Summary:\u00a0 The more things change the more things stay the same.\u00a0 Twelve looks at the Cartwrights during 1865.<\/p>\n
Rating – K –\u00a0Intended for general audience 5 years and older.\u00a0 (11,970 words)<\/p>\n
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1865<\/strong><\/p>\n by Joan<\/strong> 21st January<\/strong>\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n \u2018Must you?\u2019 The sarcasm that dripped from Adam\u2019s voice made his father look up in surprise.\u00a0 He shook his head slightly as he saw the look on his eldest son\u2019s face as he glanced over at his younger brother, for it had been like this for days now.\u00a0 Bad enough that they had been snowed in since Wednesday and everyone was getting on each others nerves, but to top it all off Adam had been behaving very strangely for a couple of weeks now. Ben didn\u2019t know what was bothering his eldest son, as the boy never opened up to him at the best of times, but certainly he knew that there was more than Joseph\u2019s over-exuberance that was causing the tone of his voice.<\/p>\n Joe gave his brother an exasperated look. \u2018What?\u2019 he replied indignantly. \u2018I ain\u2019t doing nothing!\u2019<\/p>\n Adam pointed to his brother\u2019s hand as it drummed on the table. \u2018That,\u2019 he spat. \u2018Stop that infernal noise will you please?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018So \u2013 rry!\u2019 said Joe sarcastically and made a face before he went back to studying the chessboard in front of him. Adam buried his nose in his book again and Ben sighed as he settled down and tried to concentrate on his newspaper as he listened to the fire crackling.<\/p>\n \u2018Stop it!\u2019<\/p>\n Ben dragged his eyes reluctantly up again and this time glanced over at Hoss.<\/p>\n \u2018Boys is it necessary to keep interrupting me?\u2019 asked Ben testily.<\/p>\n \u2018Sorry Pa,\u2019 said Hoss. \u2018But this little weasel keeps cheating on me.\u2019\u00a0 He gave Joe a baleful look, which was returned.<\/p>\n \u2018If you can\u2019t play properly Joseph, then don\u2019t play at all!\u2019 said his father.<\/p>\n Joe turned to face the man. \u2018Why does everyone assume that I\u2019m always in the wrong?\u2019 he protested.<\/p>\n \u2018Because you always are,\u2019 said Adam smugly from behind his book.<\/p>\n \u2018That ain\u2019t fair!\u2019 said Joe. \u2018You stay out of this Adam!\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Boys!\u2019 thundered Ben as he flung down his paper. \u2018Now I\u2019ve had just about enough of this!\u00a0 It\u2019s bad enough that we\u2019re stuck in here like this without all of you fighting all the time.\u00a0 Joseph, either play properly or don\u2019t play at all.\u00a0 Adam, stop interfering in your brother\u2019s game. Hoss \u2026.\u2019 Ben searched his brain for something to criticise his middle son for. \u2018Stop making that noise!\u2019\u00a0 He rustled his paper and disappeared behind it again with a grunt.<\/p>\n Hoss stopped munching noisily on the mouthful of apple he was eating and swallowed it with a gulp while he glared at Joe who folded his arms and sat back in his chair in a huff. \u2018Well I ain\u2019t playing!\u2019 the youngest Cartwright declared.<\/p>\n \u2018Suits me all right,\u2019 said Hoss. \u2018You couldn\u2019t have won anyway.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Who says?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Joseph!\u2019\u00a0 Joe shut his mouth and slunk back further in his chair at the sound of his father\u2019s voice.<\/p>\n The was silence for a few minutes as Ben and Adam continued to read, Hoss straightened up the chess pieces on the board and Joe stared into the flames.<\/p>\n \u2018I\u2019m bored,\u2019 said Joe after a while.<\/p>\n \u2018Read a book,\u2019 said Adam. \u2018It\u2019d do you good to expand your mind a bit.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018My mind\u2019s expanded enough,\u2019 declared Joe indignantly. He sat forward. \u2018What you reading Adam?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Dickens.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Yeah?\u00a0 Which one?\u2019\u00a0 There was no response. \u2018Which one?\u2019 Joe asked again.<\/p>\n \u2018Be quiet.\u00a0 I\u2019m trying to read.\u2019<\/p>\n Joe gave a dramatic sigh and turned to Hoss again. \u2018You wanna play another game?\u2019<\/p>\n Hoss gave his younger brother a withering look. \u2018You gotta be kidding!\u2019 he exclaimed grumpily. \u2018I\u2019d rather shovel snow.\u2019<\/p>\n Joe put his finger up to his lips in a warning gesture, while he glanced over at his father to see if he\u2019d heard. Hoss realised what he\u2019d said too late and gave his father a weak grin as Ben looked up again. \u2018Now there\u2019s an idea,\u2019 said Ben. \u2018I\u2019m sure that the walking track to the barn could do with shovelling again boys.\u00a0 That\u2019ll give you something to do.\u2019<\/p>\n Joe gave Hoss a dark look before replying. \u2018But we did it this morning,\u2019 he protested.<\/p>\n \u2018And it needs it again,\u2019 said his father. \u2018It might do you good to be out of the house for a while Joseph. Hop to it.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018But it\u2019s still snowing,\u2019 said Joe grumpily.<\/p>\n \u2018You heard Pa,\u2019 said Hoss with a grin. \u2018Hop to it.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018And you can join him,\u2019 said Ben firmly. \u2018You\u2019ll get it done quicker that way.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Don\u2019t see why we just can\u2019t wait until the snow stops,\u2019 grumbled Joe as he got up and went to get his thick coat which hung with the others by the door.<\/p>\n \u2018And how would we get across to the barn to feed the animals, pray tell?\u2019 asked Adam sarcastically. \u2018Or would they manage by themselves?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018We could put enough feed out there to last em a week,\u2019 suggested Joe. \u2018That way we wouldn\u2019t have to check em every day.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam nodded thoughtfully. \u2018And you\u2019ll tell them to eat just a bit each day will you?\u2019 he asked sarcastically.<\/p>\n Joe glared at his brother and made a face before walking to the foyer to get his coat. \u2018Come on Hoss,\u2019 he said. \u2018Better get away from some people who think they know everything.\u2019\u00a0 He slammed the front door behind him as he followed his older brother outside.<\/p>\n Ben glanced over at Adam. \u2018Is something bothering you son?\u2019 he asked.<\/p>\n \u2018You mean apart from those two?\u2019 asked Adam from behind his book. When his father didn\u2019t reply, he lowered it with a sigh. \u2018There\u2019s nothing wrong,\u2019 he said before putting the book in front of his face again.<\/p>\n \u2018Well I think there is,\u2019 persisted Ben. \u2018You haven\u2019t been yourself for the past couple of weeks son.\u00a0 There\u2019s obviously something bothering you.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I told you that there\u2019s nothing,\u2019 said Adam, still refusing to lower the book. \u2018I\u2019m just edgy being inside all the time I guess.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben frowned and took a couple of puff on his pipe. \u2018There\u2019s more to it than that,\u2019 he said. \u2018I know you well and \u2026.\u2019\u00a0 He stopped as Hop Sing came thumping down the stairs muttering to himself.\u00a0 Ben sat back in his chair, unwilling to ask what the problem was, although he knew that he\u2019d hear about it anyway.<\/p>\n Sure enough, Hop Sing stopped next to his chair and began to wave his arms around. \u2018Hop Sing go back Old China when snow melt!\u2019 he shouted.<\/p>\n \u2018What is it now Hop Sing?\u2019 asked Ben reluctantly.<\/p>\n \u2018Boys leave rooms in big mess for Hop Sing,\u2019 the man shouted. \u2018No time clean big mess!\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I\u2019ll speak to them,\u2019 said Ben wearily. \u2018I take it you\u2019re not including Adam in that?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018No Mr Adam,\u2019 said Hop Sing firmly. \u2018Little Joe leave bedclothes all over floor and Mr Hoss have crumbs everywhere!\u00a0 Hop Sing no time to clean boys’ mess!\u2019 he repeated.<\/p>\n \u2018I said that I\u2019d speak to them,\u2019 said Ben with a sigh.<\/p>\n \u2018No cookies for them!\u2019 muttered Hop Sing as he carried his linen basket out to the kitchen. \u2018Hop Sing no time for mess!\u2019<\/p>\n Ben sighed again and took a deep puff on his pipe. \u2018So?\u2019 he said. \u2018Are you going to talk to me about what is bothering you?\u2019 he persisted.<\/p>\n Adam put down his book with a sigh. \u2018Pa I told you that there\u2019s nothing bothering me,\u2019 he said. He turned as the front door opened with a bang and Joe and Hoss came in slapping their sides with the cold. \u2018You two had better get back out there,\u2019 he warned. \u2018Hop Sing is after you.\u2019<\/p>\n Joe gave his brother an indignant look as he stripped off his coat and black gloves. \u2018Why?\u2019 he said. \u2018What did we do?\u2019<\/p>\n Adam didn\u2019t have a chance to answer as Hop Sing came out from the kitchen brandishing a wooden spoon. \u2018Hop Sing got no time for mess!\u2019 he shouted at them.<\/p>\n \u2018What mess?\u2019 asked Joe, taking a step back to get out of reach of the spoon. \u2018I didn\u2019t do nothing!\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Exactly Joseph,\u2019 said his father. \u2018You didn\u2019t do anything as usual.\u00a0 You left your room in a mess for Hop Sing so I suggest you get straight on up there and tidy it.\u2019<\/p>\n Joe glowered at his father\u2019s back, but said nothing. Hop Sing reached over and hit Hoss on the side of the head with the spoon. \u2018You leave big messy crumbs!\u2019 he shouted. \u2018No cookies for you!\u2019<\/p>\n Hoss rubbed the side of his head ruefully. \u2018I\u2019ll clean it up Hop Sing,\u2019 he said.<\/p>\n \u2018You will!\u2019 shouted the cook indignantly. \u2018Hop Sing got no time for mess!\u2019<\/p>\n Hoss sighed and began to walk towards the staircase, still rubbing his head.\u00a0 Joe began to giggle at the sight of his older brother\u2019s dilemma, but his giggling soon turned to a howl as he too was hit on the head by Hop Sing\u2019s spoon. \u2018Hey!\u2019 he shouted. \u2018I done nothing!\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Very true! Now you do something!\u2019 retorted Hop Sing. \u2018Upstairs in bedroom!\u2019<\/p>\n Joe began to mutter under his breath as he followed Hoss to the staircase. Ben chuckled as Hop Sing left the room also and noticed that Adam didn\u2019t react at all. With a sigh, he picked up his newspaper again and tried to concentrate on it.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n 21st February\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n \u2018Hoss feeling better?