Summary: Joe is tried and convicted of murder. Is he guilty? Everyone including Joe thinks he is. Adam sets out to prove Joe’s innocence, but will he be in time to save him from the hangman’s noose?<\/p>\n
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\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0Betrayal<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Joe was awake but feigned sleep<\/strong> when she entered the bedroom. He shivered involuntarily as he felt the covers pulled back and her cold naked body slipped between the sheets. Her arms encircled his waist and she pressed herself up against him knowingly. When she slid her icy feet between his legs for warmth, he could feign sleep no longer and his body jumped with the shock of her cold touch.<\/p>\n She smiled to herself, this was so easy; Joe was her puppet and he would perform whenever she pulled the strings. With the practiced skill of a woman of the night, her right hand massaged his smooth chest, before travelling down his body. Joe tried to resist, he did not want this, but his body betrayed him.<\/p>\n Much later, Joe lay on his back staring upwards into the blackness of the night but seeing nothing. Their lovemaking made him feel used and dirty, the very words in themselves were a lie. There was no love in what they had done. It had been animalistic and he was ashamed at how, after all that had gone on between them, she still had the power to bend him to her will.<\/p>\n Christine lay beside him deep in slumber; her shallow breathing filled the stillness of the air with a rhythmic pulse that Joe had come to know so well over the last few months. How many times had he lain awake like this, wondering how she could sleep so soundly, while he tossed and turned as his mind conjured up the images that haunted his dreams at night and filled his thoughts during the day?<\/p>\n He couldn\u2019t stay there a moment longer; his emotions were enveloping him and he needed solitude. Pulling back the bedcovers he hesitated for a second as the night chill passed through his skin and penetrated his bones, but he forced himself to leave the warmth of the bed. After all, the warmth it offered was only superficial, for deep inside him an ice mountain was building that was far colder than the night air.<\/p>\n So as not to disturb her, Joe made his way into the next room as silently as he could and closed the bedroom door behind him. In the darkness he used the light from the dying embers of the fire to make his way to the hearth. In the hope of gaining a few more hours of warmth, he threw a couple of logs into the grate. Before long eerie shadows were cast around the room once more as the flickering flames danced to a soundless tune. He sat on the hearth and drew his knees to his chest, at the same time pulling his nightshirt down over his legs and tucking it under his feet. In the quietness of the night, with no one near to witness his shame, Joe let the barriers fall and his emotions escape. The tears started slowly at first, but once the dam was opened a tidal wave was unleashed and Joe cradled his head in his lap as he tried to stifle the sobs that shook his body.<\/p>\n Joe rocked backwards and forwards as his distress took hold of him, the pain deep inside too much to bear and he was desperate to blot out the hurt that engulfed him, if only for a short while. Rising to his feet he made his way to the far end of the room, and with grim resolve lifted up the lid of the desk his father had bought him. Inside he found what he was looking for, a bottle of whisky. Joe was not a whisky drinker; the bottle had stood unopened for months, but tonight it would be his friend and companion. Making his way back towards the fire, he stumbled and cried out in pain, as he stubbed his toe on a small table that stood unseen in the shadows.<\/p>\n The table, and the oil lamp that stood on it, crashed noisily to the ground. Joe gazed at the mess for a second, but his throbbing toe was foremost in his mind and he sank gratefully onto the nearest settee.<\/p>\n The first taste of whisky almost made him gag as the rawness of the crude liquid hit the back of his throat, but the warmth it brought as it trickled slowly into his stomach was enough to make him persevere. Several mouthfuls later, Joe was aware of a warm glow spreading over his entire body, and as more and more of the bottle emptied, he at last began to feel calm and sleepy, the pain in his toe long since forgotten. Maybe he should have invited this friend to join him long ago; this friend had the capacity to numb his brain and chase the demons from his head for the first time in months.<\/p>\n Before an hour had passed, Joe was sat slumped in the chair, the bottle of whisky cradled in his arms like a baby, as sleep finally took him. His last conscious thought was one of anguish; \u201chow could she?\u201d He had no proof, there was nothing he could accuse her of, but the unspoken accusations lingered in the air between them and could not be hidden. They had been married for less than nine months, but already Joe was certain. Christine had been unfaithful!<\/p>\n ***************************<\/p>\n The banging on the door brought Joe out of his drink induced sleep. His brain was befuddled and he was having difficulty remembering where he was and how he got there. Putting the now empty whisky bottle on the floor, Joe limped over to the door and pulled it open. His head, as well as his toe, was throbbing, but with regards to the latter, he could not think why.<\/p>\n Sheriff Roy Coffee and his deputy Clem stood before him. Joe squinted and raised his hand to his eyes in order to block out the brightness of the early morning sun shining down on them from a clear winter sky. The cold air seeped into the room making Joe shudder; he was only wearing his nightshirt and the warmth from the fire had long since died.<\/p>\n \u201cRoy what you doing here? Joe asked as he tried to think of a reason why the sheriff was at his door this early on a morning. \u201cHas something happened? Is Pa okay?\u201d The pounding in his head was getting worse and he was finding it difficult to concentrate, and on top of that his stomach threatened to expel its contents at any given moment.<\/p>\n \u201cCan we come in Joe?\u201d asked the sheriff in a sombre voice, with not the hint of a smile or friendly gesture.<\/p>\n Joe moved to the side and allowed Roy and Clem to enter. Roy\u2019s eyes mentally noted the upturned table and empty whisky bottle on the floor. He shook his head at the scene in front of him; things did not look good.<\/p>\n With a troubled expression Roy turned to Joe and half apologetically began, \u201cThere\u2019s been a complaint made Joe, a complaint about you.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe looked at Roy quizzically trying to comprehend the meaning behind the words.<\/p>\n \u201cI\u2019m not sure what you\u2019re on about Roy,\u201d he finally responded.<\/p>\n \u201cApparently yesterday evening Christine spent some time with a friend and she was very distressed.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cChristine\u2019s friend was very distressed?\u201d asked a bemused Joe.<\/p>\n \u201cNo Joe, Christine was distressed. She claims that you and her have been having a few marital problems.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe\u2019s face hardened into an angry mask. \u201cThat\u2019s no one\u2019s business but ours Roy. What goes on between a man and his wife has nothing to do with anyone else.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cUnder normal circumstances I would agree with you Joe, but this friend says Christine was afraid to come home last night, she was afraid of what you might do.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe laughed, but there was no humour in the sound, it was as hollow as he felt. The woman was afraid of what he might do! What could he do? He was trapped in a loveless marriage with a woman who was making a fool of him! However, he had made his bed, and as the saying goes, \u2018he would have to lie on it\u2019. Joe would never be free again while that woman was still alive.<\/p>\n \u201cThis is no laughing matter Joe. Can we see Christine?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cOh I\u2019m not laughing Roy, believe me I have nothing to laugh about,\u201d Joe replied. \u201cShe\u2019s still sleeping, but I\u2019ll just get her. The fact is I\u2019m as interested as you to learn what other lies she\u2019s been telling.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe crossed the room and pushed open the bedroom door. Time stood still for him as he tried to make sense of the scene before him. This was not real; how could this be happening? \u201cOh my God,\u201d he uttered eventually before rushing out of the house. Sinking to his knees in the dirt, he leaned forward with his hands on the ground, and began to throw up, over and over again.<\/p>\n Roy and Clem looked at each other with experienced eyes. They had witnessed this scenario time and time again. In the cold light of day, the pleasure alcohol had given the night before fast lost its attraction.<\/p>\n The bedroom door remained open and both men stood outside, somewhat embarrassed, waiting for Christine to emerge. Minutes ticked by and there was still no movement from inside. Roy coughed several times to make sure that Mrs Cartwright was aware of their presence, but still the silence prevailed. Eventually Roy walked over to the bedroom and, with a somewhat red face, peered inside.<\/p>\n The sight that met his eyes was bloody and violent. Christine lay on the bed, a thin sheet barely covering her naked body. Dried blood pooled around her head and her once beautiful face was destroyed forever by a single bullet. Only her long blonde hair, fanning out over the pillow, made her recognisable as the person she once was. Joe\u2019s gun lay discarded on the floor.<\/p>\n Roy shook his head; how had it come to this? Never in his wildest dreams could he have envisaged the outcome of his visit this morning. Whatever had taken place last night had resulted in the destruction of two young lives, one by a bullet and the other; well he didn\u2019t want to think about that. How on earth would he break the news to Ben?<\/p>\n Going into the yard Roy walked over and stood next to Joe\u2019s still form as he sat transfixed in shock. Roy had to repeat himself several times before Joe even realised that someone was talking to him. Looking up at his father\u2019s oldest friend, Joe stared at him, as if willing him to say it wasn\u2019t true.<\/p>\n \u201cCome on Joe, you need to get dressed and come into town with me.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe stood up on shaky legs and allowed Roy to walk him back to the house. When they entered, Joe suddenly became alarmed and tried to pull himself from Roy\u2019s grasp, \u201cI can\u2019t go anywhere with you Roy,\u201d he said frantically, \u201cChristine needs me. She\u2019s bleeding, I must fetch the doctor.\u201d<\/p>\n Roy shook Joe harshly by the shoulders until Joe stopped struggling and focused on him. Once he was sure that he had Joe\u2019s full attention, he said in a quiet voice, \u201cChristine is dead Joe. And I\u2019m sorry son, but I must take you in.\u201d<\/p>\n It took time for the words to filter through to Joe\u2019s brain.<\/p>\n \u201cTake me in? Take me in where?\u201d he asked.<\/p>\n \u201cI\u2019m sorry Joe, but I\u2019m arresting you for the murder of Christine Cartwright.\u201d<\/p>\n ***************************<\/p>\n It had all began just under a year ago when Christine Kent had arrived in town on the stage from San Francisco. Her beauty had attracted a lot of attention and in those first few weeks she had many suitors. Christine was a woman of experience. She was almost thirty years old and had finally decided that now was the time to settle down. Her looks wouldn\u2019t last forever and so she must make a good match while she was still young and attractive enough to have her pick of anyone she so desired. And by the end of that second week she desired Joseph Cartwright.<\/p>\n From the outset Christine had very definite ideas of what she wanted in a husband. First and foremost he must be rich. She had very expensive tastes, and it was important that whoever she married was able to keep her in the manner to which she had become accustomed. Secondly, she liked her men young, their youth made them malleable, but then again Christine had yet to meet a man she couldn\u2019t control.<\/p>\n The moment she heard about Joe Cartwright she was intrigued. Christine made it her business to find out everything there was to know about him, and what she found out she liked. Joe was the youngest son of the richest man in Nevada and was the apple of his Pa\u2019s eye.<\/p>\n By her second week in Virginia City, Christine was becoming impatient to meet the youngest Cartwright. She was invited to several social events and tried hard to stifle her disappointment when she found that the Cartwright family was not present. Standing next to Dr Paul Martin at one of these functions she remarked casually,<\/p>\n \u201cI have heard so much about the Cartwrights, but have yet to meet any of them. Don\u2019t they believe in having fun?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cOh they like to have fun,\u201d laughed Paul \u201cespecially Little Joe,\u201d he added.<\/p>\n \u201cThey are such prominent people, I would have expected them to take a more active part in City life,\u201d Christine stated, hoping to draw more information out of the good doctor.<\/p>\n \u201cThis is a busy time at the ranch and Ben will have the boys on a short leash, but I\u2019m sure you\u2019ll get to meet them this weekend. There\u2019s a dance on Saturday night and I don\u2019t think anything, even his Pa, will keep Joe from dancing.\u201d<\/p>\n The following Saturday, Christine went all out to make an impression. Standing in front of the mirror she surveyed her reflection and smiled with satisfaction. Joseph Cartwright was in for a treat! She was going to give him the full works; she just hoped he was man enough for the job!<\/p>\n ***************************<\/p>\n All four Cartwrights rode into town together. They were in good spirits and eager to let off a bit of steam and have a few drinks. The last few weeks had been particularly busy and they had arrived home late each evening, with hardly enough energy to eat supper before falling into bed.<\/p>\n As they rode at a steady pace, Ben smiled good-naturedly as he listened to the banter of his sons teasing each other.<\/p>\n \u201cDo you smell somethin\u2019 funny?\u201d Hoss first asked holding his nose between his fingers.<\/p>\n \u201cNow you come to mention it, there is a funny smell,\u201d replied Adam, going along with his brother. Then sniffing in Joe\u2019s direction he added, \u201cIf I didn\u2019t know better, I would swear it was the same perfume that Betty from the saloon uses.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWell what ever it is, it\u2019s making Cochise swoon,\u201d Hoss warned. \u201cLet\u2019s hope he doesn\u2019t fall over before we get to town.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThe only horse that is likely to collapse round here is Chubb,\u201d Joe remarked, with a mischievous smile spreading across his face. \u201cThe weight that poor critter has to carry, it\u2019s a wonder he can stand up at all.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe anticipated the swipe that was coming in his direction from his middle brother\u2019s massive hand and had already kicked Cochise into a gallop before the palm could make contact. Looking back over his shoulder he shouted,<\/p>\n \u201cYou\u2019re gonna have to be quicker than that Hoss, you\u2019re definitely losing your touch. It must be old age creeping up.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe covered his eyes for a moment as he laughed at Hoss\u2019s expense. While Joe was distracted, Adam couldn\u2019t resist joining in the hi-jinx. Spurring Sport into a run he caught up to his youngest sibling and knocked Joe\u2019s hat from his head letting it fall to the ground. This had been one of Joe\u2019s favourite games not so many years ago. As Joe bent forward in his saddle to retrieve it, Adam landed a hefty swat on his upturned posterior. Letting out an indignant yell, Joe quickly righted himself.