u2019s, almost every time we talk, we end up butting heads and our conversation turns into an argument. But with all that pushed to the side, I still would like to build that stage for her.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIt isn\u2019t a problem, Miss Cartwright.\u201d I nod. \u201cI could come by after school hours and work on it until it\u2019s almost dark each day. And when I need to, I could even work on it on the weekends.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She looks at me for a moment, obviously thinking about what I just said, the same expression on her face that she had when I asked if I could bring her home. Sticking her hand out for me to shake, she says, \u201cAlright, Mr. Butler, you\u2019ve got yourself a job building that stage. My Pa and I discussed it last night and he agreed to supply everything that\u2019s needed plus pay the builder fifteen dollars when he\u2019s finished.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019ll come up with a design for it tonight and bring it by the schoolhouse tomorrow when I pick up Oakley.\u201d I let go of her hand. \u201cYou can tweak it to your liking and then I\u2019ll get the supplies to start building on Saturday.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cSounds just fine, Mr. Butler.\u201d She nods, giving me that overly polite smile.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Chapter 3<br \/>\n(<em>Madeline<\/em>)<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAlright class, I\u2019ve got everyone\u2019s parts written out for the school program.\u201d Standing, I grab my stack of papers and begin to walk up and down the aisle between the desks, handing the right ones to their new owners. I stayed up till nearly one thirty last night writing them and even though it\u2019s not noon yet, I\u2019m already feeling it. My hands now empty, I stifle a yawn as I walk to my desk. Sitting back back down in my chair I look at the excited faces of my students again. \u201cNow, I know the program isn\u2019t until spring but I thought you all would like a lot of time to memorize everything. And since everyone\u2019s part is a different character, I also thought it would be nice if you had costumes, which of course take time and money to make. Hopefully with this much time we can get everything ready without rushing at the end. You know, take our time and drag it out so it\u2019s more enjoyable. Like when you lick a piece of candy really slowly to savor it and make it last longer than if you were to bite it off in chunks.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">After the class quiets back down, I look at my watch and seeing that it\u2019s five minutes till twelve, I dismiss them for lunch. The room is quickly emptied and even though I\u2019d rather eat my own lunch, I push myself to my feet. Walking over to the big blackboard, I begin to write out the arithmetic problems for our next lesson. Standing on my tip toes, I reach up and start with easy problems and as I travel down, each row gets harder with the bottom row ending in complex long division for my oldest student, Hattie Miller.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Laying down the chalk, all finished, I dust my hands briefly on my skirt since it\u2019s already smudged in chalk dust. When I drop it back down, the tear from yesterday catches my eye. With a sigh, I walk back over to my desk, plopping tiredly into my chair. I forgot to sew that rip last night like I had intended and I was too tired to notice it this morning. I\u2019ll have to fix it tonight so Hop Sing can wash it for me if I want to wear it on Monday. I don\u2019t have too many clothes, let alone work appropriate clothes. Pa tried to buy me new ones before I started teaching but the only thing I let him purchase was that purple party dress I wore to their wedding. I make my own money to not be a burden to my parents and also to help out, so therefore I buy my own clothes. But I have a bad habit of buying more books or things for my class instead of the clothes I need. I\u2019m really surprised that this skirt didn\u2019t split in two when it ripped, especially since it\u2019s five years old and I\u2019ve worn it nearly everyday.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Looking at my watch again, I jump slightly when I see there\u2019s only about eight minutes left of the lunch break. Quickly pulling out the sandwich Hop Sing packed for me, I inhale it with a very unlady-like speed, glad no one\u2019s in the classroom to see me eat my lunch like a heathen. My sandwich gone, I glance back at my watch. I still have two minutes to spare. Standing up, I slowly walk across the room towards the door. I bounce on my toes slightly, trying to wake myself up since the food in my stomach, even though it got there quickly, is making me even sleepier than I already was. Stepping outside, I glance around making sure none of the kids ran off as I reach up and pull the rope attached to the bell. As it chimes, all the kids skid to a halt and quickly grab their lunch pails, taking back off into the schoolhouse.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The day seems to drag on, yet at the same time go quickly. When I wasn\u2019t interacting with any of the students, I kept catching myself trying to doze off so to keep myself awake, I laid my hand in my lap and whenever I felt myself drifting towards dreamland, I gave my thigh a sharp pinch. I\u2019ll probably have a small bruise there now but at least it kept me from falling asleep and embarrassing myself in front of my class. Feeling like it should be nearly three o\u2019clock, I pull out my watch again for what seems like the hundredth time today. A quiet sigh escapes me when I see that it really is three o\u2019clock this time. I\u2019ve never been happier to say, \u201cClass you\u2019re dismissed, I\u2019ll see you all on Monday morning. Make sure you finish all the assignments I gave you. Oakley, I know I asked you yesterday, but would you please clean the blackboard again?\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes, ma\u2019am, of course.\u201d He quickly puts his things down and walks over to the board. The loud room rapidly quiets as the students filter out the door and within minutes the only sound is Oakley\u2019s quiet scrubbing. I begin to grade a spelling paper that\u2019s in front of me but the words blur horribly. After closing and opening my eyes, I try again but they don\u2019t clear. With a sigh I open my desk drawer and gently run my finger over the frame of my glasses. I only need them when I\u2019m extremely tired and I haven\u2019t needed to wear them in a while. They aren\u2019t the most comfortable things in the world and they make me look shrewish and mean, well at least that\u2019s what Jewels told me. Hearing the scrubbing stop across the room, I glance up just as Oakley turns towards me. \u201cMiss Cartwright, since my Pa ain\u2019t here yet, can I go outside?\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOf course you can but make sure to wear your coat, it\u2019s chilly out there.\u201d After slipping his coat on, he flies out the door, completely forgetting to shut it behind him. Not wanting to get up or yell for him to come back, I just leave it open. It\u2019s a little stuffy in here anyhow so the cool air feels good. I look back down at the paper and then over at my glasses again, deciding to ignore the both of them right now. Dropping my face into my hands, I let myself drift into a light doze. At least this time with my head propped up there\u2019s less of a chance for it to fall forward and smack my desk.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMiss, Cartwright, are you all right?\u201d The sound of Mr. Butler\u2019s voice makes my eyes open and my head swivel up out of my hands. I didn\u2019t hear him pull up outside or step through the open door. I must have dozed off deeper than I thought. I quickly sit up straight in my chair, hoping that I don\u2019t look like a mess.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes, I\u2019m all right, Mr. Butler.\u201d He continues to give me a worried, concerned look. \u201cI\u2019m just tired, I stayed up really late last night preparing the written portion of the program.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOh, I\u2019m glad that\u2019s all. I thought you had gotten sick or something.\u201d He tosses his hat onto one of the desks in the front row and pulls a folded piece of paper out of his back pocket. \u201cI brought the plans I drew up last night.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Unfolding the paper, he smooths it out on my desk right in front of me. I blink and realize my eyes are still blurry, so quickly reaching down into my drawer, I pull out my glasses. As I slip them on I get that odd feeling like I\u2019m getting stared at. Looking up, I find Mr. Butler watching me with a surprised expression. Apparently my glasses have caused him a little bit of surprise, but ignoring him I study the design in front of me.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIt\u2019s quite big.\u201d I comment after I read his extremely neat figures beside it indicating the measurements.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI know, I did that on purpose.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cDon\u2019t you think a forty foot long stage is a little on the big side?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cNo, not really.\u201d His right brow moves up a little. \u201cOnce all your students are up there, there needs to be enough space for them all.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMr. Butler, I only have fifteen students.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThen it\u2019s just the right size. It would be a tight fit for fifteen kids to be moving around if it were smaller.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cBut all of them won\u2019t be on it all at once except for the very ending.\u201d I insist, my temper beginning to flare and take control. He takes a deep breath and it looks like his is beginning to, too.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIf I\u2019m remembering correctly,\u201d he practically growls back, \u201cyou said that the stage could be used for more than just the school, right?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes, I did say that. Why?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWell, if that were to happen, then it would be grown adults using it and it would be just the right size. Not too big, not too small.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cBut I still think it\u2019s too large!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat I don\u2019t understand is why you\u2019re so fired up about the size of this dang stage, anyway!\u201d He slams both of his hands down on the desk, glaring down at me, eyes flashing fire. \u201cIt\u2019s not like you\u2019re the one paying for it. Your father is!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">His words somehow get past my anger and bring me to my senses. Why in the world am I arguing about something this silly? I guess I\u2019m way more tired than I thought. I open my mouth to answer but hearing the floor creak over by the door, we both turn to look. Oakley stands in the doorway, green eyes wide as he watches us, \u201cPa?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOakley, go get in the wagon, we\u2019re almost done here.\u201d His son turns back around and does what he\u2019s told. Mr. Butler spins on his heels, facing me again. \u201cI\u2019ll pick up the supplies in town this weekend and start on the stage on Monday, but I\u2019m making it the size I planned.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">He turns and walks towards the door, boot heels clicking across the floor. Suddenly remembering something Pa told me to give him and not wanting this conversation to end like this on such a sour note, I jump to my feet, pulling a paper out of my skirt pocket, \u201cMr. Butler, wait!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">He stops in the doorway and turns to look back as I rush over to him. In my haste I stub my toe on one of the desks. I try to hide the pain but looking up I see him smirking at me. Giving him back a smirk, I hold out the folded piece of paper. \u201cPa told me to give this to you. Show it to the store clerks in town tomorrow and they\u2019ll know to put everything on Pa\u2019s tab.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThank you.\u201d He reaches out and takes it, slipping it into his pocket with his design. He nods and turns to step out the door but I quickly throw out my hand and touch his arm, stopping him.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMr. Butler, I\u2019m sorry for losing my temper a few seconds ago.\u201d I apologize, my pride taking a small bruise. \u201cEven though it\u2019s not a very good excuse, I\u2019m really tired today, I\u2019m sorry. I think the stage will be the perfect size.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIt\u2019s all right, ma\u2019am.\u201d He tips his hat at me and steps out the door.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Chapter 4<br \/>\n(<em>Madeline<\/em>)<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhoa, Trixie.\u201d I pull her to a stop in front of the dressmaker&#8217;s shop the next day. Last night while I was trying to mend my skirt, I ended up ruining it instead. The fabric just fell apart in my hands. I\u2019m honestly surprised it lasted this long, so this morning after throwing on my other simple skirt I rode into town with money in my pocket. Money to buy fabric this time, not books. Pa tried to offer me money but I declined since I have more than enough to buy the fabric needed to replace my brown skirt. Swinging myself out of my saddle, I rub Trixie\u2019s face as she nuzzles her nose into my neck. \u201cGood girl, Trix.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Looping my reins around the hitching post, I skip up onto the sidewalk and into the dressmaker\u2019s shop. The bell above the door rings and the familiar face of Miss Young peers out of the back room at me. Her face lights up in a beautiful smile as she calls out, \u201cBe with you in a moment, Miss Cartwright.