\u2019 asked Joe as he slipped into his spot at the table and looked with distaste at the bowl of soup in front of him.<\/p>\n \u2018He seemed to be breathing a bit easier when I checked up on him earlier,\u2019 replied his father. \u2018And I wouldn\u2019t let Hop Sing see you looking like that at his meal.\u00a0 He\u2019s in a bad enough mood as it is about the lack of supplies around here.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I told you that I could get the wagon into town,\u2019 said Joe. \u2018The trail is almost clear.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Almost isn\u2019t good enough Joseph,\u2019 replied his father. \u2018I\u2019m not allowing any of you to take a risk in all this snow.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Besides,\u2019 said Adam. \u2018You just want an excuse to get in there. Hop Sing\u2019s supplies would be the last thing on your mind.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Oh!\u2019 said Joe, feigning eyes wide.\u00a0 \u2018The sphinx can speak, can he?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Joseph that is enough,\u2019 said Ben tersely. \u2018I\u2019m sick and tired of all this bickering between the three of you.\u00a0 At least Hoss isn\u2019t down here at the moment to add to it.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Well I\u2019m sick of him,\u2019 said Joe, indicating Adam with his spoon. \u2018He never even talks to me lately except to grumble about something I\u2019ve done.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben was silent.\u00a0 It was true \u2026 Adam had been in a difficult mood for ages now and he still didn\u2019t know why.\u00a0 Something was obviously eating away at the boy and Ben longed to help him, but he knew from experience that his eldest son wouldn\u2019t open up until he was ready to do so. \u2018That\u2019s enough,\u2019 he said finally. \u2018Just eat.\u2019\u00a0 He helped himself to the inevitable vegetable soup that they\u2019d been having for days with a sigh. No one would be gladder than him when they were able to get into town again and Hop Sing could replenish his kitchen supplies.<\/p>\n \u2018I\u2019m going to try and get on up to the timber mill next week if the trail is clear,\u2019 he said.<\/p>\n Adam looked up sharply. \u2018Why?\u2019 he asked.<\/p>\n Ben gave him a surprised look in return. \u2018No reason,\u2019 he said. \u2018I just want to check it out.\u00a0 We should be able to move the men up there as soon as the snow thaws and I want to make sure that everything is ready in advance for the cutting.\u2019\u00a0 Adam lowered his head and said nothing. \u2018Is something wrong with that?\u2019 asked Ben after a moment.<\/p>\n \u2018No.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Maybe big brother\u2019s plans up there ain\u2019t finished yet,\u2019 teased Joe with a grin.<\/p>\n Adam\u2019s head shot up again. \u2018Shut up!\u2019 he snarled.<\/p>\n Joe\u2019s face darkened. \u2018You shut up!\u2019 he yelled. \u2018I was only \u2026\u2019<\/p>\n Ben placed his hand on Joe\u2019s arm. \u2018Joe ..\u2019 he warned and waited while the boy regained his composure. \u2018Take some soup up to your brother please,\u2019 said Ben after a moment.<\/p>\n \u2018Why me?\u2019 asked Joe.<\/p>\n \u2018Because I told you to,\u2019 said Ben.\u00a0 He waited until Joe had left the room with the soup before turning to Adam. \u2018And what, may I ask is wrong with you?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Nothing,\u2019 muttered Adam.<\/p>\n \u2018Obviously you don\u2019t want me to check on the mill,\u2019 said his father. \u2018It is ready, isn\u2019t it?\u2019<\/p>\n Adam shrugged. \u2018As ready as it\u2019s going to be,\u2019 he said.<\/p>\n \u2018And what is that supposed to mean?\u2019<\/p>\n Adam stood up and threw down his napkin. \u2018Whatever you want it to mean,\u2019 he said testily. \u2018It\u2019s working and that\u2019s all there is to it.\u2019\u00a0 He strode away from the table and sat in front of the fireplace.<\/p>\n Ben stared at his eldest son for a moment. \u2018Is it something about the mill that\u2019s been bothering you?\u2019 he asked finally.<\/p>\n \u2018No.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Then what?\u2019<\/p>\n Adam stood up again. \u2018For heaven\u2019s sake Pa, why don\u2019t you give it a rest?\u2019 he said. \u2018I\u2019m going out to the barn to check on the horses.\u00a0 I don\u2019t suppose that irresponsible brother of mine even thought to feed them before he came in.\u2019 He strode across the room, banging the door as he left the room.<\/p>\n Ben sat at the table by himself, shaking his head. \u2018Where everyone go?\u2019 asked Hop Sing as he came into the room. \u2018No eat lunch.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Joe will be back in a minute,\u2019 said Ben.\u00a0 \u2018He took some soup up to Hoss. I think that Adam might be finished here.\u2019\u00a0 He put his face in his hands as Hop Sing left again, muttering in Chinese under his breath.\u00a0 He didn\u2019t know how much more of this he could take.\u00a0 One son in a constant bad mood, another up in bed fighting the influenza and the third being his usual irresponsible self.\u00a0\u00a0 If he \u2026<\/p>\n \u2018So where\u2019s the sphinx gone?\u2019 asked Joe as he slid into his place again. \u2018Hoss weren\u2019t too happy that it was soup again.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018He be lucky him get anything to eat!\u2019 shouted Hop Sing behind them as he plonked a plate of rolls on the table. \u2018Hop Sing got no supplies!\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Did you have to say that?\u2019 asked Ben wearily. \u2018You\u2019ve started him off again.\u00a0 And as for your brother \u2026 well he\u2019s out there doing your chores for you.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018What chores?\u2019 asked Joe indignantly. \u2018I didn\u2019t leave no chores undone.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben raised an eyebrow at his youngest son. \u2018So you did get the horses fed then, did you?\u2019 he asked.<\/p>\n Joe swallowed. \u2018Well \u2026.\u2019 he said. \u2018Not quite. I was gonna do it later.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben raised the other eyebrow. \u2018It\u2019s time you learned a bit of responsibility around here young man,\u2019 he said sternly. \u2018Your brothers and I should not have to keep checking on you all the time for your unfinished work.\u2019<\/p>\n Joe lowered his head. \u2018Yes sir,\u2019 he said quietly, waiting for the usual lecture to finish.<\/p>\n Ben sighed again and rubbed his temples. \u2018Eat your soup Joseph,\u2019 he said wearily.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n 21st March\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n \u2018Where are the eggs?\u2019 asked Joe, looking at the breakfast table closely. \u2018We always have eggs.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018No eggs today!\u2019 announced Hop Sing.\u00a0 .<\/p>\n \u2018Don\u2019t tell me the hens have stopped laying,\u2019 said Ben wearily. \u2018What next?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018No hens stop laying,\u2019 retorted Hop Sing. \u2018Them lay lots eggs, but someone take away before Hop Sing get them.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018You mean that someone has been stealing the eggs?\u2019 said Ben. \u2018Who on earth would do a thing like that?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Maybe it was coyotes?\u2019 suggested Joe.<\/p>\n Hop Sing shook his head. \u2018No,\u2019 he said. \u2018No tracks left. No feathers left.\u00a0 Nothing left.\u00a0 No eggs left!\u2019\u00a0 He flounced out of the room angrily, muttering to himself in Chinese.<\/p>\n \u2018Joe I want you to go and pick up the mail today,\u2019 said Ben, ignoring the cook. \u2018There should be a letter from Adam if we\u2019re lucky.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018When\u2019s he coming home?\u2019 asked Joe as he helped himself to some oatmeal.<\/p>\n \u2018I\u2019m not sure,\u2019 replied his father in a worried tone. \u2018I hope this trip to San Francisco has done him good though.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018So do I,\u2019 retorted Joe. \u2018He\u2019s been so grouchy lately.\u00a0 Always on about me not doing my work.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben raised an eyebrow. \u2018Really?\u2019 he said. \u2018And I wonder why that is?\u2019<\/p>\n Joe shrugged his shoulders. \u2018I dunno,\u2019 he said, oblivious to his father\u2019s sarcasm. \u2018It\u2019s sure got me beat.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Where is Hoss?\u2019 asked Ben. \u2018It isn\u2019t like him to be late for breakfast.\u2019 Before anyone could say a word, Hoss entered the room and sat down at the table.<\/p>\n \u2018Sorry I\u2019m late,\u2019 he said. \u2018I kinda got caught up with things outside.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018There\u2019s no eggs,\u2019 said Joe. \u2018Someone got to em before Hop Sing did.\u2019<\/p>\n A momentary look of embarrassment crossed Hoss\u2019 face and he put his head down suddenly. \u2018Son?\u2019 said his father suspiciously. \u2018Do you know anything about those eggs?\u2019<\/p>\n Hoss didn\u2019t say anything for a moment and then shrugged. \u2018Sorta,\u2019 he said.<\/p>\n \u2018What then?\u00a0 Did you take them?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Sorta,\u2019 said Hoss, shrugging again.<\/p>\n Ben gave a frustrated sigh. \u2018Hoss \u2026. did you or did you not take the eggs this morning?\u2019 he asked, trying to be patient.<\/p>\n \u2018Well yeah,\u2019 admitted Hoss. \u2018I kinda did.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben shook his head. \u2018Now why on earth would you take the eggs?\u2019 he asked. \u2018Don\u2019t you get enough breakfast as it is?\u2019<\/p>\n Hoss finally looked up. \u2018Oh they weren\u2019t for eatin Pa,\u2019 he assured his father. \u2018They was fer \u2026 other things,\u2019 he finished lamely.<\/p>\n \u2018What other things?\u2019 asked Joe curiously.<\/p>\n Hoss shot his brother a dark look. \u2018Jest other things,\u2019 he mumbled.<\/p>\n \u2018Hoss, I\u2019m losing patience with you,\u2019 said Ben angrily. \u2018Now kindly explain what you\u2019re doing with those eggs please.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I\u2019m painting em,\u2019 mumbled Hoss, going red.<\/p>\n \u2018You\u2019re painting the eggs?\u2019 said Ben, nonplussed. \u2018Whatever for?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Easter eggs,\u2019 mumbled Hoss, trying to ignore Joe\u2019s giggling. \u2018Shut up Joe,\u2019 he said finally when his younger brother didn\u2019t stop.<\/p>\n \u2018Easter eggs!\u2019 shouted Ben. \u2018Jumping Jephosophat! What on earth you would want a couple of dozen painted Easter eggs for?\u2019<\/p>\n Hoss gave his father a pained look. \u2018Well Sunday is Easter Sunday,\u2019 he said simply.<\/p>\n Joe\u2019s giggles increased. \u2018So you\u2019re gonna be the Easter bunny?