<\/p>\n \u201cLet that be a lesson\u201d Adam admonished. \u201cNever try and get one over on your older and betters.\u201d<\/p>\n Rubbing his smarting rear, Joe shouted to his brother\u2019s retreating back, \u201cJust wait till we get to the dance Mr Smarty Pants, then we\u2019ll see who\u2019s better. I\u2019m willing to bet the prettiest gal in the place falls for me.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben raised his eyebrows and in mock sternness said \u201cPride cometh before a fall Joseph.\u201d<\/p>\n With a shrug of his shoulders, Joe put on a look of pure innocence and stated, \u201cI can\u2019t help it if I\u2019m irresistible!\u201d Before Ben could reprimand him, Joe winked at Hoss and added, \u201cI must take after you Pa.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben chuckled; this youngest son of his certainly knew how to charm his way out of any situation. As Hoss\u2019s deep belly laugh echoed throughout the night, the Cartwrights rode on, unaware that their lives were about to change forever.<\/p>\n *************************** Ben had a certain presence. His steely grey hair and posture gave him a distinguished and austere aura, but his full sensual lips belied a different nature. The man dressed in black had to be Adam, the eldest son. He was certainly a looker and if Christine had only wanted a bed partner, he would be her kind of man for there was something dangerous and unpredictable about Adam Cartwright. He would definitely be worth a dalliance! Hoss was as big and handsome as she had been led to believe. He had an open and honest face and Christine smiled as she thought how easy it would be to have a man like him eating out of her hand.<\/p>\n Finally she turned her attention to the youngest son. He was twenty years old, and was so good looking, that he actually made her heart skip a beat when she first set eyes on him. He was perfect, and it didn\u2019t take Christine long to make up her mind that she would have him. Joe was not only extremely handsome, but he had an energy about him that excited her. Friends had said he had a hot temper and was easily riled. Well she liked a man with a bit of fire; she didn\u2019t like them to comply too easily. He was young; in fact she wondered if she had heard right, for he looked far younger than his twenty years. But age didn\u2019t matter to Christine, twenty or not, she was going to have fun taming Joseph Cartwright, of that she was very sure. The stumbling block would be his father and two elder brothers, but if nothing else, Christine loved a challenge.<\/p>\n Standing at the punchbowl, Joe surveyed the dance floor with an appraising eye. Handing Adam a glass of punch he said, \u201cWell?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWell what?\u201d asked Adam, knowing full well to what his brother referred.<\/p>\n \u201cIs it a bet? Which one do you think is the prettiest?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cYou are incorrigible, Joe. Besides your idea of pretty may be a little young for me.\u201d<\/p>\n It was just at that moment that Joe felt a tap on his shoulder and turned to find his close friend Mitch standing behind him.<\/p>\n \u201cI must be a fool for doing this,\u201d sighed Mitch \u201cbut there is a young lady here that is dying to meet you.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe turned round and came face to face with this vision of loveliness. Christine was dressed all in red with the bodice of her dress pulled tight accentuating her tiny waist, and the low neckline doing nothing to hide her ample charms. Her blonde hair cascaded loose across her shoulders and as she turned her head her luxuriant curls bounced from side to side. When Joe looked into her pale blue eyes for the first time he couldn\u2019t look away and those around them witnessing the encounter, were embarrassed at the unbridled passion that seemed to ignite between them.<\/p>\n Mitch coughed, and the invisible connection between Christine and Joe was finally broken.<\/p>\n \u201cJoe let me introduce you to Miss Christine Kent.\u201d<\/p>\n Extending her hand and smiling demurely, Christine said, \u201cI\u2019ve heard so much about you Mr Cartwright.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cJoe, call me Joe,\u201d he replied, grasping her hand and holding on to it. Turning to his side he added, \u201cthis here is my brother Adam.\u201d<\/p>\n Adam took her hand from Joe\u2019s saying, \u201cNice to meet you Miss Kent.\u201d Then as he turned to walk away he winked at Joe and said, \u201cOk, you win.\u201d<\/p>\n That evening Joe danced every dance with Christine and he felt himself to be the luckiest man in the room. Despite their age difference they made a striking couple and everyone\u2019s eyes were drawn to them.<\/p>\n As for Joe he didn\u2019t stand a chance. Christine used every one of her womanly wiles to snare him and by the end of the evening she had him dangling from her hook with no means of escape.<\/p>\n Joe walked Christine back to her hotel room long after the dance had finished and as they kissed goodnight, she left him in no doubt of the delights to come.<\/p>\n ***************************<\/p>\n Joe\u2019s relationship with Christine intensified over the next few weeks, but at first his family were unconcerned. A young man needed to sow a few wild oats before he settled down, and Ben viewed Joe\u2019s attraction to Christine in that light. He never expected it to last for long or turn serious.<\/p>\n When Joe failed to return home until the early hours for the second night in a row, Ben decided that something needed to be said. His brothers\u2019 were fed up covering for him and Adam had pointed out, on more than one occasion, that Joe was so tired during the day, he was not only a danger to himself, but others.<\/p>\n When Joe arrived at the breakfast table that morning, long after his brothers had begun their working day, Ben asked to have a word with him. Joe had the good grace to look sheepish; he knew he had not been pulling his weight over the last few weeks. In a futile effort to avoid the inevitable lecture, Joe began,<\/p>\n \u201cGuess I slept a little late this morning Pa. I\u2019m really sorry, it won\u2019t happen again.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben studied Joe\u2019s tired face across the breakfast table and noted the dark circles under the eyes.<\/p>\n \u201cIt\u2019s not just this morning Joseph, you\u2019ve hardly been in your bed before midnight for weeks. Now you\u2019re a grown man and what you do in your free time is your business, but when it comes to the ranch, you work here just like any other hand, and that is my business.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe slumped down in his chair and closed his tired eyes; he should have known better. There were some things in life that just couldn\u2019t be avoided and his father\u2019s view on tardiness was legendary. Joe\u2019s disrespectful posture annoyed Ben and the softly softly approach, that he had previously decided to adopt, quickly went out of the window as he barked, \u201cJoseph!\u201d<\/p>\n Joe\u2019s eyes shot open and he looked wide-eyed at his Pa, wondering what he could have done to annoy him so quickly. \u201cYes Pa?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cSit up straight when I\u2019m talking to you.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe quickly righted himself and sat ramrod straight in his chair. Ruefully he thought, \u201cI was a \u2018grown man\u2019 just a minute ago, but with one word, he manages to make me feel like a little boy again.\u201d<\/p>\n Seeing that he had Joe\u2019s full attention once more, Ben stood up and paced the floor. He wanted to try and keep the conversation as convivial as possible and a sure way to get Joe\u2019s back up was to give him advice about his love life.<\/p>\n \u201cI wanted to talk to you about Christine,\u201d Ben began, casting his eyes in Joe\u2019s direction to try and gauge his reaction. \u201cDon\u2019t you think you\u2019ve been seeing an awful lot of her in the last few weeks?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI really like her Pa,\u201d Joe replied guardedly and already Ben could see the stubborn look appearing on Joe\u2019s face.<\/p>\n \u201cI\u2019m sure you do,\u201d said Ben smiling with all sincerity. Beckoning Joe to join him on the settee he continued, \u201cNow Joe, I know a young man has to have a bit of fun before settling down, but I really think you should start seeing less of this woman. The gossips in town don\u2019t miss anything and you have been keeping very late hours.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI don\u2019t care what people think Pa. Christine and I are care very much for each other.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben was taken aback. He hadn\u2019t for one moment thought Joe was really serious about this woman. Surely the boy could see what type of person she was? But looking at Joe\u2019s earnest face he realised that he would have to try and spell it out for him.<\/p>\n \u201cJoe listen to me. Christine is a lot older and more worldly than you.\u201d<\/p>\n It was Joe\u2019s turn to smile, \u201cI seem to remember having this conversation with you once before Pa. I\u2019m not 17 anymore.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben also remembered the conversation when Joe was enamoured with Julia Bulette. He hadn\u2019t handled the situation very well on that occasion and he mentally resolved to try and not make the same mistakes.<\/p>\n \u201cJoe, Christine in a very attractive and entertaining young woman, but she is not the sort of person a young man is expected to take seriously.\u201d<\/p>\n The words hit home, but Joe dismissed them immediately. \u201cI don\u2019t know what you are getting at Pa, but I would advise you not to continue. You are talking about my future wife.\u201d<\/p>\n All of Ben\u2019s resolve to stay calm evaporated in an instant. Christine was not a common saloon girl and, to the unsuspecting, she gave off an air of respectability, but Ben had met women like her on numerous occasions. They were predatory and far more lethal than the women of the night. A saloon girl would take your money and you knew exactly what you were paying for, but women like Christine took everything; your money, your body and soul and left you with nothing. Well, he wasn\u2019t going to allow that to happen to Joe.<\/p>\n \u201cOver my dead body,\u201d he shouted. \u201cI will not have that woman in this house. You are not 21, therefore you cannot marry without my consent, and believe me when I say this Joseph, I am not giving it.\u201d<\/p>\n By this time Joe was on his feet and squaring up to his father, his own control completely gone. \u201cI\u2019ll be 21 in a few weeks Pa and won\u2019t need your permission. So you might as well get used to the idea, with or without your consent, Christine will become Mrs Joseph Cartwright.\u201d The words were hardly out of his mouth before he turned from a red faced Ben, picked up his hat and gunbelt and strode out of the house slamming the door behind him.<\/p>\n Ben was still fighting a losing battle in trying to calm down when he heard Joe\u2019s horse ride out of the yard at full gallop.<\/p>\n ***************************<\/p>\n Just hours later a despondent Joe sat in Christine\u2019s room lamenting over his father\u2019s refusal to let them marry.<\/p>\n Standing behind him, massaging his stiff and tense shoulders, Christine purred, \u201cDon\u2019t worry Joe, your father will come round and everything will be fine.\u201d<\/p>\n Christine was taking a big chance. There was always the risk that if Joe went against his father\u2019s wishes, then the upstanding and moralistic Ben may disown him.<\/p>\n This was a chance Christine was willing to take. She had researched the Cartwright family as if they were a history lesson and had come to the conclusion that although Ben was a strict, and in some ways, overbearing patriarch to his sons, he loved them with a passion that was seldom displayed in the harsh and rugged west. When it came to the crunch she was sure that Ben would back down rather than lose his son.<\/p>\n From start to finish it had only taken Christine three weeks to convince Joe he couldn\u2019t live without her. It had been like leading a lamb to the slaughter; she was to become Mrs Joseph Cartwright and already she was moulding him into the man she wanted.<\/p>\n Christine convinced Joe to return home and make amends with his father and for him to remain calm, but firm, and leave his Pa in no doubt that he was a man with a mind of his own. In that way she was sure his father would come round to his way of thinking.<\/p>\n By the time Joe arrived home that evening to comply with Christine\u2019s bidding, Ben had finally calmed down and was sorry for his earlier outburst. He had resolved to approach the subject with sensitivity and, hopefully, over the next few weeks Joe would see the light. If he didn\u2019t, well, Ben had already resigned himself to the fact that he would have to accept Christine begrudgingly into the family.<\/p>\n ***************************<\/p>\n Adam was not quite as tolerant or patient as Ben. He confronted Joe on several occasions and made it quite clear that he thought his younger brother was making a complete fool of himself! The woman was a scheming witch who would bring Joe nothing but misery. Needless to say the relationship between Joe and Adam, which was precarious at the best of times, deteriorated beyond all repair. Joe refused to work with his brother, and Ben in an effort to keep harmony, assigned them tasks as far away from each other as possible.<\/p>\n Hoss was upset at the discord in his family and tried to remain neutral. He found Christine to be very attractive and charming and couldn\u2019t fail to see how much his younger brother cared for her. Just like his father and older brother he was concerned at the obvious age difference between the couple, but his inexperience with woman meant that he did not see through her deceptive ways.<\/p>\n As Joe\u2019s twenty-first birthday drew near, Ben could see that he was fighting a losing battle. When it became evident Joe and Christine would definitely marry, with or without his consent, Ben conceded, and in an effort to bring about a reconciliation he offered to have the wedding ceremony on the Ponderosa.<\/p>\n With only two days to go before the big event Adam decided to try one last time to intervene on his brother\u2019s behalf. Resolutely making his way to the International House Hotel, Adam went up to Christine\u2019s room determined he would do whatever it took to get her out of his brother\u2019s life.<\/p>\n When Christine opened her bedroom door she was both surprised and amused to see Adam standing before her, and moving to one side she invited him into her room. Even though it was late afternoon Christine was dressed in a flimsy negligee and Adam tried hard to avert his eyes from her obvious allure.<\/p>\n \u201cAdam, this is a surprise, to what do I owe the unexpected pleasure?\u201d she asked mockingly.<\/p>\n Adam fought hard to control his temper, \u201cI think we both know why I\u2019m here Christine. Let\u2019s not play games with each other. What will it take for you to go away and leave my brother alone? If it\u2019s only money you\u2019re after, I can give you more than you ever dreamed of.\u201d<\/p>\n Christine did not even try to put up a pretence where Adam was concerned, \u201cDon\u2019t be ridiculous Adam. When I marry Joe, not only do I become a Cartwright but I will also have a share in the Ponderosa fortune.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cHow much will it take Christine?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cMore than you could ever afford Adam. Joe offers me a lifetime of security.\u201d<\/p>\n Seeing his angry face, Christine could not help goading him more by adding, \u201cFor as long as I want him that is.\u201d<\/p>\n Adam was incensed at her boldness and grabbed her by the wrist. Twisting her arm above her head, he said. \u201cYou seem to think you have it all worked out, but be warned, if you do anything to hurt my little brother you will have me to answer to.\u201d<\/p>\n From the beginning Christine had found herself attracted to the eldest Cartwright son and now up close his menacing sexuality intoxicated her. She pressed herself seductively up against him and with her free hand she began to unbutton his shirt.