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOh, don\u2019t rush, I\u2019m in no hurry.\u201d I walk over to her table full of fabric bolts. Searching for a fabric similar in color to my skirt, I trail my fingers over the different bolts in front of me, marveling over how so many of them look very similar in texture yet feel so different. Miss Young sweeps back into the room, her cheerful spirit lighting up the shop.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cNow what can I do for you, Miss Cartwright?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWell, first off just call me Madeline.\u201d I laugh. \u201cWhen I\u2019m outside of my classroom it feels odd to be called Miss Cartwright.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAlright,\u201d she laughs and it sounds almost like a bird song, \u201cbut only if you call me Ellie.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAgreed!\u201d I smile. \u201cEllie, I need brown fabric for a skirt.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat type of skirt?\u201d She asks, shuffling through the bolts of fabric. Just as she pulls out a bolt of brown fabric nearly the same color as my old skirt, a bolt of royal purple fabric catches my eye. I gasp in awe. It\u2019s a stunning shade which just happens to be my favorite and not only my favorite, but the color I\u2019ve always dreamed of having a dress made in. Hearing my gasp, Ellie asks, \u201cMadeline, what\u2019s wrong? Don\u2019t you like this fabric?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cNo, that brown fabric is just right but,\u201d I reach out and touch the dazzling purple peering out at me. It feels butter soft and even though it\u2019s silk, it isn\u2019t thick but thin and airy, \u201cthis fabric is, is\u2026\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cDivine.\u201d Ellie finishes for me as she shoves the other bolts to the side to get to it. Pulling it out of the stack, she unwinds a section of it and holds it up to me. \u201cAnd not only divine but the perfect shade for you!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAnd way out of my price range.\u201d Pulling the end towards me to look at the price tag, I cringe. \u201cToo bad. But I don\u2019t need a fancy dress, I already have that party dress you made for me for my parents\u2019 wedding.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWho says a girl can only have one party dress?\u201d She cocks her right brow up at me, a small grin playing on her lips.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cBut it\u2019s too expensive.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWell, the Cartwrights are known for throwing large parties and I do remember you sayin that you like to sew your own clothes.\u201d She says slowly, her grin turning mischievous. \u201cIf you were to, say, sew the dress yourself, there\u2019s a possibility the price just might lower.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI can\u2019t let you do that for me.\u201d I shake my head, putting the bolt of beautiful fabric back down. \u201cI need the brown fabric, not this.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou sure are stubborn!\u201d She exclaims, laughing. \u201cBut I\u2019m going to try and break that stubbornness of yours with a deal you\u2019ll never be able to resist. I\u2019ll give you the whole bolt for twenty dollars if you\u2019ll sew it yourself and go on a lunch date with me next Saturday.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cTwenty dollars!\u201d I feel my eyes widen in my face. \u201cIt\u2019s eight fifty a yard and there\u2019s nearly a full bolt here. Probably enough for a whole dress, a skirt and then some. I\u2019d be stealing it with only giving you twenty dollars for it!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI know.\u201d She giggles.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou know?\u201d My brows nearly reach my hairline.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019ve had this bolt for over a year now.\u201d She explains. \u201cAll of the richest ladies in Virginia City have cast it to the side either because of the price, the color or they said it was too elegant of a fabric for the wild west. In a way you\u2019re doing me a favor by taking it from me at that price, especially since it was gifted to me. So, all in all, I&#8217;m not losing any profit.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I look at her, studying her face to see if she\u2019s really serious or not. I let out a sigh and smile when she nods again pushing the bolt towards me. \u201cOh alright, Ellie, I\u2019ll buy it.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">With a huge grin pushing her cheeks up, she grabs both the purple and brown bolts. Carrying them over to her cutting table she begins cutting the brown after I tell her how much I need. Wandering over to the shelf stocked with thread and other sewing notions, I pick out a purple thread and snag the right amount of buttons for the back of the dress. Looking at them in my hands, it dawns on me that there\u2019s only twenty dollars in my pocket. Only enough for the purple fabric and nothing else, especially since I had planned on getting lunch at the hotel. With a sigh, I put the thread and buttons back.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou\u2019re going to need those.\u201d Ellie must have been watching me. \u201cCan\u2019t sew a dress without thread.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019m not going to be able to buy that fabric after all, Ellie.\u201d I sigh, turning to face her, my dreams feeling crushed. \u201cI just remembered I only brought twenty dollars with me and that\u2019s not enough for the silk, the cotton, and the notions plus lunch.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWho says I wanted it all right now?\u201d She puts her elbows on the table, leaning into it, resting her chin in her hand. \u201cThe brown fabric will be two dollars and that thread and ten buttons add up to thirty-five cents. In total, that\u2019s twenty-two dollars and thirty-five cents. How about you give me fifteen dollars today, that leaves you enough for lunch, and then on Saturday you bring the leftover seven thirty-five?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou\u2019d let me do that?\u201d She nods at me, so I quickly grab the thread and buttons back off the shelf, laying them on the table. \u201cYou\u2019ve got yourself a deal!\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The fabric is quickly packaged up and paid for. Picking it all up, my arms full, I head towards the door. Ellie walks beside me to open it for me since there\u2019s no way I can. \u201cTill Saturday.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cSee you then.\u201d I step out the door and up to Trixie where I quickly tie my package down behind my saddle. Deciding to leave her here and walk to the hotel, I head down the sidewalk, boots clicking quietly on the wooden planks.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Nearly halfway to the hotel, three drunks stagger up to me suddenly. They\u2019re foul smelling and the smiles they give me are sloppy and crooked from the amount of alcohol running through their systems. The three of them surround me and I can\u2019t get past without shoving my way through.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWell, lookee here, if it ain\u2019t the Ponderosa schoolmarm.\u201d The one on my right crows. I cringe at the term Ponderosa schoolmarm, it\u2019s something that the town dubbed me after I became a Cartwright. Truly I don\u2019t mind it since most people use it in a nice way, but it makes me feel old.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cSure is, Duffy.\u201d The one in front of me cackles. Reaching out, he grabs my hand in his grubby one. Lifting it, he kisses the top of it. I feel bile rise in the back of my throat when I see his lips leave a greasy, brown smudge on my hand. \u201cHey, teach, you think you can learn us how to read an\u2019 write?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019m sure she can.\u201d The third one on my left, wraps his arm around my shoulders. Fear, panic, and disgust fill my body as I feel myself stiffen but he doesn\u2019t notice. \u201cRight, hun?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019m sorry, gentlemen, but I can\u2019t teach any classes right now.\u201d I try to push his arm off but it doesn\u2019t budge. \u201cNow, if you\u2019d excuse me, I have things to do and places to go.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cBut we ain\u2019t done talkin\u2019 to ya.\u201d The one named Duffy interrupts. \u201cRight, boys?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cRight!\u201d They both chime.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019m sorry, but I really need to go.\u201d Panic begins to take over and desperation makes me begin to lose my temper. Bending my knees slightly to make myself shorter, I shove his arm off my shoulders and yank my hand away from the one in front of me. They both look surprised but then their surprise turns to anger.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWell, when we say we ain\u2019t done, we ain\u2019t done.\u201d The one who\u2019s arm I shoved off, grabs my arm. His rough, tight grip makes me flinch but it also causes my temper to snap.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cLet go of my arm!\u201d I growl, my insides boiling, but his grip only tightens. \u201cI said, let go of my arm!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhy would I want to do that fer?\u201d He cackles.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThe lady asked you to let go of her arm.\u201d The three of them jump, fear in their eyes at the sound of Mr. Butler\u2019s voice. Relief spreads through my body and I feel the drunk\u2019s hand release my arm. Mr. Butler towers over all three, a dark almost scary look on his face. \u201cYou three best get out of here before I give you a licking you won\u2019t be able to forget for quite some time.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">They scurry across the street, tails tucked between their legs. I look down at my light blue blouse and see a smudge where his hand was on my sleeve. It\u2019ll have to be washed before Monday. Mr. Butler turns towards me, laying his hand gently on my shoulder, \u201cAre you all right, Miss Cartwright? Did they hurt you?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019m all right and no, they didn\u2019t hurt me, thankfully.\u201d I give him a small smile. \u201cIf you didn\u2019t show up, I don\u2019t know what I would\u2019ve done.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019m glad I got here in time. Now, if you don\u2019t mind, I\u2019d like to walk you wherever it is you\u2019re going.\u201d He offers me his arm, which I take gratefully. \u201cWhere are you headed?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI was on my way to the hotel to get some lunch.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOakley and I were just about to head there ourselves.\u201d He points briefly over at his wagon in front of the general store. It\u2019s full of supplies for the stage and Oakley\u2019s sitting on the seat, his back to us. \u201cCare if we join you?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou\u2019re more than welcome to.\u201d I glance up at him with a wide smile. \u201cEating alone isn\u2019t one of my favorite things.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Chapter 5<br \/>\n(<em>Kevin<\/em>)<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Driving to the schoolhouse, wagon full of supplies, Oakley on the seat beside me, I absently hum a tune, the scene from on the street today playing\u00a0 in my head. Something inside of me cracked when I saw Miss Cartwright being hounded by those drunken fools. Even though we don\u2019t get along and she\u2019s not exactly my favorite person, it made me angry to see the way they were touching her, especially since I could see the discomfort and fear in her eyes. But as I walked towards them, something made that temper of hers let loose. It almost made me smile the way she shoved those two off of her, that is until that idiot grabbed her arm. With all the times we\u2019ve argued, I\u2019ve never heard her voice so angry. The relief on her face was payment enough for getting those drunks out of her business. Well, that and the lunch we had later. She was different during lunch, calm, kind, and polite. Granted she\u2019s always polite and kind but I can tell it&#8217;s always forced, this time it seemed genuine. It was like she put down the guard she always has up around me. I guess we\u2019ve rubbed each other wrong so many times, she expects it and puts up her guard, ready to fight if she has to. I actually liked the version of her I saw today and if I do some admitting to myself, she is a very pretty woman. Not stunning like her younger sister but pretty in her own sort of way. Knowing she\u2019s probably different with her class, I turn to Oakley, \u201cOak?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYeah, Pa?\u201d His head swivels towards me.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat\u2019s Miss Cartwright like?\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThat\u2019s kinda a silly question, ain\u2019t it?\u201d He giggles after looking at me for a confused second. \u201cYou know what Miss Cartwright\u2019s like.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYeah, I know her I guess.\u201d I grin. \u201cShe\u2019s mean, hot tempered, and always ready to fight in a good argument.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cNo, she ain\u2019t!\u201d He exclaims, shocked. I was half joking but he took it completely seriously.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cNo, she isn\u2019t.\u201d I correct, knowing if I don\u2019t, it\u2019ll just be another thing Miss Cartwright will hold against me. \u201cIf she isn\u2019t mean and hot tempered, then what\u2019s she like?