\u2019 he asked. \u2018Oh goody!\u00a0 Hippety hop! Hippety Hop!\u00a0 Hey Pa \u2026 can I sit up late and watch out for the bunny like you let me when I was little?<\/p>\n Ben gave his youngest son a stern look. \u2018That will do!\u2019 he said. \u2018Get outside and finish your chores if you\u2019ve finished eating please.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Yeah but can\u2019t I \u2026\u2019\u00a0 Joe gave a sigh and stood up to leave the room, giving Hoss a playful slap on the shoulder as he passed him. \u2018Can I have a big egg on Sunday?\u2019 he asked teasingly, nimbly stepping back just as Hoss reached out to swat him.<\/p>\n Ben waited until Joe had left the room before speaking again. \u2018Now why on earth are you painting eggs for Easter Hoss?\u2019 he asked. \u2018You haven\u2019t done that since you were a boy.\u2019<\/p>\n Hoss looked at his father pleadingly. \u2018It\u2019s fer a present fer someone,\u2019 he said. \u2018I don\u2019t want Joe and Adam ta know Pa cause \u2026 well you saw Joe \u2026 they\u2019ll go on bout it.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Who is the present for son?\u2019 asked his father.<\/p>\n Hoss\u2019 eyes lit up. \u2018You heard of the Simmons family that moved inta town last week? Well I done met Margie Simmons a few days ago.\u00a0 She\u2019s real pretty Pa.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018So this present is for her?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Yeah,\u2019 admitted Hoss. \u2018I kinda thought \u2026 well \u2026 she\u2019s got lots of little brothers and sisters ya see and \u2026\u2019 He bent his head and stared at his plate.<\/p>\n \u2018So you thought a basket of coloured Easter eggs would be a nice present for her brothers and sisters on Sunday?\u2019 asked his father with a twinkle in his eye.<\/p>\n \u2018Yeah.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018And it might help this particular young lady think kindly of you, mightn\u2019t it?\u2019 teased Ben.<\/p>\n Hoss went red. \u2018Yeah,\u2019 he said.<\/p>\n \u2018Well I hope your ploy works then son,\u2019 said Ben, slapping Hoss on the back and giving a short laugh. \u2018Only one thing though \u2026 next time you decide to do something like this please ask first?\u2019<\/p>\n Hoss grinned at his father. \u2018OK Pa,\u2019 he said.<\/p>\n \u2018Oh .. and Hoss?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Yeah Pa?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018You\u2019d better get on out to that kitchen and tell Hop Sing where his eggs have gone.\u2019<\/p>\n Hoss gave his father a pained look. \u2018Do I have to?\u2019 he asked.<\/p>\n Ben simply stared at him until he put down his napkin and stood up with a sigh before leaving the room. After a moment Ben heard the sound of yelling coming from the next room and the crashing of saucepans as Hop Sing vented his displeasure at Hoss\u2019 actions. \u2018I hope it\u2019s worth it son,\u2019 he murmured to himself as he picked up his coffee cup.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n 21st April<\/strong>\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n \u2018You OK Pa?\u2019 asked Hoss as his father settled himself in his favourite chair next to the fireplace with a sigh.<\/p>\n \u2018Yes son,\u2019 replied Ben wearily. \u2018Just a bit tired that\u2019s all.\u2019\u00a0 He looked over at Adam. \u2018How\u2019s it going up at the mill son?\u2019 he asked.<\/p>\n \u2018Fine,\u2019 said Adam.<\/p>\n \u2018Do you think you\u2019ll have that lumber ready for shipment on time?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Hope so,\u2019 said Adam. \u2018We\u2019re sure working hard towards it.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben gave another sigh. \u2018I\u2019m sorry I\u2019m not being much help to you Adam,\u2019 he said. \u2018Once we get the branding finished I\u2019ll be able to give some time to it.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Don\u2019t worry Pa,\u2019 said Adam. \u2018It\u2019s fine. We\u2019ve worked under this kind of pressure before.\u2019\u00a0 He picked up a book and began to read.<\/p>\n Ben gave him a worried look and opened his mouth to speak but before he could, the front door burst open with a bang. He looked over his shoulder. \u2018Is it necessary to enter a room like that Joseph?\u2019 he asked crossly. \u2018Close that door quietly please!\u2019<\/p>\n Joe gave his father an apologetic look. \u2018Sorry Pa,\u2019 he said, closing the door before taking off his hat and coat. \u2018Hey Hoss!\u00a0 I saw Margie Simmons in town and she was asking bout you!\u2019<\/p>\n Hoss leapt forward in his seat. \u2018She was?\u2019 he said excitedly.<\/p>\n \u2018Sure was,\u2019 said Joe, sitting on the edge of the sofa next to his brother. \u2018I reckon you should be taking her to the dance on Saturday night brother.\u2019<\/p>\n Hoss shifted uncomfortably in his chair. \u2018Nah!\u2019 he said. \u2018I reckon not Joe.\u00a0 I mean \u2026. She wouldn\u2019t want ta go with me.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018How do ya know that?\u2019 asked Joe. \u2018You and her have been making eyes at each other for weeks now.\u00a0 I reckon it\u2019s about time you plucked up the courage ta ask her Hoss.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Ya reckon?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Just ask the girl and be done with it, why don\u2019t you?\u2019 said Adam crossly from behind his book and Hoss shot his older brother a hurt look.<\/p>\n \u2018I\u2019m gonna,\u2019 he said. \u2018I\u2019m just getting up the courage is all.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018You want me ta practise you like we done before?\u2019 asked Joe, standing up and slapping his brother on the back. \u2018We could pretend that you was asking me like we practised when ya asked Bessie Sue out last summer.\u2019<\/p>\n Hoss\u2019 face split into a wide grin. \u2018That\u2019d be fine Joe,\u2019 he said.<\/p>\n \u2018You two can practise later,\u2019 said Ben as he picked up his pipe. \u2018There\u2019s chores to be done first. Which reminds me Joseph.\u00a0 Did you get that Bank Draft for me in town as I asked you to?\u2019<\/p>\n Joe slapped his hand in his forehead and gave his father an apologetic look. \u2018Holy Toledo Pa, I forgot!\u2019 he exclaimed.<\/p>\n Ben shook his head. \u2018You forgot!\u2019 he said. \u2018I\u2019m sick and tired of you forgetting everything you\u2019re told to do!\u00a0 When are you going to concentrate and do as you\u2019re told?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I\u2019m sorry Pa,\u2019 said Joe. \u2018I\u2019ll go in again tomorrow and get it.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018You\u2019ll do nothing of the kind,\u2019 said Ben sternly. \u2018You\u2019ve wasted enough time today.\u00a0 Hoss can go in.\u00a0 At least I\u2019ll know that he\u2019ll get the job done.\u00a0 Now get to those chores!\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Yeah I\u2019ll get it Pa,\u2019 Hoss assured his father. \u2018And I reckon I might see Margie when I\u2019m in there too and ask her to that dance.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018That\u2019s the spirit,\u2019 said Joe, slapping his brother on the back as they left the room together. \u2018Now we can practise what you\u2019re gonna say while we work Hoss.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben chuckled to himself quietly as his two younger sons left the room together. \u2018I hope he plucks up the courage this time,\u2019 he commented as the front door closed behind them.<\/p>\n Adam looked up from his book. \u2018You know Pa you really should do something about that kid,\u2019 he said dryly. \u2018He never concentrates on anything.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I take it you\u2019re referring to Joseph?\u2019 asked his father as he picked up his pipe.<\/p>\n \u2018Yes,\u2019 said Adam. \u2018I don\u2019t know why you let him get away with taking no responsibility for anything around here.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben stroked his chin as he puffed on his pipe. \u2018You\u2019re probably right son,\u2019 he said. \u2018He certainly hasn\u2019t proven himself to be very responsible up until now. How about I give him to you up at the mill for a while and see if he gets down to work up there?\u2019<\/p>\n Adam shot his father a dark look. \u2018Please no!\u2019 he said. \u2018It\u2019s hard enough up there without him.\u00a0 Can\u2019t you think of something else for him to do?\u2019<\/p>\n Ben sighed. \u2018I\u2019ll think about it,\u2019 he said. \u2018Maybe I\u2019ll be able to give him a bit of responsibility on the cattle drive next month.\u2019<\/p>\n There was a clatter of noise from behind him and he turned to see Hop Sing carrying a handful of brooms from the kitchen.\u00a0 As if they had read each other\u2019s mind, both Cartwrights slunk down in their chairs, but not before Hop Sing had spied them.<\/p>\n \u2018What you do in house now?\u2019 he demanded. \u2018Supper not ready for one hour!\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018We\u2019re just having some quiet time before we eat Hop Sing,\u2019 said Ben tentatively. \u2018We won\u2019t get in your way.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Better not!\u2019 said the housekeeper grumpily. \u2018Hop Sing much work to do!\u2019\u00a0 He walked upstairs, muttering to himself.<\/p>\n \u2018He\u2019s like this every Spring,\u2019 said Adam. \u2018I hate Spring cleaning time.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Don\u2019t we all son,\u2019 agreed his father. \u2018Don\u2019t we all?\u2019<\/p>\n <\/p>\n 21st May\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n \u2018You shoulda been there Adam!\u2019 said Joe excitedly. \u2018It was great, weren\u2019t it Pa?\u2019<\/p>\n Ben gave his youngest son an indulgent smile. \u2018I suppose so son,\u2019 he said. \u2018It was just as exciting as any other cattle drive we\u2019ve had in the past.\u2019\u00a0 He winked at Adam who returned the gesture.<\/p>\n \u2018I wish I could have been,\u2019 said Adam. \u2018But it was more important for me to stay here and see to the lumber shipment.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I\u2019m proud of you son,\u2019 said his father. \u2018You\u2019ve done a great job with it all.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam smiled at his father, but Ben noticed that the smile didn\u2019t reach his son\u2019s eyes. \u2018Thanks Pa,\u2019 Adam said simply. \u2018It was a lot of hard work and I\u2019m glad it\u2019s over.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Well I\u2019m right glad to be back,\u2019 said Hoss. \u2018I\u2019ve missed ya cooking Hop Sing.\u2019\u00a0 He helped himself to a generous serving of chicken with a grin. \u2018Sides,\u2019 he said proudly. \u2018I reckon Margie probably missed me.\u00a0 Can I have the day off and go into town ta see her tomorrow Pa?