<\/p>\n \u201cThat\u2019s not the real reason you are here, is it Adam?\u201d she whispered huskily. \u201cDon\u2019t fight it; we both feel the same way I\u2019m sure. We\u2019re alike you and I, we know what we want and we go after it. When the wedding is over there\u2019ll be plenty of opportunity for you and I to be together. The danger of being caught will be all the more exciting don\u2019t you think?\u201d<\/p>\n Even though Adam had no respect for the woman he was still taken aback by her words and as Christine cupped the back of his neck and brought her mouth closer to his, he felt impotent to break free. However, before their lips could meet the door opened and Joe entered. Christine was quick to turn the situation around to her own advantage, and the hand that was cupping Adam\u2019s neck a moment before, now slapped him hard across the face.<\/p>\n A bemused Joe looked from one to another trying to comprehend what was happening. Seeing the confusion on his face, Christine immediately changed into the vulnerable and wronged woman and burst into tears. Adam was at a loss for words as he watched the transformation take place.<\/p>\n Not waiting for an explanation, Joe lunged at his brother and with fists flying he attacked Adam with a ferocity he had not shown before. Adam did not attempt to fight back but instead sought to restrain Joe, contrary to his natural reaction. Under the circumstances he would have liked to try and knock some sense into his youngest sibling, but he was so angry he was afraid he might not be able to stop. After all, it wasn\u2019t Joe that he was angry with, but Christine!<\/p>\n Pushing Joe roughly away from him, Adam retrieved his hat from the floor and walked out of the room with not a backward glance. With a sigh Adam reluctantly had to admit that his attempt to rescue Joe had backfired and his brother\u2019s fate was now sealed as Joe glared after him for only a second, before gathering a weeping Christine into his arms.<\/p>\n Christine was right in her summation of the head of the Cartwright family, for two days later the wedding took place with all the Cartwrights in attendance. At Ben\u2019s insistence, the eldest and youngest brother had called an uneasy truce and once the wedding was over, Ben was left with no alternative but to accept Christine as part of the family. With a deep feeling of trepidation Ben commissioned a house to be built on Ponderosa land for the newlyweds and reluctantly invested a large sum of money in a bank account for Joe. Christine\u2019s cunning plan had truly come into fruition.<\/p>\n ***************************<\/p>\n At first married life was everything Joe hoped it would be. He enjoyed the novelty of coming home at the end of a long day to find Christine waiting for him with a hot meal on the table. His days were long, but the nights more than made up for it, and Joe was a happy man. As the weeks past Joe appeared to be a picture of contentment, his family started to relax and were lulled into thinking that maybe they had misjudged Christine after all.<\/p>\n Even the uneasy relationship between Joe and Adam was beginning to thaw. For the sake of family harmony they had put their differences behind them and peace reigned once more, keeping their conversations on neutral ground and only discussing matters pertaining to the running of the ranch.<\/p>\n Christine enjoyed the status she was awarded by being part of the Cartwright family. She revelled in her trips to Virginia City and never returned empty handed. Within a few short months she had spent the huge sum of money Ben had deposited in the bank for Joe as part of his wedding present.<\/p>\n Life for Joe was so busy he was totally unaware of his wife\u2019s spending sprees. He was determined to demonstrate to himself, and his family, that he was now a stable married man with responsibilities and he worked long and hard at proving it. The state of his financial affairs only came to light one day when Joe went into town to get supplies for the ranch and he called in at the bank to make a withdrawal. A very embarrassed bank clerk called for the manager, who took Joe into his office and told him that his account was empty. Joe was speechless. Unlike a lot of men, he had allowed Christine to have full access to his finances without deferring to him. When Joe returned home that day he was furious and he and Christine had their first blazing row.<\/p>\n \u201cWhat\u2019s the problem?\u201d Christine asked offhandedly. \u201cAll you need to do is ask your father for some more.\u201d<\/p>\n This was a side of Christine that Joe had not seen before, or maybe he had allowed himself to be blinded to it in the past. \u201cI won\u2019t be asking my Pa for any more money Christine. We will just have to live on what we have until pay day.\u201d<\/p>\n Yet again Joe was no match for Christine and in less than twenty-four hours, Joe was stood, hat in hand, asking his father for more money.<\/p>\n This was now the pattern of their life together. Christine said \u2018Jump\u2019 and Joe virtually asked \u2018how high?\u2019 Such was her power over him. Consequently, married bliss did not last long.<\/p>\n As time passed Christine became bored playing the little housewife and she needed to look for new excitement. That excitement subsequently came in the guise of Harold Grimes. Harold was a distinguished middle-aged businessman in Virginia City. He was married to a rather mousy woman named Mildred and he couldn\u2019t believe his luck when Christine took an interest in him. Mr & Mrs Grimes had a teenage son who attended school back east and, in all ways, they were the very essence of respectability.<\/p>\n Harold\u2019s very respectability was part of the attraction for Christine. She lured him away from his business and his wife at every opportunity and, just like every other man that she had set her sights on; he was powerless to resist her charms.<\/p>\n Joe knew from the outset that there was something wrong, but he didn\u2019t know what it was and how to put it right. In lots of ways Joe was still very naive and at first it never occurred to him that Christine could be having an affair. Many times he returned to their home to find her gone and when she returned she would give no reasonable explanation as to where she had been.<\/p>\n Joe\u2019s life became a series of ups and downs, which were governed by Christine\u2019s volatile moods. If her day had gone well, Joe would return in the evening to a happy loving wife who would shower him with affection. On the other hand if Harold had failed to turn up for a clandestine rendezvous, she would make Joe\u2019s life a living hell.<\/p>\n Often when he was growing up Joe would hear his Pa and brothers laughing about a woman\u2019s changeable temperament. Apparently his mother could be as happy as a sunny day one moment and the next they would be running for cover away from the full force of her temper. Unlike the rest of his family, Joe had no experience of living with a woman in the house, and he wondered if maybe Christine\u2019s unpredictable nature could be normal, but who was he to ask?<\/p>\n Christine was well aware of the effect she had on Joe, and she loved the power she had over him. She took great pleasure in making his life a misery one day and then turning the tables and fawning over him the next.<\/p>\n As the weeks grew into months Joe\u2019s family noticed a change in him and began to worry about him once more. A sombre, quiet young man, who seemed to have the weight of the world on his shoulders, replaced the once happy and carefree youth. Ben tried on several occasions to get Joe to talk about his problems, but Joe no longer felt able to confide in him, and Ben felt helpless as to what to do. Any mention of his private life was dismissed and he left his family in no doubt that his marriage was his own affair and no one elses.<\/p>\n It took a while, but eventually Joe could no longer hide the truth even from himself. The more he thought about it the more obvious it became. Joe had no proof, there was nothing of which he could accuse her, but with each day Joe became more and more certain of his suspicions. Christine was most certainly cheating on him.<\/p>\n ***************************<\/p>\n It was Friday 13 March, an omen in itself, when Joe had returned to his home to find it empty and Christine gone. As he sat at the dinner table alone, neither eating nor drinking, he decided that that night he would have it out with her. When she returned, as he was certain she would, he would confront her with his suspicions and everything would be brought out into the open.<\/p>\n Hours later Joe was still sitting at the table alone as the night closed in around him. With a heavy heart he rose and made his way into the bedroom. Disrobing he put on his nightshirt and climbed into bed, his emotions were now too raw to challenge Christine that evening and he decided he would wait until morning. Joe thought that after a night\u2019s sleep his resolve would be better and he was determined that this time he would not let her talk him around.<\/p>\n She was so beautiful and very persuasive and on numerous occasions Joe had accepted her explanations of where she had been without question. Deep inside he knew she was lying, but when you are in love you are often blinkered and see only what you want to see. But those days were now over. Joe\u2019s eyes had been opened and he would no longer be blinded by her lies! The saddest part for Joe was the realisation that he loved her no longer and probably never really had for the woman he had thought he had married never really existed.<\/p>\n As for Christine, her evening was not going as she had planned.<\/p>\n \u201cWhat do you mean it\u2019s over?\u201d she spat at Harold as she walked across the room towards him. \u201cIt\u2019s over when I say it\u2019s over and not before.\u201d<\/p>\n Harold cringed inside; he had been dreading this moment. \u201cI\u2019m sorry Christine,\u201d he began \u201cit\u2019s just Mildred, she\u2019s beginning to get suspicious about all the late nights I\u2019ve been having. I can\u2019t risk a scandal and neither can you.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cLet me worry about that,\u201d Christine retorted immediately. How dare he have the audacity to tell her that the relationship between them was ended? No man had ever finished with Christine and for that he would have to pay dearly.<\/p>\n \u201cWhat about Joe?\u201d he wheedled once more. \u201cSurely you don\u2019t want him to find out about us?\u201d<\/p>\n Christine laughed. \u201cI can handle Joe, you have no need to worry on that score.\u201d<\/p>\n Harold remained firm, for people were beginning to comment that he spent an awful lot of evenings working, and he was running out of excuses. He had hoped that Christine would understand and be equally worried that her husband would hear the gossip, but Christine did not seem to care. She would not listen to reason and left Harold in no doubt that she would pay Mildred a visit that very evening and give her a graphic account of how her husband spent his leisure time.<\/p>\n It was very late when Christine finally returned home to the house she shared with Joe. She had malicious fun that evening watching the face of the pathetic Mildred as she gave her the full facts, but she was also concerned about the reaction of Joe\u2019s family if they ever found out about it. Maybe she had been a bit hasty. If she wasn\u2019t careful her hurt pride could possibly cost her the loss of her marriage. Knowing full well she and Joe had not been seeing eye to eye of late, she decided it was time to heal the rift with her husband, before the gap was too large and she lost him and his fortune forever.<\/p>\n The house was in darkness when Christine entered and she stripped naked in front of the still burning fire. Quietly pushing open the bedroom door she looked towards the bed where she could barely make out the still form of her husband. Shivering against the cold she pulled back the covers, climbed inside and wrapped her cold body around that of Joe. Christine smiled to herself as she expertly overcame Joe\u2019s resistance to her lovemaking; Joe Cartwright was no match for her and she would have him bend to her will as she always did.<\/p>\n Later, as she fell deep into slumber Christine Cartwright was blissfully unaware of the nightmare scenario that was yet to unfold.<\/p>\n ***************************<\/p>\n Ben\u2019s thoughts were in turmoil as he rode into Virginia City. Adam and Hoss, riding along side of him, did not speak as they too tried to come to terms with what the deputy had told them. Christine was dead and Joe had been charged with her murder.<\/p>\n They all knew that the marriage would never last; it was only a matter of time before Joe admitted to himself the type of woman he had married. But this! Not one of them could have envisaged this. Not in a million years could Ben have seen things turning out this way.<\/p>\n It was with heavy hearts that they stepped into the jailhouse that morning. Roy\u2019s eyes locked with those of his oldest friend and the pain that he saw reflected there made him flinch. What could he say to him? Joe was charged with murder and would almost certainly pay the ultimate penalty.<\/p>\n The three Cartwright men removed their guns and laid them on Roy\u2019s desk. \u201cCan we see him Roy?\u201d asked Ben.<\/p>\n \u201cYes of course Ben, but he ain\u2019t saying much.\u201d<\/p>\n As Roy unlocked the cell door, Ben\u2019s eyes were transfixed on the slim figure laid out on the bed. Joe was lying on his back staring at the ceiling. His face was ashen and his lips were just as pale. Seeing Ben\u2019s concerned expression Roy said \u201cThe boy\u2019s in shock Ben, plus he had quite a skin full last night, I would imagine he has one humdinger of a hangover.\u201d<\/p>\n Sitting down gently on the side of the bed, no words were needed as Ben reached forward and taking hold of his son\u2019s shoulders he pulled him into his arms. Joe did not resist and as he felt his father\u2019s comforting embrace he began to weep.<\/p>\n Ben stroked Joe\u2019s back and ran his hand through the tousled curls. He had missed the closeness he had always shared with his youngest son these past months, but this was not the way he would have wished to rekindle the relationship.<\/p>\n There was a despondency and helplessness in Joe\u2019s cries that pierced Ben\u2019s heart like a knife, \u201cHush son, don\u2019t worry, we\u2019ll sort this out. Don\u2019t cry Joe, believe me we\u2019ll get through this together.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe lifted his head from his father\u2019s shoulder. Unable to look Ben in the eye, he said between sobs, \u201cChristine is dead Pa and I must have killed her. You can\u2019t fix this one, no one can. If I killed her, I deserve to hang.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben had no words of comfort to give. He couldn\u2019t believe that Joe could have done such a thing, but what if he had? Ben had raised his sons to live by the law. A country could not grow and prosper without rules, and if a man broke those rules he deserved to be punished, even if that man was Ben Cartwright\u2019s son.<\/p>\n Adam and Hoss stood by helpless. They too wanted to give their young brother words of comfort, but what could they say? Any promises they made would have a hollow ring to them at this point in time. Anxious to do something to help, the brothers went in search of Hiram Wood, the family lawyer; Joe\u2019s life was going to depend on the best representation they could find.<\/p>\n When presented with all the facts from Roy, Ben could still not believe that Joe could have killed his wife. Ben knew his sons, their faults and weaknesses as well as their virtues, and cold-blooded murder was something he didn\u2019t believe his sons were capable of, drunk or sober.<\/p>\n Hiram was difficult to track down and by the time he arrived at the Sheriff\u2019s Office, Joe had fallen into an exhausted sleep. Ben could not see the point in disturbing him; he was going to need all his strength in the days ahead, and so Hiram and the family made their way over to the International Hotel to plan Joe\u2019s defence.<\/p>\n The four men discussed the case long into the night, but the facts of the matter remained. Christine was dead and Joe appeared to be the only possible suspect!