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cKind, carin\u2019, and nice.\u201d He emphasizes each word with a serious nod. \u201cShe\u2019s always ready to help and when she does help, she talks in a sweet soundin\u2019 voice and tells you you\u2019re doin\u2019 a real good job.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cShe\u2019s never lost her temper?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cNo!\u201d He sounds shocked that I\u2019m still asking if she\u2019s a mean woman. \u201cShe\u2019s never yelled at any of us and when one day she had to send Tommy Andrews to the corner, her voice just sounded stern and almost cold. He hasn\u2019t sassed since that day either.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI guess I just make her mean and hot tempered.\u201d I shrug. She sounds like a lovely lady to be with, I didn\u2019t realize I rubbed her the wrong way that much. Maybe something\u2019s wrong with me and not her.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cShe told me you two weren\u2019t exactly friends. Why aren\u2019t you?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cHonestly, I don\u2019t know why.\u201d I sigh. \u201cWhen Mr. Cartwright introduced me to her at that party at his ranch, I really liked her but then as the night went on, we began to talk about different things and ended up in an argument. We disagreed on how spelling words should be learned. She thought they should be said over and over again while I think you should write them until they stick in your brain. We ended up arguing about it and she ran up the stairs right before I stormed out of the house and came home.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou two don\u2019t get along because you argued about spelling?!\u201d He exclaims, sounding both shocked and surprised. I look at him, realizing how stupid it truly sounds. Pulling the wagon to a stop in the schoolyard, I stare out into the distance, thinking. I\u2019ve been such an idiot letting something as silly and as little as spelling words ruin a relationship that could\u2019ve turned into a friendship. Shaking my head at my own stupidity, I climb down off the wagon seat as Oakley follows suit. We both grab a shovel out of the back.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cHow does Miss Cartwright teach spelling, anyhow?\u201d I ask as we walk towards the spot in the schoolyard that she marked off for the stage. I pull the stakes out of my pocket and begin pacing out the size of the stage, sticking one in the ground ever so often to make an outline so Oak and I know where to dig.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cShe has us say and write them.\u201d He says casually as he leans on the handle of his shovel, waiting on me to finish.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cShe does?\u201d Bent over sticking a stake in the ground, I pause, looking at him. He nods at me with a smile. Pondering what he just told me, I quietly continue to mark the plot, my thoughts spinning fast in my mind. Maybe Miss Cartwright would accept an apology and agree to start over fresh with me. If she\u2019s anything like what Oakley said, and I\u2019m positive I got a peek of that side of her today at lunch, I\u2019d like to be friends with a woman like her.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Oakley and I quickly begin digging the shallow hole for the foundation. Even though it\u2019s long, it\u2019s shallow so after about four hours of us steadily digging, we\u2019re finished. I quickly glance up at the sky, calculating the time. Tossing my shovel onto my shoulder, I reach down and ruffle Oakley\u2019s hair. \u201cWell, Oak, I think we\u2019re done for today. Let\u2019s unload the wood and then head on home.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAlright, Pa!\u201d He grins at me, tossing his shovel onto his shoulder, giggling when I step away so I don\u2019t get smacked. \u201cLet\u2019s hurry, I\u2019m starvin\u2019!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Chapter 6<br \/>\n(<em>Madeline<\/em>)<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">With Hop Sing\u2019s help, I spread my freshly ironed brown fabric out on the floor as I listen to Brie and Jewels crowing over my purple fabric at the table. Thanking Hop Sing for his help, I glance up at them and see Mama standing behind them, admiring it from over their shoulders. I know that both Brie and Jewels are slightly jealous over it. Neither of them even like purple and the color doesn\u2019t suit them yet I know the color isn\u2019t what\u2019s making them jealous. It\u2019s the quality, quantity, and the extremely low price I got it all for. Part of me wishes I could have gotten something as nice for them or that there was enough to go around, but then the other part of me is glad that it\u2019s all for me. I very rarely indulge myself with new clothes unless they\u2019re absolutely needed like this brown skirt. I think that\u2019s why those two are only slightly jealous because they know I\u2019ve never gotten something like this for myself and that I won\u2019t again for a very long time, if ever. Anyways, it\u2019s not like they haven\u2019t gotten any new clothes recently, Pa and Mama have bought them multiple new dresses since their marriage.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Sighing, I drop to my knees and begin to pin my pattern to the fabric. With all the pieces neatly in place and with even a little bit to spare, I reach over and grab my sewing shears. Swiftly cutting out my pieces, I fold and stack them neatly just as Candy opens the door. Taking off his hat, he waves to Brie and calls out, \u201cHowdy, everyone.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cHi, Candy.\u201d Brie smiles brightly at him, caressing the purple fabric one last time before walking across the room. \u201cI\u2019ll get the checkerboard.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMadeline, how come you\u2019re crawlin\u2019 around down there?\u201d Glancing over, I see his black boots right in front of the extra fabric I shoved to the side. Looking all the way up, I find him grinning at me but I can see slight confusion in his eyes. Grabbing my stacked pieces, I try to get gracefully to my feet but crawling around on the floor made me a little stiff and one of my feet is asleep. I\u2019m about halfway off the floor when suddenly a hand appears in front of my face. Reaching out with my empty hand, I grab it and Candy pulls me to my feet.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThanks, Candy.\u201d He nods at me as I shake out my skirt and smooth it back into place. \u201cI was cutting out fabric for a new skirt.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOh, I see.\u201d He gives me a small smile as he walks over to where Brie has the checkerboard set up. Laying my stack of pieces on the table behind the sofa, I bend at the waist and scoop up the leftovers, swiftly folding them. \u201cI thought the dressmaker sewed dresses and skirts and stuff like that for you?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cShe does,\u201d I explain, \u201cbut it\u2019s cheaper to just buy the fabric and sew it yourself.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMadeline likes to get her clothes as cheaply as possible.\u201d Brie jokes as the sound of checkers slapping on the red and black board begins to come from the table. Ever since that night Misty had the twins, Candy and Brie have played checkers or chess nearly every night. They\u2019re both very competitive so it\u2019s always fun to watch them get sucked into the game.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI do not.\u201d I throw back, plopping into the blue chair. \u201cI just don\u2019t think I need to spend every penny on new clothes.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cBut you\u2019d spend it on books.\u201d Jewels chimes in.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cHey, I\u2019ve bought you multiple books.\u201d I point my finger at her, grinning. \u201cIn fact, I even bought you that copy of Romeo and Juliet that you\u2019ve read so much I\u2019m surprised it\u2019s still in one piece!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIt\u2019s a good story.\u201d She insists as she comes across the room towards me. \u201cYou need that skirt by Monday, don\u2019t you?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYeah, why?\u201d I look up at her from the skirt panels I just put two stitches in.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI thought you might like some help.\u201d I grab the other two skirt panels and toss them at her in answer. Jewels\u2019 sewing skills are so good she could easily be a dressmaker. Her stitches are always tiny, neat, and straight yet she sews so fast that when you watch her, her fingers almost look like a blur. When the pieces I tossed her way hit her hand, she scrunches up her face in a cringe, \u201cOw, Madeline, you could\u2019ve just handed it to me. A pin stuck me right in the palm!\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cSorry, Jewels.\u201d She walks over to the sofa and plops down next to Mama, who brought out her knitting. She\u2019s making Jeff and Cherry hats for the winter. She wanted to make some for the twins and Lilia Marie as well but she said that they\u2019re growing too fast for her to keep up. Pa sits in his red chair, nose in a book. It\u2019s a nice, quiet evening with the only sounds swirling around the room being Mama\u2019s needles clicking, Pa turning a page every so often, and Candy and Brie\u2019s quiet muttering accompanied by the click of the checkers on the board.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOh, Madeline, I just remembered, I heard that something happened to you in town today.\u201d And just like that, the nice evening turns sour. I know exactly what Candy\u2019s talking about and I was hoping I could have told Mama and Pa myself, but apparently it\u2019s not meant to be. I wasn\u2019t trying to keep it a secret, I just hadn\u2019t had the chance to tell them yet. I hear the quiet, gentle thump of Pa\u2019s book hitting his thigh as I keep my eyes glued to the needle I\u2019m continuing to pull in and out of my fabric.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMadeline, what happened today?\u201d Pa and Mama\u2019s voices blend beautifully as they speak at the same time.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOh, it was nothing really.\u201d I look up at both of them and muster the brightest smile I can. But I feel it crack a little when I hear a, \u201cpfft\u201d come from Candy.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI guess getting surrounded by three drunks on the street is nothing then.\u201d He gives me a look. \u201cI heard tell the only reason they quit bugging you was because Kevin stepped in and made them tuck tail outta there.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cButler?\u201d Pa asks.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYeah, Kevin Butler.\u201d He nods. \u201cI also heard that the little Ponderosa Schoolmarm here lost her temper on them and nearly gave them what for. Well, that is until Willie Keen grabbed her arm and wouldn\u2019t let go when she yelled at him. That\u2019s when Kevin entered the picture.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMadeline, why didn\u2019t you tell me?\u201d Pa\u2019s voice sounds stern, but looking up at him, I see his eyes are gentle and concerned.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI was going to, I just didn\u2019t have the chance to yet.\u201d I continue to look at him. \u201cBoth you and Mama were busy when I got home and I got so wrapped up in ironing my fabric it slipped my mind.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat did you do to them?\u201d Jewels asks, wonder in her voice.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cShe shoved Willie\u2019s arm off her shoulders and then yanked her hand away from Andy.\u201d Candy chimes in, clearly enjoying being able to be the one to tell this story. I was about to answer Jewels but seeing that he beat me to it, I just lean back in my chair, sewing set aside in my lap and listen to him. \u201cI also heard that while she was doing it her face kept getting redder and redder until it was nearly purple.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">My face felt hot but I didn\u2019t think it was that red. Just the thought of it makes my face heat up again. I can\u2019t imagine how foolish I looked out there today, but it wasn\u2019t my fault. I honestly don\u2019t know what I would\u2019ve done if Mr. Butler didn\u2019t show up when he did.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThey didn\u2019t hurt you, did they?\u201d Mama asks worriedly.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cNo,\u201d I quickly answer, \u201cthe only thing I was left with was a smudge from his hand on my sleeve. They were too busy rambling on with each other about whether or not I could teach them to read to do me any real harm.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cEven though they\u2019re always drunk, the Keen brothers have never done any real harm to anyone thank goodness. They\u2019ve hounded quite a few people but never hurt anybody.\u201d Pa says, shaking his head. \u201cBut I still want you girls to be careful in town no matter what, do you hear?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes, Pa.\u201d We all chime at the same time.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAnd next time, Madeline,\u201d he points his finger at me, \u201ctell me immediately if something like this happens.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes, sir.\u201d My serious face cracks in a smile. \u201cBut let\u2019s hope there\u2019s not a next time.