{"id":61062,"date":"2025-12-09T18:59:45","date_gmt":"2025-12-09T23:59:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/?p=61062"},"modified":"2025-12-23T07:55:04","modified_gmt":"2025-12-23T12:55:04","slug":"fevered-sea-by-annie-k-cowgirl","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bonanzabrand.info\/library\/?p=61062","title":{"rendered":"Fevered Sea (by Annie K Cowgirl)"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Summary: Adam, a boat, and a storm at sea. A poem about Adam&#8217;s fever dreams while he lay ill in &#8220;Elizabeth My Love&#8221;.<\/p>\n<p>Rating: K<\/p>\n<p>Word Count: 482<\/p>\n<p><!--more--><\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Alone.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">All alone upon a glassy sea,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">With only the waves<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">And the mourning gulls about me.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Strange.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">So strange this green sea<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Upon which I sail,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">So calm without ripple or tide.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">The sun,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">So hot.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">It beats upon my brow,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Searing my skin,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Threatening to burn me alive until\u2026.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">A breeze;<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">A tiny puff that tickles the sail<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Of my boat,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Ruffling my hair.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Then it\u2019s gone.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Alone again<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Save for the gulls;<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">There are three.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">They wail,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Circling the mast,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Giving me no peace from their cries.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">A cloud.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">A single, fleecy wisp on the horizon.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">No, two.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Three.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Relief pours through me.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Finally, something to blot out the sun.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">But it is not to be.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">A wall.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">A wall of darkness.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Angry clouds black as pitch,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Barreling my way.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">The tiller!<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">I need the tiller!<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">I must turn the boat about<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Or be lost.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">No one can survive such a tempest,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Not even the most experienced of sailors,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">And I, a mere novice at sea,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Cannot hope to live through such a storm.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Too late.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">I am too late by far, I know.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">My palm touches the smooth wood.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">The storm breaks over my head.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Roaring, crashing.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Bolts of lightning<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">With rolling thunder hard upon its heels.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">The sea.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">The sea is boiling,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Writhing in agony<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">As if giving birth to some new horror:<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">A Kraken,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Or some creature<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">From the depths of Poseidon&#8217;s halls.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Water!<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">I am in the water.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">The boat is gone,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Lost in the frothing waves<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Where soon I too shall disappear.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Die?<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Yes.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Yes, I will die here;<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">I can feel death\u2019s icy fingers,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Hauling, tugging,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Urging me down.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Down.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Down.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Down in the depths,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Far below the surface where up<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Is down<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">And air is nowhere to be found.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">\u201cPa!\u201d<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Bubbles trail from my mouth,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">As the cry mingles with the salty brine.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">He does not come.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Of course he does not come,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">I am alone.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">And yet&#8230;<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">I am not.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">A hand.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">A gentle hand grips my own,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Pulls,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">And pulls,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Drawing me up.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Up.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Up.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Up into the life-giving air.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">I cough,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">And cough, and cough.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Through it all the hand never lets go.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">It is small.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">A delicate thing,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">yet strong.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">That hand,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">It changes.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">It broadens,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">There are callouses on it.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">\u201cSon?<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Adam?\u201d<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">I blink.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Light.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Bright light flowing from a lamp.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">I am no longer at sea,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">But lying in my bed.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">\u201cPa?\u201d<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">A grin,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">It tugs at his worry-lined cheeks,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Sparkling in his eyes.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Ill.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">I have been ill,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">Sailing rudderless within a fevered sea,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">But I will recover.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">I am tired.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">More tired than I have ever been before,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">But just as my lids close,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">I see her again:<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">my savior.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">The owner of the hand,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">The one who saved my life tonight.<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">And as I slip into a real slumber,<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">I whisper her name:<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\">\u201cMa.\u201d<\/p>\n<p 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