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Certainly son,\u2019 said his father. \u2018You\u2019ve earned it after all your hard work during the past couple of weeks son.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Me too?\u2019 squeaked Joe. \u2018I worked hard too!\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018You?\u2019 said Adam. \u2018Since when do you work hard?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Actually Joseph surprised me,\u2019 said his father. \u2018He did quite well.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Yeah,\u2019 said Joe indignantly to his brother. \u2018I did quite well.\u2019\u00a0 A puzzled look came over his face. \u2018Why does that surprise you Pa?\u2019 he added.<\/p>\n Ben cleared his throat. \u2018Sometimes I worry about you Joe,\u2019 he said. \u2018You need to take responsibility for things around here and not leave others to pick up the pieces behind you son.\u2019<\/p>\n Joe frowned. \u2018I don\u2019t,\u2019 he protested.<\/p>\n \u2018Yes you do,\u2019 his father replied. \u2018Although I\u2019m happy with your performance during the drive.\u2019<\/p>\n His father\u2019s comment blew away any guilty thoughts immediately and Joe\u2019s usual sunny smile returned in an instant. \u2018So can I have the day off then?\u2019 he asked.<\/p>\n \u2018I think it would do us all good to have a day off,\u2019 said his father. \u2018How about it Adam?\u00a0 Feel like a day in town?\u00a0 Or maybe a spot of fishing?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I won\u2019t say no,\u2019 said Adam in a flat voice. \u2018I\u2019ll go to town I think.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben smiled at him. \u2018We might all go in then,\u2019 he said. \u2018It might be a good idea to get out of the house for the day anyway.\u00a0 Hop Sing is still busy cleaning.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018And cooking,\u2019 added the cook as he proudly brought in another platter. \u2018Lots of cooking now Mr Hoss back.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018What about the rest of us?\u2019 asked Joe indignantly. \u2018We like to eat too ya know.\u2019<\/p>\n Hop Sing hit him on the side of the head. \u2018Not like Mr Hoss,\u2019 he said, beaming at the man as he tucked into more vegetables. \u2018Mr Hoss special eater.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Yeah,\u2019 agreed Hoss. \u2018No one round here appreciates Hop Sing\u2019s cooking like me and he knows it. Don\u2019t ya Hop Sing?\u2019<\/p>\n Hop Sing\u2019s grin became wider. \u2018Is true,\u2019 he agreed. \u2018Mr Hoss special eater.\u00a0 Him very good boy.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Well you\u2019d better eat lots to get your strength up fer tomorrow,\u2019 said Joe cheekily. \u2018I reckon you\u2019re gonna need it after not seeing Margie fer so long.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Joseph!\u2019 said his father. \u2018We\u2019ll have no more of that sort of remark please young man.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Do ya reckon you could pack me a picnic basket Hop Sing?\u2019 asked Hoss. \u2018I could take Margie on a picnic tomorrow.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Will do for you Mr Hoss,\u2019 Hop Sing assured him and left the room.<\/p>\n Adam raised an eyebrow. \u2018You always have a gift of getting him do exactly what you want brother,\u2019 he said.<\/p>\n Yeah,\u2019 said Hoss proudly. \u2018Hop Sing and me appreciate each other.\u00a0 I reckon it\u2019s just a gift,\u2019 he added proudly.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n 21st June\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Ben stood in the doorway of the barn and watched his eldest son forking hay for a moment before entering the building and siting down on an upturned barrel. \u2018I\u2019d like to talk to you son,\u2019 he said after a moment.<\/p>\n Adam continued to work. \u2018Yes?\u2019 he said.<\/p>\n \u2018Come here and sit down Adam.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I\u2019ve got to finish this Pa.\u00a0 Can\u2019t you talk while I work?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Adam \u2026 sit down.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam put his pitchfork down and sat down on a bale of hay at the entry to a stall. \u2018What is it?\u2019 he asked.<\/p>\n \u2018Don\u2019t you think it\u2019s about time you told me what\u2019s wrong?\u2019 asked Ben. \u2018I really can\u2019t help you until you do.\u2019\u00a0 Adam said nothing, but simply stared at the pitchfork in his hands. \u2018Son this has been going on for months now,\u2019 said Ben after a while. \u2018I know you too well to think that you\u2019re not hurting over something.\u00a0 I\u2019d like to help if I can.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam shook his head, still staring at the pitchfork. \u2018You can\u2019t help,\u2019 he said in a low voice. ‘No one can help.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I\u2019d like to try,\u2019 persisted his father. \u2018Please give me the chance.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam bit his lip before replying. \u2018I don\u2019t want to hurt you Pa,\u2019 he said in a low voice.<\/p>\n \u2018Son if it means helping you \u2026. Well \u2026 I\u2019ve been hurt before you know.\u2019\u00a0 Ben gave his son a look of utmost concern and love. \u2018Please \u2026\u2019 Adam stood up and began to pace up and down the barn. \u2018You\u2019ve been withdrawn for months,\u2019 continued his father. \u2018And when you do talk to anyone in the family you\u2019re like a bear with a sore head. And you don\u2019t have that \u2026. well \u2026. sparkle in your eyes like you used to.\u00a0 I have the feeling that you\u2019re just going through the motions around here and your heart isn\u2019t in it.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam stopped pacing and faced his father. \u2018You really do know me well, don\u2019t you?\u2019 he said.<\/p>\n Ben gave him a tender smile. \u2018I should,\u2019 he said. \u2018I\u2019ve known you long enough.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam took a deep breath. \u2018You\u2019re right about one thing,\u2019 he said. \u2018My heart\u2019s not in it anymore.\u2019\u00a0 Ben waited. \u2018It\u2019s just \u2026 what\u2019s it all for Pa?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018What do you mean son?\u2019<\/p>\n Adam sat down again and waved his arm around. \u2018All of this,\u2019 he said earnestly. \u2018What\u2019s it all for?\u00a0 What are we all working so hard for?\u2019<\/p>\n Ben looked confused. \u2018I\u2019m not sure I understand what you mean,\u2019 he said. \u2018The Ponderosa?\u00a0 Its what we\u2019ve worked so hard for all these years Adam.\u00a0 It\u2019s building a future for the three of you.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam stared at his father for a moment. \u2018A future?\u2019 he said. \u2018But what if \u2026\u2019 he hesitated. \u2018What if this future isn\u2019t right for one of us Pa?\u2019 \u00a0Father and son stared at each other for a full minute.<\/p>\n \u2018You\u2019re saying that you don\u2019t belong here?\u2019 asked Ben with an ache in his heart.<\/p>\n Adam put his face in his hands. \u2018I don\u2019t know,\u2019 he said. \u2018I just don\u2019t know any more.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben reached over and put his hand on his son\u2019s shoulder. \u2018What is it?\u2019 he asked gently.<\/p>\n \u2018I don\u2019t really feel \u2026 well \u2026 fulfilled here anymore,\u2019 said Adam through his fingers. \u2018I feel as if there is a world out there that I\u2019m missing out on I suppose.\u2019\u00a0 There was silence for a long time before he added. \u2018I guess it started way back at College.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I know.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam looked up, startled. \u2018You do?\u2019 he asked.<\/p>\n Ben nodded. \u2018Yes,\u2019 he said. \u2018I always knew that you were torn between coming back here or pursuing your life out there somewhere.\u00a0 You said yourself that I know you well.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam sat up and faced his father. \u2018Pa I\u2019m sorry,\u2019 he said. \u2018It\u2019s not that I don\u2019t appreciate you and Hoss and Joe and all.\u00a0 It\u2019s just \u2026\u2019\u00a0 His voice trailed away and he sat looking at his father helplessly, unable for once to put into words what he felt.<\/p>\n Ben spoke through the ache in his heart, not wanting to hear the answer to his question. \u2018So you want to leave?\u2019<\/p>\n Adam shook his head. \u2018I don\u2019t know,\u2019 he said. \u2018Truthfully I don\u2019t know what I want Pa.\u00a0 Part of me wants to stay here, but \u2026\u2019<\/p>\n Ben patted his son on the back. \u2018Promise me one thing son,\u2019 he said. \u2018You know that whatever you want I will support you \u2026 but don\u2019t make any decision in a hurry.\u00a0 Give it time is all I ask.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam nodded. \u2018Of course,\u2019 he said. \u2018I owe you that.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018You owe yourself that son,\u2019 replied his father.<\/p>\n Adam stood up. \u2018Well I\u2019m getting back to work,\u2019 he said. \u2018These stalls won\u2019t clean themselves out.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben nodded and got up slowly, suddenly feeling every one of his years upon him.\u00a0 He walked slowly out of the barn to see Hoss and Joe climbing out of the buckboard. \u2018Hi Pa!\u2019 called Joe cheerily.<\/p>\n Ben waved at them as he walked towards them noticing that Hoss didn\u2019t return the gesture. \u2018Get everything?\u2019 he asked.<\/p>\n \u2018Sure did,\u2019 said Joe with a grin. \u2018No problems at all.\u00a0 Hard work loading em all but.\u00a0 I think I might go and get some rest before supper.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben collared his youngest son before he could walk away. \u2018You\u2019ll do nothing of the kind,\u2019 he said. \u2018These supplies need to be unloaded and there\u2019s wood to be chopped young man.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I\u2019ll do it,\u2019 said Hoss in a flat voice and walked over to the woodpile without another word.<\/p>\n \u2018What\u2019s the matter with your brother?\u2019 asked Ben.<\/p>\n \u2018Margie Simmons,\u2019 said Joe.<\/p>\n \u2018I thought they had quite an understanding together?\u2019 asked Ben. \u2018She\u2019s all he ever talks about lately.\u00a0 Has something gone wrong between them?\u2019<\/p>\n Joe shrugged. \u2018Don\u2019t know,\u2019 he said. \u2018Don\u2019t think that Hoss does either.\u00a0 She didn\u2019t seem too keen on talking to him in town today.\u00a0 He\u2019s been real quiet ever since.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben gave his middle son a worried look. \u2018Well I hope everything is all right,\u2019 he said. \u2018He\u2019s right keen on that girl and it would break his heart if things fell apart between them.