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">He laughs and the conversation ends as we all continue what we were doing. Swiftly pulling stitches through my fabric, my mind wanders back to the lunch I had with Mr. Butler and Oakley. It was a pleasant affair. Everyone seemed relaxed and Mr. Butler was quite the gentleman. His attitude and demeanor was very different than I\u2019ve ever seen, no hot temper or even a peek at it. He was gentle and very kind, in fact so much, it was like an older and larger version of Oakley. Maybe I was wrong assuming Oakley got his attitude from his mother. Because I like it a lot better, I can only hope that this side of Mr. Butler stays present, especially since in the weeks to come we\u2019ll be coming in contact everyday.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Chapter 7<br \/>\n(<em>Madeline<\/em>)<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Dusting the bookshelves in the schoolroom on Monday afternoon, the day of teaching done, I pause, listening to the sawing coming from outside. I step over to the window and push back the curtain just enough to peek out but not be seen by Mr. Butler outside. He\u2019s still busy sawing away on that wood. If the pile of planks and two by fours on the other side of him is any indicator of how much he\u2019s gotten done in only an hour, he\u2019s definitely been one busy fella. When he showed up earlier just as I dismissed my class, he told me his plan for today was to get all the wood cut for the foundation and then he\u2019d start building tomorrow. The sound of his saw has been ringing through the air ever since.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I decided to stay after school until he was finished today because it feels odd to go ahead and ride home, leaving him here to sweat over something that was my idea in the first place. So I\u2019m keeping myself busy by giving the schoolroom a much needed dusting and sweeping. I\u2019ve already graded all of today\u2019s papers, so with that and the dusting finished, I grab the broom out of the corner.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Sweeping the aisle between the desks and all the open space, I stop and look at the kids\u2019 desks, one hand on my hip, with my other wrapped around the broom handle resting under my chin. Quickly propping up the broom against the wall, I grab the edge of the desk closest to me and drag it across the floor, stopping with it along the far wall. Within ten minutes all eight desks are pushed to the side. I look over at my desk, thinking about moving it too but I quickly reject the thought. It\u2019s a sturdy thing and way too heavy for me to move alone. Snatching the broom again, I begin to sweep up all the dirt I uncovered. Pretty soon there\u2019s dust flying all over. Coughing, I swat at the airborne dust around my face. I didn\u2019t think there was this much dirt in here, but then I\u2019ve never swept under the desks since I became the new teacher here two months ago. They haven\u2019t been moved since this past Spring at the end of the school year which I guess can be the reason for all the dirt. Well, that and fifteen kids running around nearly everyday.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Going around the room a second time, humming quietly to myself, I suddenly hear a quiet giggle. Whirling around to face the sound, I see Oakley and a very sweaty Mr. Butler standing in the doorway, grins on their faces, clearly enjoying the show. Instinctively reaching up, I smooth my frazzled hair as I realize to my horror that I wasn\u2019t only humming but that I also was dancing around a little, too. I didn\u2019t even know I was doing it and it probably looked like I was trying to two-step with the broom. My already flushed face heats up even more as I look at their still grinning faces. Mr. Butler steps further into the room and once he\u2019s out of the doorway, I can see it\u2019s nearly dark outside.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWell, Miss Cartwright, it looks like you\u2019re doing a very good job in here, dancing included.\u201d He tosses me a wink and even though I didn\u2019t think it possible, I feel my face heat up even more. \u201cBut I hope you\u2019re almost done because if you want to get home before it\u2019s pitch black out, you\u2019d better get a move on it.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAll I need to do is sweep up this pile and put the desks back.\u201d I say, realizing he\u2019s right. Bending at the waist, I quickly push my pile into the wooden dustpan. Side stepping both of them, I take the dustpan outside and dump it in the yard. Walking back in, I see one of the desks already back in place and Mr. Butler pulling another one into the middle of the floor. I toss the broom and dustpan back in the corner as I walk over to grab another desk. \u201cMr. Butler, you don\u2019t have to help me. I\u2019m sure you\u2019re tired and ready to go home. I can do this myself.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cDon\u2019t you know four hands go faster than two?\u201d He grins at me as we each grab another desk. \u201cAnyways, I want to talk to you about something.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou do?\u201d I ask, a little surprised.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYeah.\u201d He starts as we walk back over to the last four desks along the wall. \u201cI was wondering if we could, you know, start over?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat do you mean by start over?\u201d As I\u2019m pushing my desk across the floor my foot slips and I stumble into it, knocking my right hip on the corner. He looks up at me as I get myself to a standing position again and give my sore hip a quick, hard rub. There\u2019s going to be a nasty bruise there tomorrow.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou all right?\u201d I nod. \u201cWell, what I meant was, um, well, we didn\u2019t have a very good start that night at the dance and I was thinking maybe we could forget all about that and start fresh.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I watch him as we go to snag the last two desks. He\u2019s nervous, his voice told me that much and I bet if he wasn\u2019t pushing a desk but standing in place, he\u2019d be shifting back and forth on his feet. Rolling around what he just said in my mind, I think about how he was on Saturday at lunch and how he\u2019s been like that today as well. It would be nice to start over and try to be friends instead of balancing on the very thin edge of almost being enemies like we are now. Before I grab the edge of my desk, I turn to face him, \u201cMr. Butler, I believe I\u2019d like to do that.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou do?\u201d His jaw nearly hits the floor in his surprise and I have to bite back a smile. \u201cYou do!\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes, I do.\u201d I grin at his near boyish excitement as I stick out my hand for him to shake. \u201cMr. Butler, it\u2019s a pleasure to meet you, I\u2019m Miss Cartwright.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMiss Cartwright, the pleasure\u2019s all mine.\u201d He shakes my hand, his grin turning goofy. It looks just like the one the boy sitting over in my chair has on his face. \u201cBut please call me Kevin.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOnly if you\u2019ll call me Madeline.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAlright, Madeline.\u201d He lets go of my hand and we both grab our desks. \u201cLet\u2019s put these back in their places so we can get home.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">After we finish lining up the desks with the others, I grab my coat as we head for the door. To my surprise, Oakley gives me a quick hug around the waist. Reaching down, I smooth his messy brown hair and hug him back. \u201cBye, Miss Cartwright, see you tomorrow.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cBye, Oakley.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">As we walk out the door, Kevin and Oakley head for their wagon while I walk over to Trixie. Swinging myself into my saddle, I grab the reins in my\u00a0 right hand and look up just in time to see Kevin wave as he begins to pull out of the schoolyard. \u201cGood night, Madeline, see you tomorrow.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cNight, Kevin.\u201d I call back, turning Trixie in the other direction towards home.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Chapter 8<br \/>\n(<em>Kevin<\/em>)<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Hammering the last nail into the finished frame, I wipe the sweat out my eyes with my sleeve. Glancing up at the sky, I figure it to be about four o\u2019clock. It\u2019s been a little over a week since I started and I already have the frame finished, the rest should be a breeze to finish since the hardest part is done. Thirsty, I stand up and walk over to where I left my pail of water resting on a stack of wood that still needs to be cut. Turning to look over at the schoolhouse where Madeline sits in a chair on the little porch, I watch her as she continues to pull her needle in and out of that purple fabric. When I asked her what she was making, she told me it was a dress. The fabric sure looked fancy but it\u2019s definitely the perfect color for her. As I watch, Oakley runs up to her, his ball in hand. She bundles up her sewing as they talk and to my surprise, she gets up and after stepping into the clearing of the yard, begins to toss the ball back and forth with him.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Going back to work, my thirst taken care of, I begin sawing the planks for the floor. Over the sound of my sawing and the thud of the planks when I toss them into a pile, I hear Oakley\u2019s familiar giggle and a girlish shriek. Looking up, I find them playing tag and apparently Oakley\u2019s it, the ball forgotten in the dirt behind them. Shaking my head at Madeline\u2019s girlish antics, I lay down my saw and just watch them zip around the schoolyard. Madeline\u2019s skirt, even though she\u2019s holding it up, flies out around and behind her as her boot clad feet move fast to keep her away from Oakley, who\u2019s about five feet behind her, giggling, his hair trying to take flight off his head. The kid needs a haircut really badly but I haven\u2019t been able to find the time to take him to get it cleaned up with all my ranch work and this stage. Maybe if I asked Madeline, she might take him into town tomorrow to get it cut for me. I\u2019m sure she wouldn\u2019t mind, I mean after all, she\u2019s been staying here after school every day since I started building when I\u2019m sure she\u2019d just rather go home. I asked on the third day why she didn\u2019t just go home and she told me she felt bad about just leaving me here with all this work when it was her idea. I told her I didn\u2019t care about staying here alone with Oakley, but she said it was easier because she didn\u2019t have to carry her papers back and forth when she graded everything here. So we\u2019ve fallen into a little routine this past week. Oakley does his homework while she grades her papers, then he helps her clean up around the schoolroom, and when he\u2019s all done, he wears off his extra energy outside while I continue with the stage.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Oakley loves that woman and she loves him. She\u2019s more than just a teacher to him. Without even knowing it she\u2019s become more like his mother. It\u2019s something I really admire her for, especially since he probably can\u2019t remember his mother because of the fact that Susan and our baby girl passed away when he was only two. After I lost them, I temporarily lost myself, too, but thankfully Mr. Cartwright and the boys were there for me. They took care of Oakley for a few weeks while I found myself again. Mr. Cartwright almost helped raise me after my Pa died when I was ten and Adam, Hoss, and Joe are more like brothers than just close friends. But I\u2019ve always been the closest to Adam since he&#8217;s a few years older than me and is like the older brother I never had. The Cartwrights have helped me more than anybody else. They\u2019ve been there for me during the hardest times of my life when Pa died, then Ma nine years later, and probably the hardest, when I lost Susan five years ago. Even though a lot has changed in the past two years with all three boys getting married and starting families and then Mr. Cartwright remarrying and adding three step daughters to the large family, I know they\u2019ll still have my back should, God forbid, something else happen.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Picking up my saw again, the two tag players now out of sight, I let my mind wander back to Susan. Despite the fact that it\u2019s been five years, I can still see her clearly. She was really tall, tall enough to be eye level with me and I\u2019m six foot. I can still remember the look on Little Joe\u2019s face when I introduced her to them. It was almost comical the way he leaned his head up slightly to look her in the face, his open jaw looking so loose that I bet if someone pushed it a little, it would\u2019ve swung back and forth. Even though Joe\u2019s average height, anyone close to six foot makes him look short so Susan nearly towered over him with the few extra inches she had on him. Despite being on the tall side, she was a beauty with her extremely light blonde hair that looked white in the dark and green eyes that Oakley inherited. Even though those things aren\u2019t as common, her most unique feature was her voice, which was very high and smooth. She was a soprano and could hit and\u00a0 hold high notes like no one else in Virginia City. People used to say that she sounded like a songbird.