<\/p>\n ***************************<\/p>\n The following morning Hiram sat in the cell with Joe about to go over the circumstances that led up to the murder. Joe was able to tell him very little, as he had no recollection of anything from the time he fell asleep with the whisky bottle in his hand, until Roy banged on his door the following morning.<\/p>\n Ben, Adam and Hoss entered the jailhouse just as Hiram was attempting to get Joe to go into what he had told him in more detail.<\/p>\n \u201cRight Joe explain to me again what happened when you arrived home that evening.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI\u2019ve already told you once Hiram, I went home and the house was empty. I sat until it was dark and then I went to bed.\u201d<\/p>\n Roy opened the cell door and allowed Ben to enter. There wasn\u2019t much room inside the cell and Adam and Hoss stood at the other side of the bars. Sitting on the bed next to Joe, Ben placed a comforting hand on his knee. Joe smiled weakly at his father, but the smile never reached his eyes and Ben wished, not for the first time, that he could turn back the clock.<\/p>\n \u201cDid you not think to go and look for Christine when you found she wasn\u2019t at the house?\u201d persisted Hiram.<\/p>\n \u201cChristine was quite often gone when I arrived home. It wasn\u2019t unusual,\u201d replied Joe with a shrug of his shoulders.<\/p>\n Ben glanced at his two eldest sons, but they both shook their heads slightly. Joe had never mentioned Christine\u2019s absences to any of them.<\/p>\n \u201cWhere did you think she was Joe?\u201d Hiram asked, but already suspecting the answer.<\/p>\n Joe shifted uncomfortably on the edge of the bed and looked at the floor.<\/p>\n \u201cYou have to be honest with me Joe?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cShe was probably with another man,\u201d Joe replied in almost a whisper.<\/p>\n \u201cThat woman was a witch,\u201d exploded Adam banging his fist on the cell bars.<\/p>\n Joe looked up at him and in a distressed voice said, \u201cShe\u2019s dead Adam.\u201d<\/p>\n Adam bit back his retort. He must keep calm for Joe\u2019s sake; his temper would not help things.<\/p>\n \u201cRight Joe,\u201d Hiram continued. \u201cJust tell me what happened when Christine eventually arrived home.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cShe came to bed,\u201d Joe replied simply.<\/p>\n \u201cWere you asleep? Did you argue? What happened?\u201d<\/p>\n Joe couldn\u2019t look at his family, \u201cI wasn\u2019t asleep and no we didn\u2019t argue.\u201d<\/p>\n Hiram was becoming irritated at Joe\u2019s evasive answers. \u201cLook Joe, something must have gone on between you. If I\u2019m to be of any help, I need to know everything.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe stood up from the bed and walked over to face the wall. What he had to say couldn\u2019t be explained, he didn\u2019t understand it himself. Placing his hands on the wall in front of him for support he said,<\/p>\n \u201cWe made love and Christine went to sleep. I got out of bed, drank a bottle of whisky and slept on the settee until morning,\u201d Joe swallowed several times before adding \u201cAnd somewhere in-between I must have shot her.\u201d<\/p>\n There didn\u2019t seem any other explanation, not to Hiram, not to the family and certainly not to Joe.<\/p>\n ***************************<\/p>\n It turned out that the \u2018friend\u2019 of Christine\u2019s who had reported Joe\u2019s abuse was none other than Mildred Grimes. Joe and his family had no reason to doubt her story, but they were surprised that the two women were friends. Mildred and Christine could not have been more different.<\/p>\n When Joe was told that Christine had been visiting with Mildred that evening and not with another man, he began to doubt his own sanity. Had he been wrong after all; was Christine\u2019s indiscretion all in his own mind? What if he had misjudged her and she had been visiting with Mildred on other occasions? Joe began to sink into deep depression, for he had no doubt that he was guilty and he didn\u2019t see any point in denying it. He deserved to die and he would do nothing to prevent it!<\/p>\n In the days that followed Hiram did his best to prepare a suitable defence, but Joe was not in the least hopeful. Mildred\u2019s testimony could not be questioned. The woman was of impeccable character and the family well known in the community as being respectable and above reproach.<\/p>\n Hiram had tried to get Joe to give more details of his life with Christine. He thought he might get leniency from the Court if it could be proved that Christine had driven Joe to act the way he did because of her wanton behaviour. Joe would have none of it. Christine was dead and he would not have her name dragged through the mud, and more to the point, what if she was innocent? What if he had imagined the smell of tobacco on her clothes and another man\u2019s cologne lingering in her hair? Joe tortured himself with self-doubt, he was responsible for her death and of that he no longer had any doubt.<\/p>\n Over the next couple of days Joe found himself alone as his Pa and brothers tried to help Hiram in preparation for the trial. It gave him time to contemplate, not only what fate decreed for him, but also what had led him down that path in the first place.<\/p>\n There was really no point in looking back, but he couldn\u2019t help regretting not going to his Pa earlier and discussing his fears with regards to Christine. What stopped him? Pride probably. He didn\u2019t want to admit to his family that he had failed and that they had been right about Christine all along. Marriage had given him \u2018grown up\u2019 status for the first time in his life and he had chosen to bury his head in the sand rather than admit defeat. But what price had pride cost him? Almost certainly his life!<\/p>\n Joe had no recollection whatsoever as to what had taken place that night after he consumed the whisky. That confused him. Why couldn\u2019t he remember? He was not a whisky drinker and he had never been in such a state before, but even that didn\u2019t account for the fact he had no memory of the event. Surely something so violent would have registered somewhere in his befuddled brain? He was not a cruel or callous man and, if anything, he thought the act itself would have given him nightmares for the rest of his days but the nightmares were strangely noticeable by their absence.<\/p>\n Maybe he was trying to excuse himself or maybe it was the only way he could deal with what he had done. Much as he would have liked to convince himself that he was innocent, it didn\u2019t seem possible. He and Christine were alone that night and, after all, had he not wished her dead?<\/p>\n Joe had no doubt he would hang, he had no defence to offer and, no matter what his family said, he would not try to defend his actions. Christine\u2019s behaviour towards him had been morally wrong, but that did not give him the right to take her life, and it was only right that he was punished in return.<\/p>\n ***************************<\/p>\n On the day of the trial Joe sat in court looking pale and ill. He looked much younger than his twenty-one years, and the Judge was quick to instruct the Jury not to be swayed in any way by the defendant\u2019s obvious youth and look of innocence.<\/p>\n The prosecution called Mildred Grimes to the stand. Mildred appeared nervous and sat wringing her hands together and pulling at her skirt as the lawyers questioned her. She never once looked at Joe throughout her testimony and Joe was in a world of his own, not listening to a word she said.<\/p>\n The prosecutor was gentle with her and asked her to repeat what happened on the evening of Friday 13 March.<\/p>\n \u201cWell Christine, Mrs Cartwright that is, came to visit me in the early evening. She was very distressed and stayed until nearly 11pm.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWhy was she so distressed?\u201d asked the prosecutor.<\/p>\n Mrs Grimes looked down in her lap and began twisting her hands once more.<\/p>\n \u201cShe said she was afraid of her husband. He had been drinking a lot lately and had become abusive.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cDid she claim that her husband was violent with her?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cYes. She said he drank so much on occasions that he didn\u2019t know what he was doing. That night she stayed with me until very late in the hope that he would have fallen asleep before she went home.\u201d<\/p>\n The prosecutor nodded his head in understanding.<\/p>\n \u201cDid she say why her husband was behaving like that?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWell she did say that he was very jealous. She said it was probably a mistake marrying him in the first place. He was so immature and thought that every man was after her. That night when she left she feared for her life.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cSo why did you decide to wait until morning before going to see the sheriff?\u201d<\/p>\n Mildred looked at the prosecutor pitifully before saying, \u201cWell it just didn\u2019t seem right getting involved in someone else\u2019s marital affair, but after she left I just couldn\u2019t sleep. I kept thinking I should have insisted that she stay with us that evening. The next morning, as soon as it was light, I went to see Sheriff Coffee and asked him to check and make sure she was all right.\u201d<\/p>\n At this point Mildred Grimes began to cry quietly into her handkerchief, and once the Judge ascertained that there were no more questions for her, he said she could step down.<\/p>\n The next person on the stand was Sheriff Coffee. He explained to the Jury how he had gone to Joe Cartwright\u2019s home that morning and what he had found. It pained Roy to describe his movements and findings that day. He was very fond of the Cartwrights, all of them, but he had known Little Joe for most of his life and he just couldn\u2019t bear to think that he was going to be instrumental in bringing about his demise.<\/p>\n \u201cAnd how did Joe Cartwright seem to you that morning, when you appeared on his doorstep?\u201d the prosecutor asked.<\/p>\n \u201cIf anything he seemed bemused by it all. He seemed to think something might have happened to his family, mainly his Pa.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cHad he been drinking?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cYes,\u201d replied Roy in a voice barely audible. \u201cI found an empty bottle of whisky when I went into the house.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cDid he try to hide his wife\u2019s murder from you?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cNo, he seemed confused as to why we were there at first and then when he saw his wife\u2019s body he ran out of the house and was violently sick. After that he seemed to be in shock and, quite frankly, I think he seems to have been that way ever since.\u201d<\/p>\n The prosecutor was quick to intervene \u201cI don\u2019t think it is up to you to speculate on the defendant\u2019s state of mind Sheriff.\u201d<\/p>\n The questions continued throughout the day and finally it was Joe\u2019s turn to take the stand. He did nothing to refute anything that had been said. When asked if he had killed his wife he simply stated \u201cI must have, what other explanation is there?\u201d<\/p>\n Ben, Adam and Hoss felt powerless to do anything to help him. They had no lifeline to offer and no words of comfort to give. In days gone by Joe had been in many scrapes and, on more than one occasion, his family had bailed him out, but this was different. A \u2018necessary talk\u201d, words or money couldn\u2019t make it right, not this time.<\/p>\n In summing up the defence asked for leniency because of his previous good character, but in actual fact there were no grounds for leniency and none were given. The jury returned a \u2018guilty\u2019 verdict without need to leave the courtroom.<\/p>\n In his summing up the Judge said that this was a most violent crime against a totally innocent young woman and for a case such as this there was only one punishment; Joe would be hanged at dawn the following day.<\/p>\n **********************<\/p>\n Roy led Joe from the Court House and escorted him back to the jailhouse with Hoss in tow. Ben and Adam stayed behind to discuss with Hiram the possibility of an appeal.<\/p>\n Hiram gently pointed out the futility of such an action.<\/p>\n \u201cWe have no grounds. I\u2019m sorry Ben, I can\u2019t tell you how sorry I am, but you are just going to have to accept the verdict. Now why don\u2019t you go and spend the little time you have left with your son instead of wasting time here, \u2018cause believe me Ben, you are wasting your time.\u201d<\/p>\n Back at the jailhouse Hoss was hatching a plan. Joe sat on the bed staring into space trying to come to terms with his fate, when he felt Hoss shake him hard.<\/p>\n \u201cAre you listening to me Joe?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWhat? Sorry Hoss did you say something?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cListen Joe,\u201d Hoss began looking round furtively to make sure there was no one else in hearing distance. \u201cI\u2019m going to get you out of here, but you are going to have to help me.\u201d<\/p>\n It took a minute for Hoss\u2019s words to sink in, but when they did Joe shook his head sadly.<\/p>\n \u201cNo Hoss, forget it, I\u2019m not going anywhere.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThere\u2019s no way I\u2019m leaving you here to hang Joe. Even if I have to hog tie you and carry you out of here myself.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe looked at his brother\u2019s forlorn face and tried to find the right words.<\/p>\n \u201cHoss, I know you mean well and I appreciate what you want to do for me, but the fact of the matter is, I killed someone, and for that I have to be punished.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cYou couldn\u2019t have done it Joe, I just know you c\u2026\u201d Hoss began, but Joe interrupted.<\/p>\n \u201cHoss, Hoss, what other explanation is there?\u201d<\/p>\n At Joe\u2019s words the tears began to spill from Hoss\u2019 eyes and Joe felt as if his heart would break. All of his life, Hoss had been his protector and his big brother, but most of all he had been his best friend. The guilt swept over Joe as he once again thought of the grief and shame he had brought upon his family.<\/p>\n \u201cListen Hoss, I can\u2019t let you sacrifice yourself for me. Even if we did get away, what sort of life would we have, always hiding, always on the run?\u201d Swallowing back his own tears, Joe continued. \u201cI need you to take care of Pa for me. He\u2019s going to need you after tomorrow. Promise me you\u2019ll be strong for him Hoss, promise me that.\u201d<\/p>\n Hoss nodded his head, but couldn\u2019t form the words.<\/p>\n \u201cNow how about a game of chequers? It might be your last time to beat me,\u201d Joe cajoled, but seeing the stricken look on his brother\u2019s face he tried to rescind the tactless comment, \u201cSorry Hoss, I guess that was a bad joke.\u201d<\/p>\n Shortly after Ben and Adam entered the jailhouse. Both men were lost in their own thoughts. How do they get through the next few hours? How do they say goodbye?<\/p>\n The cell was small and by the time the four men were inside there wasn\u2019t much room to move. As the hours passed conversation was stilted, they had so much they wanted to say to each other, but when it came to it they couldn\u2019t put their thoughts into words and found themselves talking trivia.<\/p>\n After a long period of silence Adam smiled over at Joe and said, \u201cHow about I get us a bottle of whisky, it would help us all relax a little?\u201d<\/p>\n Joe appreciated the offer but returning his brother\u2019s smile he answered, \u201cNo thanks, once was enough for me.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cOnce?\u201d asked Adam puzzled \u201cbut I thought you had developed quite a taste for the stuff over the last few months?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWho me?\u201d asked Joe \u201cNo way, that night was my first night of hitting the bottle and believe me it will be my last.\u201d<\/p>\n Silence once again followed as the irony of Joe\u2019s words hit home.