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I tried talking to him bout it on the way home,\u2019 said Joe. \u2018But he didn\u2019t wanna.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018You get those supplies unloaded son,\u2019 said Ben. \u2018I think we might leave your brother to work out his problems on that wood pile.\u2019\u00a0 He watched as Hoss attacked a piece of wood with great ferocity. \u2018There\u2019s a lot of therapy in hard work,\u2019 he mused.<\/p>\n \u2018Lucky I don\u2019t need any therapy then,\u2019 said Joe cheekily. He picked up a sack of flour. \u2018I\u2019ll get this in to Hop Sing,\u2019 he said and walked away whistling.<\/p>\n Within a minute, Ben heard yelling coming from the kitchen.\u00a0 He shook his head and walked away. \u2018What next?\u2019 he murmured. \u2018Isn\u2019t there anyone in this family apart from Joseph who is happy lately?\u2019<\/p>\n <\/p>\n 21st July<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n \u2018Phew!\u2019 said Joe, wiping his brow on his sleeve.\u00a0 \u2018It sure is hot, ain\u2019t it?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Would you shut up about the weather?\u2019 snarled Hoss. \u2018How many times do ya have ta say how hot it is?\u00a0 We all know!\u2019<\/p>\n Joe made a face at his brother. \u2018So-rry!\u2019 he said. \u2018I was just saying!\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Well don\u2019t!\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Boys just get those things loaded on the buckboard and quit your snarling with each other,\u2019 said Ben, wiping his own face with his bandanna. \u2018Adam is waiting for the equipment you know.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Mustn\u2019t keep big brother waiting must we?\u2019 said Joe cheekily. \u2018Give him an excuse ta stop the haying out there.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben shot his youngest son a frustrated look. \u2018Joseph just do as you\u2019re told please,\u2019 he said. He looked over at Hoss who was busy loading equipment onto the buckboard. \u2018Hoss could I speak to you for a moment over here please?\u2019<\/p>\n Hoss dumped a box of wire onto the buckboard and wiped his hands on his trousers. \u2018Yeah Pa?\u2019 he said in a flat voice as he followed his father across the yard.<\/p>\n Ben turned to face his son. \u2018Hoss you have to snap out of this,\u2019 he said. \u2018You\u2019ve been burying yourself in your work ever since you and Margie broke up and it isn\u2019t healthy son. Why don\u2019t we talk about it?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Ain\u2019t nothing ta talk about Pa,\u2019 said Hoss miserably. \u2018She don\u2019t wanna see me no more and that\u2019s all there is to it.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Son you\u2019ve broken up with girls before this.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Yeah,\u2019 Hoss agreed. \u2018But me and Margie \u2026. Well we was \u2026 she was special Pa.\u2019\u00a0 He shook his head. \u2018Ain\u2019t no point talking about it I guess.\u2019\u00a0 He turned back to the buckboard again where Joe was leaning staring into space. \u2018You heard Pa!\u2019 he said crossly as he pushed his younger brother and sent him sprawling onto the ground. \u2018Get ta work!\u2019<\/p>\n Joe hopped up indignantly and faced Hoss. \u2018Who do ya think you\u2019re pushing?\u2019 he demanded. \u2018I ain\u2019t done nothin!\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Exactly my point,\u2019 snarled Hoss. \u2018Get ta work!\u2019\u00a0 He stomped off into the barn angrily.<\/p>\n \u2018I\u2019m sick of him and his snarling,\u2019 said Joe as he dusted himself off. \u2018Always grumpy lately just cause he and Margie broke up.\u00a0 Well it ain\u2019t my fault!\u2019<\/p>\n Ben shook his head and dusted off Joe\u2019s back. \u2018Try and be patient with him son,\u2019 he said. \u2018He\u2019s hurting.\u00a0 Besides \u2026 he does have a point about you Joseph.\u00a0 I did tell you to get to work you know.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I was about to,\u2019 said Joe, sounding hurt. \u2018A fellar can\u2019t work every minute of the day Pa.\u00a0 It ain\u2019t natural.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben shook his head. \u2018I thought after your performance on the round up last month that you might actually be starting to take a bit of responsibility around here young man,\u2019 he said. \u2018Perhaps I was wrong.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018What do ya mean?\u2019 asked Joe indignantly. \u2018I\u2019ve been working hard at the haying like everyone else!\u2019<\/p>\n Ben shook his head again. \u2018No you haven\u2019t,\u2019 he said. \u2018You\u2019ve been working just as hard as you feel like Joseph.\u00a0 You know as well as I do that if Adam and I didn\u2019t keep an eye on you then you\u2019d be doing very little.\u2019\u00a0 He gave his youngest son a stern look. \u2018I think it\u2019s about time you took things around here a bit more seriously Joseph. In fact I\u2019ve just decided that you can take control of breaking in and selling that new batch of horses we rounded up last month.\u2019<\/p>\n Joe\u2019s eyes lit up. \u2018Ya mean it Pa?\u2019 he said excitedly. \u2018That\u2019d be great!\u2019<\/p>\n Ben gave him another stern look. \u2018It\u2019s not all fun and games Joe,\u2019 he said. \u2018When I say you\u2019re in charge that\u2019s exactly what I mean.\u00a0 You\u2019ll have to organise everything from beginning to end.\u00a0 That doesn\u2019t just mean the fun part of breaking the horses.\u00a0 If you take this on I expect to see you finish it.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I will Pa,\u2019 said Joe proudly. \u2018I\u2019ll see it through.\u2019\u00a0 He turned at the sound of a horse behind them and smiled at his eldest brother as Adam rode into the yard. \u2018Hey Adam!\u2019 he shouted. \u2018Pa\u2019s given me charge of the new batch of horses!\u2019<\/p>\n Adam said nothing, but raised an eyebrow in his father\u2019s direction. \u2018Joseph is going to prove to us that he can do a job from beginning to end,\u2019 Ben explained.<\/p>\n \u2018I see,\u2019 said Adam. \u2018Well I hope you don\u2019t regret doing this Pa.\u2019\u00a0 He slid down from the saddle. \u2018I came to see why this equipment hasn\u2019t made it out to the pasture yet.\u00a0 The men are waiting for it.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I\u2019m just loading it now,\u2019 explained Joe hastily and picked up a box of wire. \u2018Won\u2019t take long.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam gave his brother a short nod. \u2018Good,\u2019 he said. \u2018Haying is hot and dusty enough without us having to be out there any longer than we have to waiting for equipment that should have been there hours ago.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben put his arm around his eldest son\u2019s shoulder. \u2018Joe will get it there soon,\u2019 he said. \u2018Why don\u2019t you come on inside and get a cool drink before you go back on out?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I\u2019m fine,\u2019 said Adam, avoiding his father\u2019s eyes. \u2018I\u2019d better get back to the men.\u2019\u00a0 Ben sighed as he watched his son mounting up again. It was like this all the time lately.\u00a0 Since their talk a few weeks ago, Adam had resisted any mention of it again.\u00a0 Yet Ben knew that his son was still in turmoil over the decision that he had to make and longed to reach out to him to help him.\u00a0 However, they both knew that Adam and Adam alone had to be the one to work it through for himself.\u00a0 Every night Ben prayed that he\u2019d be able to.\u00a0 Every night he prayed that he wouldn\u2019t lose his boy.<\/p>\n Ben gave another sigh as he watched his eldest son ride away.\u00a0 \u2018No go without food for men!\u2019 shouted Hop Sing from the kitchen door to Joe.<\/p>\n \u2018All right,\u2019 said Joe. \u2018Just one more thing to load up I reckon.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Well you really don\u2019t expect the men to go without their lunch do you?\u2019 asked Ben. \u2018Hop Sing is cooking from dawn until dusk while the haying is going on and the least you can do is deliver the meals for him Joe.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I know,\u2019 said Joe with a sigh. \u2018I\u2019ll get it.\u2019\u00a0 He headed off towards the kitchen.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n 21st August<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n \u2018Good ride,\u2019 said Adam, slapping Joe on the back as his younger brother climbed up on the fence beside him.<\/p>\n \u2018Thanks,\u2019 said Joe with a grin. \u2018I think he\u2019s nearly there.\u00a0 A couple more rides like that and he\u2019ll be as tame as a kitten.\u2019\u00a0 He looked appraisingly at the spirited chestnut. \u2018We should get a good price for him I reckon.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Have you worked out a price with Ted Adamson yet?\u2019 asked Adam.<\/p>\n Joe frowned. \u2018Nah,\u2019 he said. \u2018I reckon he\u2019ll give us a good one though.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam turned to his younger brother. \u2018Have you even spoken to him about it yet?\u2019<\/p>\n Joe shrugged. \u2018Not yet,\u2019 he said. \u2018I will soon.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Joe you know that Pa is counting on you to follow through with this deal don\u2019t you?\u00a0 You can\u2019t just assume that Ted Adamson or anyone else is going to wait around until you decide that they need our horses. \u00a0He might get his stock from somewhere else you know.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Nah!\u2019 said Joe. \u2018I reckon he\u2019ll wait fer us.\u00a0 Everyone knows that The Ponderosa stock is the best around.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam shook his head in frustration. \u2018Yes that\u2019s true,\u2019 he acknowledged. \u2018But he isn\u2019t a mind reader little brother. I think you should talk to him and let him know just how many horses we\u2019re going to have available.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I will,\u2019 said Joe casually. \u2018Did ya get the mail when you was in town this morning?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I did \u2026. And there\u2019s nothing from Pa if that\u2019s what you\u2019re asking,\u2019 replied Adam. \u2018He\u2019ll probably write in a few days when he\u2019s finished his meetings with the mining syndicate and let us know when he\u2019ll be back.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Wish he\u2019d hurry up,\u2019 said Joe mournfully. \u2018It ain\u2019t the same around here with him gone in San Francisco.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam put his hand on his brother\u2019s shoulder. \u2018I know,\u2019 he said. \u2018It sure makes you realise just how much he does when he is around.