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Out of the corner of my eye, I catch sight of Oakley and Madeline as they run, Madeline chasing Oakley this time. I nearly shake my head at how opposite Susan and Madeline are. The flush faced, black haired girl with her skirt fisted in her hands up out of the way is nothing like Susan, who would\u2019ve rather died than be seen with her hair tumbling out her bun, red faced with her chest heaving like Madeline is. Susan wasn\u2019t exactly prim and proper but she liked to be put together all the time and she wouldn\u2019t have run around with Oakley like Madeline still is. Susan was a very mature woman, she very rarely goofed off even though she loved to smile and laugh. She took life seriously and now that I think about it and if I\u2019m honest with myself, too seriously. That\u2019s another way her and Madeline are so different. Madeline\u2019s mature and put together but at the same time she\u2019s got a girlish, carefree side that I\u2019ve recently been finding out about. Madeline had a temper, that I guess I have a knack for pulling out, and an independent nature that makes her speak her opinion openly and sometimes loudly. Susan wasn\u2019t anything like that with her soft spoken, even tempered, people pleaser ways. I loved Susan and the way she was with all my heart but something about Madeline fills me with admiration. I\u2019ve never thought about her romantically and the idea hasn\u2019t even crossed my mind. I haven\u2019t given much thought to remarrying since Susan still holds a large hunk of my heart but in the back of my mind I know I need to for Oakley\u2019s sake. The boy needs a mother. I can\u2019t give him everything he needs raising him alone. I haven\u2019t found the right woman to do just that yet, but maybe someday she\u2019ll come along.\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Chapter 9<br \/>\n(<em>Madeline<\/em>)<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Slipping my needle through the silk, I listen to the hammering outside. It\u2019s been three weeks since Kevin started building the stage and he\u2019s finishing it today. Well, almost finishing it, we\u2019re going to come tomorrow to put the stain on it. He said it needed to be stained so it\u2019ll last longer and since tomorrow\u2019s Saturday, I offered to come help. I don\u2019t have anything else to do and anyways four hands do go faster than two.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">These past three weeks have been very pleasant, Kevin and I haven\u2019t clashed once since that day when he showed me the design. I\u2019ve stayed everyday after school and even showed up a few Saturdays when he wanted to get more finished. It hasn\u2019t bothered me one bit. I enjoy spending all this time with Oakley. Oakley\u2019s a blast to be with, he\u2019s sweet, kind yet hilarious and a giant burst of energy. He makes me feel younger than I have in years. Even though twenty-seven isn\u2019t exactly old, all the responsibilities life has thrown my way sometimes make me feel older.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">When I haven\u2019t been running around with Oakley acting more like a child than a woman, grading school papers, or cleaning the schoolhouse, I\u2019ve been working on making my dress. It\u2019s nearly finished now, all I have left is to sew on the sleeves and attach the bodice to the skirt. As soon as it\u2019s completely finished, I\u2019m going to use the extra fabric to make Cherry and Lilia Marie dresses for Christmas. Some people might think making dresses for them out of fabric like this is a waste, especially for Lilia Marie, who\u2019s only seven months old, but they\u2019re my nieces and I\u2019ll spoil them however I please.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Cherry\u2019s a precious little thing who I almost didn\u2019t get a chance to meet because Hoss and Leo nearly lost her earlier this year. Everyone spoils her just enough but not too much. Hoss put a stop to a lot of everybody\u2019s spoiling because he said he didn\u2019t want his daughter to turn into an entitled, arrogant brat. We all knew he was right so the spoiling has gotten cut back but she\u2019s still a very special little lady without any of it.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">And Lilia Marie, well that little doll is just too adorable for her own good. Even though she\u2019s only seven months old, she already has her Pa\u2019s grin and puppy eyes. Puppy eyes the exact emerald green as her Mama\u2019s. Despite her young age, it\u2019s already obvious she\u2019s going to be a beauty when she becomes a young woman. She\u2019s been growing so fast, she can already sit up and eat solids. Plus her hair is already almost all the way down her neck, the curls nearly touching her shirt and constantly getting in her eyes.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Kevin\u2019s hammering stops, he must be finished. I cock my head to the side, listening as I suddenly hear a soft thud and then an even quieter silence. Oakley had been running around out there, his feet slapping the earth, a happy yell coming out of his mouth every once in a while but now I don\u2019t hear him either. Shrugging, I continue to sew, not really thinking much of it but I look up when I hear his feet again, this time coming towards the schoolyard. The door flies open and he nearly slips, face planting. His face is pale and his eyes filled with tears and fear.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOakley!\u201d I jump out of my chair, my sewing hitting the floor, forgotten. \u201cWhat\u2019s wrong!?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIt\u2019s Pa!\u201d He sobs, the tears begin to fall out of his eyes. \u201cHe\u2019s hurt real bad!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhere is he?\u201d I grab his hand and rush out the doorway, my heart filling my throat. He quickly points to the stage once we\u2019re outside. Letting go of his hand, I grab my skirt and take off running when I see Kevin laying all too still on the ground beside it. The sight terrifies me and I fight back panic as I fall to my knees next to his still form. Trying to keep a level head so I can think straight, I quickly look him up and down for injuries. A gasp escapes me when I see the blood in his hair towards the back of his head. The panic and fear tries to take over but I quickly give myself a mental shake and come back to reality. Reaching out, I gently turn his head so I can see where the blood\u2019s coming from. I glance over my shoulder at Oakley, \u201cDid you see what happened?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cHe was steppin\u2019 down off of the stage and his boot slipped. He fell and smacked the back of his head on the edge of it.\u201d He sputters, trying to hold back his tears and be strong. Pulling Kevin\u2019s shoulders and head into my lap, I rake my fingers through the hair on the back of his head, looking for the cut. I quickly find it and discover it&#8217;s rather small and that all the blood is overdramatizing everything.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOakley, go get the bucket of water for me, will you?\u201d He looks at me confused and scared, so without getting blood on him, I wrap my arm around his shoulders and pull him close. \u201cYour Pa\u2019s all right, he just hit the back of his head really hard. He gave himself a nasty cut and knocked himself out but he\u2019ll be fine.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAre you sure?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYeah, now go get that water.\u201d He darts off and is back with it in seconds. Grabbing the dipper, I fill it and with a mumbled apology, I slowly pour the cold water on his pale face. His eyes open as soon as it hits his face.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat, what do you think you\u2019re doing?\u201d He sputters in an angry growl. As he tries to sit up, he grabs his head with a moan. Looking down, he glances at my wet, bloodied skirt and then peers up at me in confusion. \u201cWhat happened and why am I in your lap?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou fell and cracked your head open.\u201d I look down at him, his face blurring thanks to the tears filling my eyes. My whole body begins to relax in relief as I try to keep them from falling. \u201cYou knocked yourself out and gave Oakley and I quite a scare.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cSorry, Oak.\u201d He looks up at him where he stands beside me. Oakley gives him a small smile, his green eyes still shining with tears. \u201cSorry for scaring you both.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIt\u2019s all right.\u201d I whisper, still fighting my own tears.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cNow, if you two would be so kind,\u201d he grins but then it turns to a grimace as he sits all the way up, \u201cas to help me stand up, I\u2019d appreciate it.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Standing up myself, I help him as he grabs his head again and shuts his eyes against the pain. Looping my arm through his, we slowly make our way towards the schoolhouse. Once inside, I walk him to my desk and gently push him into my chair. Stepping behind him, I inspect his cut again. It\u2019s not deep or big enough to need stitches thankfully, but it\u2019s large enough to produce enough blood to wet his hair. He yelps a little when I accidently touch it. Apologizing, I walk over to wash my hands in the bowl of water near the door.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI was coming to tell you I finished the stage.\u201d He says as I walk back over to him. His eyes dart down to my wet and blood spotted skirt. Looking back up at me, his eyes get an apologetic look to them. \u201cI\u2019m sorry about your skirt. You tore the other one on my wagon and now I got blood on your new one.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIt\u2019s all right, Hop Sing can get the blood out of it.\u201d I brush off his concern with a wave of my hand. \u201cYou\u2019re going to have a pretty nasty headache for the next few days. It looks like that stain\u2019s going to have to wait until Monday now.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cNo, it\u2019s not.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat do you mean, no, it\u2019s not?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019m going to do it tomorrow.\u201d He answers, his voice almost sounding frustrated.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cBut you just hit your head, you need to rest!\u201d I exclaim.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019ll be fine!\u201d His voice gets a little bit louder. \u201cStaining isn\u2019t hard to do and I\u2019ll be better by tomorrow.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cNo, you won\u2019t.\u201d I insist, my temper beginning to flare thanks to his stubbornness. \u201cYou have a cut on the back of your head, which you hit so hard, you knocked yourself unconscious. It takes longer than one night to heal from something like that.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI don\u2019t know why you\u2019re so concerned,\u201d he stands up, his pale face beginning to flush red, \u201cyou&#8217;re not the one who\u2019s hurt.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cBecause you scared the living daylights outta me!\u201d My voice escalades to nearly a shout.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWell, I\u2019m sorry.\u201d He snarls. \u201cThere\u2019s only a few days left that\u2019ll be nice enough to stain that stage out there and I want to get it done before the first snow, which can be anytime now.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cBut I don\u2019t want you working when you\u2019re injured.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOh, that\u2019s right, I nearly forgot, I\u2019m just your hired hand and you\u2019re my boss.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cKevin, I didn\u2019t mean it like that.\u201d I growl. \u201cI just don\u2019t want you hurt more than you already are.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cSo, you\u2019re just concerned?\u201d He asks stiffly, arms crossed his chest.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes\u2026\u201d I trail off, my anger dissolving as my eyes fill with tears. Seeing my shining eyes, Kevin\u2019s shoulders fall out of the stiff position he was holding them in. Stepping up to me, he reaches out and touches my shoulder gently.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019m sorry about losing my temper, Madeline. I guess the pain in my head is causing me not to think straight.\u201d He squeezes my shoulder tightly.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIt\u2019s ok.\u201d I nod. \u201cI\u2019m sorry I lost mine, too. You gave me quite the scare.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cSorry about that, too.\u201d He gives me a small smile. \u201cBut I have to stain that stage tomorrow, alright?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAlright.\u201d I sigh. \u201cI\u2019ll be here tomorrow to help like we already agreed.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThen let\u2019s all go home.\u201d He gives my shoulder a final pat and moves to step to the side but quickly stops, looking down at the floor. I follow his gaze and see my nearly finished purple dress on the floor next to his boots. Bending, I quickly pick it up as he steps around me and the desk. Lifting his hand in a wave, he calls out, \u201cSee you tomorrow.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cBye!\u201d I wave back, gathering up my things so I can leave.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Chapter 10<br \/>\n(<em>Madeline<\/em>)<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMadeline, what on earth are you wearing?\u201d Jewels asks the next morning as I walk down the stairs.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAre those Little Joe\u2019s old clothes?\u201d Pa asks as he takes in my button up creamy white shirt and light brown pants.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYeah, I found them last night in the very bottom of the bureau in my room.\u201d My room used to be Joe\u2019s before he moved out with Hannah. I lift my arm to show the light blue jacket I have tossed over it. \u201cI found this, too. He must have forgotten them when he moved out.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cBut why are you wearing them?\u201d Brie\u2019s brows nearly vanish into her hairline, confusion written plainly on her face.