<\/p>\n Adam\u2019s mind was ticking over; something just didn\u2019t add up, he had to get to the bottom of this. Walking over to Joe he pulled his brother to his feet and grabbed him in a rare embrace, before shouting to Roy to let him out.<\/p>\n \u201cThere\u2019s something I have to do Joe, but I promise I\u2019ll be back before\u2026. well just hang on kid, look after Pa and I\u2019ll be back before you know it.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben followed Adam out of the cell. \u201cWhere are you going Adam, your brother needs you here?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI know Pa, but you have to trust me on this. I\u2019ll be back as quick as I can.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben stared at Adam\u2019s retreating back and felt the sadness of his eldest. Maybe Adam couldn\u2019t face what was going to happen to his brother the following morning; none of them could. Over the years they had all depended on Adam\u2019s stalwart nature, but maybe this time they would have to find their own inner strength to get through the time ahead.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Top of Form<\/p>\n Bottom of Form<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Chapter 2<\/p>\n It took Adam several hours to arrive at the Grimes\u2019 house and he didn\u2019t expect to find anyone still awake. A single lamp shone through the kitchen window, but he could see no movement from inside.<\/p>\n Adam took a deep breath before walking up to the door and banging loudly. He could be wrong, he very probably was, but his brother\u2019s life was at stake and he was willing to take the chance of eating humble pie.<\/p>\n Harold Grimes opened the door a few inches and peered out at Adam.<\/p>\n \u201cWhat do you want here?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI just need to talk to you,\u201d Adam replied, at the same time putting his foot inside the door so that Grimes could not close it in his face.<\/p>\n Grimes stepped back and allowed Adam to enter. Mildred Grimes stood up from the kitchen table. Adam noticed the wary look on her face as she glanced from him to her husband.<\/p>\n \u201cYou shouldn\u2019t be here,\u201d she stated defensively, \u201cthe law says you aren\u2019t allowed to harass witnesses.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThe trial\u2019s over now Mrs Grimes and my brother has been convicted, so really that doesn\u2019t apply.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cIn that case, what do you want with us?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI want to know why you lied about my brother?\u201d Adam was on shaky ground, but he had to convince them he knew something.<\/p>\n \u201cLie, why should I lie?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cBecause your husband was having an affair with my brother\u2019s wife.\u201d That was it; the words were out of Adam\u2019s mouth. It was a long shot; now all he had to do was wait for their reaction.<\/p>\n Harold Grimes\u2019 jaw dropped and his mouth gaped in surprise. Looking away from his wife\u2019s hurt expression, he hung his head in shame. \u201cHow did you find out?\u201d he asked.<\/p>\n Adam let out the breath he was holding. So it was true, his hunch was right after all. He somehow couldn\u2019t see Christine and Mrs Grimes as friends, there had to be more to it and Harold Grimes had to be the connection.<\/p>\n \u201cWell your wife was lying about my brother, so she had to be protecting someone and that someone had to be you.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThat\u2019s where you\u2019re wrong Mr Cartwright, my wife never knew about Christine and me.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cShe had to know,\u201d Adam persisted, \u201cotherwise why would she lie about Christine coming to visit her?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThat wasn\u2019t a lie.\u201d Mildred stated simply.<\/p>\n Adam was confused. He knew Mildred was lying, but she would only do that to protect her husband, so why would she feel the need to protect him if she never knew of his affair?<\/p>\n Now that the secret was out, Harold Grimes felt the need to unburden himself.<\/p>\n \u201cI admit I was seeing Christine, but I finished it that night.\u201d He looked to his wife for understanding. \u201cI couldn\u2019t go on deceiving Mildred any longer so I told Christine it was over.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWhat did she do?\u201d asked Adam simply.<\/p>\n \u201cShe threatened to tell Mildred. I don\u2019t kid myself that she loved me, or even cared for me. To her I was an amusing distraction, but she liked to be in control. I stayed in town that night, well I\u2019ve stayed in town a lot of nights lately.\u201d He hung his head in shame.<\/p>\n \u201cSo that\u2019s why you killed her and got your wife to point the finger at my brother?\u201d<\/p>\n Harold\u2019s head shot up and he looked at Adam in horror. \u201cI never killed her! I\u2019m sorry Mr Cartwright I\u2019ve played my part in all of this, but I didn\u2019t kill Christine. Justice has been served on that score.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThen why did you lie Mrs Grimes?\u201d Adam asked turning towards Mildred.<\/p>\n \u201cMildred never lied!\u201d cried Harold \u201cChristine did visit her that night. I suppose when it came down to it Christine realised she had more to lose than I did, after all your brother was her meal ticket for life. I can only think that when she arrived at my house, she thought better of it and decided to pretend to Mildred that she was afraid of Joe.\u201d Harold stopped for breath before going on.\u201cIt was only when Mildred came to town the following morning and reported Joe to the sheriff that I realised that Christine had not told her of our affair.\u201d<\/p>\n Adam pondered over what Grimes said. \u201cBut if that\u2019s true, why did you lie Mrs Grimes?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI don\u2019t know what you mean,\u201d she bristled walking over to the other side of the room and turning her back on them so that they could not see her face.<\/p>\n \u201cWell you claimed that Christine complained that Joe was often drunk and abusive, when in actual fact Joe never touched a drop of whisky before that night.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cHa, I\u2019m sure that\u2019s what he claimed but it isn\u2019t true,\u201d she retorted.<\/p>\n \u201cMy brother has been completely truthful throughout all of this. He had no reason to lie. So why would you say that Christine was worried about Joe\u2019s drinking? Before that night she would have no reason to be worried?\u201d<\/p>\n Mildred Grimes was becoming very agitated; she walked backwards and forwards across the room.<\/p>\n Turning to Harold, Adam asked, \u201cDid Christine ever complain to you about Joe\u2019s drinking?\u201d<\/p>\n Harold shook his head. \u201cNo she never mentioned it. But if I\u2019m truthful, she never discussed Joe at all.\u201d<\/p>\n A realisation began to dawn in Adam\u2019s mind. \u201cI\u2019ve got this all wrong, haven\u2019t I? Someone must have gone to the house that night to have seen Joe drunk, and if it wasn\u2019t your husband, Mrs Grimes, then it must have been you!\u201d<\/p>\n Mildred Grimes stopped her pacing in front of the dresser. Without turning round she said,<\/p>\n \u201cThat woman did come to see me that night but not to tell me about Joe.\u201d She turned to her husband and in a scathing voice said, \u201cYou are pathetic, you allowed yourself to be taken in by that harlot. She told me all about the pair of you. Laughing behind my back, making a fool out of me.\u201d<\/p>\n Adam looked at the woman with pity; Christine had ruined so many lives. \u201cSo what did you do when she left Mrs Grimes?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWell, I thought two can play at that game. See how she would like it. I thought I would go and have a word with her husband and let him know what she was doing behind his back.<\/p>\n It was late when I got there and I banged on the door for ages but no one answered. I was so angry; I wasn\u2019t going to leave it there. So I pushed the door open and went in.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cAnd what did you find?\u201d Adam asked. Although he was sure he didn\u2019t want to know the answer. He had thought that Harold Grimes had killed Christine, but as the story was unfolding it was looking more and more as if Joe had killed his wife, and the only reason Mildred Grimes knew about his drinking was because she had been at the house shortly afterwards. So in some ways she had set out to protect her husband, but not from murder, as he had thought, but from the scandal of an affair.<\/p>\n \u201cI found your brother in a drunken stupor on the settee, and then I went into the bedroom.\u201d At this point Mrs Grimes had to stop to compose herself and Adam was afraid she wouldn\u2019t be able to continue. The sight that she would have seen that night would be enough to shock anyone. She must have arrived after Joe had killed Christine, but had decided to keep silent in order to protect her husband.<\/p>\n Harold Grimes was looking at his wife in utter disbelief, all of this was news to him, his wife had given him no reason to suspect that she knew the truth.<\/p>\n \u201cPlease continue Mrs Grimes.\u201d Adam requested.<\/p>\n \u201cWell she was there, lying naked on the bed.\u201d<\/p>\n Adam leaned back against the door; he could see his brother\u2019s life slipping away. He had tried. When he had rode out that evening he was so sure that Harold Grimes must be the guilty one, but he couldn\u2019t have been more wrong, he just had to look at the man\u2019s face to see that he was as shocked as Adam at his wife\u2019s revelations.<\/p>\n \u201cThen she woke up, and she sat there smiling at me, she wasn\u2019t even worried, the idea of me being there seemed to amuse her.\u201d<\/p>\n Adam tried to take in her words, \u201cYou mean she wasn\u2019t dead?\u201d he asked, as fresh hope came to him.<\/p>\n \u201cOf course she wasn\u2019t dead,\u201d replied Mildred. \u201cWell she didn\u2019t laugh for long, because when I turned round and saw the gun lying on the top of the chest of drawers, I knew I just had to wipe the smile off her face. And I did.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cYou killed her?\u201d Adam stated incredulously. This was the last thing he had expected.<\/p>\n Harold Grimes looked at his wife in utter disbelief. He just couldn\u2019t take in what he was hearing. \u201cMildred tell me it\u2019s not true; tell me you didn\u2019t kill her!\u201d<\/p>\n Mildred turned on her husband and her mouth turned down in scorn. \u201cYou weak fool. We had everything and you let that she-devil come between us. She came here crowing and laughing about all the times you spent together.\u201d<\/p>\n Adam diverted her attention back to him. \u201cYou were prepared to let my brother die, for something you had done?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cYour brother is as guilty as her. He brought that woman into the community and allowed her evil to spread.\u201d<\/p>\n Adam shook his head, \u201cNo, the only thing my brother is guilty of is his youth, naivety and inexperience. If she was able to corrupt your fine upstanding husband, what chance did my brother have?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWell that may be, but now I have another dilemma. You!\u201d Mildred reached into the dresser drawer and when she turned to face them she had a gun held between her two hands. \u201cI\u2019m sorry Mr Cartwright, but I have no choice. I will tell the sheriff that you came here and attacked me for testifying against your brother. He will have no reason not to believe me.\u201d<\/p>\n Harold Grimes was quick to move forward and place himself between Adam and Mildred.<\/p>\n \u201cI can\u2019t let you do this Mildred. One murder is bad enough, but I won\u2019t stand by and watch you kill again.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cGet out of my way Harold, you are just as much to blame for all of this. If you hadn\u2019t been so weak willed, none of this would have happened.\u201d<\/p>\n Harold moved towards his wife, \u201cGive me the gun Mildred.\u201d<\/p>\n Mildred tried to push past him and Harold grabbed for the gun. They grappled for several seconds before the gun went off and Harold watched in horror as his wife slid to the floor clutching her stomach.<\/p>\n As his wife died in his arms, Harold sobbed. \u201cWhy Mildred? You didn\u2019t have to do any of this. We could have worked it out somehow.\u201d<\/p>\n Adam did not have time to let the man grieve. \u201cCome on Grimes. I\u2019m sorry about your wife, but we must get back to town before it\u2019s too late.\u201d<\/p>\n Grimes looked up at Adam, he was still having difficulty comprehending what had just happened, \u201cToo late, too late for what?\u201d<\/p>\n With just a touch of bitterness Adam replied, \u201cTo save my brother from the hangman\u2019s noose.\u201d<\/p>\n **********************<\/p>\n Ben persuaded Hoss to return to the hotel to try and get a couple of hours sleep. Hoss was reluctant to leave Joe, but he could see that his father and brother needed a little time alone and so he gave Joe a quick hug and left the cell.<\/p>\n When they were finally alone Ben turned his warm chocolate eyes on his youngest and asked, \u201cIs there anything I can do for you son?\u201d<\/p>\n Joe looked up into the face of the man who gave him life and in a voice trembling with emotion he answered, \u201cJust hold me Pa.\u201d<\/p>\n Sitting down on the bed Ben\u2019s arms encircled Joe\u2019s slender body and the smaller man laid his tousled head on his father\u2019s shoulder. Listening to his son\u2019s muffled cries Ben\u2019s heart was breaking, but he would not allow himself to weaken. He would not shed a tear. He needed to remain strong for Joe; there was plenty of time for tears later. Oh yes, he would have a lifetime left for them.<\/p>\n Ben was in emotional turmoil. Deep down he didn\u2019t believe his son had committed murder, yet here he was sitting in this cell waiting for them to come and hang him. What sort of father was he? On the one hand he wanted to break his son out of there and take him to safety, but on the other hand it went against everything he believed in and had taught his sons. If Joe was guilty, Ben had no choice, Joe could not live outside the law he must be judged as all other men. But what if Joe was innocent? What then? How could he go on living knowing that he had done nothing to save him? There was irony in that thought, because Ben knew that once Joe fell through the trapdoor tomorrow, his own life might as well be ended.<\/p>\n As these thoughts tumbled around his head, Ben sat rubbing his son\u2019s back and stroking his head, much as he had done when Joe was a child. He was only brought out of his reverie when the sound of Joe\u2019s voice finally penetrated his subconscious.<\/p>\n \u201cPa\u201d Joe whispered for the third time.<\/p>\n \u201cYes son\u201d Ben answered shaking his head slightly in a futile attempt to clear his thoughts. Joe pulled free of his father\u2019s arms and sat up.<\/p>\n \u201cPa, I\u2019ve been thinking about everything that happened that night and I can\u2019t remember anything after I passed out. It just seems so terrible that I would do something like that and yet not even recall doing it.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben looked at his son\u2019s troubled face and reaching out he took hold of Joe\u2019s chin and tilted it upwards so he could look into his eyes, \u201cTill the day I die, I won\u2019t believe you did it Joe. It\u2019s not in you son, drunk or sober. Dear God, I just wish there was another explanation.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cBut I am guilty Pa.\u201d Joe said pulling free from Ben\u2019s grasp and turning away.<\/p>\n Ben was confused. \u201cBut you just said you had no recollection of that night Joe.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThat parts true Pa, I don\u2019t remember. But there have been so many times over the last few months when I have wished that Christine was dead. There were days I would go to work and pretend she didn\u2019t exist at all and that I was free again. So you see, what I\u2019m trying to say Pa is, I am guilty. I really do deserve to die.