\u2019\u00a0 His eyes took on a faraway look. \u2018Takes a lot of work to run this place. \u2019<\/p>\n Joe glanced at his brother thoughtfully. \u2018What\u2019s that supposed to mean?\u2019 he asked. \u2018You finding it rough being in charge all of a sudden?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018On the contrary little brother,\u2019 replied Adam. \u2018I always enjoy the challenge of being in charge around here.\u2019\u00a0 He hit the youngster on the side of the head playfully. \u2018As long as I can keep the help in line that is \u2026 now get back to work!\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Whatever you say Boss,\u2019 replied Joe with a cheeky grin.\u00a0 He jumped down from the fence and was about to walk away when Adam spoke again.<\/p>\n \u2018Have you seen Hoss this morning Joe?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Not since breakfast,\u2019 replied Joe. \u2018He said something about cleaning out the tack room.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Thanks.\u2019\u00a0 Adam jumped down from the fence and headed off towards the barn where he found his middle brother in the tack room. \u2018How come you\u2019re doing this?\u2019 he asked. \u2018It isn\u2019t on the list of chores for this week.\u2019<\/p>\n Hoss shrugged. \u2018Just thought I would,\u2019 he said. \u2018No particular reason.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam sat down on an upturned barrel in the corner and watched his brother work for a couple of minutes before speaking. \u2018Wouldn\u2019t have anything to do with avoiding Joe and I would it?\u2019 he asked at last.<\/p>\n \u2018What\u2019s that supposed ta mean?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Well you\u2019ve been making sure that we don\u2019t cross paths unless we have to at meal times,\u2019 replied his Adam. \u2018We have noticed it you know.\u2019 Hoss shrugged and said nothing. \u2018You\u2019ve got to get over this brother,\u2019 continued Adam. \u2018She\u2019s not the only girl in the world you know.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I know that,\u2019 said Hoss sadly. \u2018But I reckon she was the only girl fer me.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam placed his hands on his brother\u2019s shoulder. \u2018She\u2019s not you know,\u2019 he said. \u2018One day soon someone else will come along to make you feel like that again and you\u2019ll wonder why you spent all this time and energy worrying about breaking up with Margie.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Ya reckon Adam?\u2019<\/p>\n Adam nodded. \u2018I do,\u2019 he said. \u2018There\u2019s plenty of girls out there Hoss.\u00a0 You\u2019ve just got to look for them.\u2019<\/p>\n At that moment Joe came hurtling through the doorway. \u2018Hop Sing says he wants some baskets,\u2019 he said. \u2018Either of you know where they are?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Up in the loft,\u2019 said Adam. \u2018What does he want them for?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Vegetables,\u2019 replied Joe over his shoulder as he walked out again. \u2018He\u2019s harvesting lots of em from his garden today.\u00a0 Says he could do with some help too from one of you.\u00a0 I told him I couldn\u2019t because I\u2019m needed with the horses.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam shook his head and laughed as their younger brother left the barn. \u2018Thinks he\u2019s mighty important with that particular job,\u2019 he said. \u2018I sure hope that Pa isn\u2019t going to regret giving it to him.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I reckon he\u2019ll do okay Adam,\u2019 said Hoss. \u2018Specially how you\u2019ve been watching over him without him knowing.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Is it that obvious?\u2019 asked Adam.<\/p>\n \u2018Not to him it ain\u2019t, but it is to me,\u2019 said Hoss with a grin. \u2018I reckon it\u2019s just the way you are ain\u2019t it?\u00a0 Always watching out fer both of us big brother.\u2019 Adam shrugged. \u2018Don\u2019t know what we\u2019d do without ya really ya know.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam gave Hoss a startled look. \u2018What?\u2019 he said.<\/p>\n \u2018It\u2019s true,\u2019 said Hoss. \u2018We both rely on ya round here.\u00a0 Pa too.\u00a0 Well I reckon I\u2019ll go and help Hop Sing with them vegetables.\u00a0 If I\u2019m gonna eat most of em I expect that I should help harvest em.\u00a0 Thanks Adam.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018For what?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Your advice,\u2019 said Hoss with a grin. \u2018I reckon ya might be right bout them other girls. I might take me a look around fer em.\u2019\u00a0 He began to walk out of the barn and then stopped. \u2018Ya know what?\u00a0 I reckon you\u2019re as good as Pa at that advice stuff big brother.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam continued to sit on the barrel for a long time, lost in thought.<\/p>\n 21st September<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n \u2018Adam? Can I talk to you?\u2019<\/p>\n Adam looked up from the book he was reading and saw Joe standing in his bedroom doorway. \u2018Sure,\u2019 he said, closing the book. \u2018What is it?\u2019<\/p>\n Joe came into the room and sat down on the bed facing his brother. \u2018It\u2019s about the horses,\u2019 he began. \u2018I\u2019m a bit worried bout the finances of them.’<\/p>\n Adam lifted an eyebrow. \u2018Why don\u2019t you talk to Pa?\u2019 he asked.<\/p>\n \u2018Cause I don\u2019t want him to think that I can\u2019t do it,\u2019 said Joe earnestly. \u2018He\u2019s putting his trust in me and I don\u2019t want to let him down.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Tell me about it then.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Well remember how you told me to make sure that I had a buyer ahead of time?\u2019\u00a0 Adam nodded. \u2018Well I kinda didn\u2019t get one,\u2019 finished Joe lamely.<\/p>\n Adam sat forward in his chair. \u2018What about Ted Adamson?\u2019 he asked.<\/p>\n \u2018He bought from the Silver C,\u2019 said Joe sadly. \u2018He said that he didn\u2019t hear from us so he decided to go ahead with them.\u2019\u00a0 He looked at his older brother miserably. \u2018I spose you\u2019re gonna say I told you so now?\u2019 he said.<\/p>\n Adam shook his head. \u2018No point,\u2019 he said. \u2018Well, you\u2019ll just have to find another buyer, won\u2019t you?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018But that\u2019s the trouble,\u2019 explained Joe. \u2018I\u2019ve tried and I can\u2019t find anyone.\u00a0 We\u2019re gonna be stuck with all those horses and no buyer now.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam thought for a moment. \u2018Have you thought about the Livery Stable?\u2019<\/p>\n Joe shook his head. \u2018No.\u00a0 What\u2019s the use of that?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Well they could probably do with a few horses.\u00a0 If you go to Carson City, Virginia City and Reno, then you might just get rid of all of them a few at a time.\u2019<\/p>\n Joe thought for a moment. ‘I spose it\u2019s worth a try,\u2019 he said. \u2018I\u2019ll give it a go.\u00a0 Thanks Adam.\u2019\u00a0 He stood up to leave the room. \u2018You\u2019re pretty good with business, ain\u2019t ya?\u00a0 No wonder Pa relies on you so much.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam gave his brother a startled look as the youngster left the room. Down the hallway he could hear Hoss shouting something at Joe as he passed his room and then the inevitable sound of both his brothers\u2019 laughter as they giggled over something that had been said.\u00a0 The sound warmed his heart, for it was the second time today he\u2019d actually heard Hoss laughing.\u00a0 Perhaps his brother was indeed coming out of his melancholy after all?<\/p>\n \u2018Adam?\u2019\u00a0 He looked up, startled to see his father standing in the doorway this time. \u2018You looked a million miles away then,\u2019 said Ben as he entered the room. \u2018What were you thinking about?\u2019<\/p>\n Adam shrugged. \u2018Just something that Joe said,\u2019 he replied.<\/p>\n \u2018Oh?\u00a0 And what was that?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018About how you rely on me for business deals around here,\u2019 said Adam. \u2018I didn\u2019t think that kid noticed anything beyond his own nose to tell you the truth.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018That\u00a0kid<\/em>\u00a0as you insist on calling him knows more about what goes on around here than you could possibly imagine,\u2019 replied his father with a short laugh. ‘And he\u2019s right you know \u2026 I do rely on you \u2026 for business deals as well as a lot of other things.\u2019\u00a0 Adam said nothing. \u2018Son I\u2019ve been wanting to ask you \u2026\u2019 Ben\u2019s voice trailed away.<\/p>\n \u2018About whether I\u2019ve made up my mind or not about going?\u2019 asked Adam when his father didn\u2019t finish.<\/p>\n \u2018I\u2019ve tried not to pressure you during these past few months,\u2019 continued Ben. \u2018But the truth is that I just can\u2019t stop thinking about it.\u00a0 I want you to know that whatever you decide \u2026\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Pa you don\u2019t have to worry,\u2019 said Adam with a smile. \u2018I\u2019ve decided to stay.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben gave his son a startled look. \u2018Really?\u2019 he said in delight. \u2018I thought \u2026 I mean \u2026 I hoped \u2026 I just wasn\u2019t sure son.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam laid his hand over that of his father\u2019s. \u2018I know,\u2019 he said. \u2018I wasn\u2019t sure myself until recently.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018What made you decide son?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Well it was Hoss and Joe actually,\u2019 replied Adam. \u2018They both made me realise that I\u2019m needed around here \u2026. You know?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Of course you\u2019re needed.\u00a0 I thought that you knew that?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I think I did \u2026 it was just those two pushing that fact into my face that made it clear I suppose Pa. You see, I\u2019ve been thinking that I didn\u2019t have an important part to play in things around here, but I guess that I was wrong.\u00a0 They both need me.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben smiled at his son. \u2018And I need you too,\u2019 he said. \u2018Very much.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam returned the smile. \u2018Well thank you for saying that,\u2019 he said. \u2018I\u2019m sorry that I\u2019ve been so hard to put up with this year Pa.\u00a0 I just needed time to sort things out in my head I guess.\u2019<\/p>\n ‘That\u2019s all right son,\u2019 said Ben. \u2018I understand.