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019m going to help Kevin stain the stage today.\u201d I explain, flopping the jacket over the back of my chair as I sit down at the table for breakfast with the rest of them. \u201cI didn\u2019t want to ruin any of my clothes and since these have holes and tears in them, I figured I\u2019d wear these instead. But, Pa, if you\u2019d rather me not wear them, I\u2019ll change.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOf course it\u2019s all right!\u201d He laughs. \u201cThose clothes are really old, he wore them when he was about seventeen, eighteen years old. Let me guess, there\u2019s a small hole near the shoulder.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes.\u201d I glance down at the small hole in the right shoulder of the shirt. It\u2019s a strange size, probably big enough for me to stick two fingers in but not small enough for only one. Curious, I ask, \u201cWhat\u2019s it from?\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cA bullet.\u201d He casually answers as I feel my jaw drop and hear Jewels\u2019 fork fall onto her plate.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cBullet?!\u201d Our voices chirp together, sounding like one.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIt was when he was eighteen.\u201d He begins. \u201cInger\u2019s brother, Gunnar, had showed up but we didn\u2019t know at first that he was leading a band of rogue Mexican banditos. They raided a neighbor\u2019s farm and Joe just happened to be there that day helping them build a fence. The banditos captured Joe and Carrie, who was Joe\u2019s girl at the time. One of Gunnar\u2019s men was trying to rebel against him and take over. He wanted to kill Joe and Carrie just because Joe was related to Gunnar, but Gunnar helped them escape. Joe and Carrie got separated because Joe sprained his ankle and made her keep running but the man who had been chasing them caught up to Joe, who he shot. Joe was all right, of course, but Hoss thought Gunnar was the one who shot Joe and went after his uncle. He found out just in time that it wasn\u2019t Gunnar but the other man. Hoss shot the other man just as he shot towards Gunnar. It was fatal to both of them and Gunnar died in Hoss\u2019s arms.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThat had to be hard on Hoss.\u201d I quietly say as I peer down at the little hole again. Who knew that such a little hole could have such a big story. Looking back up at Pa, my fingers brushing the hole in the knee on the left pant leg, I comment, \u201cI doubt the hole in this pant leg has a wild story like that behind it.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOh, no!\u201dHe rolls his eyes. \u201cThat boy had holes in the knees of almost all his pants. I was constantly buying him new pants because everytime I turned around, he had a new hole in them somehow.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">We all laugh but then becoming serious again, Mama turns to me, \u201cMadeline, didn\u2019t you say last night that Kevn hurt his head?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes, he did.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThen why is he doing the staining today?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cBecause he wants to get it done before the colder weather hits.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019d offer to help,\u201d Pa reaches over and pats Mama\u2019s hand, \u201cbut I have to take your mother to a neighboring ranch so she can visit with one of her expectant mothers.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIt\u2019s alright, Pa, we\u2019ll be fine.\u201d I smile at him. \u201cWe can always put Oakley to work, too.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Everyone quickly finishes their breakfast and before I know it, I\u2019m stepping outside, pulling on Little Joe\u2019s old blue jacket. Like the other clothes, it\u2019s too big for me so I roll up the cuffs a little above my hands. I had to fold up the bottoms of the pants because they were too long but Joe must have been really skinny when he was younger, the waistband is barely loose, not even loose enough that I have to wear a belt. Swiftly, I saddle Trixie and ride off into the chill air towards the schoolhouse.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">As I ride to the schoolhouse, my mind drifts to the jumbled thoughts that I was trying to sort out last night in bed. Yesterday when I saw Kevin lying on the ground, unconscious, it terrified me but what I was trying to figure out was why it scared me so badly. Staring at the ceiling, I told myself that I was scared for Oakley\u2019s sake but some nagging thought in the very back of my mind told me that wasn\u2019t the complete, honest truth. Letting that thought drift forwards from the place I had shoved it in, it filled my whole mind with such a large thud it brought tears to my eyes. It scared me half to death because I needed him. Besides Mama, the girls, and now Pa and my brothers, I\u2019ve never needed anyone, especially not a man. I\u2019ve discovered that not only do I need him but somehow I\u2019ve started to fall in love with him. That thought alone nearly made me laugh out loud. Me, Madeline Olivia Cartwright falling in love with the man who almost became my enemy because we started out on the wrong foot by arguing over something as stupid as how spelling words ought to me memorized. But even though he can sometimes be stubborn, hard headed, and hot tempered, I love him for the kind, caring man that he is.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Pulling into the schoolyard, I spot Kevin standing in the middle of the stage, a small paint can in hand. Jewels always says that when you see the man you love that it makes your stomach flutter and you get a giddy feeling all over, but the sight of Kevin just warms my heart and makes me smile. She\u2019s never had a beau before and she reads way too many romance novels so I don\u2019t know why I ever paid any attention to her ideas about romance in the first place. But then, of course, I\u2019m just as inexperienced when it comes to romance and boys as she is. I haven\u2019t given boys a thought in nearly seven years. I\u2019ve been so zoned out and focused on my teaching that I haven\u2019t given it time.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Seeing me, Kevin throws his hand up in the air, waving. I wave back as I hop down, tying Trixie\u2019s reins to the hitching post. Oakley runs up to me and hugs me around the waist. He leans back and I see his nose is pinked up from the chilly air. I wrap my arm around his shoulders and we walk over to the stage where Kevin stands watching us with a quizzical look on his face.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIs something wrong, Kevin?\u201d I ask curiously.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI never thought I\u2019d see that jacket again.\u201d He looks my outfit up and down. \u201cIf you were a few inches taller, had your hair tucked up under a small black hat, a gun slung on your left hip, and a cocky grin on your face, I\u2019d think you were Little Joe.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIt\u2019s that obvious?\u201d I look down, grinning.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYeah!\u201d He laughs. \u201cWhy are you wearing Joe\u2019s old clothes, anyways?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cSo I don\u2019t ruin my own clothes.\u201d I pull a bandana out of my pocket which I\u00a0 fold. I tie it around my head to keep my hair from getting in my face. \u201cPa said it was all right so you\u2019re getting a Little Joe-ized Madeline today. How\u2019s your head feeling?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIt still hurts a little, but not too bad.\u201d He tosses me a paint brush and hands me one of the other small cans of stain. \u201cDid your skirt come clean?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYeah, Hop Sing has some sort of old Chinese stain remover that works like magic.\u201d We both drop to our knees on the stage and begin to rub the stain in. We work silently for a while, the only sounds swirling around are our paint brushes on the wood and Oakley playing over by a tree.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMadeline?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYeah?\u201d I look up at him from where I\u2019m taking off my jacket, getting a little toasty.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI wanted to apologize again for losing my temper with you yesterday. My head was pounding really bad and I guess I let the pain get to me.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cApology accepted.\u201d I feel my lips spread into a wide grin. \u201cAgain.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">He grins back and we continue our staining. I can\u2019t help but wonder if he could ever love me. We were talking about his wife, Susan, just earlier this week and I could tell he still loves her. I don\u2019t know if he\u2019ll ever be able to love again, let alone love me, who just happens to be the complete opposite of the wife who still holds his heartstrings despite being in the grave.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Chapter 11<br \/>\n(<em>Madeline<\/em>)<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Thanksgiving came and went, bringing with it the exciting news that Leo was expecting. I guess a stomach sickness wasn\u2019t the only thing plaguing her. The two short weeks between Thanksgiving and the beginning of the Christmas break went by like a breeze, the classroom nearly bursting at the seams in excitement. The Christmas season filled the Ponderosa with such a state of joy that I\u2019m surprised our cheeks didn\u2019t break and fall off from all the smiling we did. The house was filled to the brim on Christmas Eve since Adam, Hoss, and Joe brought their families and stayed the night. They wanted to be in the house first thing in the morning and to be honest, I think they just wanted to be back home for the night. It was a very special Christmas since not only was it our first one as a whole family, it was also Lilia Marie, Gavin, and Benjamin\u2019s, who we all call by his middle name Tyler, very first Christmas. The wooden walls echoed with laughter, excited squeals from the older grandchildren, and baby coos from the youngest as we all sat around in our night clothes, opening presents. And then Candy, the only actually one dressed for the day, dropped to one knee in the middle of it all and proposed to Brie. I\u2019ve never seen her so excited and happy before. She even surprised us all by kissing Candy right in front of everyone.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The holiday season finished, we began a new year, which brought Jewels\u2019 nineteenth birthday on the tenth of January. Pa threw her a huge party but even though I finished it right after the stage was complete, I didn\u2019t wear my purple dress. I\u2019m saving that dress for something special though I don\u2019t know what that something is yet. All of the festivities ended, I fell back into my normal teaching routine again with the start of school. Dismissing the class became my favorite part of the day, not because it meant I was finished for the day but because I could talk to Kevin, who still came everyday to pick up Oakley. We would talk for thirty to forty-five minutes each day, and to be honest, I looked forward to it all day.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">But then February began and within a week of it we had a horrible blizzard that closed the school for the rest of the month and the first two weeks of March. It was a depressing time with being stuck in the house and no way to go anywhere. Candy couldn\u2019t even get from the bunkhouse to the main house the first few weeks to play checkers so I filled in for him and discovered that Brie is a checker playing rogue. I caught her cheating more than once but even without cheating, she could beat me with her eyes closed. The worst part about being stuck in the house was that I couldn\u2019t talk to Kevin, who my feelings for had deepened over time. But I had a feeling that it was all one sided because he hadn\u2019t acted differently with me or mentioned anything about being more than friends.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Thankfully all five feet of the snow we had melted enough so we could get to and fro by the middle of March. The school opened back up and my conversations with Kevin started again. The class buckled down with their studies and caught back up but it nearly took us a whole month.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Finally in the middle of April we really began to prepare for our school program, which I have planned for the end of May right after school ends for the year. Excitement nearly as strong as it was right before Christmas filled the classroom again as everyone rehearsed their lines with each other and made last minute costume alterations. That excitement and the love I felt for Kevin filled me with a happiness like I\u2019ve never felt before.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">But now two weeks before the program, I ride to the schoolhouse, warm almost hot Spring air swirling around me. I\u2019m going to give the schoolhouse a complete deep clean to get it looking spotless for the special day. Kevin is coming out to help me as well. I left him behind me at the Ponderosa where he was discussing horse breeding with Pa. The mere thought of that man makes me smile yet it also makes my mind churn. It\u2019s been nine very long months since I realized my feelings for him and he hasn\u2019t so much as hinted at having the same feeling for me. It\u2019s very frustrating and at the same time almost heartbreaking at the same time, but what worries me the most is that maybe all I\u2019ll ever be to him is a friend or worse, Susan holds too much of his heart to let him ever love again. I discussed it with Mama and she told me to give it some time and be patient. But I\u2019m running short on patience. Sighing, I look ahead of me and watch the budding trees as they go by. Making myself think about the program instead, I\u2019m soon riding along with my thoughts making a cloud around my head.