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben struggled to find the right words. \u201cWishing someone dead and killing them are two different things Joe. There are lots of reasons why in the heat of the moment you might wish someone dead, but that is not the same as pulling the trigger. Under the law you can\u2019t be punished for having bad thoughts.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThen the law is wrong Pa. Tell me, who you would consider the guilty one? The man who plans to kill someone, but when he carries out his plan the other person doesn\u2019t die, or the man that lashes out in temper and the other person dies even if he didn\u2019t mean to kill them.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben fell into the trap, \u201cObviously the person who intended to kill is the guilty one Joe.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cNot according to the law Pa. The person who hangs is the person who kills, whether that was their real intention or not. But as you have agreed Pa, in God\u2019s law, cause really he is the only one who can see inside and know what you are thinking, the guilty person is the one who wanted someone dead. So don\u2019t grieve for me pa, I am guilty, I wished Christine dead, whether or not I pulled the trigger is immaterial.\u201d<\/p>\n The more that Ben tried to reason with him, the more Joe closed his mind to his words and in the end the father gave up; there was no point to the discussion, they were going round in circles and Ben didn\u2019t want to argue with Joe, not now, not ever.<\/p>\n Eventually Joe stopped pacing the few feet up and down the cell and sat next to his father on the bed once more. Ben leaned back against the wall and encouraged Joe to lie down and rest. Joe desperately needed the physical contact his father could provide and it wasn\u2019t long before he rested his head in his father\u2019s lap and Ben\u2019s arms wrapped protectively round him.<\/p>\n As the night dragged on Ben sat stiff and uncomfortable in the same position, but he wouldn\u2019t have moved if wild horses had tried to drag him. Joe was quiet but not sleeping and every so often Ben could feel his body shudder involuntarily. Just as Ben started to dose, Joe asked in a voice filled with sadness.<\/p>\n \u201cWhat\u2019s it like to hang Pa?\u201d<\/p>\n Ben squeezed his eyes tight shut, in a vain attempt to blot out the pain. How could he answer such a question? Did Joe even want an answer? Sending up a silent prayer, Ben prayed for the strength to get through the next few hours. After that he didn\u2019t care, but he needed to be there for his son until the end.<\/p>\n When dawn finally broke, both men stood up from the bed and stretched to get the kinks from their tired and stiff muscles. Sometime during the night Hoss had arrived back at the jailhouse and sat outside the cell keeping silent vigil over his family.<\/p>\n \u201cWould you like a coffee son?\u201d Ben asked.<\/p>\n Joe shook his head. His stomach was in knots and he was having difficulty keeping his emotions in check.<\/p>\n Roy appeared looking every bit as bad as they felt. He could not look them in the eye. These people were not just friends; they were the nearest thing to family that Roy possessed. When all this was over, Roy had decided to retire. What sort of job required a man to take part in the hanging of his best friend\u2019s son?<\/p>\n Opening the cell door, Roy entered and gave Ben a sympathetic nod. Hoss followed behind and sidled over to his family. Ben looked at him questioningly, but Hoss shook his head; Adam had not returned.<\/p>\n Now that the moment had come Roy just wanted to get it over with, the longer he delayed things the worse it was for all of them. \u201cI\u2019m sorry son\u201d he said, \u201cbut I\u2019m going to have to put the cuffs on.\u201d Ben opened his mouth to protest, but Roy persisted.<\/p>\n \u201cBen you know if I had my way it would be different, but I have no choice.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe placed his hands behind his back and allowed Roy to put the cuffs on without fuss. He could see how the man was suffering and he didn\u2019t want to add to his troubles.<\/p>\n As he was led from his cell and into the bitter cold morning air, Joe did not feel the chill, but his body still trembled. His senses were numb to the weather, but the fear building inside of him could not be subdued. With his hands cuffed behind him he had not had time to embrace his father and brother for the last time and the thought panicked him. Joe tried several times to ask Roy to give him a few more minutes, but Roy did not appear to be listening.<\/p>\n A lump formed in Joe\u2019s throat as he looked around and realised his eldest brother was not there to greet him. He didn\u2019t blame Adam; he had no doubt of his brother\u2019s love for him. Perhaps over the years they had expected too much of old granite head and maybe for once this was something he could not bear to face.<\/p>\n Even though it was bitterly cold, the glare of the sun made it hard for Joe to focus. Just before he was led up the steps to the gallows Ben and Hoss stepped forward and grasped him in a desperate hug. Joe so wanted to wrap his arms round his family, but was helpless to do so, and that thought troubled him more than what was to come.<\/p>\n Ben could feel the tremors running through Joe\u2019s body, and even though he wanted to fall to the ground himself and scream out the injustice of it all, his resolve was strong. He looked Joe in the eye and gave a slight smile, \u201cI\u2019ll be with you son, always, I love you.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe nodded and blinked back his own tears. As long as he could look and focus on those loving eyes he would get through this. His father\u2019s strength passed into him and as he walked up the steps his eyes never left Ben.<\/p>\n The hangman came forward and placed the noose around Joe\u2019s neck, tightening the knot as he did so. Removing a black hood from his belt the man then attempted to put it over Joe\u2019s head, but Joe shook him away. He needed to be able to look into his father\u2019s eyes; he needed his Pa\u2019s strength.<\/p>\n Joe tried to keep his mind blank, he didn\u2019t want to think of what it would be like to hang, to feel the life being choked out of him. All he wanted was to drown in the pools of those chocolate orbs looking at him with pride, compassion and never ending love.<\/p>\n The seconds ticked by and the crowd surrounding the gallows had lapsed into an uneasy silence waiting for the final curtain to fall. Hoss had retreated to the side of the jail for there was no way he could watch his brother\u2019s end. For once the big man did not have his father\u2019s strength and he did not want his baby brother to see him as he sobbed unashamedly.<\/p>\n Hanging was an exact profession. An experienced hangman would take the weight and height of the intended victim into consideration when planning an execution. He would carefully place the knot of the manila hemp rope just below the left ear in order to facilitate the victim to be rendered unconscious as quickly as possible. This would hopefully be followed by a speedy breaking of the neck.<\/p>\n But John Turner was not an experienced executioner; this was only his third hanging. Joe was not a heavy man, he was slight of stature, and Turner failed to take this into consideration when he commissioned the building of the gallows and so things did not go to plan.<\/p>\n When the trap door was released a gasp went up from the assembled masses and Ben finally closed his eyes, no longer wishing to see the spectacle before him. This was just as well, because the sight of his youngest son\u2019s body contorting in agony would have been too much for any father to bear.<\/p>\n Once the platform beneath his feet was released and he found himself in mid air, Joe\u2019s brain began to explode. The rope jerked on his neck and slowly began to strangle the life out of him. This was not meant to happen, he had been told that when a man was hanged he became unconscious almost immediately. Joe\u2019s body danced a pathetic jig as he writhed in misery, before the blackness eventually came and he finally dangled limply from the rope. Just before the last breath left his body he vaguely thought he heard his eldest brother\u2019s voice calling out \u201cStop! He\u2019s innocent!\u201d<\/p>\n **********************<\/p>\n Adam Cartwright and Harold Grimes came riding into Virginia City, just after dawn, at a pace that would have been considered extremely reckless. As they turned the corner at the bottom of the street Adam screamed out in terror as he witnessed the trapdoor below his brother\u2019s feet open.<\/p>\n By the time Adam jumped from his horse and ran up the steps of the gallows his brother\u2019s body, which had been convulsing only a moment before, had gone limp. Cutting him down as quickly as he could he called for the doctor as he pulled the rope from around Joe\u2019s neck and tried in vain to find a pulse. Adam\u2019s hands trembled so much he couldn\u2019t stop them shaking long enough to gauge whether his brother was still living or not.<\/p>\n As Harold Grimes told his story for all to hear, Paul Martin crouched down next to Adam and placed his fingers on Joe\u2019s neck. Several agonising seconds passed before he said,<\/p>\n \u201cThank God, he has a pulse, but it\u2019s only very faint. Carry him to my office and, with God\u2019s help, we may prevent another tragedy happening this day.\u201d<\/p>\n A shocked and bemused Ben and Hoss could hardly believe the turn of events. Ben had mentally said goodbye to his son and now here he was lying in front of him barely breathing, but nevertheless alive, and Harold Grimes was shouting to anyone that would listen that Joe was innocent.<\/p>\n Shaken out of his distress, Hoss lifted Joe with ease and carried him to the doctor\u2019s office. The crowd parted in silence to let them through; Joe was a popular young man in Virginia City and the miscarriage of justice hung guiltily over them all.<\/p>\n Hoss laid Joe down on Paul Martin\u2019s table and then stood back to give the doctor access. The doc assessed the situation as best he could, but he didn\u2019t give out much hope for Joe\u2019s chances. He was barely breathing and already his neck was beginning to swell.<\/p>\n \u201cWhat can we do to help?\u201d asked Ben, needing to do something but not quite knowing what. Paul looked at him with a heavy heart.<\/p>\n \u201cFirst off we need to get some towels, fill them with ice and hold it on his neck to try to stop the swelling, after that I really don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n Adam rushed off to fetch ice and Hoss gathered towels as Paul checked Joe\u2019s vital signs once again. The ice was placed in the towels and gently wrapped round Joe\u2019s neck. They all stood back and waited, not knowing what to expect.<\/p>\n With the initial panic over Ben was able to stop and look at his young son properly, for the first time since he had been cut down. Even though unconscious, Joe\u2019s handsome face was still contorted in an ugly grimace of pain and his swollen tongue hung from his open mouth. Almost afraid to touch his head in case he did unseen damage, Ben asked the same question once again, \u201cIs he going to be alright?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI\u2019m not going to lie to you Ben,\u201d Paul replied with a shake of his head, \u201cI have heard of instances where men have been wrongly hanged by lynch mobs and the like, and they have been cut down and survived, but in all fairness there are not that many on which I can really base an opinion. There is just so much that can go wrong.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWhat sort of things Paul?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWell mainly respiratory complications. If the swelling continues it may cut off his air supply and if that happens there\u2019s really not much I can do.\u201d<\/p>\n Adam interrupted, the desperation showing in his voice, \u201cBut I\u2019ve read somewhere about a procedure whereby you can cut into a person\u2019s throat and insert a tube to allow them to breathe that way.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThat\u2019s right Adam, there is such a procedure, it\u2019s called a tracheotomy, but I have only ever carried out the operation once. It was on a little girl suffering from diphtheria.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWhat happened to her Paul?\u201d asked Ben.<\/p>\n \u201cShe died,\u201d Paul replied sadly. \u201cPerhaps she would have died whether I did the operation or not, but the fact of the matter is, she died during the procedure.\u201d<\/p>\n Adam looked at his brother lying helpless on the bed and began to feel a sense of dread. What if all his efforts had been in vain and Joe died without ever knowing he was innocent of such a heinous crime?<\/p>\n \u201cWhat else do we need to watch out for Paul?\u201d asked Ben once more. He would rather not hear, but at the same time they needed to know what they were facing.<\/p>\n \u201cThere are just so many things that could go wrong. In near strangulation, pneumonia is very common and who knows what damage could have been done due to lack of oxygen. I\u2019m sorry Ben, but I\u2019m afraid the list goes on and on.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben swallowed the sob that rose in his throat. He grasped Joe\u2019s hand in his and stroked it lovingly, \u201cSo you think there will be permanent damage?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cOh Ben, if only I had a crystal ball. All I can tell you is that he is not out of the woods. He may well make a full recovery, but on the other hand he may die within the next hour. I have no way of knowing.\u201d<\/p>\n As they talked in whispers it became apparent that Joe\u2019s breathing was becoming laboured.<\/p>\n \u201cDoc, I know you said you don\u2019t want to perform a tracheotomy, but what if Joe stops breathing? What if his throat continues to swell to the point he cannot breath? What will you do then?\u201d<\/p>\n Paul Martin looked at the anxious faces around him and shook his head. \u201cI\u2019m sorry Adam, but that is not a procedure I would like to attempt again. Joe could very easily die.\u201d<\/p>\n Hoss had stood silent up to now but he could contain himself no longer. \u201cBut Doc, if Joe stops breathing he\u2019s gonna die anyway, you just gotta try and save him.\u201d<\/p>\n Hoss of course was right, and when Paul glanced at his patient and heard the raspy intermittent breaths he was taking, he knew that he would likely have to face the decision sooner rather than later. Joe\u2019s breathing, or lack of it, was beginning to alarm them all and three pairs of frightened eyes focused on Paul Martin. He needed to act and quickly.<\/p>\n \u201cOkay,\u201d he said, no longer able to avoid the inevitable. \u201cTime is running out, let\u2019s be prepared. First off I need a sharp instrument to make the incision. Adam could you get a scalpel from my tray? And Hoss prepare some boiling water, I want to make sure that everything is scrupulously clean.\u201d<\/p>\n Adam and Hoss immediately set off to do his bidding. Ben hovered helplessly, still holding onto Joe\u2019s hand as if his life, and that of his son\u2019s, depended on the physical contact. Doc Martin looked round his surgery in search for something that could be used for insertion into Joe\u2019s throat. Paul discarded many items before he came across a small silver tube about four inches long. \u201cPerfect,\u201d he declared.<\/p>\n Less than two minutes had passed and the water hadn\u2019t had time to boil, when all thoughts of sterilisation were thrown to one side. Silence filled the room and each of them held their own breath and listened. Joe\u2019s raspy breathing had stopped and when they looked as his face it was turning blue. Paul may have been nervous before, but now that the crisis had arisen his professional demeanour took over and he took charge of the situation. Pushing Ben to one side he tilted Joe\u2019s head backwards. With steady hands he traced a finger down Joe\u2019s neck to find the indentation between the Adam\u2019s apple and Cricoid cartilage. He paused but a second before inserting the scalpel into the neck and making a half-inch incision about one inch deep. Putting his finger into the wound he opened it enough to allow the tube to be inserted. When the tube was in place the Doc placed his mouth over it and gave two quick breaths. The family watched in morbid fascination as Joe\u2019s chest rose and fell. Paul Martin did this several times and then breathed a sigh of relief as Joe continued to breathe on his own.