\u2019\u00a0 There was another yell from the other end of the hallway, followed by Joe\u2019s unmistakable giggle. \u2018I wonder what that is all about?\u2019<\/p>\n Adam gave a short laugh. \u2018Who would know with those two,\u2019 he said. \u2018Nice to hear Hoss laughing again though.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018That it is,\u2019 Ben agreed.<\/p>\n \u00a0<\/em> \u2018What is it?\u2019 whispered Joe as he peeked under the lid of the bowl in the middle of the table.<\/p>\n \u2018I\u2019m not sure,\u2019 said Hoss. \u2018But I think it might be stew.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Don\u2019t let Pa hear you talking like that,\u2019 warned Adam. \u2018He\u2019s doing his best with the cooking while Hop Sing is visiting his cousin in San Francisco and he doesn\u2019t need criticism from either of you.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018How come we don\u2019t have one of Hop Sing\u2019s cousins doing the cooking like we usually do?\u2019 asked Joe.<\/p>\n \u2018No one was available,\u2019 explained Adam as he helped himself to some stew. \u2018Pa told Hop Sing that we\u2019d manage without him.\u2019<\/p>\n Joe made a face as Hoss handed him a plate to fill. \u2018We might have starved to death by the time he comes back,\u2019 he said mournfully.<\/p>\n Adam kicked Joe under the table as their father entered the room. \u2018So how do you like the stew?\u2019 he asked with a smile as he sat down and helped himself to some.<\/p>\n There was silence for a moment until Adam spoke. \u2018Fine Pa,\u2019 he said. \u2018Very \u2026 tasty.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben\u2019s grin grew wider. \u2018Good,\u2019 he said. \u2018I\u2019m glad you like it boys.\u00a0 I knew that we\u2019d be able to cope by ourselves for a while.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018When will Hop Sing be back?\u2019 asked Joe with a sad look at his father.<\/p>\n \u2018In a couple of weeks,\u2019 said Ben. \u2018Why?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018No reason,\u2019 said Joe. \u2018I was just asking.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018By the way Joseph,\u2019 said his father. \u2018I meant to tell you how proud I am of the way you finished off the deal with the horses.\u00a0 What a wonderful idea to sell them to the livery stables.\u00a0 I\u2019m surprised you thought of it.\u2019<\/p>\n Joe tried to look modest, but failed utterly. \u2018Well \u2026 I kinda had a bit of help,\u2019 he admitted. \u2018Adam suggested it.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam gave his brother a wink across the table. \u2018True,\u2019 he said. \u2018But you did all the negotiating Joe. I think we can all be proud of this kid Pa.\u2019<\/p>\n Joe puffed up even more. \u2018It was nothing,\u2019 he said. \u2018I just did what you asked me to Pa.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben put his hand over that of his youngest son\u2019s as it rested on the table. \u2018You certainly did,\u2019 he said. \u2018I think perhaps you\u2019re growing up Joseph.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018At last,\u2019 muttered Adam under his breath.<\/p>\n \u2018What was that?\u2019 asked Ben, turning to him.<\/p>\n \u2018I said at last we got a good price for the horses,\u2019 replied Adam quickly.<\/p>\n Ben nodded as he put a forkful of stew into his mouth.\u00a0 A strange look came over his face and he swallowed quickly before picking up his glass to take a quick swallow of water.<\/p>\n \u2018You OK Pa?\u2019 asked Adam.<\/p>\n \u2018Fine,\u2019 said his father.<\/p>\n Adam smothered a chuckle and then stood up and flung down his napkin. \u2018Well I\u2019d better be off,\u2019 he said. \u2018I\u2019ve got lots to do this afternoon.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Like what?\u2019 asked Joe. \u2018You\u2019re all the time drawing all them plans and you won\u2019t even tell us what they\u2019re for.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I\u2019ll tell you when I\u2019m good and ready little brother,\u2019 said Adam teasingly, hitting Joe on the head playfully as he passed him. \u2018See you later.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018What\u2019s he doing Pa?\u2019 asked Joe as his brother left the room. \u2018All them plans and he won\u2019t even say.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018It\u2019s like he said young man,\u2019 replied is father. \u2018He\u2019ll tell us when he\u2019s good and ready.\u2019\u00a0 Ben smiled to himself, happy at the thought of the light he\u2019d been seeing in his eldest son\u2019s eyes lately.\u00a0 He also was itching to know what the drawings were all about, but the main thing was that Adam seemed to be happy again.\u00a0 Perhaps he\u2019d truly passed through the crisis and all the self-doubt?\u00a0 Ben certainly hoped so. He glanced over at Hoss who was steadily eating his way through the stew. \u2018Enjoying that?\u2019 he asked.<\/p>\n \u2018Yes sir,\u2019 said Hoss with enthusiasm. \u2018It\u2019s right good stew Pa.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben shook his head slightly, knowing that whatever he\u2019d put in front of this middle son of his would be eaten with great relish. \u2018Glad you like it boy,\u2019 he said.<\/p>\n \u2018Sure do,\u2019 said Hoss, grinning at his father.<\/p>\n \u2018You seem very happy today,\u2019 said Ben. \u2018Any particular reason son?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Probably Sally Winters,\u2019 piped up Joe before Hoss could swallow his mouthful of stew and reply. \u2018Hoss is gone on her.\u2019<\/p>\n Hoss shot his brother a playful look. \u2018Aw come on Joe,\u2019 he said. \u2018I ain\u2019t gone on her.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018You are too,\u2019 declared Joe. \u2018I can read the signs brother.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Well if your brother is\u00a0gone on her<\/em>\u00a0as you so succinctly put it Joseph, it\u2019s really none of your business is it?\u2019 replied his father.<\/p>\n \u2018Well I was just saying,\u2019 said Joe defensively. \u2018Hoss has been making eyes at her for weeks now.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I see,\u2019 said Ben. \u2018Well I wish you all the best with it son.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Thanks Pa,\u2019 said Hoss happily. He pointed his fork at Joe. \u2018And you stay out of it,\u2019 he said. \u2018I don\u2019t want you messing things up.\u2019<\/p>\n Joe\u2019s eyes widened and he gave his best puppy dog look as he answered defensively. \u2018Who me?\u2019 heck no Hoss \u2026. I\u2019d never do anything like that.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018The heck you wouldn\u2019t,\u2019 said Hoss. \u2018I know what you\u2019re like little brother and \u2026\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Now that will do,\u2019 said Ben firmly. \u2018The two of you just finish up your meal \u2026 we\u2019ve got work to do.\u2019\u00a0 He looked at his two sons fondly as they began to eat again.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n \u00a021st November<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n \u2018Pa? Do you have a few minutes to take a look at something?\u2019<\/p>\n Ben put down his newspaper and took his pipe out of his mouth. \u2018Certainly son,\u2019 he said. \u2018What is it?\u2019<\/p>\n Adam sat down on the sofa and spread several large sheets of paper out on the coffee table. \u2018This,\u2019 he said excitedly. \u2018I\u2019ve got some plans to show you.\u2019<\/p>\n Ben sat forward in his chair and studied them. \u2018These are what you\u2019ve been working on all these weeks?\u2019 he asked.<\/p>\n \u2018Yes,\u2019 said Adam. \u2018Plans for the new mill.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018What new mill?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018The one we need.\u00a0 The one I think we should build,\u2019 said Adam, shooting a cautious look at his father. \u2018What do you think?\u2019<\/p>\n Ben sat back in his chair. \u2018I think it\u2019s a wonderful idea,\u2019 he said simply.<\/p>\n Adam stared at his father, nonplussed for a moment. \u2018You do?\u2019 he said at last.<\/p>\n \u2018Yes I do.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018But \u2026. But you haven\u2019t even looked at them.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I don\u2019t need to,\u2019 replied Ben casually. \u2018If you designed them then I have faith that they will be fine.\u2019 He smiled at the expression on Adam\u2019s face. \u2018It\u2019s like this son,\u2019 he said. \u2018If you say we need a new mill then I\u2019ll go along with your judgement and as for the plans \u2026. Well I sent you to college for three years \u2026.it stands to reason that you\u2019d know what you\u2019re talking about with them.\u00a0 You go ahead and build it.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Just like that?\u2019 asked Adam. \u2018You\u2019ve always wanted to know all the details of things like this before.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Well maybe I\u2019ve been wrong,\u2019 said his father, trying to keep a straight face at the expression on Adam\u2019s face. \u2018I should have had more faith in you.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam swallowed. \u2018Well \u2026. Thanks Pa,\u2019 he said. \u2018I guess I\u2019ll get started on it then.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018You do that son,\u2019 said Ben easily.<\/p>\n \u2018Get started on what?\u2019 asked Joe as he came in from the kitchen munching on a sandwich.<\/p>\n \u2018The new mill we\u2019re going to build,\u2019 said Adam.<\/p>\n \u2018Oh yeah?\u2019 asked Joe as he sat down next to his brother and peered closely at his plans, spraying crumbs all over them.<\/p>\n \u2018Do you mind?\u2019 said Adam, rolling them up again quickly.<\/p>\n \u2018Mind what?\u2019 asked Joe innocently. \u2018If you want some help with that I\u2019m available,\u2019 he added.<\/p>\n \u2018Oh thank you!\u2019 said Adam sarcastically. \u2018I\u2019ll look forward to seeking your advice on it then.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Sure,\u2019 said Joe happily, oblivious to his brother\u2019s sarcasm. \u2018Anything I can do to help. It\u2019s important that we all support each other round here with the jobs as Pa is always saying.\u2019\u00a0 He stood up again and walked away, still munching on his sandwich.<\/p>\n \u2018I don\u2019t think I can stand him much longer like this,\u2019 said Adam in a low voice as he unrolled his plans again and straightened them out.<\/p>\n \u2018You were the one who thought he should develop more responsibility,\u2019 warned Ben.<\/p>\n \u2018I know \u2026 but gee \u2026. enough is enough don\u2019t you think Pa?\u2019 Adam said. \u2018Ever since he did that deal with the horses last month he\u2019s been unbearable.\u00a0 Always carrying on like he\u2019s ready to run everything around here by himself.