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Chapter 12<br \/>\n(<em>Kevin<\/em>)<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Coming around the curve in the road, I spot Madeline about fifty feet ahead of me. I can tell by the set of her shoulders that she\u2019s a million miles away thinking about something. One thing I\u2019ve learned in these past nine months is that I\u2019ve become so close to Madeline that I can read her like an open book. She\u2019s turned into a friend like I\u2019ve never had before. I was close to Susan but the closeness I have with Madeline is different and to be honest, I like it better. Yet I still can\u2019t figure out if what I feel for her is just friendship or more. I loved Susan but how I feel about Madeline is very different and I haven\u2019t discovered exactly what it is yet. I do know that I\u2019m very glad we didn\u2019t turn into enemies like we almost did.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I quickly escape my thoughts and come back to reality as Madeline\u2019s blue roan mare makes an odd, skittish movement. Madeline\u2019s so lost in her thoughts that she doesn\u2019t notice. I scan the ground around her, looking for whatever spooked Trixie but I can\u2019t find it because I\u2019m still too far away to see anything clearly. Suddenly Trixie bucks, sending Madeline flying backwards. She smacks the ground with a loud cry of pain as Trixie turns, running past me for home. My heart feels like it drops down out of my body yet at the same time fills my throat as I kick Prince into a gallop to get to Madeline\u2019s still form on the ground. Right as I pull Prince to a stop, I hear the distinct shake of a rattler\u2019s tail. Whipping my pistol out of the holster on my hip, I look around for the little devil. Spotting it, I aim, firing a shot that sends its head flying off behind it.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Leaping out of my saddle, I quickly tie Prince\u2019s reins to a branch before hitting my knees beside Madeline. The impact must have knocked her out, her eyes are closed, face ghost white, and when I touch her shoulder, giving it a gentle squeeze she doesn\u2019t even stir. My heart begins to pound in my chest as fear pulses through my veins. She\u2019s laying too still but thankfully her breathing seems normal. Remembering that cry of pain she screamed out when her body met the ground, I know she hurt something. She landed on her right side which she\u2019s laying on, so I roll her over and when I see her arm, I feel the air gush out of me. Her shoulder is dislocated badly and her arm is twisted at an odd angle because the joint is out of place. I\u2019ve put a few shoulders back in place before over the years but never on a woman and especially not one dear to me. Yet I know I have to. Laying her completely flat on her back, I pat her cheek to try and wake her up but it doesn\u2019t work. I quickly stand up and grab my canteen off my saddle. I have to wake her up, I can\u2019t put her shoulder back with her unconscious, even though I wish I could. Pouring some of the water on my hand, I pat her cheek again. It doesn\u2019t work so with a regretful sigh, I slowly dump some on her face. This time it does work as she sputters and opens her eyes.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cKevin?\u201d She asks after a moment of confusion but before I have a chance to answer, her eyes well up with tears as she reaches for her shoulder. They begin to drop out of the corners of her eyes as she starts to sob. \u201cMy arm! Kevin, it hurts so bad!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cSsh, I know.\u201d I grab her left hand in mine and squeeze it tight. \u201cYou dislocated your shoulder when you hit the ground after Trixie bucked you off. I\u2019m going to fix it but I need your help. Do you think you can?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes, I\u2019ll try.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOk, it\u2019s going to hurt really badly when it goes back in but then the pain will be gone.\u201d I move to her right side and gently grab her wrist. \u201cI\u2019m going to put my knee in your armpit then lift your arm and pull gently. When I pull I want you to turn your hand around slowly until it\u2019s straight, alright? You ready?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She nods so I quickly put my knee in her armpit. As I lift her arm, beginning to pull, her sobbing gets worse but she turns her hand. It feels like forever but then suddenly the joint pops back in place. She lets out a high pitched scream that leaves my ears ringing but before the scream even has a chance to completely disappear from the air, she has a smile on her face. \u201cIt doesn\u2019t hurt anymore just like you said!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI told you so.\u201d I joke as tears fill my eyes, blurring my vision. \u201cLet\u2019s get you to a sitting position now. I\u2019m sure it\u2019ll feel better than laying on the ground.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Slipping my arm behind her shoulders, I help her sit up. She gently moves her right arm in front of her, cradling it against her chest. I\u2019m sure it still feels funny and it will for a while, too. I hand her my canteen, telling her to drink and as she does, her face gets back some of its color. But after a few minutes, it suddenly goes pale white again. She leaps to her feet and runs over to some bushes a few feet away. Dropping to her knees, her breakfast unfortunately decides to make a reappearance. I quickly get to my feet, grabbing the canteen and untie my neckcloth as I go over to her. Bending down beside her, I soak the cloth in the cool water and pulling back her braid, I lay it on her neck. Rubbing my hand gently up and down her back, I wait for her to stop heaving. Her stomach done giving her the pleasure of seeing its contents, she leans back on her heels, face buried in her hands. Brushing her hair out of her face, I lean in to get a look at her, asking, \u201cYou all right, Madeline?\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYeah, I think so.\u201d She uncovers her face and looks at me with bloodshot eyes. \u201cI\u2019m sorry you had to see that. I don\u2019t know why it happened.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIt happened because your body was going through shock.\u201d I explain. \u201cYou smacked the ground hard enough to knock yourself out and then your shoulder dislocated and we had to put it back. That\u2019s enough to make anyone lose their lunch.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI guess so.\u201d I help her as she moves to stand up. Leading her over to where Prince is still standing patiently by the road, I make her sit back down on a rock and hand her the canteen.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cTake a few sips but not too much.\u201d I tell her as she looks at it with a weary glance. Instead of drinking straight out of it, she pours some into her right hand which she\u2019s still moving very slowly.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat made Trixie buck?\u201d She looks up, handing me back the canteen, grabbing the wet cloth from off her neck. \u201cI never saw it coming.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cA rattlesnake spooked her.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI never even saw or heard it.\u201d She shakes her head. \u201cI guess this is what I get for not paying attention.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIt could\u2019ve happened to anyone.\u201d I quickly put the canteen away and turn back to her, offering her my hand, \u201cI better get you home so you can rest. You\u2019re going to be bruised and sore for a while.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Pulling her gently to her feet, I help her get in Prince\u2019s saddle. Swinging up behind her, we\u2019re soon on our way back to the Ponderosa, which thankfully is only two miles away. Even though I keep Prince at a walk, we\u2019re back at the house rather quickly.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">As we ride into the front yard, Ben rushes over from where he was standing next to his saddled horse. I help Madeline get down as he reaches us, worry written plainly across his face. \u201cMadeline, what happened? Trixie came home without you and I was about to go search for you. Your mother and I were worried.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">We both quickly fill him in on what happened as we walk into the house where Mrs. Cartwright grabs Madeline in a hug. Sitting her down on the sofa, she makes Madeline hold still while she goes to find something to make a sling for her arm. Madeline\u2019s arm is soon slinged and Mr. Cartwright\u2019s on his way to fetch the doc to make sure her arm is put back right. Mrs. Cartwright drifts back to the kitchen to make some coffee and then it\u2019s just Madeline and I in the room. I shift nervously on my feet where I stand by the fireplace and decide to act on the decision I made while we were riding back here.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMadeline?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYeah, Kevin?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI was, um, wondering if maybe tomorrow if you\u2019re feeling up to it, you\u2019d like to go on a buggy ride with me.\u201d I sputter. \u201cYou won\u2019t be able to clean the schoolhouse for a while now so it\u2019s not like it would be interrupting anything.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cKevin, I\u2019d love to go on a buggy ride with you!\u201d She grins at me.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou would?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes, I would!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Chapter 13<br \/>\n(<em>Kevin<\/em>)<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">We ride side by side in my buggy the next day, silent but not uncomfortably silent. Despite her still slinged arm, she\u2019s in a very cheerful mood, which makes my stirred up nerves settle a little. What I have planned for today has my stomach feeling like I swallowed a bushel full of butterflies. Not a very comfortable feeling, especially for a man with a stubborn will and a whole lotta pride. But hopefully I\u2019m not showing it too badly and I think I\u2019m succeeding because I know that if I were acting funny she would say something to me and she hasn\u2019t. I thought I was nervous when I talked to Mr. Cartwright this morning but the nerves swirling around inside of me right now are way worse than those from earlier.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Pulling the reins, I turn the horse in the direction of my ranch, the Double B. Madeline\u2019s head swivels towards me and I can feel her questioning eyes watching my face which I\u2019m trying really hard to not let grin. \u201cKevin, where are we going? I thought we were just going on a buggy ride not to a planned out destination.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWell, we\u2019re doing both, first a simple buggy ride and then to the destination I have planned.\u201d This time I let myself grin as I look at her puzzled face. \u201cThe buggy ride part is done since now it\u2019s time for the destination.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cBut where and what is that destination?\u201d She cocks her right brow up at me, a smile trying to break free but she\u2019s got a tight rein on it.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMy horse ranch. The Double B.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cBut why?\u201d Her voice turns suspicious. \u201cOakley isn\u2019t there. He\u2019s back on the Ponderosa where we left him with Little Joe.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI know.\u201d I nod, thinking briefly about Oakley and Joe. That boy has loved Joe ever since the Cartwrights watched him after Susan\u2019s death and thankfully the feeling is mutual. Joe just happened to be there when we showed up this morning and when he found out about our plans, he offered to keep an eye on Oakley for me. Feeling Madeline\u2019s eyes burning a hole in me, I glance back over with a shrug. \u201cCan\u2019t a man show a pretty gal his ranch if he wants to?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I feel her jump a little beside me and looking over, I find her staring down at her skirt like it\u2019s suddenly the most interesting thing in the world. Worried I offended her somehow, I quickly ask, \u201cWhat\u2019s the matter, do you not want to see the ranch? Because if you don\u2019t, I\u2019ll turn around.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOh, I would love to see your ranch. Please don\u2019t turn around.\u201d She looks at me for a moment but then glances back down at lap again. \u201cDo you really think that I\u2019m pretty?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThat\u2019s a stupid question.\u201d I shake my head, a small smile on my face, \u201cOf course I think you\u2019re pretty! What man wouldn\u2019t?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAre you sure you\u2019re not just trying to be nice to me? I know I\u2019m not much to look at, especially compared to Brie or Misty.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cHey, don\u2019t think like that!\u201d I pull the buggy to a stop in the yard in front of my house. Shifting on the seat until I\u2019m facing her, I reach out and gently grab her chin, tilting her face up towards me so she\u2019ll look me in the eye. \u201cNever think like that. I think you\u2019re beautiful and to me that\u2019s all that matters. It\u2019s not right to compare yourself to others. Everyone was born different looking and there\u2019s nothing wrong with that. The world would be a very boring place if everyone looked exactly the same.