<\/p>\n Paul felt his energy deplete as the crisis passed. He smiled wanly at Ben and said, \u201cLooks like we\u2019ve won the first round.\u201d The colour was beginning to return to Joe\u2019s skin and the slight whooshing sound of the air as it was drawn into the tube was reassuring.<\/p>\n There was not much blood and Doc Martin wiped Joe clean before wrapping bandages round his neck to secure the tracheotomy tube in place. He did not know how long the swelling would take to go down and until that time the tube would need to stay inserted.<\/p>\n Ben tried to thank him but Paul brushed him off saying he was only doing his job.<\/p>\n \u201cNow how about giving me a hand to get him cleaned up and comfortable Ben,\u201d Paul asked, sensing Ben\u2019s need to be wanted.<\/p>\n Both men lifted Joe gently and stripped him of his soiled clothing. It was a common occurrence in cases of hanging for the victim to lose control of their bowls. They used the water that had been boiled to wash and clean him before wrapping him in warm blankets and lying him back down on the bed.<\/p>\n Just as they were finishing their task Joe began to regain consciousness. The pain of his neck and throat was excruciating and he had to be restrained as he instinctively went to pull the tube away.<\/p>\n Ben\u2019s efforts to soothe him were futile. \u201cTake it easy Joe, you\u2019re going to be all right. I\u2019m sorry son, but the tube must remain in place in order for you to breathe.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe\u2019s frightened eyes focused on his father, but his mind screamed out in terror. He wasn\u2019t in the doctor\u2019s surgery, he was still dangling from a rope that was slowly strangling the life out of him and he had to get away. A silent scream came from his mouth as he continued to fight his father and the doctor in an attempt to get away from the nightmare. Paul Martin called Hoss and Adam back into the room to help them. Joe was becoming extremely upset and Paul saw no alternative; he would have to administer a sedative or Joe was going to hurt himself further.<\/p>\n It took Ben and his elder sons all their strength to restrain Joe as the doctor plunged the needle into his arm. Seconds later Joe\u2019s body went limp as he spiralled back into oblivion.<\/p>\n **********************<\/p>\n Paul advised the family to get some rest; it was going to be a stressful and tiring few days and weeks. He offered to take the first watch and sit with Joe, but he could tell by their reaction that he was wasting his breath.<\/p>\n \u201cWell you three can sit in those uncomfortable chairs all night if you wish, but I\u2019m off to bed. I will only be upstairs, so if there is a problem call me.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben, Hoss and Adam settled down as best they could but the hours passed slowly. The brothers worried not only for their young sibling but also for their father. Ben had aged ten years over the last week and the \u2018laughter\u2019 lines on his face were now forming deep crevices into his skin.<\/p>\n As morning began to break, Adam persuaded his father and Hoss to go over to the hotel to freshen up and bring back something to eat. Ben had put up a fuss, but as Adam pointed out, if he carried on the way he was he would be in no fit state to take care of Joe in the weeks ahead.<\/p>\n Adam was dozing in the chair once more when he felt as if someone was watching him. He struggled to open his eyes, and when he did so, he saw Joe\u2019s bewildered eyes gazing back at him. Immediately going to Joe\u2019s side he soothed, \u201cIt\u2019s okay Joe, you\u2019re going to be all right.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe blinked and a lone tear ran from his eye and down his face. Adam wiped the tear away gently and wished his father were there. How much should he tell him? Joe\u2019s last conscious thought was that of dangling from a hangman\u2019s noose, it was understandable he would be frightened and confused.<\/p>\n Taking a wet cloth from the basin next to the bed Adam wiped Joe\u2019s face and tried to find the right words.<\/p>\n \u201cYou never killed Christine Joe, it was Mildred Grimes.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe\u2019s eyes widened in disbelief and he tried to talk. When he was unable to do so, he reached up to remove the obstruction from his neck. Adam took hold of Joe\u2019s hand and held it tight to prevent him from pulling at the tube.<\/p>\n \u201cYou couldn\u2019t breathe Joe,\u201d he began. Then forcing himself to continue he said \u201cafter the hanging your throat swelled up and the doc had to perform an operation to get air into your lungs. There\u2019s a small tube in your throat and it\u2019s got to stay there until the swelling goes down.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe\u2019s face registered panic and Adam was quick to continue. \u201cIt\u2019s only for a little while Joe and then you\u2019ll be breathing on your own. The doc will take the tube out and put in a stitch and within a few days you\u2019ll be as good as new.\u201d<\/p>\n If Adam could have taken the words back he would. How could Joe ever be as good as new? He himself would never get over the sight of his brother\u2019s body convulsing at the end of that rope, it would probably give him nightmares for the rest of his life, so what lasting effect was it going to have on Joe?<\/p>\n Before Adam could say anymore, Ben, Hoss and the doctor entered the room. Seeing that Joe was awake Ben rushed to his side. As his father stroked his head, some of the tension left Joe\u2019s face, and the doctor began to make his examination.<\/p>\n \u201cWell the swelling is going down nicely,\u201d he muttered, as he gently felt Joe\u2019s neck and looked into his mouth. \u201cI think we\u2019ll leave the tube in a little while longer, but I\u2019m sure I\u2019ll be able to take it out before the day is out.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe looked at the faces peering at him so earnestly and his eyes sent out a silent message. He wanted an explanation. He needed to know everything.<\/p>\n Unsure whether Joe was physically up to hearing all the facts at this point in time, Ben looked to the doctor for guidance. The doc nodded that he was happy for Ben to continue and upon receiving the go ahead, Ben pulled up a chair and sat down so that his face was level with his son. Taking hold of Joe\u2019s hand he looked over at Adam to begin the tail, after all he was the one responsible for saving his brother\u2019s life.<\/p>\n Many times during the telling, the family became concerned for Joe\u2019s welfare as he registered shock and disbelief, especially at being informed of Christine\u2019s indiscretion with Harold Grimes.<\/p>\n Joe would never have guessed that the respectable Mr Grimes had been the \u2018other man\u2019 in Christine\u2019s life. But it was the revelation of Mrs Grimes as the killer and her own unfortunate demise that caused Joe the most concern. That woman, the same one that he had grown up believing to be the very pillar of society, had stood in court and, by her very own words, had condemned him to death. Why? What had he ever done to her? Joe was shocked to the core, the foundation on which he had been raised was beginning to crumble and, with nothing to replace it, he felt as if he was drowning, but this time there was no one there to save him.<\/p>\n Unable to eat or drink Joe felt thoroughly miserable as the pain in his throat continued to throb and so the doctor felt it best to keep him sedated for much of that day. It was almost nightfall when Paul Martin began to unwrap the bandages in preparation for removing the tube.<\/p>\n Adam held the lamp as Paul went to work. As the last of the bandages fell to the floor the family tried hard not to grimace with revulsion as they looked at Joe\u2019s neck. The rope had left severe burn marks that were now blistered and red. The surrounding area was already turning black and blue and it was no surprise to them that Joe was in such dreadful pain. The sick feelings they had were not so much at the sight of his injuries but more the revulsion they felt as to how those injuries had been inflicted.<\/p>\n Hoss placed restraining hands on Joe\u2019s shoulders as Ben stood behind and held his head steady. Whispering soothing words into Joe\u2019s ear Ben pleaded for him to remain still. Doc Martin slowly began to withdraw the tube, taking care to be as gentle as possible. Joe tried to stay composed, but the memories were all too fresh and as his air supply was cut off, Joe began to struggle and claw at the hands that held him. Ben was no longer able to hold his head still and there was every chance that Joe would hurt himself. Seeing the situation getting out of hand the doctor\u2019s powerful voice boomed out above everyone else\u2019s.<\/p>\n \u201cCalm down Joe and try to breathe normally,\u201d he barked.<\/p>\n The shock of hearing the normally unruffled doctor raise his voice, instantly subdued Joe and he took his first normal breath in almost two days. Each breath was extremely painful and it was almost impossible for him to swallow, but he was breathing on his own without aid and the first hill on his road to recovery had been climbed.<\/p>\n Wasting no time Doc Martin quickly put a stitch into the opening left by the tube and redressed Joe\u2019s injured neck. Paul smiled reassuringly at Ben; he was beginning to feel positive about his patient\u2019s recovery, but he was anxious not to get his friend\u2019s hopes up, it was still too early to tell.<\/p>\n Paul Martin had been right not to be too optimistic, because over the next few days Joe\u2019s life hung in the balance several times. Just when they thought he was making good progress he would develop an infection that would set him back and the worry would start all over again.<\/p>\n As the days passed the family soon found they had something else to worry about; Joe\u2019s inability to speak. At first the doctor put it down to the swelling and bruising to his throat, but as these injuries started to heal, and Joe was still not able to utter a single word, it became obvious that things were more serious than was first thought.<\/p>\n A worried family and doctor congregated in the adjoining room as Joe slept.<\/p>\n \u201cWhat do you think Paul, is he ever likely to get his voice back?\u201d asked Ben, trying hard to whisper so as not to disturb Joe, but only succeeding in deepening his voice even more.<\/p>\n Paul looked around at the expectant faces, wishing, not for the first time, that he had the power to answer their prayers. \u201cI don\u2019t know the answer Ben. His larynx is damaged and only time will tell if it will fully heal.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben\u2019s shoulders sagged and he looked dejected; he had hoped the doctor would have been able to give him better news. \u201cI suppose it was asking too much for there not to be some lasting damage from the hanging.\u201d<\/p>\n Paul Martin paused for a second; it would be so easy to let his good friend believe that that was the cause. \u201cActually Ben the harm was most likely to have happened when I performed the tracheotomy. As I said at the time I have only ever done the procedure once before.\u201d Paul Martin looked at the stricken faces before him, \u201cI\u2019m so sorry.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben quickly regained his composure, \u201cYou have nothing to be sorry for Paul. If it were not for you, Joseph would be dead. There is no doubt in any of our minds that performing the tracheotomy saved his life.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cBut at what cost?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cYou can\u2019t put a price on life Paul. He\u2019s alive and that\u2019s what matters most,\u201d Ben was quick to respond.<\/p>\n \u201cI wonder if Joe will see it that way?\u201d Paul replied looking from one to the other.<\/p>\n An uneasy silence followed. It didn\u2019t take a doctor to tell them that Joe\u2019s spirits were at their lowest ebb. Joe struggled to eat and swallow and was still in constant pain. Unable to express himself vocally he became frustrated with those around him as well as himself and retreated into his own world.<\/p>\n Joe lay in the next room with his eyes closed pretending to sleep. He listened to the whispered voices and knew that he was the topic of their discussion. Everyone was kind and supportive and reassuring him that his voice would return, but he didn\u2019t have their confidence. Any attempt he had made to speak reduced him to a fit of coughing, which left him breathless and in agony.<\/p>\n Ben returned to the room to check on his youngest. Walking over to the bed he gazed down at his son for what seemed an eternity, trying to think of a way to reach him. Joe tried not to move as he felt his father\u2019s fingers trace a path down his face. He longed to sit up and throw himself into his Pa\u2019s open arms and pour out his sorrow, but he couldn\u2019t. The loss of his voice had taken away his ability to communicate and with that he began to withdraw from the outside world in an act of self-preservation. It was easier to bear what had happened to him if he didn\u2019t have to deal with other people. As Joe\u2019s depression was deepening it became easier for him not to try and speak at all and so as the days went by Joe retreated into his silent world.<\/p>\n Adam waited a minute before entering the room. Looking over towards the bed he felt a knot in his stomach as he witnessed the scene before him. Meeting his father\u2019s gaze he raised an eyebrow in question. Ben shook his head and with a heavy sigh, both men left the room. \u201cIs he sleeping?\u201d asked Adam.<\/p>\n \u201cNo,\u201d replied Ben. \u201cHe\u2019s trying to make me think he is, but I can tell. He\u2019s bottling everything up inside, I just wish he would talk to me.\u201d<\/p>\n It took a moment for the words to sink in then Ben sat down and buried his head in his hands. \u201cI can\u2019t believe I just said that. How am I ever going to get through to him?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cJust give him time Pa. If Paul thinks its okay, maybe we should take him home and I\u2019m sure that will aid his recovery.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cLet\u2019s hope so son, let\u2019s hope so.\u201d<\/p>\n **********************<\/p>\n The following morning Hoss arrived outside the doctor\u2019s office with a buckboard and the family prepared to leave. Although still weak, Joe dressed and walked unaided into the street. Climbing into the buckboard he made a point of not looking at the faces of the people passing by, but instead fixed his eyes on the road ahead.<\/p>\n Many people over the last week had stopped the family as they went in and out of the doctor\u2019s office to ask how Joe was faring. The whole town was anxious to make amends to the innocent young man who had almost lost his life. Unfortunately Joe was not in a fit state of mind to accept that people cared. All he could think was that they were now aware of what a fool he had been and he just wished to get back to the Ponderosa as quickly as possible away from their prying eyes.<\/p>\n Joe had been living as a married man for the best part of a year and the failure of his marriage and the murder of his wife dominated his thoughts on the ride home. When they eventually pulled up outside of the ranch house, Joe sat on the buckboard staring straight ahead unable to shake the memories from his mind. In many ways he was back to square one, he would be living in his father\u2019s house and under his rules once more, but his life could never be the same and he wondered if returning home would prove to be a big mistake. He could not turn back the clock and things could never be the same again, but what would his future be now? Unable to speak he was left with a disability that seemed impossible to overcome.