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018He certainly has developed a lot more confidence with his work,\u2019 agreed his father. \u2018He\u2019s growing up Adam.\u00a0 Trying to be a man.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam shook his head and gave a short laugh. \u2018I suppose so,\u2019 he said. \u2018Well one thing\u2019s for sure \u2026 I won\u2019t be asking for his advice with the new mill.\u00a0 I think I\u2019ll be able to get it built without consulting my little brother.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018He\u2019s just trying to help,\u2019 said Ben, joining in on the laughter. \u2018By the way, do you know where Hoss is?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Upstairs,\u2019 said Adam. \u2018He\u2019s getting dressed to go out.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Sally again?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Uh huh.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Seems Joe was right,\u2019 mused Ben.<\/p>\n \u2018What about?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018He told me a few weeks ago that Hoss was \u2026. How did he put it \u2026. Gone on Sally Winters.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018That sounds like Joe.\u00a0 Yes \u2026 well I suppose that\u2019s pretty accurate.\u00a0 He\u2019s certainly keen on her.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I\u2019m glad to hear it,\u2019 said Ben, puffing on his pipe again. \u2018At least he\u2019s over that last girl.\u2019 He jumped as Hop Sing banged two baking trays together behind him. \u2018What on earth \u2026.\u2019 He muttered. \u2018Hop Sing what is the matter?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018You tell number three son not come in kitchen and sneak sandwiches!\u2019 shouted the cook. \u2018Hop Sing too busy making Thanksgiving food to have foolishment in kitchen!\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018But you\u2019ve got a week until Thanksgiving,\u2019 said Adam and then sat back in his chair as Hop Sing rounded on him.<\/p>\n \u2018One week!\u00a0 Much to do!\u00a0 No one know how much to do!\u2019\u00a0 He bashed the two trays together again and walked away muttering to himself in Chinese.<\/p>\n \u2018Sorry,\u2019 said Adam apologetically. \u2018I should have thought not to say anything.<\/p>\n \u2018Mmm,\u2019 said his father, rubbing his ears gently. \u2018You know how he gets before Thanksgiving.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam rolled his eyes. \u2018Don\u2019t I just,\u2019 he said. \u2018Well I\u2019d better get going.\u00a0 I\u2019ve got lots to do.\u2019\u00a0 He looked at the plans in his hands happily. \u2018See you later Pa.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Bye son,\u2019 replied Ben as he sat back and puffed on his pipe.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n 21st December<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Joe came bounding through the front door and banged it so hard that it seemed like the whole house shuddered. \u2018Joseph!\u2019 thundered Ben. \u2018How many times have I told you to close that door quietly?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Sorry Pa,\u2019 said Joe automatically. \u2018Gee, it\u2019s cold out there.\u2019 He flung off his coat and hat and removed his black gloves with his teeth. He looked furtively around the room for a moment.<\/p>\n ‘Have you finished in the barn?\u2019 asked his father.<\/p>\n \u2018Yeah,\u2019 said Joe. \u2018Well .. sorta.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Yes or no?\u2019 asked Ben testily. \u2018Either you\u2019ve done your chores or you haven\u2019t young man.\u00a0 Which is it?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I did most of em,\u2019 said Joe, somewhat evasively. \u2018Only Hoss volunteered to do the rest.\u00a0 He likes cleaning out the stalls. He\u2019s always liked working with animals you know Pa.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Joseph!\u2019 said Ben. \u2018How many times have I told you that you are to do your own chores?\u2019<\/p>\n Joe\u2019s eyes widened as he stared past his father and looked up and down the bookcase behind him. \u2018Um \u2026 lots I guess,\u2019 he said. He bent down and opened the door of the credenza and then shut it again with a sigh.<\/p>\n \u2018Joseph, go back outside and get to your chores,\u2019 said Ben with a sigh. \u2018And stop ferreting around in that cupboard.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018OK Pa,\u2019 said Joe, putting his coat back on. He slammed the door behind him as he left the room and Ben muttered to himself.<\/p>\n \u2018Checking for Christmas presents again?\u2019 asked Adam from in front of the fireplace. \u2018When will he learn that we never hide them down here?<\/p>\n \u2018There\u2019s still a lot of boy in him,\u2019 said Ben, standing up from his desk and stretching. \u2018He\u2019s excited about Christmas.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I thought you said he was trying to be a man now?\u2019 asked Adam sarcastically.<\/p>\n \u2018He\u2019s both I suppose,\u2019 said Ben. \u2018Caught in between a man and a boy\u2026 it\u2019s a difficult place to be.\u00a0 He certainly has grown up a lot this past year though.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I suppose so,\u2019 Adam acknowledged. \u2018Still annoying though.\u2019\u00a0 He grinned at his father who returned the look. \u2018I was wondering if you\u2019re going into town tomorrow Pa,\u2019 he said after a moment.<\/p>\n \u2018I was going to … why?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I wondered if you could send a wire for me?\u00a0 I need to make sure that everything is on track in Sacramento for that equipment and I really can\u2019t spare a day away from the mill to do it.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Of course I will,\u2019 replied Ben. \u2018Just write it out for me and I\u2019ll send it. I must say that mill of yours is certainly keeping you busy lately.\u2019<\/p>\n Adam\u2019s grin became wider. \u2018I\u2019m just trying to push the work along before the heavy snows come,\u2019 he said. \u2018I\u2019d like to get the roof on at least before then.\u2019 He bent his head over his work and began to write again.<\/p>\n Ben watched his eldest son working and smiled, feeling warm inside. It was amazing to see the transformation in Adam just in this past month.\u00a0 When he thought back to last winter and the way Adam had been moping around the house, he really found it hard to believe that this was the same young man.\u00a0 His son had come through a crisis this past year and had come out the other side of it much better for it.<\/p>\n Ben winced as the sound of shouting came from the kitchen.\u00a0 Suddenly Hoss appeared in the dining room, followed closely by Joe. \u2018What are you two doing in there?\u2019 asked Ben sternly. \u2018Not bothering Hop Sing I hope?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018I just wanted ta see if I could help him with the Christmas cooking,\u2019 said Hoss.<\/p>\n \u2018I thought I told you to finish your chores?\u2019 asked Ben, pointing a finger at Joe.<\/p>\n \u2018Gee Pa \u2026 tweren\u2019t my fault if Hoss finished em by the time I got back out there,\u2019 said Joe defensively. He looked across at Ben\u2019s desk furtively and Ben hid a smile at the obvious thought that was in his son\u2019s mind as he hunted for Christmas presents. There were days when Joseph still seemed so young to him \u2026 and he wouldn\u2019t have it any other way.<\/p>\n \u2018It\u2019s snowing outside,\u2019 said Hoss as he sat down and spread his hands towards the roaring fire. \u2018Wouldn\u2019t be surprised if we had a real bad storm tonight.\u2019<\/p>\n There was silence in the room as Joe and Ben settled themselves in front of the fireplace as well. \u2018Joseph take your feet off the table,\u2019 said Ben automatically as Joe placed his boots up on the coffee table.<\/p>\n \u2018Sorry Pa,\u2019 said Joe, just as automatically as he took them down. \u2018You taking Sally to church at Christmas Hoss?\u2019 he asked.<\/p>\n \u2018Sure am,\u2019 said Hoss proudly. \u2018Wouldn\u2019t take no one else.\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Well that\u2019s real fine son,\u2019 said Ben.\u00a0 It did his heart good to hear Hoss speaking like this.\u00a0 One thing about that middle son of his \u2026. He might find it difficult to get to know a girl, but once he did he gave his heart completely.\u00a0 That was why it had always been so hard for him to get over any of the loves he\u2019d had in the past.\u00a0 Yet it seemed that this year he\u2019d managed to do just that and still come out of it on top. Yes sir, it had certainly been a difficult year for Hoss … but a good one at that.<\/p>\n Ben sat back and lit his pipe contentedly. He looked over at Adam who was busy working, Hoss who was warming his hands in front of the fire and Joe who was sitting on the edge of the sofa grinning back at him. \u2018Boys, do you realise it\u2019ll be New Year in just over a week?\u2019 he said. \u20181866 \u2026 I wonder what the new year will bring?\u2019<\/p>\n \u2018Probably lots \u2026 just like this year has,\u2019 said Adam, looking up from his work.<\/p>\n \u2018Yeah,\u2019 said Joe. \u2018Every year seems to, don\u2019t it Pa?\u2019<\/p>\n Ben smiled at his youngest son. \u2018Take your feet off the table Joseph,\u2019 he said as he lit his pipe.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n The End<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Summary:\u00a0 The more things change the more things stay the same.\u00a0 Twelve looks at the Cartwrights during 1865.<\/p>\n Rating – K –\u00a0Intended for general audience 5 years and older.\u00a0 (11,970 words)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":12,"featured_media":376,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"template-full-width-post.php","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_members_access_role":[],"_members_access_error":""},"categories":[23,1007],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-411","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-drama","category-joe-cartwright","wpcat-23-id","wpcat-1007-id"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/02\/coming-soon-4.jpg?fit=320%2C240&ssl=1","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/411","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/12"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=411"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/411\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/376"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=411"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=411"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=411"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
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\n\u00a0<\/em>21st October<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n