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou\u2019re right.\u201d She sighs with a smile as I let go of her chin. Turning, she looks at the house. It\u2019s a shack compared to the Ponderosa but her smile widens as she looks around at it. \u201cYou have a very nice place here, Kevin.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIt\u2019s nothing compared to the Ponderosa.\u201d I shrug. \u201cBut it\u2019s all been built out of hard work and love.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThat\u2019s what makes it special.\u201d We both step out of the buggy. \u201cSomething doesn\u2019t have to be big to be important or special to someone. It\u2019s about how it&#8217;s created.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019m glad you think that way.\u201d Opening the front door for her, I take a deep breath and decide to jump right into my plan. \u201cEspecially since it\u2019s all I have to offer you.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cKevin, what do you mean by that?\u201d She stops and whirls around to face me so fast I nearly plow right into her.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI meant what I said, it\u2019s all I have to offer you.\u201d I wave my hand, pointing to the house around us as I watch her face go white and then bright pink. She sways slightly so I quickly grab her arm and lead her to the sofa on the side of the room. \u201cYou all right?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYeah, I\u2019m fine,\u201d she sighs, looking up at me, \u201cbut please explain yourself.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI want to marry you, Madeline.\u201d Her eyes get so wide I\u2019m surprised they don\u2019t pop clean out of her head but she stays silent. I continue. \u201cIn the past months that we\u2019ve been friends, you\u2019ve slowly become more than just a friend to me but I couldn\u2019t figure out what you\u2019d become. But I finally figured it out yesterday when I saw you fly backwards off your horse. I don\u2019t know why sometimes it\u2019s only when you nearly lose someone you finally realize that you love them. Because that\u2019s exactly how I feel, Madeline, I love you and I realize that I have for a while now. I don\u2019t know if you feel the same way or not but I want you to think about my offer. Not only will you have a home to tend to and call your own, you\u2019ll have Oakley\u2019s love and mine, too.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou really mean it?\u201d Tears have begun to slowly trail their way down her cheeks. \u201cYou really love me?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYeah, of course I mean it.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI almost can\u2019t believe it.\u201d Standing up, she walks over to the fireplace and rests her elbow on the mantle. \u201cI\u2019ve dreamed of hearing you say those words for months now and I was beginning to think I\u2019d never hear them.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat do you mean?\u201d Going over to her, I turn her towards me so I can look her in the face.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat I mean, Kevin, is that I love you, too.\u201d The tears still run down her face but now I know they\u2019re happy tears. \u201cThe same thing happened to me that day you knocked yourself out on the stage. The possibility of losing you terrified me and that\u2019s when I realized I was falling in love with you.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cBut you still haven\u2019t answered my question. Will you marry me?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes, I\u2019ll marry you, Kevin.\u201d Being careful with her arm, I pull her into a tight hug. Leaning back a little, I bend down to kiss her but she stops me. \u201cWhat about Susan?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat do you mean, what about Susan?\u201d I ask, confused. \u201cShe\u2019s been dead for five years now.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI know that but I\u2019m so different from her.\u201d I read between the lines and realize what she\u2019s really asking.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMadeline, I love you, not Susan. Yes, a very small part of my heart will always be hers but you and Oakley completely fill up the rest of it.\u201d I take her face in my hands so she has no choice but to look at me. \u201cI loved Susan but\u00a0 I never loved her like I love you and I\u2019m closer to you than I ever was to her. She\u2019ll never come between us in any way because I love you for who you are and I could never compare the two of you in any way. You are both special in your own ways and I wouldn\u2019t want to change that for the world.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I wipe the tears off her cheeks as I lean in and kiss her. She doesn\u2019t stop me the time but instead leans in. My nerves completely dissolve as a happiness like I\u2019ve never felt before fills my whole body.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Chapter 14<br \/>\n(<em>Madeline<\/em>)<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Buttoning up the back of my purple dress which I decided to finally\u00a0 wear today, I hurry over to the door as someone knocks. Opening it, I find Brie standing in the doorway, the curling irons I put on the stove in her hands. She hurries in and nearly throws them down on the towel I have laying on my bureau. \u201cMan, those things get hot!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThanks for bringing them up, Brie.\u201d I laugh as I pull a chair up to the bureau. Beginning to brush my hair, I see her step up behind me in the mirror.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWant me to curl it for you?\u201d She offers. \u201cIt\u2019ll go faster.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cGo ahead.\u201d I hand the brush over my shoulder to her. Grabbing it, she quickly has my hair parted and sectioned off. I lean back in my chair and watch her do her thing. I don\u2019t know if it has anything to do with her artistic talents but Brie\u2019s a wizard with hair. She just somehow knows exactly how to twist, pin, and curl it into a stunning masterpiece.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWe\u2019ve both been so blessed since we came to Virginia City. It was the best thing we\u2019ve ever done.\u201d She says, winding a piece of hair around one of the curling irons. \u201cWe wouldn\u2019t have come here if it wasn\u2019t for you.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019m glad I saw that teaching application in the newspaper. If I hadn\u2019t, we wouldn\u2019t be here.\u201d I watch her pull the hair off the iron and bounce it up before letting it relax on my back. \u201cI never thought moving to a new town miles away from where we grew up would change our lives so much.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMama was reunited with her first love after not seeing him for over thirty years and they fell in love all over again. And then when they got married we not only got a Pa who loves us but three brothers as well.\u201d She grins at me in the mirror. \u201cBoth of us are engaged to men we love with all of our hearts and Jewels is turning into a very lovely young lady under Mama and Pa\u2019s watchful eyes. I think she needed Ben more than we did.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThat she did.\u201d I nod but then instantly regret it as the hot curling iron touches my neck. I glance up at Brie to find her trying not to grin at me. \u201cDo you think she\u2019s jealous?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cJealous of what?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cUs being engaged and about to be married while she hasn\u2019t even had a beau yet.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMaybe a little.\u201d She shrugs. \u201cBut she\u2019s got so many romantic thoughts going through her head right now, I doubt she\u2019d know what real love was if it smacked her right in the face. I do know of someone who\u2019s jealous of you though.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWho?\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cMe.\u201d I look at her in the mirror, confused. \u201cYou get to marry Kevin as soon as school is completely wrapped up for the year while I have to wait almost until the end of summer to marry Candy.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019d be in the same position too if it wasn\u2019t for the fact that Kevin already has a house.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI know, I\u2019m just beginning to get impatient, is all.\u201d She sticks the last pin in my hair just as a buggy pulls into the front yard. \u201cIt looks like I\u2019ve finished just in time. That\u2019s probably Kevin here to pick you up to take you to the schoolhouse.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cDo I look all right?\u201d I ask as I stand up.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cLike perfection! You\u2019ll knock his socks off for sure.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThank you, Brie.\u201d I lean in and give her a quick hug.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou better get down there.\u201d She laughs. \u201cYou don\u2019t want to be late for your own students\u2019 school program.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Laughing, we both hurry out of the room and down the stairs. Pa opens the door for Kevin just as I reach the bottom of the stairs. Kevin\u2019s eyes glance around the room after he shakes Pa\u2019s hand and when they find me, they stop dead in their tracks. I can nearly hear his jaw pop as his mouth flies open. I have to bite the inside of my cheek to keep from laughing at the comical look on his face.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cShe\u2019s real pretty, isn\u2019t she, son?\u201d Pa slaps him on the back, trying not to laugh, too. The hearty slap brings Kevin back to reality.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes sir, that she is!\u201d He hurries across the room to me. Taking my hand, he kisses the top of it, bowing slightly over it. \u201cMy lady, your carriage awaits.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Quickly telling everyone goodbye and see you later, we dart out the door. He helps me climb in so I don\u2019t tear my dress as Oakley stares at me from the middle of the seat. He continues to stare for a moment but then leaning over, he gives me a hug. With a flick of the reins, we\u2019re soon out of the yard and down the road.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Pulling into the empty schoolyard that\u2019ll soon be full of people including my whole family, Oakley and I hop down. He takes off for the yard to play around while he can. \u201cDon\u2019t get your clothes dirty, young man!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI won\u2019t, Ma!\u201d I grin when I hear him call back over his shoulder. It still feels funny to be called Ma.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Walking arm in arm with Kevin, we make our way to the schoolhouse. Unlocking the door, I go to slip in but pausing, I look back at the stage. If it wasn\u2019t for that stage I wouldn\u2019t be engaged right now. Kevin looks at me and follows my gaze to the stage. \u201cWhat are you thinking about?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThat stage. The program.\u201d I shrug.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThe program is going to be just fine, don\u2019t you worry about it.\u201d He wraps his arm around my waist as we stand in the doorway, both of us looking at that wooden structure out in the yard. \u201cIt\u2019s funny to think that we wouldn\u2019t be standing here like this if it wasn\u2019t for that stage out there.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI know. I was thinking the same thing.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019m glad none of your brothers or Candy were able to build it for you because I never would\u2019ve had the opportunity. And thanks to that opportunity, now the Ponderosa schoolmarm is going to be all mine.\u201d He tilts his head down towards me as I raise up on my tip toes. As our lips meet, I decide that I like the name Ponderosa schoolmarm after all.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>The End\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Tags:\u00a0 Family,\u00a0school teacher,\u00a0Sister<\/p>\n<div class=\"pvc_clear\"><\/div>\n<p id=\"pvc_stats_38834\" class=\"pvc_stats all  \" data-element-id=\"38834\" style=\"\"><i class=\"pvc-stats-icon medium\" aria-hidden=\"true\"><svg aria-hidden=\"true\" focusable=\"false\" data-prefix=\"far\" data-icon=\"chart-bar\" role=\"img\" xmlns=\"http:\/\/www.w3.org\/2000\/svg\" viewBox=\"0 0 512 512\" class=\"svg-inline--fa fa-chart-bar fa-w-16 fa-2x\"><path fill=\"currentColor\" d=\"M396.8 352h22.4c6.4 0 12.8-6.4 12.8-12.8V108.8c0-6.4-6.4-12.8-12.8-12.8h-22.4c-6.4 0-12.8 6.4-12.8 12.8v230.4c0 6.4 6.4 12.8 12.8 12.8zm-192 0h22.4c6.4 0 12.8-6.4 12.8-12.8V140.8c0-6.4-6.4-12.8-12.8-12.8h-22.4c-6.4 0-12.8 6.4-12.8 12.8v198.4c0 6.4 6.4 12.8 12.8 12.8zm96 0h22.4c6.4 0 12.8-6.4 12.8-12.8V204.8c0-6.4-6.4-12.8-12.8-12.8h-22.4c-6.4 0-12.8 6.4-12.8 12.8v134.4c0 6.4 6.4 12.8 12.8 12.8zM496 400H48V80c0-8.84-7.16-16-16-16H16C7.16 64 0 71.16 0 80v336c0 17.67 14.33 32 32 32h464c8.84 0 16-7.16 16-16v-16c0-8.84-7.16-16-16-16zm-387.2-48h22.4c6.4 0 12.8-6.4 12.8-12.8v-70.4c0-6.4-6.4-12.8-12.8-12.8h-22.4c-6.4 0-12.8 6.4-12.8 12.8v70.4c0 6.4 6.4 12.8 12.8 12.8z\" class=\"\"><\/path><\/svg><\/i> <img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"16\" height=\"16\" alt=\"Loading\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/wp-content\/plugins\/page-views-count\/ajax-loader-2x.gif?resize=16%2C16&#038;ssl=1\" border=0 \/><\/p>\n<div class=\"pvc_clear\"><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Summary: Madeline Cartwright, Ben&#8217;s oldest stepdaughter, is Virginia City&#8217;s new schoolteacher. 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