<\/p>\n Over the next few weeks Joe\u2019s strength returned and he was able to resume most of his normal chores. He even began to take an active part in breaking the horses once more, but the transition back into ranch life was proving a lot more difficult for him than anyone realised. His inability to converse with those around him was making him withdrawn and unresponsive and his depression deepened as each day went by.<\/p>\n Often Ben, unable to sleep himself, went into his son\u2019s room to find him tossing and turning in his slumber. It didn\u2019t take a father\u2019s intuition to comprehend that the horror of being hanged disturbed his son\u2019s dreams at night and left him feeling tired and fretful during the day. In years gone by Joe\u2019s screams had often broken the silence of the Ponderosa, bringing his Pa and brothers\u2019 rushing to his room, but these days his mouth opened but no sound ever emerged.<\/p>\n Paul Martin still continued to visit his patient but it was more out of friendly compassion than necessity. As far as the doctor was concerned, Joe had healed physically as good as new and it was only Joe\u2019s mental state that was preventing him from speaking.<\/p>\n \u201cJoe you have to try boy,\u201d the doctor cajoled. \u201cYour throat is all healed and I\u2019m sure if you at least made some attempt your voice would come back to you. It may be painful at first, but that\u2019s to be expected.\u201d<\/p>\n Doc Martin was wasting his breath; Joe was not listening to him. As Dr Martin continued speaking, Joe sat subdued and subconsciously rubbed his hand over his throat and neck, letting his fingers linger on the small scar caused by his tracheotomy. Life was much easier for him to bear if he didn\u2019t have to deal with the outside world.<\/p>\n Without even indicating his intentions, Joe stood up and walked out of the door as the doctor looked on in exasperation. Ben, Adam and Hoss were just entering the room and he ignored their calls as to what had transpired between him and the doctor.<\/p>\n \u201cHow is he Paul?\u201d asked Ben as he walked over to the fireplace.<\/p>\n \u201cAs far as I can tell he is all healed physically Ben.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThen why can\u2019t he speak?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI don\u2019t think it\u2019s that he can\u2019t speak, as much as he doesn\u2019t want to,\u201d Paul replied.<\/p>\n \u201cWhat do you mean?\u201d Ben asked, registering the concern and confusion they were all feeling.<\/p>\n \u201cI don\u2019t think Joe is ready to face all that has happened to him,\u201d Paul began, trying to gauge the family\u2019s reaction. \u201cIf he is to recover he is going to have to face his demons and beat them.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cHow can we help him Paul?\u201d asked Adam. His patience had run out. He didn\u2019t know how to deal with his younger brother anymore. Much as he sympathised with all that Joe had been through, he wanted things back to normal. He wanted to hear his brother\u2019s voice once again, but most of all he wanted to see Joe laughing, he wanted to hear that high-pitched giggle resounding through the house.<\/p>\n \u201cWe\u2019re trying real hard with him Paul. Just none of us knows what to do,\u201d Hoss added. In many ways he missed his brother\u2019s companionship most of all.<\/p>\n \u201cMaybe that\u2019s the crux of the matter,\u201d the doctor responded. \u201cYou are all treading too softly. As long as you keep doing things for him and making it easy for him, he has no need to try.\u201d With those words of wisdom the doctor bidded the family \u201cgood day\u201d and returned to Virginia City.<\/p>\n That night the family sat round the table having supper when Adam decided to take matters into his own hands. He tried to catch his father\u2019s eye in order to let him know what he was up to, but Ben\u2019s eyes were focused on Joe. Adam was not known for his tactfulness when dealing with his youngest sibling and so he jumped in with both feet.<\/p>\n \u201cWhat\u2019s going on with you Joe? The doc reckons your throat is all healed and there\u2019s no reason why you shouldn\u2019t be talking,\u201d Adam began.<\/p>\n Completely ignoring Adam\u2019s words Joe continued to eat slowly, pushing the food from one part of his plate to another. As Adam made to speak again, Ben shot him a warning look, he didn\u2019t want Joe upset, but Adam was on a mission and decided to ignore his father\u2019s glance.<\/p>\n \u201cDon\u2019t you think this has gone on long enough Joe? Isn\u2019t it about time you faced up to what happened and got on with your life?\u201d<\/p>\n Joe stopped the pretence of eating and stood up. Adam was satisfied that he was at least getting some response from his brother; if nothing else it proved he was listening. Adam was not prepared to allow his brother to get away that easily and as Joe took a couple of steps towards the stairs, Adam moved forward and blocked his way, preventing him from leaving the room.<\/p>\n \u201cRunning away again Joe? You are still the little boy aren\u2019t you? Think that if you stop speaking and hide away you won\u2019t have to deal with real problems.\u201d<\/p>\n Just for a second Joe\u2019s eyes flashed in Adam\u2019s direction. Adam was thrilled to see that he was actually getting through to Joe and he decided to push him as far as he could, after all he couldn\u2019t make things any worse than they were.<\/p>\n \u201cNo wonder Christine found it necessary to go out and find someone else. What she needed was a real man and you weren\u2019t up to the job.\u201d<\/p>\n Even Adam was not prepared for the speed of Joe\u2019s response. In just a split second Joe\u2019s fist swung out and landed full force in his brother\u2019s face. At the same time a gruff and hoarse voice shouted, \u201cDamn you to hell Adam!\u201d<\/p>\n Adam was knocked completely off his feet, but before his body had hit the floor, Joe had rushed from the house and slammed the door behind him.<\/p>\n Hoss and Ben stood incredulous as they looked after Joe\u2019s retreating back. Pulling himself onto his feet, Adam rubbed his aching chin,<\/p>\n \u201cBoy, that kid can sure pack a powerful punch. I must be an absolute masochist.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben was relieved and grateful to Adam for helping to pull Joe out of his apathy, even if he didn\u2019t fully agree with his methods, but he was still worried about Joe\u2019s state of mind.<\/p>\n \u201cI\u2019d better go after him,\u201d he stated simply. The nights were still cold and Ben donned his own jacket and grabbed Joe\u2019s before leaving the house.<\/p>\n Walking into the yard Ben scanned the area before his eyes rested on his youngest son standing over by the corral. The cold wind bit into him and he stopped for a second to button his jacket before making his way over to Joe.<\/p>\n Joe stood hunched over, breathing rapidly, and it was obvious he was trying to gain control of his emotions. He wanted to smash his brother\u2019s face in. How could Adam say those things? His reaction to his brother\u2019s accusation had been automatic and it was only now that his own angry retaliation echoed in his head. Had he really spoken? With the realisation that he had, his spirits lifted and his anger dissolved. Sometimes he could be really dumb, but of course, he should have realised. Adam had planned it all, his smart-ass older brother once again had found the answer to the problem that no one else could. Joe had despaired of ever talking again. He had tried, at first every day he had tried, but as his depression had deepened so had his resolve, and as time passed he had resigned himself to a world of silence. With his own lack of communication had come a disinterest in the conversations taking place around him.<\/p>\n Joe did not realise his father had approached until he felt his jacket been placed around his shoulders. At first he was startled by the intrusion and jumped as his peace was disturbed. Glancing at his father for a second before turning away he said in a slightly husky voice, \u201cI\u2019m sorry about what happened Pa.\u201d<\/p>\n It had been weeks since Ben had heard his son\u2019s voice and just the sound of it made him catch his breath. It sounded strange and maybe a little rusty but it was still like music to Ben\u2019s ears.<\/p>\n \u201cIt\u2019s okay son. You do know your brother never meant any of those things he said don\u2019t you?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cYeh Pa I know, well I do now, but just for a second there I felt like beating the hell out of him. Sorry Pa, didn\u2019t mean to cuss,\u201d Joe lowered his eyes before adding, \u201cGuess I\u2019ve been a right pain to live with these last few weeks.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cMaybe just a little,\u201d Ben replied, unable to wipe the smile from his face.<\/p>\n Once Joe had found his voice again the words flowed from him and father and son stood talking long into the night, shivering slightly as the temperature continued to drop. Joe was still very troubled and was reluctant to return to the house no matter how hard Ben tried to convince him they would be more comfortable. It was easier for Joe to talk in the darkness where his father could not see his face; that way he was better able to hide his shame.<\/p>\n Ben was determined before the night was over he would get his son to unburden himself, as it was still apparent Joe accepted sole responsibility for what happened to Christine. Eventually Ben was able to steer the conversation in the direction Joe was trying to avoid.<\/p>\n \u201cJoe I know you don\u2019t want to talk about it, but you have to realise, none of what happened was your fault. You were the innocent party in all of this, there is no reason to go on punishing yourself.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe turned tortured eyes on his father. \u201cBut that\u2019s where you\u2019re wrong Pa. I am guilty, I know it and you know it.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben tried to make sense of Joe\u2019s words. \u201cHow can you be guilty Joe? It was Christine that had the affair that started all of this and it was Mildred Grimes that committed murder. Where is your guilt?\u201d<\/p>\n Joe turned away and leaned forward on the fence, placing his head on his arms. \u201cYou can\u2019t have forgotten the conversation we had in the jail Pa. You know, the night before the h-h-hanging.\u201d Joe\u2019s voice faltered as the words were finally spoken.<\/p>\n \u201cI remember son, but I still don\u2019t know why you feel you are to blame?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWe discussed it and you agreed Pa. The real guilt lies with the person who intended to kill, not with the person who didn\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cBut that is where you are wrong Joe. I said the real guilt lies with the person who attempted to kill someone, whether they succeeded or not.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThat\u2019s just what I mean Pa. I am guilty, I wished Christine dead.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben put a comforting arm over Joe\u2019s shoulder and squeezed it gently.<\/p>\n \u201cBut the big difference son, is that you only thought about it. You never, and would never, have put those thoughts into action. If a man was condemned on his thoughts alone, heaven would be a very empty place, because I don\u2019t think there is a man alive that doesn\u2019t have dark thoughts at one time or another.\u201d<\/p>\n Tugging Joe gently he led him over to the relative warmth of the barn and motioned for him to sit down.<\/p>\n \u201cNo man is perfect Joe, and if it comes to it then I am probably just as much to blame, because I must have wished Christine dead several times over those last few months.\u201d Ben waited to see if his words were sinking in before he added. \u201cIf anyone is guilty in all of this it\u2019s me.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe looked up in surprise. \u201cI don\u2019t understand Pa, how can you be guilty?\u201d<\/p>\n Ben looked his son square in the eye. \u201cI failed you son. All my instincts told me that you could never have killed Christine, that you would never commit murder. And yet I allowed them to hang you.\u201d Ben\u2019s eyes were filled with sorrow and he could look at his son no longer. Dropping his chin onto his chest he whispered. \u201cI allowed my pride and false sense of justice to come before my own son.\u201d The last words were spoken with a sob.<\/p>\n Joe stood up and reaching out he pulled his father towards him. In a reversal of roles Joe held Ben in his arms and stroked the back of his head in an effort to give comfort.<\/p>\n \u201cYou could never fail me Pa. You are the best father a son could ever have.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI allowed them to hang you,\u201d Ben persisted.<\/p>\n \u201cYou had no choice Pa and after all, even I thought I was guilty. In order for our community to survive we must live by the law like other men. As it was fate played her hand that day and sent us John Turner.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben was puzzled, \u201cJohn Turner?\u201d<\/p>\n Joe smiled, \u201cYes John Turner, the very inept John Turner.\u201d<\/p>\n Ben still looked bemused and Joe enlightened him, \u201cThe hangman Pa. If it wasn\u2019t for his inexperience there\u2019s no doubt I would be dead and that\u2019s for sure.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cYour brother Adam also played his part don\u2019t forget.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI\u2019ll never forget Pa. I don\u2019t know how I will ever repay Adam for giving me a second chance at life.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThere is one way to repay him Joe. Adam has given you that second chance, just don\u2019t waste it.\u201d<\/p>\n Joe nodded in understanding and with his arm still laid over his father\u2019s shoulder they walked back to the house.<\/p>\n That night Joe lay in bed thinking about his father\u2019s words and when sleep finally overtook his troubled mind he slept the most peaceful sleep he had in months. There were no nightmares to haunt his dreams and the imagined pain in his throat disappeared never to return.<\/p>\n **********************<\/p>\n The following morning Joe awoke feeling different. Going to the window he opened it slightly and drew in a deep breath, as the cold morning air filled his lungs. A breeze circled the room and then floated back out of the window taking with it the dark clouds that had floated above Joe\u2019s head for so long. Looking upwards he was able to witness the sun rising in the sky once more and he felt a new beginning.<\/p>\n The rest of the family were sat at the table when Joe descended the stairs. Ben had discussed with Adam and Hoss his conversation of the night before and anxious looks were cast in Joe\u2019s direction.<\/p>\n Joe sat down and looked at his family and smiled. Ben noticed that for the first time in oh so so long, the smile reached Joe\u2019s eyes and Ben returned his son\u2019s smile with a lightened heart.<\/p>\n \u201cBoy am I hungry,\u201d Joe said, and then shouting out he called, \u201chey Hop Sing, what\u2019s a man to do to get fed around here?\u201d<\/p>\n A delighted Hop Sing came bustling into the room carrying a tray full of bacon, pancakes and eggs.<\/p>\n \u201cPlenty food for Little Joe,\u201d he declared before sliding the tray onto the table and standing back to beam at number three son.<\/p>\n As the family sat back contentedly watching him eat, Joe finally paused and with a mouth full of pancakes asked,<\/p>\n \u201cWell big brother, what\u2019s old granite head got on the agenda for today?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWatch your mouth kid,\u201d Adam was quick to reply.<\/p>\n Old Granite Head looked at the Kid and the Kid looked back. The depth of feeling that passed between them transcended words; they looked deep into each other\u2019s eyes and smiled, then laughed and before long Ben and Hoss joined in. No one really knew what they were laughing at, they didn\u2019t need a reason. The family was whole once more.<\/p>\n The End<\/p>\n
\nChristine stood watching from a corner of the room as the four men entered, and she knew at once who they were. All four of them were very attractive in their own way and she wondered how the women of Virginia City hadn\u2019t snapped them up before now.<\/p>\n